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  1. This post got... kinda long so I'll bold the important parts. 18:52 Started working on one of my hypnosis scripts. Kaito said it was "interesting". When I asked him if he'd ever want to be hypnotized, he said he wasn't sure. 19:00 - 20:00 Forgot to log. 20:00 Decided to do some hypnosis. Tried to talk to Kaito a bit, but his responses were juvenile at best. Guess it's harder to talk to him when I'm tired. Accidentally fell asleep. 12/03/2019 10:24 Woke up with a headache. Tried talking to Kaito but he didn't respond much. In my mind's eye I could see him asleep on the couch. Decided to watch some MLP:FIM, but got distracted by internet drama. When asked to surprise me, Kaito rolled on the floor. Ended up watching Osomatsu-San. Asked Kaito if we should ever get an Ichimatsu tulpa, he responded by saying that he had no idea who Ichimatsu is. Decided to watch an episode of MLP:FIM with Kaito, but all of the sites were too laggy. I gave a very brief explanation of it to him, and he said it sounded interesting. 11:07 Listened to some music, but Kaito interrupted by asking who Ichimatsu is. I explained that he's the fourth brother in a batch of sextuplets, he wears purple, he's always depressed, and he likes cats. Kaito said he sounds like someone he knows (cookies to anyone who can guess who he means). Kaito went quiet after that, so I listened to music again. Saw a thread talking about how short quick conversations with tulpas doesn't help them grow, so I asked him his opinion on the current political state of America. He said it's fucked up, and I proceeded to ask him what his political beliefs were. He said he's not sure but he might be an anarchist (I'm way less far left than that. More proof of differing opinions!). I asked if we should only log once every few hours so this doesn't get too long, and he said he's afraid I'd forget about our progress, though it might have been me parroting. Ended up deciding that I'll write down important things that happen and condense them all down into one entry every few hours. Kaito agreed it sounded like a good plan. 12:00 - 20:15 While looking at catboys, I asked Kaito if he'd ever want to be part cat. He responded as if he hadn't heard me, but when I looked at him in my mind's eye, he had cat ears. Asked Kaito to sit beside me on the bed. Visualization flickered on and off. When I tried to place my hand on his leg, I learned two things. One is that his legs are way bigger than mine. Two is that I get a very mild tingling sensation in my fingers when I touch him. While talking to Kaito, Raeth (my... daemon? Accidental tulpa? Soulbond? I'm still not sure, I just know he's existed for a while and is one of the reasons I got into tulpamancy), who is a Scottish wild cat, jumped on his lap while he sat on the couch and curled up into a ball. Later on, I came back to him around Kaito's shoulders, where he promptly exclaimed "I live here now". Kaito seemed fine with this. While at the doctor's, I tried to visualize Kaito in front of me. We booped our foreheads together, and I felt a tingle in mine. Decided to do some hypnosis before bed, specifically some tulpa hypnosis. Will edit this post in a bit with how that goes. NOTE: As I type this, I can see Kaito laying on the couch in my mind's eye, with Raeth asleep on his stomach, and I just gotta say... the cute is real.
  2. Welp... Kaito jumping off the couch and rolling around on the ground certainly surprised me. When questioned, he said "You said surprise me!". Good guide, 10/10.
  3. 18:31 Took a break to listen to music. Could see Kaito in my mind's eye dancing to some of the songs, particularly the pony ones. I asked him if he liked MLP:FIM, and he said he had no idea what that even was (he hasn't accessed my memories yet, apparently). Ate a coconut popsicle and when I asked Kaito what he thought of it, he said that it wasn't very good (I thought it was delicious. Potential proof of differing opinions?). While talking to Kaito, he made numerous strange poses on the couch, most notably sitting upside down with his head, arms, and shoulders on the couch, and his feet up in the air. He took this pose up the most for some reason, usually while kicking his legs. I tried to have a conversation with my mom, but the cat and Kaito kept distracting me. Kaito was silent while I ate dinner, but picked up with conversation again when I went to hide away in my room. I asked him if we should create another tulpa, and we both agreed on creating another Danganronpa tulpa once he was stable enough. We debated on who to pick for a while. I bounced between Kokichi and Ryoma, while he was adamant that we should pick Shuichi. (More proof of differing opinions!) At one point I closed my eyes and asked Kaito to picture himself resting his head against my leg. When he did so, I felt an odd tingling sensation and a slight pressure. Visualization slightly more stable, though still flickering on and off.
  4. Ah, thank you! We'd be happy to include a description of our system in a future update! We're primarily traumagenic, but there's a few soulbonds and of course our tulpa Kaito! Due to suffering from DID and not OSDD (thus meaning I get amnesia between switches), and not having the best system communication, I don't know much about my alters aside from basic stuff like their names, if they're a fictive or not, and if they are a fictive, what character they're an introject of. I actually started getting a headache in the middle of typing this, I think Kaito or someone else is interested. 14:51 Tried talking to Kaito while going on an exercise bike, but ended up getting too distracted. It didn't help that my cat kept meowing. Tried to visualize him on the couch in front of me, visualization flickered on and off. When my cat meowed, he turned to look at her. I asked him if we would ever do lewd things, and he commented that I was only 16. He then tried to tell me his own age, only to realize that he didn't have one yet. We both settled on 17. I felt a weird sensation, and asked if it was him. He said he thinks so, but it might have been me parroting. I asked him what he liked doing, and he said he likes going on walks, which I didn't expect. When asked to explain, he said that he just liked the air and stuff (his own words). Visualization flickering on and off again.
  5. Alright, first post in the thread. There will likely be a few posts a day at first as I get into this, then it'll probably revert to a once-a-day type of thread once I've gotten the hang of all this. I'll introduce myself quickly. I'm a guy who likes video games (specifically Pokemon, Okami, and Danganronpa), music, drawing (though I'm awful at it), biology, theology, conspiracy theories, and cryptids. I'm an aspiring author and I'm saving up for a guitar so I can start making music. I'm also the host of a traumagenic DID system, but they barely ever front, so it'll likely only come up rarely, if at all. Now that that's out of the way, I'll introduce who I hope my tulpa will be. I'm basing him off of a character from the third main series Danganronpa game (not counting spin-offs), New Danganronpa V3: Killing Harmony. Specifically Kaito Momota, the SHSL Astronaut and self proclaimed luminary of the stars. If you already know who Kaito Momota is, you can skip the next part. NOTE: Until he has developed enough sentience to decide his own gender, I will be referring to Kaito using he/him pronouns. Kaito Momota is one of the 16 students featured in NDRV3, and is among the participants of the killing game. He is confident, showy, a bit of a dumbass, but overall cares for his loved ones. He is obsessed with space, and has dreamed of going there since he was a child. He likes to inspire his friends and give them some motivation to try their hardest, even if that motivation can be a little... tough. His appearance and what I plan for the tulpa's form to be. The creation started after seeing a tulpa server on Disboard and abruptly remembering how I always wanted to make a tulpa, ever since I first discovered them. So, after doing some more research into tulpamancy to make sure I wasn't going in blinder than a bat, I decided on a Kaito tulpa, though I of course would be sure to let him know that he could take any form and personality that he wants. It still took a few days for me to begin, likely due to still lingering fears that I would do something wrong, but I eventually decided to just go for it, and that brings us to now. Now, onto the report. 11/03/2019 13:41 Practiced visualization and mindvoice today. Wonderland started as a black void, so I turned it into a small green room with a tiled floor and a purple couch, which Kaito immediately sat on. Slight success with sentience (Kaito would occasionally say or do things I didn't expect whatsoever.) Kaito pointed out that the couch smelled funky (his own words), not sure exactly why. While talking to him, I experienced a slight pressure in my right temple. I was (and still am) concerned it was placebo, but I decided to just put my faith in the fact that it was my tulpa. Asked him if I could touch his hair to practice tactile sensations, he seemed uncomfortable so I dropped the topic. Briefly considered if I should move Kaito to my normal headspace, but ultimately decided that having a separate wonderland for my tulpas was probably a better idea. Kaito wouldn't stop touching the couch, though at some point I think it turned into me puppeting, so I tried focusing on his mindvoice instead. Less success there, he could barely hold a conversation, but we managed. I asked him how he felt, and he said he was confused but good (once again, his own words), though it might have been me parroting. Decided to take a brief break, but Kaito kept talking. It was mostly muffled speech that I couldn't make out, but I still got excited. Visualization flickering on and off. EDIT: Forgot to add, but when I first asked Kaito the time, he was way off. Second time, he was only two minutes off. It may not mean much, but it was interesting to me.
  6. Hello! We are a mixed origins system, primarily traumagenic with a good few tulpas, soulbonds, and walk-ins, as well as a few medians. We have only recently discovered that we are primarily traumagenic in nature, as we believed we were purely spiritual for a long time, until one day I started dissociating pre-switch (which NEVER happens with our spiritual headmates, it's always just a mild falling sensation), and switched with an alter I had never met before, which led to the discovery of the rest of our traumagenic alters. Sorry for rambling, haha, just thought it'd be an interesting story. We call ourselves the Strawberry System, because our body is cute and chubby like a strawberry. Just kidding, it's because Strawberry System is just a nice name! The host, Jason, is FTM and uses he/him pronouns. You may ask the others for their pronouns! Hope you all have a good day!
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