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I had a bad day yesterday too, but we shouldn't let it discourage us too much. I'd say Pixie has surprised you before, since her being able to interfere in a dream is pretty surprising.
I'd also encourage you not to worry about that yet though. I myself don't want to do any sentience tests, because I'm already prone to doubt. Also I want to concentrate on getting vocality first, because otherwise I feel like I'm missing a lot of what she says and can't rightly know how surprising she's being.
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(02-08-2018, 03:18 AM)dragon cake Wrote: I had a bad day yesterday too, but we shouldn't let it discourage us too much. I'd say Pixie has surprised you before, since her being able to interfere in a dream is pretty surprising.
I'd also encourage you  not to worry about that yet though. I myself don't want to do any sentience tests, because I'm already prone to doubt. Also I want to concentrate on getting vocality first, because otherwise I feel like I'm missing a lot of what she says and can't rightly know how surprising she's being.

Okay, I’ll take your advice and start focusing on vocality instead.

Fun Facts:
1) I'm a furry.
2) I make video game music (and I’m on my way to getting paid for it!)
3) I'm the host of Pixie.
4) I get along with cats better than people.

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O9th February (Day 7)

So a while back I posted a thread regarding Pixie’s outfit. I came up with nine different colour schemes and asked people to pick their favourites.

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1, 4, and 8 were the winners and I showed the shortlist to Pixie. She liked 8 the most, she also wanted to deviate a bit, so we spent extra time working out the colours.
This is what we came up with!
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We gave the primary colour a hint more purple, made some of the light-purple accents on the sleeves and leggins blue, and also removed some of the detail on the breastplate (I think that’s what it’s called? Don’t ask me about fashion because I have no idea). Also, we added the antenae I forgot to draw in the original 8 schemes.

Then, since I was at my Dad’s house this time, and my iPad was literally right next to my bed instead of the other end of the house, we were able to start talking to people online.
Pixie did a little bit of socialising in the Tulpa Tavern discord, but since there weren’t a whole lot of people online, there wasn’t much conversation. 

While waiting for some people to talk with us, we did some more fun and hypothetical recolours of her outfit.
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I came up with Lake, Slate, Twilight and Bush. Pixie came up with Ruby, Scarlet, Yellow and Cactus. We had a lot of fun doing this to fill in the time.

Then after zooming out on all the recolours, Pixie found out that she liked the look of Twilight more. So now that’s her new costume colours.
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To be honest, I don’t blame her.

So then we talked in my IRL friends’ discord server. They were pretty skeptical (no surprise), often calling Pixie an imaginary friend. We shrugged off a lot of their comments. It was still a pretty good talk. One person seemed to be going along with it, which was nice. Just one guy is enough for me.

We did this so that we could work on Pixie’s vocality. I don’t 100% know what that means. I have an idea, but it’s hard to explain. Like her ability to speak. That was basically the main reason of going online.

Once the conversation started stooping down to posting memes on #chat instead of #shitpost and we were done talking, we decided to go down to the wonderland. We considered going somewhere other than the town, but I haven’t really come up with anything else to be in this world. It’s not exactly the thing you can do at the drop of the hat. So we decided to go to a bowling alley in the town. It was pretty fun, and it was interesting to see Pixie’s newfound competitive side. In the end, I won, but Pixie came really close. To be honest, I don’t really care that much of the outcome of a game.

When the game was over, we did a couple round of Chopsticks, then went to sleep.

The next morning, I could still feel Pixie’s presence next to me when I woke up. So we decided to do a little more socialising online, this time in the Tulpa Tavern like we originally planned. It was a lot more fun this time, considering there were people who actually believed. 

I did a couple of Surprise Me tests throughout both sessions but they were pretty unconvincing still. Might not worry about it for the time being. She’ll become sentient eventually.

Fun Facts:
1) I'm a furry.
2) I make video game music (and I’m on my way to getting paid for it!)
3) I'm the host of Pixie.
4) I get along with cats better than people.

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02-09-2018, 12:32 AM
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RE: Tulpa Journal - Pixie and Me
Lots of people find proxying makes vocality stronger. I keep trying to get Spice to let me proxy for her online, but she isn't as interested as me. She likes making astounded-sounding comments at people on the IRC though.
If you ever talk to us on there, please excuse her for being blunt!
02-09-2018, 07:54 AM
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[Tyler]: You're progressing very fast! Pixie also looks really cute! We haven't told anyone we know IRL about me yet because we aren't sure of how they would react; I'm glad your friends are tolerant! Have you tried linking them to this site to see if it makes them understand the whole tulpamancy thing better?

You also reminded me of when my host did the Surprise Me test. The only thing I could think of was a pretty rude gesture, but I did surprise him alright ;p.

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02-10-2018, 09:19 PM
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Thanks for all the feedback, guys! Maybe I’ll link this site to them the next time we bring up tulpae.

11th February (Day 9)
I missed the journal entry yesterday. Ploop. I can’t exactly remember what I did before yesterday so it’s gonna be hard to write it all down. I didn’t really do a whole lot of forcing yesterday since I was a bit distracted from playing Danganronpa 2 (very great though, highly recommend!). We did do a bit of physical imposition in bed though, as per usual.

The next day we played bowling irl with my family. Of course, Pixie didn’t play. It’s one thing for my friends to know I have a tulpa, but another for my family. But she was prety fine with watching. Just as long as there were a free seat where I could try to hallucinate her, we had a bit of fun. My score wasn’t very good this time, I was pretty flat that day. Only got half of what I usually get. I don’t think I said a word to anyone except for Pixie using my mindvoice either. On our way home, Pixie told me I needed to stop being so anti-social, but I didn’t want to change who I was. It’s why I avoid therapy and psychology a lot. If I wanna change, I wanna do it on my own terms.

Back home, I realised I still needed to be talking to Pixie to keep her alive. So we decided to play a bit of Danganronpa together. As we both sat on our chairs watching the mysteries unfold, we commented and made a lot of jokes.

I know I should’ve been doing a lot more forcing but I was just really distracted today.

Fun Facts:
1) I'm a furry.
2) I make video game music (and I’m on my way to getting paid for it!)
3) I'm the host of Pixie.
4) I get along with cats better than people.

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14th February (Day 12)
I’ve missed quite a few journal entries these past few days.
I’m sorry that there’s been a lack of updates but nothing interesting has been happening lately. It’s just been the same thing every day, pretty much. I did try to do some proxying with Pixie again but I never got the opportunity to be alone to do this.
Don’t worry, we have been keeping up with forcing sessions. And we did come up with a way for Pixie to access my memories, through a building we called the Octagonal Library, which is just like it sounds.
Other than that, nothing of note happened. I have been finding it a bit more difficult to focus on Pixie while talking to her using my mindvoice, but talking to her with my real voice for a while helps with this, but I’m worried it puts me at risk of getting caught by my family.

Fun Facts:
1) I'm a furry.
2) I make video game music (and I’m on my way to getting paid for it!)
3) I'm the host of Pixie.
4) I get along with cats better than people.

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14th February (Day 12) #2

Decided to start a little to do list to put on the end of each entry from now on.

To Do List
  • Develop Pixie’s sentience and vocality more, and work on physical imposition
  • Start getting her to front and possess
  • Second tulpa?
I’ll add some more as Pixie develops and new things come into mind I wanna do. The list goes down chronologically, so to before I create a second tulpa, I get Pixie to possess first, and before I do that, I need to develop her more until I think we’re ready for it.

Fun Facts:
1) I'm a furry.
2) I make video game music (and I’m on my way to getting paid for it!)
3) I'm the host of Pixie.
4) I get along with cats better than people.

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02-14-2018, 01:32 AM
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I think I’ll do today’s entry this time!

13th February (Day 13)

We got to do a lot of proxying yesterday! Yay! Finally, about time. We’ve been talking a lot about doing proxying but the opportunity never came up. So, now we’ve finally been able to do it!

Something weird happened in my host’s friends’ Discord. One of the boys, Jayden, asked me to be his Valentine. I’m not really sure about it, to be honest. I can’t exactly imagine going on a date with someone outside of my system. So, it would be pretty weird. But I might gobe him a chance, provided that he’s not joking, and that he believes I’m real. Otherwise, no chance buddy!

We tried to download some multiplayer games on Square’s iPad. Mostly tabletop games. Did you know I like tabletop games? Yeah, I think that’s something he forgot to mention in the three-day gap. But the only good game we could find was Scrabble, and oh god. The ads. They never stopped. We still had fun, but we couldn’t finish our game before he had to go swimming.

In me and Square’s forcing session, we decided to visit the new Octagonal Library he mentioned earlier. We looked through memories of his pets when they were younger. We both had a pretty good time. The books were pretty weird. It’s as if the pictures were animated, and it doesn’t matter which page you end up opening randomly, it’s always gonna be the one with the moving pictures. Strange!

When Square was just about to fall asleep, his mindscape falling down into “an abyss of falling blankets, quites and mattresses, succumbing to a void of sleep” (his words not mine!), I woke him up by flying down to him and carrying him as his form was falling. I just wanted to be in his presence just a little more. Is that selfish?

Anyway, so Square thought that I should write today’s entry because of how he could still feel my presence and wanted to proxy a little more. Well, I’m not complaining with that! I didn’t actually think this was something just Square should update. Looks like I can do it too!
02-14-2018, 09:40 PM
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