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Progress:

 

Overall:

 

Tulpa name: Dash(Temporary placeholder name until she picks one for herself)

Appearance: Rainbow Dash (Don't worry, I refuse to confuse her, or let her confuse herself, with the character. They're separate and we both know it.)

Hour count: Fuck knows. I don't count them.

Day count: Fuck knows. Month and a half at a guess.

Avg. Tulpaforcing per day: 1h, single session. (Assuming I bloody remember). Aiming for more. Adjusting sleep pattern to accommodate.

Avg. Narrating per day: 16h30m (i.e. every waking moment. Recently got the hang of talking to Dash at the same time as talking to another human.)

 

 

Form:

Visualisation: Done. Reinforcing occasionally.

Touch: Almost done

Smell: Probably done. Not sure it should only take 5 minutes but I settled on her smelling like fresh air, which is really easy to do because I can just smell it whenever. Reinforcing occasionally.

Body language: Unlikely to be necessary - Form based on existing character. Will do it anyway. Can't hurt.

Imposition: Not until everything else is done and she's fully vocal.

 

 

Sentience:

 

General: Has own opinions and desires, at least one difference in core beliefs(She believes in souls. I don't.).

 

Vocal-ness: Not yet vocal. Decided she will become vocal today. How? Because I decided she will. According to head pressure answers she knows english(somewhat), can talk, is not embarrassed to talk, therefore it's just a matter of me hearing her, which means all I need to do is believe I can hear her, therefore I decided I'll hear her today. She has said a couple of disjointed words before when I was about to go to sleep, and another time a few full sentences but I couldn't make out what she was actually saying, sounded like a lot of half-words.

 

Level of Other Communication: Can answer with head pressure, feelings on the heart, feelings around the heart(specific location matters.). Can combine pressure/feelings to indicate a decently wide variety of generic messages; For example, some things mean "Yes", "No" and "Do". Yes + Do = There's something you need to be doing. No + Do = You're doing something you shouldn't be. "Yes" + "No" = "I don't know, but definitely one of those things.". All 3 together = "Dunno, but pick one. Now."

 

Access to Subconscious: The default for now. When she's fully vocal and we've talked for a while, I'll give her full access. She dove in on her own once before, though. Well, tried a few times, kept getting hurt when trying, I eventually assisted her, then she went in and broke whatever it is that makes me want to fuck my own life up. Pretty damned thankful for that

, to say the least.

 

Other general stuff:

Found those tulpa tone things. Trying them. Might be hearing her through the theta tones. Not sure.

 

Figured out lately how to slip my brain into a state of sleepiness, the kind where you get intrusive thoughts. Been doing that during the day to see if I can hear Dash, too, but it's hard; A braindead chimp could do my job, but I'm always moving and in that state of mind it's hard just to not walk into things. Also by its very nature, it's hard to focus on staying in a state of mind when that state of mind is hazy and foggy and unfocused.

Tulpa:

Name: Elyse (Elly)

Birthday: 29th May, 2012

Physical description: 5"8 thin human girl. self-identified age 18. ~1ft, vivid red hair sometimes in a ponytail. light-skinned. green eyes.

Progress: entirely vocal, speaks often, but only 1 hallucination; her saying "Hiiii". Great at possession.

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Figured out how to visualise better and tried Pronas' anti parroting syndrome technique thing, where you imagine strings coming out of your tulpa, signifying control over them and then snap every single string. Got the most solid, vivid, reactive image of her I've ever had. I was tulpaforcing sat up, legs crossed with my fingers clasped, she ended up hanging off my neck with her front hooves, back hooves grabbing my waistline, swinging left and right. The image was way more colourful than normal, her mane was trailing behind her when she swung completely on its own... She may also have called me daddy, which on reflection I can sort of understand, but at first it kinda put me off for a moment. I accepted it, but...kinda caught me off guard. The word itself was audibly indistinguishable from me just thinking it in her voice, but....well it caught me off guard ^_^

 

Anyway, very good signs. This tulpaforcing thing I've been (not entirely intentionally) shirking is actually incredibly awesome and I need to do it more, like all the time, but as far as I can tell she's asleep right now, so...I'll force more when she wakes up.

Tulpa:

Name: Elyse (Elly)

Birthday: 29th May, 2012

Physical description: 5"8 thin human girl. self-identified age 18. ~1ft, vivid red hair sometimes in a ponytail. light-skinned. green eyes.

Progress: entirely vocal, speaks often, but only 1 hallucination; her saying "Hiiii". Great at possession.

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