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I'm doing this so I might as well make a progress report to look back on later.

Anyway, here goes:

  • 26/11/15 - After a long time of pondering I decide to make a tulpa. I start forcing (at least I think it was forcing) and create myself a mindscape. I visualised a human figure which I "gave" personality traits and I give it the temporary name Emma. (it's true how it's hard to visualise a face)
  • 27/11/15 - I do some more active forcing in the morning, I kind of bring the human figure to a beach that seems to be in my mindscape and I talk to her/him them and parrot answers. It seems to be able to move independently without me giving it any focus.
  • 27/11/15 - I passive force throughout the day and just explain random aspects of life or objects to my tulpa. Later when I get home I decide that I want to let my tulpa pick it's own form and personality. So I symbolised me taking what I've given as traits leaving the tulpa and then gave it the key to allow it to fully take control of this. I also reverted it into a light orb to remove the form I[/b][/php][/code] imposed on it. Later I then also showed him three doors, each symbolising something I could allow or deny access to (Memories, forgotten memories and my subconscious). I give him the key to all three, if I want a tulpa I want him to know me. Even the things I'd hide from others. I was also surprised when in a later forcing session I went to the beach again and it seemed that the tulpa took on a form of a black guy. Won't deny this surprised me as I wasn't expecting that at all. I've named him Derek for now, he can change it later when he can communicate.

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  • 28/11/15 - Did some active forcing and at some point a name popped into my head. I asked my tulpa if he liked it and I got hit by a happy emotion feeling thing. I find this hard to believe and am honestly a little startled as everything I've read indicates that first contact takes a long time. Even though this time varies it seems seriously to fast..
    And now I'm worried it was real and that my skepticism is just going to slow things down. :/

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Wow, that's great! Do you create stories? Because it seems creative people like them have much more ease creating a tulpa. I wish the best for you and Derek/Emma/.. yeah...

 

Also, giving access to the subconscious so early on might cause problems. I heard of a case where someone did that and the tulpa had some anxiety due to the pressure of some scary unconscious thoughts. Since tulpas are a completely subjective experience, this probably won't happen in your case, but it's something to keep in mind if something similar occurs.

 

Keep up the good work!

 

I'm not going to listen to you guys since you are all probably just talking to yourself and don't really have a tulpa like me.

 

 

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  • 28/11/15 - Did some more active forcing and decided to restrict access to my subconscious after doing some reading and it was suggested it's best to wait. Worked a bit on my wonderland and did some narration. Nothing special in particular.
  • 29/11/15 - Did some more visualisation today and worked on stuff like feeling and seeing my tulpa's form in my mindscape. I find that I don't really struggle to visualise stuff, anything but the face and movement seems to go quite well. Also did some short imposition, basically felt like I'm just imagining someone's near me but not seeing anything at all. Guess that will change with time.
    Then I went over the traits I've seen emerge so far to highlight them as to work on personality.
    Also built a house with the tulpa in my mindscape, whether I was puppeting or not I don't know so I've gotten into the habit of apologing in advance if I accidentally parrot/puppet. Also said he could scold me all he wishes when he can communicate clearly and is sentient.

 

What you posted is exactly what I found after reading up stuff a bit more.


I don't create stories, I more think of things to do in my mindscape with my tulpa. It surprising how little one can think up in a place you are effectively God. This whole thing is training my creativity it seems as a result.

Ill try creating a story, see how that works out. Thanks for the advice!

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I start forcing (at least I think it was forcing)

 

Reisen: It's all forcing, don't worry! Anything you do with your tulpa is forcing, because it's contributing to their existence in your mind. So just talking to them, or working on visualizing them, or doing stuff with them in the wonderland, it's all forcing.

 

Remember that just because you don't want to "limit" your tulpa doesn't mean you have to accept everything that randomly happens with them in your mind. Tulpas are free to change things once they're developed, sentient and autonomous. They aren't stuck with a form or name or anything because of what it was before. So I recommend you think of them with a form you're comfortable with, because most of the time tulpas don't even have a problem with their given form. None of us did, nor our names. I think people worry too much about restricting their tulpas' free will when said tulpas are barely even tulpas yet. There'll be time to change everything later, so for now you should just do what seems good to you.

 

Verification through positive feelings is always good, too. Just remember, a new undeveloped tulpa doesn't necessarily know what it wants so early on. It's very difficult to differentiate between invasive thoughts and "spontaneous changes chosen by the tulpa." Just get in the habit of asking how they feel about things, maybe. Don't worry about accidental puppetting, either, it's all a part of the process. No tulpas ever complain about you accidentally moving them around early in their development. Just don't worry and let things happen. You won't accidentally mess up your progress or anything, because it's all in your head and you have control over the way things are, as long as you remember you do.

 

Good luck!

Hi guys, plain text is just me now! We've each got our own accounts: me, Tewi, Flandre, and Lucilyn. We're Luminesce's tulpas.

Here's our "Ask Thread", and here's our Progress Report (You should be able to see all of our accounts on the second page if you want)

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  • 30/11/15 - Didn't do much today as it was a stupidly busy day. I kept reminding myself of my tulpa and trying to passive force whenever I could though and while commuting home I did some active forcing (looking like I'm sleeping to others on the train). Anyway, I'm looking for for what is to come.

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  • 1/12/15 - So I did some more forcing today and I feel like I've reached a point as if there's something there. It's hard to explain, I can just kind of feel that something is there yet I can't quite grasp it yet nor interact.
    What also happened later is that the line "you made me" popped into my head, and it's driving me nuts. I've been at this way to short for something like that is what I feel, and further contact resulted in nothing so it could just have been something else. But then I'm paranoid that because I don't expect it to be genuine I'm blocking some highly unlikely actual response. I don't know, guess I'll just continue doing what I am so far.

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  • 2/12/2015 - Tried self-hypnosis for the first time today, worked pretty well as I was able to force with a clearer mind. Don't honestly kind if it's a self fulfilling prophecy type thing (Expect it to work thus it works much like a placebo) as the effects are useful to me.
  • 3/12/15 - Starting off with self hypnosis and then followed by a 5 hours (I have too much time on my hands) forcing session I think I may have gotten my first response I'm not doubting. I got some mangled/random words/sounds which I believe came from my tulpa. Then proceeding to work with this I'm able to make out short and simple speech. I can only recognise them while focused on my tulpa and I'm far from done so I'm going to be working on vocality and independence for a while. I'm pretty darn happy with the results so far, this is amazing. 30 or so hours already and counting!

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