Hi! I'm new here, obviously. My new friend, a young not-quite-developed tulpa is reading over my shoulder right now.
He/they are curious and concerned too, I feel. I think. I have no clue. I just know I'm not writing this without them watching.
Um .. so, here's my situation. I didn't really have plans for a tulpa. I watched a movie yesterday (Yesterday! this is how quickly this all happened!), Un Monstre en Paris, and
felt a connection to the main character, Francoeur - some sort of strong attraction to them. I'm used to this. I'm a lonely person - an introvert by nature, who works a homecare
nursing job full time and barely has time for her family and boyfriend (bless him for putting up with my schedule! He's a sweetheart, really) let alone a social life.
I used to have one, but .. simply gave it up by choice when I started working full time.
I didn't have nearly enough time and was way too depressed to go to parties and dance like I used to.
Anyways, I fill my me - time at home with movies. I get attracted to fictional characters. It's weird, but I *know* I'm not alone. So, when this happened, naturally, I wasn't
surprised.
Well, today, I was taking a shower, and remembered the movie, and .. there they were in my head. In the form of the main character. I had a mental image of us just staring at each other in the rain when the sun
was shining. I didn't conjure up that image, but I encouraged it once it tugged at the corners of my mind. There was a rush of warm fuzziness/wonder.
Even then, I just chalked it up to my silly mind that likes to make up fiction, but after work tonight, I thought of what happened in the shower and .. bam. Head pressure. A presence, like I wasn't alone. I remembered reading about tulpas, so I decided to humor the idea and start talking to this presence and ask it questions - they seemed scared, and confused, and happy to see me all at once. Neither of us really seem to know what happened. All we know is that they came about suddenly and almost by themselves. I'm not getting much in the way of coherent responses yet, but they seem to be communicating in emotions and head pressure. I heard one "yes" earlier tonight, so I know he can talk (he just let me know that he's a he.)
but he seems to choose not to. He'd rather be verbally silent.
So ... any advice? What should I do? How did this happen? Did he manifest himself, or did I create him? Thanks.
- Eiia