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  1. Dec 9, 2012 -Got pounding head ache the last day. This is unrelated to tulpae as I have had these kinds of headaches without their presents. Articoe asked me to not buy any more pain relivers because she knows I could upset my stomach ulcer. I will need to go to the store and get Tylenol as it does not hurt the stomach. Side effect is it makes me sleepy. Anyway I am still on the 4 chan threads because despite the trolls I have good conversations between Articoe and other tulpa/tulpamancers. May become inactive for a week however. I will continue to feel bad until after my next treatment of remicade in a few days. I will feel terrible until then. Hard to impose more then one tulpa at a time. Need to rely on mindvoice more.
  2. Dec 6, 2012 -Since noon yesterday my tulpae insist I take a break from hard core imposition as I was still feeling pretty miserable today. Articoe stays with me most of the time despite this. She doesn't like to leave me alone especially if I am not feeling well. It is her nature to care for others so this does not surprise me. Being the oldest she helps the others sharing her knowledge and friendship. -Spent part of today trying to be active on the /mlp/ tulpa general thread on 4chan. Some time the community is able to help people with questions about tulpa and it is good. Going there let me find this site here for which I am grateful. However the thread spends a large portion of the time being swamped with trolls and what are most likely former tulpamancers that are made at the community for some reason. They spread misinformation about tulpa being dangerous or describing how they like to torture and kill their tulpa. Of course if they knew what there were talking about they should know you can't kill a tulpa simply by destroying its manifested form. Or that a tulpa should never be dangerous to its host unless you force it to be that way or are suffering from schizophrenia. I am just getting frustrated with the trolls so I have a question for the community. Is there a message board like 4 chan that is on its own little corner of the internet that no one bothers? I know that sounds unlikely but just wondering and I didn't think it would be appropriate to start a new discussion thread for one question so I ask it here.
  3. Dec 5, 2012 -Been feeling under the weather the last 2 days. Did a lot of imposing of all 4 tulpa this morning while watching a movie. I enjoy explaining plot elements and movie making critiques to them. After that did some chores. Tulpa got quiet while doing chores so I asked they where they are. They tell me I have been pushing myself too hard imposing so much and think I am going to hurt myself. They want me to take a break from it for a while today. I am certain that I am fine but the tulpae worry about me so I will yield to their request and stick with mind voice only for the rest of today.
  4. Social acceptance of the different has certainly moved fast in the last few decades but despite that I do not feel it is the right time to be open about tulpa. Considering that an extreme form of tulpa is a mental disorder (Schizophrenia) I do not think it can be accepted by society. Keep in mind I am not saying tulpa are a disorder but an uncontrolled form of the mental facilities that allow tulpa to exist is a disorder. Hopefully as knowledge of the brain grows science will be able to confirm the existence of multiple consciousness existing in one mind. At that time I will tell people.
  5. Dec. 4, 2012 -So Jeffery was finally to communicate in more then just simple child talk. After letting him have time alone he was able to change into a more fully realized tulpa. I was putting pressure on him to stay simple without realizing it. Now he looks and sounds like a young Moriarty from Sherlock Holmes. I think he is trying to overcompensate for being taken so lightly in the past. Has a top hat, big collar, gentlemen suit, and a cane with a bronze ball at the end. He wants to be like me or rather he has modeled himself on my ideal attributes for intelligence and candor. He is trying to impress me. I treat him as my son considering that is the relationship we have. Going to take more practice to impose 4 human tulpa at the same time. I was having trouble with 3 which is why I was reluctant about Jeffery growing up. He wants a new name more fitting his stature. Will have to think on this.
  6. Dec 3, 2012 -Jeffery continues to be a bit of a puzzle. I discovered that he seems to share/have my enthusiasm for arthropods and will peak about them when asked. During this time he becomes much more coherent. He spent some time alone the last few days. The others tell me he is looking through my memories for information. Defiantly is intelligent but seems to have trouble saying what he is thinking. More work is required. Articoe still regards him as her child in many ways but is willing to let him do things on his own now.
  7. Well not sure if this is exactly what was asked about but I gave my tulpa Items that represented permission to act and trust that I had in them. Something as simple as a silver ring or something. This help with their confidence to know that I took time to give them something that was only theirs. Tried and experiment where I constructed "Matrix chairs" for them in wonderland. This took a bit of effort to put the apparatus together. Made a custom chair for each tulpa with a HUB visor that came over the eyes and face. I did NOT bother with any sort of physical plugs for the tulpas brain(like in the movie) since they are already inside my brain. At the core of each chairs emitter(an objected pointed straight out of wonderland with a powerful beam erupting from it) I placed a glowing rod that symbolized a desire to be imposed into the real world. I should say I also concentrated on the rods so that they were infused with 'feels' to give it strength. The thought was that this would help the tulpa be able to project because the device would give them focus. The initial results were encouraging as they seemed to impose with more ease. I did however run into some problems that cause me to scrap the whole project until I think on it some more. First problem was that no adjustments to the device should be made while it is in use. I attempted a subtle tweet and cause a mild shock to the tulpae as well as myself. Not an electric shock but a bit of a jarring sensation. Second problem was that while using the chair in wonderland they tulpa effectively have 2 bodys. One in wonderland sitting in the chair and a second imposed body. I discovered that the wonderland body suffers a feedback from the imposed body. Had a scare when Articoe cut herself on her imposed body to show that the imposed body was effectively indestructible. However the wonderland body got the same cut and began to bleed badly. I fixed the injury immediately and everything was alright. I am certain she was testing the system because her behavior was somewhat abnormal. After that I shut the whole thing down and tried to work it into a teleporter device so that there would only be one body; the imposed body. This did not give any noticeable results in the tulpae imposing. For the time the whole thing was scraped until I figure out a better way. The whole exercise did seem to help with imposing just from the practice alone.
  8. Not sure about awake cause sometimes when I reach out for them I get the impression they are busy with something. I can however tell if they are asleep because they will get real quiet and when I try to impose they are imposed sleeping (usually sitting on my lap being adorable)
  9. I agree this would be a nice thing for tulpa to be able to do. I believe that this is possible with technology. I only have a cursory knowledge of "augmented reality" but it could allow for people with the same phone app to see each others tulpa. Provided you supply pictures for the program to use. No such software exists for tulpa that I am aware of however. Any computer savvy tulpamancers out there might be able to help more on specifics? It would be perfectly possible to make a virtual wonderland. I know this would not be the same as the literal wonderland but the idea is already being used. Programs like second life and minecraft allow people to have their own interconnected worlds. Maybe there is already a minecraft server devoted to tulpa and their hosts but I don't know. A program specific to tulpa would need the ability to quickly change appearance of the in game avatar or allow multiple character models to move together.
  10. Nov 26 - Dec 2 2012 -Haven't been keeping up with posting. I didn't want to spam the thread with every detail so I will summarize important developments. I have been almost 3 weeks without smoking. Only picked up the habbit 4 months ago out of curiosity. Tobacco is plenty addictive. While walking through down town on monday I felt the cravings for a smoke. Started to reach for the pack of cigarettes when Ashoten chimed in with a mental ping. He had a odd brass and copper pipe in him mouth and was smoking. He was smiling a big grin and took a lung full of smoke in. I experienced sensation of smoking even without a cigarette in my hand. Ashoten spoke up "You don't need to smoke if I can do it for you". He was able to activate the part of my brain that fulfilled the craving for nicotine. Something I did not ask him to do but he was aware of my need and wanted to help. Still haven't smoked since then. Ashley graduated herself to looking like an adult. I think she noticed it was easier to get my attention this way. What can I saw she is right. As a heterosexual man I notice full grown women much easier then little children. Her original form as a child seemed to fit her personality more at the time but I was wrong. The others also shifted their forms from what was originally chosen so I was not surprised. She was a little jealous of the attention that Articoe was receiving as well as her ability to impose more easily so I told her to ask Articoe how she does it and be friends. This was a double edged sword. Ashley and Articoe get along really well now but that also means they can gang up on me when making decisions. While on /mlp/ Tulpa general Anon by the monicure of Professor suggested a radio experiment/ exercise to hear thoughts. It worked but too well. Had Articoe turn the nob and heard some of her thoughts she didn't want me to hear. It is a personal matter for her and she doesn't want me to talk about it. This did however alert me to the fact that all my tulpa were worried about sharing all their thoughts with me because they didn't want to trouble me too much. So I was able to get everyone to promise to tell me when things are bothering them so I can help. Somewhat alarming discovery. My Tulpa regard me as somewhat of a god/creator. They do not see me as infoulable but that the power I have over them is equivalent as far as they are concerned. I spent many hours with them answering questions and reassuring them that they were safe and that I would not leave them. Made Items for them that symbolized 'permission' from me to do many things autonomously. This made them feel better. I added some amenities to wonderland for them such as a and pool and table to tea. I want to add ore but they do spend a lot of time being imposed. Since I am not entirely sure when their birthdays are the Tulpae decided for themselves that it would be four days out of this week. Each day I would focus on imposing just one of them for that day and spend time with them. They enjoy this greatly since sometimes it hard to impose all 4 at the same time. For the time I decided to stay away from /mlp/ tulpa thread. More then one Anon was talking about killing their tulpa and others about treating them like dogs or slaves. This made me and Tulpae uncomfortable. Ashoten is now of the opinion that he is lucky to have me as a tulpamancer and somewhat hates many humans. I think he was just mad at the moment because he loves everyone in my DnD group. Said it was the best time of him life so I will need to impose him during every session now.
  11. Then I failed to tell the story correctly. Please forgive my apparent aggression in the first post. It is a subject that I get emotional about still and did not do a good job looking it over. I should have exercised more restraint talking about faith in the metaphysical threads as it is a touchy subject. I still stand by my story. I better not say anything else or I would just cause more conflict. I do not wish to be abusive on these threads. I appreciate the input I have received from others here about tulpa it is very helpful.
  12. It is ok I would have thought I was propaganda too only 5 months ago. It is hard for me to describe things I once use to believe in with any zest. Please do not take it as a personal insult. I should say when I was religious god was real to me because I could talked to him. But as I grew closer to hearing the voice consistently it sounded more and more like my own voice. Also god could not answer any question that didn't already rely on using knowledge I already possessed, or in other words I never received new information. If you wish to think that I was simply delusional or I am making stuff up that is fine. But I still did let the god tulpa go and he dispersed himself. It was painful and I cannot forgive the traditions I was raised in for doing this to me. But I understand why such social constructs exist and I cannot be mad at the believers themselves. Ok I just realized I got the time line wrong when I described what happened. The time I spent researching psychology and the natural world was about a year off and on. The time I reach the existential crsis to when the god tulpa dispersed was about a month. The god tulpa existed for many years before that point. Sorry I can see that would be confusing.
  13. Ok good. I just want to be careful with this subject as it is very easy or tempting to explain tulpa as something supernatural. But as with all supernatural explanations they seem to fall by the wayside the more knowledge you posses about the subject and the natural explanation prevails.
  14. Short answer: Tulpa live in your brain and your brain is made of matter. Longer answer: As far as I understand it it is very possible that universes are created all the time from nothing or when 'membrane' collide. Subatomic particles are barley understood and researchers are working on understanding them better all the time. related videos: hope this is helpful
  15. Assuming we could reach a acceptable definition for a soul I would say yes. Since as far as I am concerned humans are considered to have souls by society. My tulpae feel like different individuals that share in one whole self. So if I have a soul then they do as well. Assuming reincarnation for a moment you could speculate that a tulpa might be an expression of a previous life that is attached to one soul. Assuming heaven exists for a moment weather or not your tulpa will be with you might depend greatly on the kind of god that was there. There are many gods and afterlives believed in by many people so I must say this is a difficult question to answer. If the god in heaven is kind loving and caring then they probably would have no problem letting your tulpa be there with you. If god is that jealous sort from the old testament he might very well obliterate your tulpa right in front of you for taking attention away from himself.
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