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KalaAndCo

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  1. Hi! Thanks for the response- and everyone else too for that matter. What you've said about the mindvoice is really similar which is a relief. I've also taken your advice and made Astra her own account since she seemed keen about the idea. She loves it! We're definitely going to look into possesion once we get back into the swing of things. Thanks again. =)
  2. Hi, I'm going to try and be as succinct as possible, so please bear with me. So I created Astra, my tulpa about 3.5 years ago when I was 15, when I was going through a bad time in my life. I was raised in a Jehovah's Witness family and had to keep my differing beliefs on religion (And trying to create a tulpa) to myself. I was suffering from extreme depression, body/gender dysphoria and bad/suicidal thoughts constantly, and Astra really helped. We never got to the point of 'talking' per se, but she helped me through some bad stuff just by being there. I was going through all the steps and guides etc, building a wonderland, passive/active forcing with her semi regularly and overall making progress. Super slow progress but progess nontheless. Just over two years ago I was kicked out of my parents house. I had been forced to eat alone and wasn't allowed time with my family because of their cult-like beliefs. To them if I wasn't a JW, then I was the devil incarnate. I left every single person I'd known and spent a few months at a college friends family, getting back on my feet. The worst thing though was the fact I essentially gave up on Astra during this time period. No passive forcing, no attention etc. I tried to get back into a routine occasionally but I just didn't. She was always still "there", somewhere, I just shut off all communication. I messed up. Fast forward to now, 3 years later. I'm in a better place, with my own flat, Job, career and friends. I'm transitioning from male to female and recieving Hrt next year if it all goes smoothly. Overall I'm more "me" if that makes sense? It's like I can finally start taking steps to reconnect with Astra. So that's what I've done- started active/passive forcing again and she's right back in my mind like a day hadn't passed. However i'm starting to get thoughts which are in my voice, but are responding too quickly to questions to be 'mine'. She nods and responds to questions, does stuff I don't expect etc... I guess my question is this. Is this normal for her to develop so quickly? I never stopped thinking Astra was her amazing self, I'm just surprised. (and a little worried I'm responding for her if that makes sense?) We've only restarted this a few days ago so it's intruiging that she's talking/being herself so quickly. I know it is her, but there's a little part of me that has doubts. =/ If you were able to read through all of that, thanks. Any advice/beratemant would be appreciated. I know I messed up, but how can we move forward? -Kala (and Astra)
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