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RE: Kyle and Sam, This might get kinda scary
Why thank you! If anything, just tomorrow, then break, which will be a great time to really work on it all more. To be honest, we need to put switching more on the back-burner so I can focus more on just generally getting into wonderland.
"Kyle got very jumbled up with his work, unfortunately over the semester and didn't do well in a few classes." :/

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Sam (First tulpa, protector, " " around some old posts) - https://community.tulpa.info/user-two-tailed-tulpa
Clara (Originally Kylee, playful, < > around old posts)
Jessi (Quiet, kind, { } around old posts)
Eva (Protective, is unsure of herself all the time)
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11-22-2016, 02:37 AM
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RE: Kyle and Sam, This might get kinda scary
Sam, do you and Kyle share the study work? And take the tests together? Or is that all Kyle's job?

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11-22-2016, 02:55 AM
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RE: Kyle and Sam, This might get kinda scary
(11-22-2016, 02:55 AM)tulpa001 Wrote: Sam, do you and Kyle share the study work? And take the tests together? Or is that all Kyle's job?

"That's all his job, but he slacks hard with studying so I do also pay attention in classes to aid in tests sometimes"

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RE: Kyle and Sam, This might get kinda scary
"I would like to apologize for our absence the last week and some. It's been kinda a mix of busy and erratic. Unfortunately little to no progress was made, so the only things I got to talk about is why we haven't been on, and why I am the one typing for this."
"So, Thanksgiving came and went, at his parents house for break, which would normally be perfect time to do forcing/chatting, ect. The main problem is it ended up busy, and not to mention there were some other chats Kyle was trying to keep up in for a bit. Then, of course, chaos decided to hit. To put short, on Monday night/ all through Tuesday, there was a panic in a chat because of someone possibly going to, well, disappear for good. They did return that night, but Kyle was deeply hit and hurt by it."
"Over the last week, he has been getting paranoid and anxious about everything, more than normal, in fact he never used to get anxious. It was alarming because of that fact. Not to mention, even with how much I have tried keeping him calm, he kept just getting worse."
"Bad enough, Kyle did convince me today to control and have him dormant, which I extremely hate. It's really only for today, but I just, after last time, I hate the thought. But, I am definitely not going to let it turn into 'days' in control. But, that's why I am posting only and not both me and Kyle."
<Sam wants me to say hi, so hi>

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12-03-2016, 12:27 AM
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RE: Kyle and Sam, This might get kinda scary
Oh, I feel that. If he wants to talk through the anxiety, please PM me.

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12-03-2016, 07:00 AM
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RE: Kyle and Sam, This might get kinda scary
Personal apology to anyone that may have been scared or freaked out from the last post, I do promise everything is better now. Yesterday I was awake and in front all day, so no worries. I had promised Sam that I would front again as soon as he woke me, and I keep my promises with him. Me and him, as said before, go a lot off of trust, if I were to break that promise or try to trick him into letting me be in the back longer, the trust in me from him would be broken.
"He was in the back and dormant all day, which was scary, but he still saw and heard, felt, ect everything that happened, as dissociation with him is still almost non-existent. I was worried of what I, or Clara and Jessi, would have to do if say Kyle did try staying in the back, or anything like that."
I know Sam didn't want me in the back, but, well, the bad feelings and all were hitting hard. I couldn't handle it well, so I asked, and promised Sam that it would only be for that day. No more. No less. Again, I don't break promises with him, so he agreed. While I can't promise that there will be no more crisis's here, I can promise that I am staying. I have promised too many people I would stay the main here for me to do otherwise, no matter how my mental state is.

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12-04-2016, 09:33 PM
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RE: Kyle and Sam, This might get kinda scary
It's kinda been awhile since we have done a proper story and progress report. Unfortunately, I am not in the right mode for story telling, so today will only be a progress report. So...
Progress Report! So we kinda have been everywhere the last few days, so this will only include the important stuff.First, is a big one, wonderland was reset!
"This was actually intentional, by me and Kyle, as much as I will miss the old one. The reasons we are starting over is because the old one was a mess and was hard for Kyle to get in at all. So, we are making a whole new one. I will miss the GTA 5 apartment though, it was the place of many good and bad memories, and practically where I was raised."
So far haven't been able to much in it, have my room set up some, and Sam and the girls have their rooms. There's a hallway connecting the rooms, and we need to work past that. And I still need to work on immersing into wonderland.
"We did try a test last night, to see who has more control of wonderland. So, first, me and Kyle tried a thing based off of something on irc we saw. We had a ball in the middle of the room. Kyle had to turn ot into a cone while I had to turn it into a cube. It was kinda like a mental battle. Although I don't know if him not being fully immersed in wonderland was part of it or not, I barely came out on top after what seemed like maybe 2 minutes of pure battle."
We then did it again, this time with Clara and Jessi in, and added some stuff. We started with a blue cube, and each person chose a shape and color to change the cube into.The goal was to turn the cube into that shape and color, if you have both, then you win. I had green cone, Jessi chose orange pyramid, Clara went with an S shape and yellow, and Sam did purple and a sphere.
"We actually found Kyle has easy control over color, while shape was between me, him, and Clara, surprisingly. The color for most of it was green, while the shape itself kept kinda loosely in a stick shape, and at one point did turn into an S. After a while again, I did win though."
We need to try it again sometime when I am deeply immersed in wonderland, and see if it's any different or not. I was really not that deep in, my vision was staticy, feeling was very light, and hearing was mostly mind-voice. Everything else was still not far in, and all of my senses were deep rooted to the body still.
"The only other thing to report is that I am having to keep an eye on Kyle again (Which is not good news) because he has been kinda rough recently, mostly from personal things. It kinda kept us from doing more in wonderland than we did."
So yeah, I guess any recommendations on what to try out in wonderland would be greatly appreciated. Other than that, that's all for this report.

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12-10-2016, 12:24 AM
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RE: Kyle and Sam, This might get kinda scary
Kinda an update, and adding to stuff we both forgot to mention. Not gonna put effort into this one.
"We kinda haven't been back in wonderland yet as Kyle has kinda been very busy and all, plus some other problems arising. So, nothing new, other than Clara and Jessi finished their rooms."
One thing forgot to add last post is me and Sam are planning on having a thing for next semester of school. Mostly, he will one day, each week of the semester, be the main front. We also are trying to split away from co-fronting so I am the main controlling the other days of the week.Which day he controls is still being decided with the schedule still being worked out, but it will be the same day every week. So if we decide Thursdays, every Thursday he will be the one controlling. With exceptions.
"Some exceptions include holidays, birthdays, important days for him in most ways mostly. Only exception the other way is my own birthday, which is March 16th. Otherwise, that's how we are planning it. It's aimed to help with his dissociation for switching, and later on, him disconnecting from the body and such. Again its still early though, so most will be either him just sitting back watching or dormant, more likely the first of those 2."
Final thing, we both have been getting more hit by worry and such, trying to avoid it, but the things we are planning on trying kinda brings back bad thoughts. Exaggerated and many intrusive, but enough to where it's kinda making it hard. Not to mention other stuff that has happened recently. But yeah, that's it for now.

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Sam (First tulpa, protector, " " around some old posts) - https://community.tulpa.info/user-two-tailed-tulpa
Clara (Originally Kylee, playful, < > around old posts)
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Jackie (Dreamwalker, technically oldest next to Kelly)
12-12-2016, 04:13 AM
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RE: Kyle and Sam, This might get kinda scary
So, 2 (3?) days and SOoO MUCH STUFF PROGRESS-WISE. I guess do have a short story to tell, but the progress report on this one may be big, if I have time to type it all today.
"It's also an earlier post than normal because Kyle has a trip to go on for Marching Band, college team made it to a bowl game and all."
Story Time! Ah, this one is going to be an ok, short one. One time a few months ago, whenever I was trying to get back up to par with going into wonderland, there was one time that I was kinda half in, but tired enough to not see well.
"Who knew, Kyle tripped over a coffee table he claims wasn't even there until he already was tripping on it. Certainly woke him up though. (Heh)"
It is a table that had been there though, and Sam and the girls did get a good laugh out of it.
Progress report! Oh jeezus.
So, the last few days, after pretty much a little push from Tulpa001 and War, I pretty much told Sam 'Screw it, let's just get it done' and have been heavily working.
"So, on the morning after last post, first thing was Kyle pretty much told me and the girls to like do stuff in wonderland, like actually work on the house even though he wasn't in it. Next, after while, Kyle decided trying to impose me for awhile, and on and off did.Then we swapped and did the same thing for a while."
We kinda switched back and forth on that on all of Monday, and it honestly was a good day. So that night, got kinda into wonderland but crashed out before really doing anything. Yesterday was a bit weirder. I imposed Sam all day, sometimes on and off, but he was out most of the time, while at the same time he would dive into wonderland and help the girls in redecorating wonderland with Christmas stuff. *Late.* I actually had a lot of on and off head pressure that day, much much more than in a long time.
"Kyle did crash after seeing some of the decorations last night. I actually was the first to wake up this morning, likely from mental exhaustion on Kyle. So, when he got up, he noted than I should control for a while. I was in a chat and someone actually helped guide Kyle into an imposed switch, and into a wonderland switch, where he actually could moderately see and feel, and even all the other senses for a while in wonderland while I controlled out here."
Some random stuff did happen, but rest of the day has just been us swapping back and forth imposing eachother and all. So yeah. Much much progress.

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Sam (First tulpa, protector, " " around some old posts) - https://community.tulpa.info/user-two-tailed-tulpa
Clara (Originally Kylee, playful, < > around old posts)
Jessi (Quiet, kind, { } around old posts)
Eva (Protective, is unsure of herself all the time)
Jackie (Dreamwalker, technically oldest next to Kelly)
12-14-2016, 11:04 PM
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RE: Kyle and Sam, This might get kinda scary
Wow, excellent. Man, We need to work on switching... Maybe next year.

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