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    I'm Lizzie. I like loud music, the smell of coffee, and fast sailboats.

    I'm new here, and would love to make some new friends. So, please message me if you want to chat.
  1. This is Fitz.. I can't draw realistically to save my life. I feel like his chin is way to big, and he should have a much stronger jaw line... but meh. I did this very quickly while I waited for my power to come back on during a storm, so not my best work overall. It gets the point across though. xD
  2. Um, hi. My name is Lizzie. I'm 22, I spend most of my time in a science lab, I can sail a boat, I suck at video games but I play them anyways, and.... I have an addiction to daydreaming. Yes, an addiction to daydreaming. That doesn't sound that bad, right? And I guess it isn't, in the grand scope of things. However, it has a serious impact on my every day life. I have battled with something called Maladaptive Daydreaming Disorder for as long as I can remember. Feel free to google that if you are interested. I didn't have a 'name' for my disorder for most of my life... I thought my habits of pacing back and forth while I lived in my own imaginary worlds was something that everyone did. I tried to tell others about my worlds, and was always hurt by the response. My parents made fun of me for it. My friends didn't care. I figured I'd "grow out of it". I never did. I moved out, went to college, and found myself spending all of my free time in my own world. I paced until the skin fell off my feet... One night, I looked down to find a trail of blood on the floor around me. Another night, I tripped and fractured my hand. I said "That's enough." But I couldn't stop. I can't help but wonder if because of my 'addiction', I have created tulpas before. I feel like I have, but I'm not sure... I don't know if I fully understand what a tulpa is just yet. The other day, after doing some research into tulpas, I began to wonder if creating a tulpa would help me control my daydreams. I could put all my energy into ONE thought, instead of the million different ones that I have now. (Uh...Does that make sense?) So, I sat as still as possible in my quiet apartment in the dead of night, and closed my eyes. I told myself that the first voice I heard or face I saw would be my tulpa. But instead, I found two. Their names are Eli and Fitz, and I love them dearly. Eli is an old soul, very quiet and stoic. Fitz is a young soul, much more energetic and outgoing. I think they embody the two different sides of my 'daydream worlds', one which is complex that I tend to go to on hard days and the other which is carefree and fun that I save for my happiest days. They're pretty cool dudes. I'm not sure if they'll be the cure for my 'disorder', but I guess there's only one way to find out.
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