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The Creation of Eve


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Hello, let me start out by giving some background info about myself. I'm 20 years old, a college student, a recovering alcoholic/drug addict, I have some background in breathe-centric mindfulness meditation, and I have decided to go about creating a tulpa. I suffer from mental illness, but not of the psychosis inducing variety. I don't feel my mental illness is to the point where it will interfere with the tulpa creation process. I have read many guides on the matter, and have a decent knowledge pool at this point. The process fascinates me, as does the ongoing philosophical debate regarding tulpa nature.

 

I have decided to make a tulpa for therapeutic, mind exploration, companionship, waifu, and self-improvement purposes. I guess you could say I like all the different aspects of the concept, and am motivated by all of them. I am in a place where I am getting my life together, and have had difficult patches; but at the end of the day I am trending towards progress. I feel like more companionship, and a positive one at that, would be a trans-formative force in my life right now. Since meditation helps the process, it's also a good excuse to get into gear with my meditation practice.

 

I will be using passive forcing, as well as narration. Last time I took a crack at it I wasn't even meditating, and made progress relatively fast. I feel like I will make great strides, seeing that I have a more clear concentrated mind due to sobriety and meditation. I am kind of using snippets from various guides as I go, considering my progress last time I am not too concerned. My weak point is visualization, but I will cross that bridge when I get to it.

 

The name of my tulpa is going to be eve. She is going to take the appearance of holo from spice and wolf. However her personality will be original. I have told her that if she wants she can deviate her form, to whatever suites her personality. I am not too hung-up on the appearance, as that can be figured out later. Her personality traits are caring, supportive, flat in affect, loves challenges, teasing, funny, extroverted, bold, intelligent, dominant, positive, arrogant, and artistic. I will be starting with visualization, and trait narration as much as I can focus. My main technique is going to be narration, as I found it to work last time, and find it more convenient.

 

I signed a contract to Eve that I will follow through with the process, so prepare for updates.

 

I hope I can be an asset to the community. I like to consider myself open minded, non-concrete in my thinking, analytical, and socially conscious. I would like to become a name on the forum. Seeing that the phenomena is so interesting, and I like putting my free time towards something productive. Plus I can't help but narrate when I am on tulpa.info, for obvious reasons.

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Reisen: I like everything I just read (besides the substance recovery and mental illness of course), I think you'll do fine. Mind-exploration-companionship-waifu-self-improvement is perfect. And your attitude towards tulpamancing is really good, and your goals, and your avatar is cute. Uhm. Good luck!

Hi! I'm Lumi, host of Reisen, Tewi, Flandre and Lucilyn.

Everyone deserves to love and be loved. It's human nature.

My tulpas and I have a Q&A thread, which was the first (and largest) of its kind. Feel free to ask us about tulpamancy stuff there.

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It's cool to see someone else in a similar position. I'm not recovering from substance abuse but the illness and motivation sounds nearly identical to my beginning. I have dabbled in drugs before and almost ruined my life, so I guess I feel that position as well, even if it was short lived.

 

I hope you have a good experience bringing Eve into the world. Me an Nebri will be reading.

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Day 2:

Hey well so far I meditated about 40 minutes today. I managed to do a decent about of narration here and there, the first thing on my mind was eve when I woke up, so maybe she was in my dreams. If she was it was pleasant. I am about to meditate and do some active personality forcing. So in total about an hour of meditation, some narration, and a half hour of active forcing is my goal. I stop throughout the day to say "I love you eve", and send some positive energy. I know that it's a vague spiritual belief and all, spiritual energy. However it's one that I believe in, I have had experiences with it many times in different contexts. I am not a religious person, but if first-hand experience with a spiritual concept proves fruitful, I do not deny it. So a big component of my tulpa forcing will be through stopping to say I love you, and sending good energy. The intention of it is undoubtedly useful, so I think regardless of spiritual beliefs or lack thereof; it holds as an effective method.

 

I tried eye-bo, but honestly I enjoy zen meditation the most. It gets me into the deepest states, just me noise cancelling headphones, and my breathe. Old-school, except for the headphones, but everything wasn't so damn noisy before the industrial era. Zen get's me in deep states and increases my clarity well, I feel like it's also useful for developing visualization. I tend to respond very well and quickly when I establish a practice. So meditation induced neurological changes are going to be a major tool in this process.

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I stop throughout the day to say "I love you eve", and send some positive energy. I know that it's a vague spiritual belief and all, spiritual energy.

 

Actually, whether it is or is not, it should work, as symbolism plays a huge role in the creation process. You just have to believe something works and it probably will.

 

Also, I wish good luck to you and Eve! :)

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It's cool to see someone else in a similar position. I'm not recovering from substance abuse but the illness and motivation sounds nearly identical to my beginning. I have dabbled in drugs before and almost ruined my life, so I guess I feel that position as well, even if it was short lived.

 

I hope you have a good experience bringing Eve into the world. Me an Nebri will be reading.

 

Yeah man. I had 10 months sober, but had a momentary lapse a week ago. Thankfully it was just a one time thing and didn't elicit craving. I was in a pretty bad place mentally, and cognitive health wise when I first got sober. Was drinking combined with xanax, Robitussin, some amphetamines, meth, opiates, whatever the hell I could get. Thankfully the brain recovers well, and I am mostly if not entirely recovered. Another year sober will iron out any slight cognitive issues I still have, I have a 3.7-3.9 in college though, so i'm alright I think. I don't even smoke cigs anymore, haven't for 7 months, and an ecig when I relapsed.

 

I don't want to get as stressed out again, and be pushed to use like that. So stress and mood management is a big thing I hope eve will help with.

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Day 4: I practiced some yesterday as well, but figured it would be better to post every other day. Today I did a fair deal of narration, meditated 15 minutes, and tried active forcing for 15 minutes so far. I'm spending the rest of the night on it after posting. In wonderland I laid on the beach, it was kind of not-clear/a bit transluscent, but not too terrible. Eve seemed to move on her own, when she talked in my ear I could hear slight sound distortion. So I think vocality isn't too far. I still stop to say I love you a lot, and give a lot of energy to Eve. I feel like I will be breaking through in this next few weeks. Visualization is definitely my weak point though. I am gathering up a ton of positive energy, was listening to rap earlier and ended up switching to nightcore because I felt Eve was sensitive. Stuff like that happens sometimes now, feels like an urge/ a gut feeling.

 

Edit: I am also gonna buy soul caliber 5, for the character creator, as well as the game. Creating Eve in it would be a good visualization aid, since you can switch up fighting styles, and essentially have one character play as all of them who move in different ways as well. That should give me plenty of modelling tools, as well as some animation tools to use.

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Video games are definitely the best references for character designs and sometimes with how they move.

 

Though Nebri's original form was a white anthro wolf, she ended up changing to her name sakes form, which is a character from Unreal Tournament 2004. And that actually made it easier to visualize how she moves and actually just her look in general. But since I've been pretty much obsessed with that game since age 7 it doesn't surprise me. XD.

 

Good luck with using SC5. It has a great creation system so it shouldn't be too hard to make something you really like.

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Video games are definitely the best references for character designs and sometimes with how they move.

 

 

Thanks for the encouragement, thankfully I will be using horo as the initial appearance and voice of Eve. Though not her personality. However I have told her she can do what she wants with her form, whatever suits her personality.

 

Day 5:I have meditated about an hour, and active forced maybe 20 minutes. There will be more to come, some more meditation, and some spice and wolf with narration for the night. I felt really happy and not lonely for a period today, I wasn't even thinking about Eve or anything. I think the energy/meditative intention work is going well, and forming a loving foundation for Eve. The buddhists tend to have a scientific open minded approach to things, so I trust that a meditation centric active forcing schedule will do just fine. I did some visualization with Eve, more clear than last times which is good. I just kind of laid and cuddled with her, it was nice and affectionate. So far so good, I can't wait for vocality.

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Day 8: So far I have been pretty consistent, I have been practicing meditation and spending time with Eve. I can feel that she has an energy signature that is increasing with time, so my energy tulpa method of forcing coupled with light visualization seems to be doing the trick. I spent a good amount of time with her today, but will spend more. I suspect that she will soon become vocal, the fragmented speech in early vocal stages bothers me a bit. So I am probably going to do some more extensive work with her once I hear the first utterances. From there I will have her be my companion in my head, and we will make the transition to imposition. I would say that it will take another week to get her fully vocal and fairly sentient.

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