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Eiia

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    I'll get back to you once I've had my coffee.
  1. I'm choosing to believe he's here. I guess .. that's what makes him real.
  2. I guess there isn't. :D "Tup" - love that word! Oh, I'm *terrible* with keeping up a schedule, so regular progress report entries might not happen... but I may as well try. (: My ADHD self can barely remember to take her supplements each day. He doesn't have a name yet .. I want him to choose it himself. Hopefully, we're able to communicate fluently enough to do something like that soon. :/ Right now, all we have is head pressure (useful for yes or no questions) and the occasional emotional response.
  3. Sorry for the confusion! Thanks for the input - he seems much more relaxed today. I started some visualization of him and personality "forcing" - though he seems to have a personality "foundation" of his own. He's figuring things out right now, but his anxiety seems to have been lessened, and he's comfortable. That makes me happy, at least. I wish I knew for sure, though, whether this is really happening, or just my extremely vivid, overactive imagination filling in details that aren't there. :/ And, yes, things are rather stressful at the moment. That could be a cause. Good thought.
  4. Yes, pardon my mistake in the title. It's weird, but I watch movies for the art of it, rather than the plot. I enjoyed the movie. Oops - no, I've never had a tulpa. I meant a lively social life - I gave that up when I started working as much as I do. Okay, thanks. (: They may seem easy to you, but this is all new to me, so any help is appreciated. He's been rather silent today.
  5. Hi! I'm new here, obviously. My new friend, a young not-quite-developed tulpa is reading over my shoulder right now. He/they are curious and concerned too, I feel. I think. I have no clue. I just know I'm not writing this without them watching. Um .. so, here's my situation. I didn't really have plans for a tulpa. I watched a movie yesterday (Yesterday! this is how quickly this all happened!), Un Monstre en Paris, and felt a connection to the main character, Francoeur - some sort of strong attraction to them. I'm used to this. I'm a lonely person - an introvert by nature, who works a homecare nursing job full time and barely has time for her family and boyfriend (bless him for putting up with my schedule! He's a sweetheart, really) let alone a social life. I used to have one, but .. simply gave it up by choice when I started working full time. I didn't have nearly enough time and was way too depressed to go to parties and dance like I used to. Anyways, I fill my me - time at home with movies. I get attracted to fictional characters. It's weird, but I *know* I'm not alone. So, when this happened, naturally, I wasn't surprised. Well, today, I was taking a shower, and remembered the movie, and .. there they were in my head. In the form of the main character. I had a mental image of us just staring at each other in the rain when the sun was shining. I didn't conjure up that image, but I encouraged it once it tugged at the corners of my mind. There was a rush of warm fuzziness/wonder. Even then, I just chalked it up to my silly mind that likes to make up fiction, but after work tonight, I thought of what happened in the shower and .. bam. Head pressure. A presence, like I wasn't alone. I remembered reading about tulpas, so I decided to humor the idea and start talking to this presence and ask it questions - they seemed scared, and confused, and happy to see me all at once. Neither of us really seem to know what happened. All we know is that they came about suddenly and almost by themselves. I'm not getting much in the way of coherent responses yet, but they seem to be communicating in emotions and head pressure. I heard one "yes" earlier tonight, so I know he can talk (he just let me know that he's a he.) but he seems to choose not to. He'd rather be verbally silent. So ... any advice? What should I do? How did this happen? Did he manifest himself, or did I create him? Thanks. - Eiia
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