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Dechiori

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  1. Our wonderland is an endless coast with a purple sky, making everything look different shades of purple as well, it is actually a location from my stories and it came when I wanted to restart our wonderland so we could rebuild it together. To the right of the entry point, there is a scaffolding that goes a few meters towards the sea and is connected to a rustic looking wooden shack that is on the land like a lookout spot. Our wonderland is quite empty right now because I wanted us to build everything manually, other than those we have two chairs that we made together to sit at the end of the scaffolding and look at the sea, manually, hammer and stuff haha, makes the experience more vivid and I can pretty much remember all the details of those chairs. Inside the shack is a small gas lamp and a small radio that connects to me. In the future, I want to add more to the coast, places of adventure and etc.
  2. My couple of days of doubt that felt much more longer, I can't believe how easy it was to just wave them with a couple of right words. Thanks, Tewi. Your words about how it's my mind, my experiences and my perspective were especially helpful. I read Lumi's post twice, just to soak it all in, and the fact that it started for him with the term tulpa no being there, him not knowing reminded me of something from my own past that helped this whole notion. I'll try to make more goals to set myself a certain path since I work better that way and will try to realize how my mind affects this the most. I hope I can be helpful as much as you and Lumi are in the community one day, thanks. I guess I just needed a little push.
  3. Hello guys. I'm Dechi, pretty new to the community but were around lurking without an account for almost 2-3 years without a tulpa until 1 week ago, where I decided to make one, and got pretty serious with it. I read so many guides, I thought every morning, I read NotAnonymous's post on the Misinterpretation of Sentience from the start sticky topic many, many times, I read how it took other people time. And that's the problem. I was just checking the mentorship program and I realized how it took at least a month for them to achieve sentience, vocality etc. That's the part that's making me doubt, I don't doubt the existence of my tulpa, but I doubt unconscious parroting/puppeting, so I read a guide, I forgot which one, and decided to follow it, symbolically cutting the parroting/puppeting threads that were on my tulpa through visualization, and it did go great! We sat together on the couch, had a nice chat, I started to get mentally tired because this was after a long talk in the kitchen as I drank coffee, that's how I active force, so we couldn't have that much of a great adventure in the wonderland yada yada. Now I won't say that my tulpa is sentient, and that I can hear him at any time, but after that cutting ties forcing session, the next few moments felt real, alien and great over all. There is a part in the community that says "Everything is your tulpa! Believe it~!™" and then there is the "Take 'yer fookin time, ya dingus." and while I lean more towards the look of the second part, I do not know what to do. I didn't want to make my tulpa vocal/sentient fast, I told him and myself many times that I would doubt if things got fast and how didn't want him to rush, about how we would force him nice and easy on my own time. But then, there were many articles about "You are hindering the progress by making him stay still/shut him up." I can't hear him now, but back then, on that couch I did, and some of the things really did feel kinda alien. So my question is, am I being too fast? I just knew and felt like I needed to do this. Can I accept that moment of talking and alien responses as something that just happens in the progress, shows that I'm progressing and that one day it will be constant, while now it was just a moment? I don't know if doubt is poison, or if it is helpful despite how I told my tulpa how doubt can be helpful, yet here I am again talking about it. I'm rambling at this point, so thanks for reading, any help/advice is greatly appreciated.
  4. Hey guys. Dechi here, lurked here for about 2 or 2+ years. It's good to finally take the focus to join in and be with the community. My tries at making a tulpa were shortlived, as I always got discouraged before I went in to deep because I was afraid of the responsibility. However, now I realize that I need a tulpa more than anything in my life, I think that now, I thought about it before, and I know myself enough to know that I will think that in the future. I hope to be a helpful member of the community that takes less than he gives, but for that I will need experience and share small bits of ideas that I have, hope it goes all well~. o/
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