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I finally made one of these.
-sigh-

Okay
Up until now~
1 Tulpa, spice, 2 months old, hardly ever speaks (I'm worried)
I'm just waiting for her to talk or for me to hear her to move onto more in depth touch.
My forcing schedule is patchy. About 1-2 hours a day (I'm busy) and passive whenever I'm bored.


There we go.
02-28-2013, 08:01 AM
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RE: Spice and hosts' magical adventures
So. Yesterday I was pent up about puppeting because I was so used to doing it with my servitor Sebastian.
Anywho, I was in wonderland, thinking of a way to stop me from having all these doubts.
Basically I was standing in front of spice, and I imagined all these strings (that looked like poorly rendered 3D model strings, but they were big for some reason) and then imagined a pair of scissors. I cut the strings that kept us tied together with my rather large scissors, and said to both Spice and myself: "From here on out, we're two different people, and I won't puppet anymore."

I had a proud.
03-01-2013, 03:19 AM
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RE: Spice and hosts' magical adventures
I swear I'm actually more active than this blog. this is just for the big stuff.

'Kay so let's have a bit of a rundown here
All up I've done 2-3 hours of work on possession, and I'm pretty proud of the results. My finger moved and my hand twitches like crazy, at this rate we'll be typing before hearing.
Anywho~
I've managed to calm my mood swings from the rush of emotions I'm not used to. It's getting easier.

OH AND GREAT NEWS! :3 I've been hearing voices in my head for the past few days!! (wowie)
They're mainly lines from shows
Idgaf if it's not really a great conversation, I'm hearing something!

Thats about it
I'll update again in a few days just to be punctual. ~

[edit]
Okay, a lot has happened these past few days. I totally forgot >.<!
Spice can give me headaches now
At least, I'm pretty sure it's her trying to keep her on my mind, like I asked her to. If I tune out or stay quiet for a while, BAYUM, headache!
It's hard explaining to people why I look so happy about a headache
eh
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03-06-2013, 08:03 AM
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RE: Spice and hosts' magical adventures
No more headaches today, however I did get a few more voices.
My mind wasn't on the right trac at all, due to me missing out on morning meditation. It's hard to find half an hour when you have five minutes to get ready
*sigh*
Trying more possession tonight, 11-12 pm has been worked out as 'possession time' for me. It's when I feel most up to it, generally.
Anywho, I should report when there is actually something to talk about. I'll just go now
03-07-2013, 10:28 AM
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Slowed on possession practice, stopped active forcing entirely until I feel better about it again.
Now the odd things..
Just as Iwas getting better at narration,a feeling of emptiness and guilt has made me stop almost entirely during the day. I'm getting back to it though.

Now for the scary shit. Scary to me,anyway. I'm hallucinating more and becoming more paranoid.
This weekend I was on a bus on the phone to my girlfriend, and she told me she was nearby where I was. I thought I saw a girl be hit by my bus. It was kinda in the middle of the bus, physically VERY improbable, and I didn't see much else. Somehow I knew it was a girl, and fora span of about a second I was frightened to death.
I'm also sleeping less at night and more during the day. I'm more paranoid of pretty much everything too. Slowly, slowly.
fuck my life
So...

Should I be worried about the hallucinations? or is it a side effect of little normal sleep patterns and imposition practice? Is it spice trying to say something?
03-18-2013, 02:50 PM
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WOW~ I was depressed in the last update!
Anywho~ things are much better now~!

I'm actively forcing more often plus a bunch of other cool things.

>Vivid dreams!
Especially when I'm half asleep, woo!

>Spice spoke again!
We're getting there, she's said a few things I can't really remember, most notably 'I am not a cat!' which she randomly insisted I knew after a vivid guided visualization. YAY!

On the whole, we're very very slow at this, having reached four months already .A.!
But even if we're slow we're still going. I just need to step things up a notch!
04-05-2013, 02:18 PM
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I have a tardis in my wonderland now!

Also I've decided to let the idea of tulpa die down between my friends, save for one who kind of teases me about it

He be super jellyfish though.

I'll keep it short and sweet considering no one actually reads this.

Guided visualisation worked for a response last time, maybe it will now

four months in and we still aren't talking
what am doing wrong? D:


ah well; I still have someone to talk to whenever even if it's one sided :P
04-09-2013, 01:31 PM
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Only you can know that, and only after some serious soul-searching.
04-09-2013, 01:45 PM
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04-11-2013, 06:29 PM
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RE: Spice and hosts' magical adventures
Spice and I can talk to each other a little if I really try now.. Problem is.. I can't remember what she says! :C!
Anywho if Insit down and put a speaker up to my ear (like wonderland) and a microphone to spice I can hear her
Just not well
04-26-2013, 07:32 AM
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