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#21
Thanks for the kind words, Tulpa. It was unexpected but much appreciated. I've had some depression with rather harsh downhill and uphill turns for a while but it seems to be getting better, the few months before Christmas are usually a bit tougher so I'll probably blame this and those thoughts on that. But yeah you're probably right.
Desmond - 21st April 2014 (Also has his own account)
L - 5th May 2014
Nevira - 14th December 2014
Misa - 5th December 2015
Roska - 22nd July 2019
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#22
We thought it'd be better if I had some sort of a profile pic to sort of represent me I guess. I don't know if that's even the correct word for it. Host will put up hers also once she gets something done. Sorry for smartphone quality, she says. It is quite shitty.
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#23
15.11.2016 - Day 940

I decided to draw Desmond and L as they were when I first created them and how they are now. L has little change to him but Desmond, oh dear...

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His personality used to resemble that of a grumpy teenager, and he has grown about 15 centimeters since. I'm getting so much motherly feelings about his development that I can barely contain them :'DD I don't think of my tulpas as my children, even though I call them that sometimes. Though it's always more in a joking manner, such as "oh no my babies ;3;" and so on. But still, I can't help it. My baby grew up into a man :C a somewhat childish man but still!

The feeling of Desmond being my best friend, probably ever, continues. I'm thinking of starting imposition with him, though I failed with Nevira, due to not being able to concentrate and life happening. But Desmond is always around, every day. Nevira and Misa spend most of their time doing stuff on their own and kind of living their own lives in the depths of my wonderland nowadays, and L spends his time there but always in easy-to-find places and available whenever I feel like talking to him. I have no idea where to start and I'm kind of bad at reading quides, though I suppose it wouldn't hurt. But I want to ask an opinion first, should I start imposition with visibility, voice, or touch imposition, and why? Does it really matter?
Desmond - 21st April 2014 (Also has his own account)
L - 5th May 2014
Nevira - 14th December 2014
Misa - 5th December 2015
Roska - 22nd July 2019
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#24
Oh, they both lost furry ears.

I think the basic order is presence, vision, voice, touch, taste and smell. Touch, you have to practise both ways. But really you should try them all, and focus on the one that you get the most progress with at first, then move on to the ones you couldn't at first.
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#25
I actually pretty much have smell down already, feel like I've had it for ages now. Taste seems a bit irrelevant and weird in our case to be honest :'D so I'll probably skip that altogether. But I'll work on the rest. Thanks for the reply, I always prefer hearing other people's opinions on things before doing anything.

And yeah, the ears are gone but thank gods they kept their tails Big Grin I'm not much of a furry (if that's the correct term here I don't know) fan but Desmond used to have a fox form like L still has his wolf and I like to have something on him that reminds me of it even though it's long gone by now, and though Desmond doesn't see the tail as a fox tail at all. Random irrelevant ramblings here but whatever, it's my progress report :'D
Desmond - 21st April 2014 (Also has his own account)
L - 5th May 2014
Nevira - 14th December 2014
Misa - 5th December 2015
Roska - 22nd July 2019
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#26
November 20th 2016 - Day 945

I've been working on visual imposition, though just tiny bits every now and then. I was at a friend's birthday party after a long while of not doing anything with any of my friends there so I was very anxious about it. Desmond kept me company there, when nobody else spoke to me. He was moving a lot in the small apartment we were at, doing sit-ups, moonwalking, and whining about a frying pan sticking out of the cabinet. At one point, my friend's boyfriend bent over to pick something from the floor, and happened to stand in front of Desmond in a way that pretty much caused him to unknowingly grind against his crotch. Desmond's grin was a sight to be seen. In any case, while there I tried to focus my eyes on where Desmond was standing, even though I can't see him yet, instead of looking at the things behind him. I actually managed to do so, but just for very short moments at a time, before my eyes kept focusing on the things that I could see through him. I also almost managed to tell my brain that I couldn't see what's behind him at all, but not quite and not for very long.
Desmond - 21st April 2014 (Also has his own account)
L - 5th May 2014
Nevira - 14th December 2014
Misa - 5th December 2015
Roska - 22nd July 2019
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#27
Also, what my host forgot to write, which is almost convenient because it gives me a reason to post here, is that I'll be taking over for now, we're gonna try a full day of possession. It's currently 4 am in where we're at and we haven't slept yet, but she figured it'd be fine for me to step in already, so to speak. I doubt I can do it without breaks because I find this type of possession really tiring, but I'll give it my best shot.

And I'm curious if any other tulpa out there feels any kinds of "side effects" when they take over their host's body completely. Her face gets incredibly itchy when I start with this, like I have to constantly rub it on random spots here and there to make the itch go away. On her head, too, actually.

And I'm not sure if I should call it her face or my face because it sounds kinda weird both ways. I mean it's her face but it's me who's wearing it..? Kinda??
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#28
Good luck on the full day possession.

Everyone feels side effects from possession. Especially full body possession. I mostly get warm feelings and low level tingling. But others get numbness. Or the inability to think, I have even heard. I feel what my host feels for now. I know some tulpas can actually think better when possessing.
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#29
It always seems that my host has difficulties thinking clearly with me "in charge", but I do feel like I'm thinking better. It's apparently really confusing for her, because when I read that message, she saw and felt her eyes follow the text but she couldn't hear what it said in her head like she usually does when she reads. She can't hear my thoughts anymore, she used to when I was much younger.
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#30
Oh man, I want to get to that point badly.
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