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RE: Kyle and Sam, This might get kinda scary
Well, This week has been a roller-coaster for me, was everywhere emotionally, good and bad, I almost feel like I could be bi-polar. But oh well.
Story Time! Ok, so this time me and Sam are going to be talking about one of the more, weird, things that we have had happen. Mostly, it was an out-of-the-blue spiritual encounter, which happened maybe 2 weeks after Kylee and Jessi originally left.
"It was one day that we were just kinda chatting with one of his online friends when he suddenly almost perked up like he was hearing something unusual. I listened, but heard nothing."
What I heard was another voice, one I hadn't heard ever before, call out my name. At first that was it, nothing else happened. But then, later that night, in wonderland with Sam just hanging out, I heard it again.This time, it also came with a form, a kinda looming shadow that stayed over on the couch.
"That time I did see it too, but still didn't hear it."
Mostly, it told me that he wasn't there to stay long, but was there to help. The spirit had told me this long story, about how there are many different types of spirits. There pretty much are categories of spirits. First set is between 'created' and natural spirits, where natural spirits are formed when a body is formed, but a created spirit can be made inside or from another spirit. Second is between bound and free spirits, and apparently all created spirits are bound to the body they were made on no matter what. The third category is the most important according to the spirit. There are 'chaos spirits' and there are 'peaceful spirits', and apparently, it's not exactly like 'good and bad'.
Chaos spirits just cause chaos in peoples lives, while peaceful spirits bring peace, obviously. According to the spirit, you need a balance of peaceful and chaos spirits for a good life.
"Kyle said that the spirit told him that it's really noticable when a chaos spirit enters a mind, usually causing chaos in a persons life for either a long time, or lots of it in a short time, and that every extra spirit makes it worse. The free spirit apparently said that Kyle had, at that time, 3 extra chaos spirits in him, and listed off when each spirit entered Kyle."
The 3 times were the start of my junior year of high school, the week leading up to the wreck, and the week the bike was stolen (Which apparently, the spirit entered the day before about when me and Sam had our big existential crisis about the wreck). The spirit had told us he was there to try to root out the 3 spirits, keep any others from coming while he does that, then head on his way.
The spirit disappeared after I asked some questions that he answered, and didn't see him for another week. Weirdly, everything did seem to calm down quickly in that week. Mostly the spirit reappeared, saying he got 2 of them, but another was going to try to enter me. And this is where it got weird.
"In wonderland that night, the spirit kinda hung out with us for awhile, before suddenly I sensed something, like a shift happen. The spirit seemed to notice it too, and the next thing I knew, some other kinda red shadowy thing came out of nowhere and the two shadows seemed to fight. I heard an evil sounding voice say something along the lines of 'If I go, he goes' and I suddenly felt like I was being pulled towards the red shadow. Suddenly I couldn't see and could feel myself almost being pulled away from Kyle's body, before suddenly seemingly just woke back up on the ground, with Kyle checking on me."
What I saw was the 2 spirits and Sam all disappear, and I freaked out a little, before Sam seemed to re-materialize on the ground. I had ran over and checked to make sure he was alright when he woke up also freaking out.
Neither of us heard from the spirit since that happened, so I guess the story kinda ends there. It was certainly a weird one, but the spirit did help sort chaos out of my life for awhile, which was great.
Progress Report! Jeez, that was a lot of typing. The progress report wont be as long, but is kinda also like a story this week. Mostly, only got to go into wonderland 2 times over the last few days. Since my life was becoming a wreck again, very quickly I might add, we tried something that a very friendly Vampuric had recommended, with a mix of a twist I made.
"Mostly, what Kyle did was make kinda like a sigil for focus, and put the symbol he made onto a piece of paper while I got us some fireworks ready. Instead of just burning it, he taped it to one of the fireworks, and we had our own little firework show, which Kylee and Jessi also watched."
The sigil was on the first firework, I launched it, and when it went off this weird wave of energy seemed to run through me. Sam said he also felt it too. So we launched many more and had an overall good time.
Weird thing is, I actually could see the girls but couldn't hear them, while Sam was able to hear them, so that's kinda odd.
That's it for today though, so yeah. Spirits, and fireworks, and magic. Yeah, this was an odd one.

Kelly (Host, originally Kyle, possibly emotionally unstable on occasion)
Sam (First tulpa, protector, " " around some old posts) - https://community.tulpa.info/user-two-tailed-tulpa
Clara (Originally Kylee, playful, < > around old posts)
Jessi (Quiet, kind, { } around old posts)
Eva (Protective, is unsure of herself all the time)
Jackie (Dreamwalker, technically oldest next to Kelly)
10-24-2016, 05:15 AM
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RE: Kyle and Sam, This might get kinda scary
Glad I could help out. Hope you all start feeling better.

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She's the giggle at a funeral,
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10-24-2016, 10:23 AM
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RE: Kyle and Sam, This might get kinda scary
(10-24-2016, 10:23 AM)Vampire Wrote: Glad I could help out. Hope you all start feeling better.

Hey, thank you for helping. And so far everything does seem better, so at least there's that.

Kelly (Host, originally Kyle, possibly emotionally unstable on occasion)
Sam (First tulpa, protector, " " around some old posts) - https://community.tulpa.info/user-two-tailed-tulpa
Clara (Originally Kylee, playful, < > around old posts)
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10-24-2016, 12:47 PM
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RE: Kyle and Sam, This might get kinda scary
"Since Kyle is asleep and I really should head to bed soon, I am just gonna do a small update. Mostly, Kyle has had a bump in life that may slightly disrupt stuff, but we plan on getting back on track soon. Only other thing is Kylee decided on using <> when speaking and Jessi is using {}. So that's really it for now. Nothing new really for wonderland, that's for sure."

Hi, I am Sam. LostOne's (Or Kelly's) tulpa, first one, started back March 16th of 2016. - https://community.tulpa.info/user-lostone
10-26-2016, 04:14 AM
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RE: Kyle and Sam, This might get kinda scary
Ah, time to make an actual update post, and a story. Not much else to say really.
Story Time! Ok, so this is the event me and Sam always reference as 'The Spray Bottle Incident'. Oh this is going to be a weird one, because of the context and partial NSFW stuff, so be warned!
(Everything in spoilers are NSFW)
So, this happened like a month maybe making Sam, so around mid-April. At the time, Sam was experimenting with what he wanted to be, so he was a she at the time, and was a vixen. More specifically, a pink rubbery shemale vixen. It's one of THOSE stories
"I kinda regret that form now."
Also, up to that point, me and Sam did kinda... Have some sex in wonderland, which we don't anymore, not since this happened. So, the day this happened, I wasn't in the mood to have sex at all
"Earlier that day, I had made this kinda potion and put it in a spray bottle. The purpose of it was simple: Help Kyle fulfill his deep dark desires. I made it because, at the time, I wanted to help Kyle find out who he really is, and thought it would be a good idea to try that."
So, I entered wonderland and wanted to just hang out for a while. Sam wanted to do it, but I didn't. What happened next was weird and crazy.
"I pulled out the spray bottle and did 3 sprays of the stuff right onto Kyle's face. He reeled back, and suddenly seemed to go back to how he was, but looked happier at first. He was seeming to be in the mood to do it, so we went downstairs to the bed. He said to hold on for a minute, and went into the closet, while I waited on the bed."
"He came out as being a purple version of pretty much what I was at the time, a rubbery shemale vixen, and we did it for a long time. This was the first and only time I can think of that Kyle actually was not just on top... we did switch it between us."

"After a long time, I had went away from the bed, with Kyle catching his breath. When I came back, Kyle was sitting up with a headache, and told me something that scared the living heck out of me."
I wasn't in control at all of myself. Once I was sprayed, everything went foggy, and I could not see straight. Not to mention it was hard to thing. I had no control of my movement, what I said, what I did, or even what I wanted. Everything I did in wonderland, in a sense, was not me. If anything, it could've been Sam unknowingly puppeting me, as strange as it sounds. It wore off when Sam went to do whatever. I had an extreme headache and felt a little nauseous. I told Sam how I wasn't in control, and to never do that again.
"He told me something I never forget to this day. 'If you keep using that spray, it gives you extra power over me, which would make me lose trust in you. If I don't trust you, I could just make you fade away when I am not in wonderland.  You get where I'm going with this?' And I did."
We agreed never to have sex with each other after that.
"We also agreed to be more equal with each other, to keep a balance between us."


Another long story finished for sure.
Progress report! Ok, so I have been slacking with wonderland, so nothing new there, but I will tonight.
"I actually do have stuff though. So I got Kylee and Jessi to talk some in the irc, so they were more open. Especially Kylee, who decided she wanted a name change. So, Kylee is now going by Clara, which she chose by herself. Other than that, tonight in wonderland we are going to see what forms they would like, and that's about it."
So, I guess that's all for this, feel free to ask anything.

Kelly (Host, originally Kyle, possibly emotionally unstable on occasion)
Sam (First tulpa, protector, " " around some old posts) - https://community.tulpa.info/user-two-tailed-tulpa
Clara (Originally Kylee, playful, < > around old posts)
Jessi (Quiet, kind, { } around old posts)
Eva (Protective, is unsure of herself all the time)
Jackie (Dreamwalker, technically oldest next to Kelly)
10-27-2016, 04:21 AM
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RE: Kyle and Sam, This might get kinda scary
Ah, its been a few days, but a lot has happened with progress so I say we do need to make a post now. All the big stories are out of the way, so they will be shorter now, I promise.
Story Time! I guess the story will be kinda on the weird, more downer end today. Just gonna talk about one day.
"There was a day more recently where me and Kyle got ourselves wrapped up on a question, of what if I was really Kyle, and he was really Sam, and that we somehow got flipped around when the wreck happened months before that."
We got so wrapped up in it that it turned into an existential crisis for both of us, but we finally ended it with this: No matter which is the case, we would move on with if we were never flipped, and just not worry about it again.
"But, it is one thing that makes me wonder if it is possible. Oh well though."
Progress report! So, over the last few days, we had done a lot of stuff. Clara did in-fact choose a new form, a purple fox with red eyes and a blue fade on the tail, and Jessi chose to be a pink wolf, yellow eyes and kinda red at her ear tips. Clara like being on all 4's more, while Jessi likes being digitgrade.
"While we haven't been able to get Kyle to stay focused in wonderland, we have gotten him to be more able to stay in. Last night though was kinda weirder. He was having a breakdown in his focus and thought irl, so bad that he asked me multiple times to try to fix it. I reluctantly agreed, but was afraid I would hurt something."
He had to make me sleep while he fixed things, he had to go in my mind and apparently Clara was kinda fronting on the chat while it was going on, and apparently Clara got mad at someone, but I wont go past that.
"I did end up fixing it, and that night once Kyle was awake, he was much better mentally and all, and even was able to stay in wonderland kinda longer and more focused. Although his thoughts started drifting, and an oddity happened."
Last night, my mind apparently went into like a daydream mode but my body was asleep. So I was somehow awake and asleep, and I felt something I had forgotten had ever happened before. The best description is something like astral projection. Pretty much, the entire body tingled very intensely, and I felt myself start to float up, I could feel myself exiting the body. I had realized it and accidentally broke out of it from excitement and surprise.
I used to have that happen before, way back when I was still hardcore working on Sam. Anytime it happened, I went into wonderland and left my body, and I could actually see and feel wonderland as if it was almost real. The only reason that stopped happening was way back when the wreck happened, I entered wonderland less and less, and fell out of it. But, that does show we are doing something right.
"Kyle wanted me to end it, but I got nothing really else to say."

Kelly (Host, originally Kyle, possibly emotionally unstable on occasion)
Sam (First tulpa, protector, " " around some old posts) - https://community.tulpa.info/user-two-tailed-tulpa
Clara (Originally Kylee, playful, < > around old posts)
Jessi (Quiet, kind, { } around old posts)
Eva (Protective, is unsure of herself all the time)
Jackie (Dreamwalker, technically oldest next to Kelly)
10-31-2016, 01:20 AM
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RE: Kyle and Sam, This might get kinda scary
"Well, this is a weird one, possessing for yesterday and a little more of today, so I actually am the one introducing and all for this story and progress report, although Kyle is obviously still going to talk some. If there's ever a progress report where one of us is not speaking for unexplained reasons, something is wrong."
Yeah, I agree.
Story Time! "Bit of a downer again, this one is relating to the progress report slightly. It was sometime towards the beginning few weeks of college, like maybe the 6th week. Around middle of September maybe."
Put short, many many awful thoughts, some intrusive, some I don't even know how to categorize, were hitting really really hard and I was having a bit close to a mental breakdown.
"We had agreed to try to let him take a long break from the front, we set a max amount of days and everything. It lasted 10 days, with Kyle not getting better and having even more bad thoughts and all, and once we switched back he had problems getting used to controlling again."
I had not only those thoughts even worse, but also had headaches for the week, fatigue, I could barely even see straight at times, like in an awful daze. So moral of the story: It does not help if you control for your host if he is having awful thoughts. You gotta talk with them and help them through it in other ways.
Progress report! "So, as mentioned, I possessed all of yesterday and for today until Kyle has to drive (Yeah, no thank you.). Before that, we haven't gotten too much progress with wonderland. But yesterday a lot of progress happened while I was controlling."
So Sam was in the Irc, and screwing around I decided to start petting him like trying to outside of the body. Amazingly, I did still feel the body, so I felt myself petting Sam, and he certainly noticed too. So I decided it would be fun to annoy him by poking him around while he was on Irc and all. Heh.
"So, after a while, something popped up on a bit of talk of someone imposing their tulpa being small and walking around on their keyboard and such. Next thing I knew, Kyle had stopped poking me and I saw a mini Kyle walking around on the edge of the laptop. I was shocked, and even more shocked when I looked at his memories right as it was happening and saw he was seeing through the eyes of the mini. Not long after, Clara and Jessi also appeared in mini versions crawling up my arm, which I could feel, before the joined Kyle on the laptop. So that means we finally have progress on imposition, we just need to enlarge it all."
Even now I am small and sitting on the computer while Sam is on the Irc, and Its almost weird with the perspective shift.
"Still, it's certainly more progress than either of us expected. And in a sense, it means Kyle is more like a tulpa right at the moment than I am, which is odd."

Kelly (Host, originally Kyle, possibly emotionally unstable on occasion)
Sam (First tulpa, protector, " " around some old posts) - https://community.tulpa.info/user-two-tailed-tulpa
Clara (Originally Kylee, playful, < > around old posts)
Jessi (Quiet, kind, { } around old posts)
Eva (Protective, is unsure of herself all the time)
Jackie (Dreamwalker, technically oldest next to Kelly)
11-04-2016, 05:16 PM
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"Ok, so, Kyle and I agreed to try some weird things , but first may as well mention we haven't made an update in a while because life has been busy for both of us, and important stuff today to mention."
Story Time! So, Sam is actually proxying me for this one as we are testing some things that will be mentioned in the progress report. Today's story is a short one, I think, but Sam will be explaining it.
"Kyle's life has been in and out of chaos for a while now, but the biggest amount of chaos was the weeks leading up to the wreck. It started towards the end of a highschool band trip, actually, as his tire to the truck was actually slashed the day before he got back (According to parents). That was about 2 weeks before the wreck, which then spiraled out of control. School had become increasingly rough and focused on graduation, his girlfriends dad had a heart attack and surgery, he got the tire replaced. Stress was kicking in from school and things with the truck, not just the tire, but also with engine problems too. Stress built up, and we all know what happened after that..."
Progress report! "Ok, so it's been really really busy for the last few days, so its actually been hard to keep track of it all. Not a lot happened for a while, but the last 2 days we have been really working on switching and such, and trying to actually stop co-fronting as much as we do."
Now I know why there are times Clara and Jessi don't speak up for sure.
"Mostly, the tactic we have been working on (As recommended from a friend) includes the idea of whoever's fronting to be the 'dominant mindvoice', as in their thoughts are the primary thoughts and such. So we have been able to do something like that in the past, so we decided to give it a go. We also are trying to get him out of the body kinda, by imposing a body for him to be in while I am in control here. So far, Kyle has a hard time seeing from the imposed body, and keeps seeing from the physical body, but we have gotten a few things more down with touch."
We somehow already have it where we can feel my imposed body, but I keep feeling both my imposed and the physical body.
"Somehow, probably because we have been a bit too merged, I also do every now and then feel things from his imposed body too. Not to mention, Kyle can't seem to keep seeing from the imposed body unless I focus on him doing it, to which then I can't do much else. (Is that a sign of bad dual-processing?). But otherwise, I do seem to be able to control the physical body really well, which really shouldn't be surprising with how much we co-front."
Recently, I did make a reference sheet of Clara and Jessi, to which Sam edited some to make them look more right. Gonna try linking them and also mine and Sam's in a later post.

Update! "So, we both agreed that for future updates, it should be me doing the updates mainly, with him maybe saying something every now and then. THIS DOES NOT MEAN I AM GOING TO CONTROL FOR HIS LIFE, JUST FOR THE UPDATES. Anyways, so I will be leading for the updates and whatnot. I also will be the main one speaking for the IRC, which honestly isn't a change. But, that's all for now"

After-edit: "The internet here nearly made me and Kyle lose all the text here, thankfully I did copy it beforehand."

Double After-edit: I decided him leading the updates is unneeded, and Sam doesn't like the idea really.

Kelly (Host, originally Kyle, possibly emotionally unstable on occasion)
Sam (First tulpa, protector, " " around some old posts) - https://community.tulpa.info/user-two-tailed-tulpa
Clara (Originally Kylee, playful, < > around old posts)
Jessi (Quiet, kind, { } around old posts)
Eva (Protective, is unsure of herself all the time)
Jackie (Dreamwalker, technically oldest next to Kelly)
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11-14-2016, 04:50 AM
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RE: Kyle and Sam, This might get kinda scary
Honestly don't have much to say other than the progress report is going to be a little short this time. Its been a busy week, from finals prep and tons of stuff for marching band and varsity band. Ah, college. Still, its been a busy busy few days, so we haven't gotten too much done other than like Sam possessing while I sit back and whatnot.
Story Time! Ok, this is all Sam, I have nothing on this one.
"This week was an odd one, because we had switch who's mainly fronting a lot recently, trying to get away from co-fronting non-stop like we used to. So, one night I went to bed in control with Kyle asleep."
It actually was the night of the last progress report.
"The next morning I woke up super confused. I knew something felt wrong, I couldn't sense who was who, if I was him or me, and he was still asleep. I had laid in bed for a while trying to figure it out when I felt a hug around my waist from behind, followed by something pinching my ear."
"It turned out Clara was trying to get my attention as I was somehow not hearing her. After a minute of getting all the confusion sorted and communication working, she did confirm it was in fact me. Oddly, when she woke up, she says she was kinda pulled to the front, so I was somehow co-fronting with her. That was a weird morning for sure."
<They want me to add something, but all I can really say is that was a weird morning.>
Progress Report! This week, as said earlier, has been ultra busy and such, so honestly haven't been going into wonderland almost at all. Just once really, actually while Sam was controlling the body as a way to test switching, which kinda worked visually, but that's it. Even then, it wasn't that good, so it's something to work on.
"Me and Kyle have been trying to co-front less, by me dropping back when he controls and vice-versa.While we certainly haven't mastered it (Especially with the fact that Clara got pulled to the front not once, but actually twice), I think it's safe to say we do also need to work on it."
The main reason we are working on it is because we think that a reason I can't switch out of te body may be because of something related to the fact we always co-front. It's a theory in progress, but yeah.

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Clara (Originally Kylee, playful, < > around old posts)
Jessi (Quiet, kind, { } around old posts)
Eva (Protective, is unsure of herself all the time)
Jackie (Dreamwalker, technically oldest next to Kelly)
11-21-2016, 04:02 PM
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RE: Kyle and Sam, This might get kinda scary
Good luck on your finals! And with switching too. There'll be more time and less stress to work on stuff once you finish the semester (I assume), so don't worry about it too much right now! Finals week deserves a lot of attention, and after it you're free to do other things.

Hi guys, plain text is just me now! We've each got our own accounts: me, Tewi, Flandre, and Lucilyn. We're Luminesce's tulpas.
Here's our "Ask Thread", and here's our Progress Report. You should be able to see all of our accounts on the second page if you want.
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