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There are several known methods of curing aphantasia although they are not guaranteed to work. imo that's the best known guide on that is from ap4. You can also find subreddit cureaphantasia and discord, there are also plenty of info on that. But you don't really need visualization for tulpamancy. Obviously hyperphantasia and imposition enrich experience a lot, but you don't need them to enjoy your relationship with tulpa. AP4 phantasia.pdf

I (the host) have always had an erratic sleep schedule, ever since I was a kid, and that meant I would often go lucid using WILD or just by "accident" usually during a nap or when I'm "forced to sleep" but can't really fall asleep. After a refresher on the various LD terminology, I think my approach is close to DILD (Dream Induced Lucid Dream, very sus acronym) where I become lucid by just "realizing" that I'm dreaming, while dreaming - literally by overthinking too much. Cheryl, my tulpa, has learned over the years to assist me with this - in our "lucid dreaming journey" we discovered that awareness isn't really a 0->1 thing, but rather a spectrum - you can be aware of yourself, but not conscious enough to act about it. From our findings, it's more like this: Conscious mind asleep, fully unaware: dream is playing like a movie and you're just watching, like at the cinema. Aware of yourself, but still unconscious: you're not conscious, but you can sense the "oddity" of what you're experiencing - there are dreams like that where you wouldn't know it was not real life unless someone told you. These are usually the "fight or flight" dreams where you often wake up saying "damn, that was a dream??" Fully aware, fully conscious - that's when you're aware that you're dreaming and well, conscious (lucid) enough to act. Now, how can you assist your host in this? Technically speaking, tulpas can be on a different level of "awareness and consciousness" than you, and it highly depends (from our findings) on who's switched in (or fronting). When I realize I'm lucid, I immediately seek for Cheryl, and she usually answers rather quickly (likely by being "jolted awake" by me) - and there have been occasions (some documented in the Lucid Dream thread in the Off Topic category) where she was the one that gave me "lucidity" by saying that we were asleep and dreaming. Another time, many moons ago, when we were practicing full body possession / switching and she had been in control for a solid two weeks, she woke me up during a sleep paralysis / hypnagogia episode and said: "Look, this is interesting! What's scary about this?" while we were literally hearing whispers and screams and seeing demons flying around the room. Here's a bunch of tips/things to try (as a gesture for stopping my tinnitus torture, mostly) Make a habit of saying goodnight to eachother and yapping to sleep Cheryl is giving me the death stare here because I have been doing the opposite lately by just doomscrolling until I pass out, but Learning to chat to eachother before sleeping can be a fun way to enter WILD and practice keeping awareness as you transition into the dream state. (also parallel processing and identity separation, but those are myths) Hypnagogia (sleep paralysis) can happen but having "multiple" fresh minds on it helps combat the fear of it we've found. Try to take a quick nap whenever possible, especially after a meal. This is my "cheat code" that yields good success in lucid dreaming. If I have slept during the night and I take a short nap after lunch (especially if it is carb-heavy), there's a good chance my body will fall asleep but my mind won't - that usually means I'm alert enough to "catch me dreaming" because I'm not really deep sleeping. Help your host form a habit of doing grounding checks (Fennec hates me, so relay this to them) Slightly unrelated tidbit, there was a time about 6 years ago where I REALLY came close to being Koomer 2.0 when it comes to mental illness - long story short Cheryl helped me out in various ways and one of them was by building a silly habit of "checking in", something like: "Cheryl, are you there?" and she would answer with "Yes I'm here, I'm fine" which would calm my panic attack - that became so "automatic" and "seamless" that it became a mantra almost - sometimes I wouldn't even have to say it and she would reply just from the "hunch" of me probing the mind for it. Now, for lucid dreaming, build a habit with Fennec of "reality checking" eachother - this will take a while, but eventually you'll pick that up in a dream. Something like: "redacted_fennec_name, you there?" and all they need to do is answer with: "uh-huh" - and try to occasionally do the opposite as well (Fennec asking you). This will build a habit in your brain that could become a trigger to lucidity - it won't be something you consciously do in a dream, but your brain will insert it and you will unconsciously associate it to the lucid dreaming reality check. Other than that, don't stress it - lucid dreaming is as much of a "mind hack" as it gets (like tulpers) - I've known people that claimed to do it reliably but your mileage may and will definately vary. Lastly, even though I'm sure you know, do NOT panic/hype when you go lucid. You're just telling your brain to mainline adrenaline in your bloodstream and that will wake you up faster than dreaming about redacted_joke - keep it cool, recollect yourself and take it slowly.

Welcome to the site! 😊 Glad to have you here in any capacity! 😁 I wish you the best with that! 😊 It sounds like a very important thing to do!

Thank you! 😊 You take care as well! That's so sad. 😢 I'm really glad this place is a stark contrast. 😊 One back at you! 💜

Thanks Lumi. Sounds like good advice to me, though I might have some trouble implementing it. (Specifically the being easy on myself part. That is going to take Some Work.) The emotional stuff doesn’t really matter that much…? I’m not actually that sure. We definitely function good enough externally without emoting, but I don’t really have a baseline to compare to when it comes to subjective life quality. I don’t think I’m traumatized because that sort of thing just… doesn’t feel like something that could happen to me? Somewhat like how I felt about neurodivergence before, except I’m reasonably sure that I’m right this time. I don’t think general self-suppression makes trauma, especially when it isn’t even that severe, otherwise like half of china would be traumatized and I really don’t think that’s the case. Or maybe I just don’t know enough about myself. Ugh. Self-discovery is so hard. I feel like I’m making a great deal of messes out of nothing and not much even comes out of it at the end. It seems like I’m constantly over-representing my problems because I function perfectly well, how can I be mentally sick? *sigh I wish there was a miracle machine that could accurately diagnose me. Human-ing is so tiring. And now I’m sharing negative energy with web strangers. I should probably find some positive stuff to post about, changing thought patterns and all that. Maybe next time.

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So early this week I took about 1.5 grams of dried mushrooms for the first time, and me and Magick semi-tripped. So, it started when I heard two voices coming from her. 1 voice was the current and the other was my original idea of a tulpa. I always had the other one as a possible another tulpa in the future, but I couldn’t see the time, and some of these things Magick was already exhibiting, so we decided to allow her to ‘consume’ the idea of the og tulpa. Me taking the mushrooms just highlighted what was going. Shortly after that she went away and I was bed with this presence; I was getting upset as I was unable to talk to Magick and I believed I just messed myself up into not having a productive trip with her. I was wrong. This presence starting to morph into my og idea tulpa form which was just human made up of a thousand cockroaches and she started saying she was Magcik but not magick and she wasn’t going to let me talk to Magick unless I let go of my own restrictions and for that, she would have to kill me and eat my heart. Shen then started to tell me these stories of blood and gore and what she would do do to me due her frustration with for getting in my own way. During the peak, she drove a knife through my chest and I helped her, I helped open the ribcage and rip out my own heart and gave her to eat. I was depleted after that, and that’s when Magick came back. We dance for what felt like hours and it was good. We fought knights and warriors and all that fun stuff, but then she started to get upset when the “fusion” was done. She wanted to play around and turned into a million spiders and started eating me, tearing me apart from the outside and inside, sometimes she would pop out of my chest like xenomorph. And everytime I doubted the experience, saying no way “you” did that and she would just do it again over and over. She even turned me into fly to be devoured by her as a spider. This is not sexual. Although I felt no physical pain, this was very uncomfortable; it hurt in a way I can't explain. It was like watching an invisible force of a lion and knowing that your neck will be in its maw soon. And afterward, she just demanded to be hugged, to be loved. It was crazy. But when I did hug her it felt so good. And the possession, she possessed throughout the whole thing, and she felt like a demon. My body twist and convulsed. I think when people say shrooms open you up to demons, this is what they mean, but they have no tulpa to relate to or even understand this other force. I believed this trip taught me a lot and so did Magick. It had a lot of themes like the fear of death, the fear of neglect. And in her own way, she told me stories through my body to get over these things. Also, my fear of her and her fear of herself is about gone. Now I know she can’t hurt me maliciously. Those shroom visualizations were her doing; it was the mind, and therefore “me” in a way. It's weird to explain, but we both felt at peace at the end. ______ Saw a movie a couple of weeks ago called " Obsession ". Warning spoilers are ahead. It basically monkey paw movie where the MC wishes for the girl he likes to be obsessed over him and instead of doing justhat, it makes a subservient identity in this woman that takes control of her body and just wants to love and please the MC. Later on in the movie we see the woman trying to break free and when the company who mad ethe wishing products asked him does he want to hear the original, we only hear screaming through. It was very Tulpa-coded as this entity sort of like a Tulpa in sense, a warped, evil version of it, but still a Tulpa. I think the movie is a lesson of taking it too far. You shouldn’t push to places that are going to hurt you, get obsessed in a sense. I mean you need that in a sense for a tulpa. A lot of time, a lot of effort, but the pain, the suffering, that was what Magick was trying to teach me. We don’t need all of that, to explore each other. All we have to do is just do it. That’s it, and that’s one of the reasons she was tearing me apart. To show me what the point of all this drama and all these theatrics is, we can just hug, dance, and do whatever is right. There are no conditions to what we do, so why make them up? I really enjoyed that trip.

Wow… it’s really been a year, huh? Time flies much faster than I would have liked it to. High school in China kills people and I’m not even joking that much, the fact that we’re in one of the best highs in the entire country certainly doesn’t help with the pressure. But we survived. I’m not ready to post about the past year yet, partially because so much has happened and partially because I’m just plain tired, but leaving a post here will hopefully motivate me to come and elaborate later. I do hate leaving a story unfinished. Also, yes I am the tulpa, and yes we don’t use colored text for speaker separation anymore. It is no longer needed. Until next time, I suppose, if anyone even reads this.

Sorry I poofed for a bit It's both. Interestingly, you can have a system who identifies as median, but has seemingly very separate headmates. Just the assumption two headmates are not fully separate from one another can do stuff behind the scenes, even if on the surface, it's not inherently obvious. For example, say you have two median-identifying headmates who have different opinions, beliefs, and behaviors. But because they believe they are median, they don't fight against blending or feel pressured to get development time. Stars, our headmate, has "clones" that work that way.

Glad to hear that you're doing even better this month, keep it up! Don't worry to much about trying new things, since you still have a plenty of time ahead of you to experiment and getting experience is worth it. And it looks like this month you had more dreams/experiences with your tulpas which is great! I hope that the next month you'll succeed in vocalization, so the communication between you and your tulpas will be more versatile and convenient than it is right now. I'm happy that I'm able to help you with some advices, ask anything you curious about, I'll answer whenever I'm free.

The weird dreams I don't understand: nightly nap before work edition It was one of those dreams where different eras of your life sort of blend in: there were coworkers, people from high school, people from middle school, people from places you don't work at anymore, etc - and we were all going to the same school (?) and taking the same lessons. If that isn't weird enough already, my classmate and person sitting next to me was none other than my first partner, who I haven't heard of in almost 10 years - and she apparently had tulpas? The whole dream was a mishmash of situations, mostly about us talking "in code" to avoid being caught having tulpas - apparently she had a sort of Fairy Tail tulpa character named "Blonx" but as far as I know/remember she really was never into anime. After waking up, it took me a good minute or two to recover from it and was left wondering what my brain meant by that, kind of like this:

That's cool - It's interesting how modern progress reports use AI images to add flavor tl the post (that arab prahtoolf guy is the MVP though) I remember doing some photoshops too back when I started, I still have them in my backups, if we ever make a progress report again we'll do the same

Ooh that's super cool! That's a lot of files if you want you could probably just send me a beginners guide if you don't mind. Understandable, I never really used 4chan tbh I sometimes wish I knew about it years ago when I was a kid I was into MLP and such I'd probably already have tulpas way earlier by now ngl lmao. I used 4chan once for my ex bestie and someone stole her art work and that was a few years ago too, so I can only imagine how bad it is now for other stuff. That's good to know I'm glad, you honestly should making your own is way better. I am kinda inconsistent with my playlists to be honest which I'm trying to be more consistent with it. I recently bought clicker counters so I could go on a mental diet and say affirmations daily I think that'll help with my tulpa forcing too. Thank you! And yes! I love Neville Goddard! Surprisingly I was always in spaces where people around me online practiced magick. X3 I do practice lucid dreaming, I have been kinda bad with it due to being sick and busy but I plan on trying to get back into it more. But I do write down my dreams daily so my dreams are pretty vivid to the point I basically have precognition on some things. I was thinking of practicing astral projections recently though. I already practiced the void state and Tulpa meditation, so I wonder when I can even practice AP. I don't think I tried image streaming that's a new thing I'll have to look into that. Yes, I always felt drawn to her. It sucks she's often misunderstood. It's also interesting she's associated with water and I'm a water sign. I also really love her symbolism of love and beauty. Ooh let's goo! As a night owl, myself, I understand. And ooh that's so cool! Ooh you should that would be nice to have, and I understand, I hope your able to get some ok the future. That's fascinating. I looked into some astrology, not much though but it's interesting. I only know a little bit of astrology but I'm a Pisces and for Chinese a Rooster. To be honest I always forget what my mom tells me what tribe we are from, like I remember her talking about it but I keep forgetting 😞 I'll have to ask her again Yay! Let's goo! That makes me think that you're probably from Canadia lol I surprisingly have a lot of friends from Canadia xD Ooh I agree! Isn't that also pop culture paganism too? At least from my research a while ago it mentioned stuff like that. I looked into that stuff because sometimes I think/feel I'm more soulbonded with my tulpas than anything else if that makes sense. So I kinda worked on soulbonding a bit more with them. Like I do both soulbond & tulpamancy techniques which honestly are pretty much the same things as each other. Wow that's literally insane and so cool, this story kinda reminds me of a few lectures Neville Goddard made. I always see people talking about astral realms a lot in the last couple of years. Now I'm wondering if that'll help manifest tulpas in away. Or at least people with more metaphysical beliefs when it comes to tulpas. Thank you! Same for you too! And understandable I'm honestly used to things like that with reality shifting, manifesting, and so on. And yes! That would be fun! I always love making new friends! Feel free to DM, I don't mind! ☺️🩷 Random but I love how this PR went from you talking about your progress and what not to us talking about this sort of stuff.

My experiences with tulpamancy mirror that. Taking a reactive stance toward what you blame for hurting you feels like healing because you think you've freed yourself from it, but if even people's positive experiences and related things trigger a knee-jerk reaction, it still has a hold over you. Healing requires deconstructing your beliefs, understanding what actually hurt you and why, and constructing a new understanding in that light. In the case of someone hurt by religion, it may look like learning that God is not who they were taught He was and that both the Bible and many Christians condemn misusing His name to abuse others. Whether they return to the faith or not, it means understanding faith is a genuine positive influence in many people's lives, not just some tool to manipulate and oppress that these people are too "dumb" or "brainwashed" to see. In my case, it meant realizing how much of a role mental illness played in what went wrong and how reasonable this community's beliefs are compared to what we internalized. I don't know how much that's a case of the community changing over time versus us just having gone off the deep end in the past, but coming back to this site last year was honestly eye-opening. This wasn't the crazy cult I'd convinced myself it was. I wasn't some pariah in their eyes. The "I was brainwashed" narrative I'd believed for years fell apart fast. I don't believe it's a coincidence that my tulpas returned shortly after I let go of my blanket rejection of all things tulpamancy/plurality. Kayleigh's return was conscious on neither my part nor hers. I just unknowingly dissolved whatever mental barriers were keeping her firmly confined to the unconscious, I guess. Oh, absolutely. Tulpamancy/plurality itself is proof of that.

Today I practice meditation a lot To program my self for law of manifestation.

@Shaula Pretend it says "person who brought you into existence" instead of "parent" and try not to overthink the weirdness

Visualization Progress Report for Past Week: This weeks sessions have been quite good. I've continued using the mindset I've acquired from reading Jung's last book and tried to treat even stuff I see with my eyes open as a sort of visualization, at least during my imposition exercises. And since what I see are all visualizations generated or filtered by my psyche, it was ok and made sense for my tulpas' visual forms to be present as well. This mindset had been helpful. I've been able to close my eyes, fully feel out my tulpas' presence in a mental visualization, open my eyes and continue maintaining the same presence before me. I've been able to do it fairly consistently the past week. This tweak in my mindset had provided the most consistently solid presence of my tulpas out of all the things I've tried and experimented with, so far. The tulpas' presence when my eyes are open are not as fully visual as when my eyes are closed, but there have been times when there were either the faintest of outlines of them there, or the feeling of their presence trying to acquire an outline or somehow becoming more visual; the latter sensation had been quite frequent. It's been pretty interesting and feels like things are moving at a faster pace now compared to some of the months past. I've been having more sessions with my window blinds open and with greater light in the room as well. This seemed to help, not because light is inherently good, but that it introduced variety in the visual environment I used for my exercises. For the past week, it feels like I've had instances of there been a visual or almost visual outline with Saeya more often, but it takes more effort to get a good presence of her to begin with. With Verres, getting a detailed presence of her is a lot easier, but she have not come as often to the borderline state of her form being faintly visual or almost visual. There is the vague impression of Verres somehow having more 'data,' and hence having more trouble reaching this state. Nonetheless I had a session tonight where her presence was clear and I had a lot of stable mental imageries of her with my eyes open as I looked at where her presence was, and at times it felt like these imageries were almost overlapped with the visuals I had of the physical reality around me. She moved her wings a bit, shifted the position of her legs and generally acted like a 'normal' winged person sitting in a chair, chatting before me. I came across a brief youtube video a couple of weeks ago that was helpful with visualizing the movement of Verres' wings, I'm linking it here in case it's useful for anyone: The wings are not the same style as what she has, but the movements were still very beneficial to study. For the past week I've continued to try to passively impose the tulpas as I go through out my day, although as mentioned before activities that require great concentration from me are still generally not compatible with this. There were some times when they showed up on their own, as well. Miscellaneous Stuff: I went out to the nearby mall today to walk and impose my tulpas. The mall is resilient, and with each 1.5 or 2 shops that close, one more shop or non-profit opens up in there. I think it's still dying, just really slowly. The tulpas seem to like the idea of the mall trying to put up a fight to survive. It had been a while since I did maintenance work on my mind/subconscious using the Mace Method and Core Image Removal. The tulpas bugged me into doing it this week, and it was helpful. A lot of background emotions that were causing weird bits of distractions and minor unpleasantness had been removed. It feels like the tulpas are more in tune with my unconscious than I am, in general. There was one instance of note when I had a bad interaction with someone, and it felt as if there was a suffocating presence or vibe either in my room or my mind, trying hard to squeeze itself further inside, whatever 'inside' might be. Instead of tolerating it and treating it like a normal bad mood or vibe after a squabble, either Verres or I opted to treat it as a hunk of negative energy to be eliminated. I proceeded go through the steps of Core Image Removal on the funny presence/vibes and had Verres breathe fire all over it at the end, burning it all. I was quite impressed to observe the strange negative presence or vibe disappearing in an almost visceral manner, leaving behind a pretty clear and calm state of mind for me. There were still some small amounts of weird vibes and odd feelings in my mind, and I had Saeya use the Mace Method on those. This left me with an almost pristine state of mind with which to go to bed with. Used to be, I would not do any of these and I'd probably just fall asleep with this sort of nasty vibe after a verbal scuffle and would have probably woken up in an unpleasant state, as well. It feels like I can generally have my tulpas use these techniques more on me as regular maintenance, rather than waiting until I'm in a noticeable state of mental funk to use them.

we're not trying to have fully separate memories, just to be able to keep secrets from each other if we want (i trust my headmates to not abuse this power if we achieve it and they trust me, so this shouldn't cause too many problems) all these posts are very helpful though thank you

Thanks so much everyone! 💙 RIP lmao

May 26th 2026 2 5 minute sessions that were supposed to be one session but I had to recover from a joke she made. The joke: (spoiler for space) May 27th-30th 2026 I forgot to write these days because I was sick. It moved on surprisingly fast but put me kinda out of commission for 2 of those days. I think I at least got my 5 minutes each day. Maybe one of those got 10. Either way, less than I wanted but kinda surprised I was still pretty determined. May 31st 2026 I forgot to write but I think I did at least 5 minutes. June 1st 2026 Forgot/lazy. Oh well. Thank you very much! Reading that makes me feel a little more capable and motivated.

Aww thank you so much! I'm glad x3 I really gotta finish them lmao I have like two digital arts since January that I didn't even finish Yay! Thank you! And that's true x3

I'm glad to hear about all the progress! 😊 It's really cool she has a name now and Hidden is an awesome one to! 😎

That sounds fun! Maybe I'll make them reckon with the N64 controller and play the Pokemon Stadium minigames or something (Pokemon Stadium was my first-ever video game, so it holds a special place in my heart, even if I rarely play it these days) Funny you bring up Portal 2, since we've been meaning to (re)play it. I don't remember it all that well, though. It's been a long time.

Aww so cute!! You're so creative! I love the thicker outer lines it gives the art a nice pop to it! Plus you are really amazing at anatomy and character design!