Jump to content

biblioman

Members
  • Posts

    24
  • Joined

  • Last visited

1 Follower

Custom Title

  • Member Title
    Resident Science

Personal Information

  • Gender
    Undisclosed
  1. biblioman

    CTRL+V

    For once, I have nothing to paste. What madness is this?!
  2. Holy wall of text Batman! Granted, I'll probably do the same, but whatever. :P On a more serious note, thanks for the thought-out reply. Really appreciate it, as I'm a total noob with regard to this stuff. I can't reply to each part of your post, individually, but I'll try. Science: how would you feel if you knew you were created for a science experiment?... WAS my logic, anyway, but then I realized that I'm creating her for many more reasons than science, so I'm good. Gender: well, yeah. It seems to be the trend, and something about it/her just "clicked" for me. EEG: Yup! Very happy to (maybe) contribute to this excellent community somehow! ...And, from the intelligence shown in your reply, your brain is anything but sucky; I won't purport to know you, though. Traits: Thanks! I spent a while on those, now I'm off of that and on to... just talking, imposition, and a wee bit of traits. Google Doc? I honestly forgot what you're referring to... that's probably a bad thing. :P I'm not actually logging hours anymore, but I am journaling meditation so that when I have to present in front of my entire (25-student) school I won't look crazier. They already know I'm a bit out there. Eh... that'd be irresponsible, I'd think, but it might work. Thanks for the idea! I definitely have a mind voice, I think (and talk) to myself all the time and it developed over time. Math 301 (at least I think it was 301) was Graph Theory, not the y = 2x type of graph, but like the Konigsberg Bridge Problem and stuff like that. This deserved it's own quote thingy. Thanks so much for this, it really reaffirmed my desire to create her. And yeah, there are a ton of idiotic adults - one page on Facebook, after I told him about my uncle's suicide on some ridiculous photo he shared called "How to Hang Yourself," said, and I quote, "not a single fuck was given that day. The counterpoint, though, is that a LOT of awesome teens exist, which, based off of your profile age (is that accurate?), you seem to fall in, as well as my entire school. ...And my life story is going off track, don't feel the need to apologize for it. :P Like I said, it (your post) was very helpful. On the existence point: very true! I didn't even think about the religious aspect to that when I posted! I'll have to think tomorrow, though, it's past 11:30 here. I need to hit the hay soon. (Better hope I don't fall on the needle. :P) Sentience: well, it happened (I'm almost certain), so it's moot now, but my revised view is that, as long as you feed attention (the Freudian type, not the metaphysical type) into your tulpa, it'll become sentient. So, if you feed half of your life, even if you aren't forcing 12 hours a day, into he/she/it, they'll become sentient a lot faster than if you barely think about it. And I thought about her a LOT. That was a project I gave up, pretty much as follows: If log base 2 (n) is a whole number, I'll thank N people, in the community or out, for what they've done for me. Else, do nothing. The now-defunct Fede's noise is very helpful for early-on stages, I stopped after I could hear her relatively consistently. Just be warned that Fede's method... isn't very good. The noise is, though. Anyway, that was pretty lengthy, and it's late here, so time to rest. Thanks for your post! If you ever want to talk, feel free to send me a PM! -biblioman
  3. I am still forcing, even though this log isn't being updated. Friday: Nothing, preparing for Science Bowl. Saturday: Science Bowl. Sunday: 12 minutes in a few free minutes of forcing, half on Tulpatone and half off, mindvoice was clear the whole time.
  4. Thank you Aarix! I kinda wish I had known that though... Anyway, time to force, be back shortly.
  5. AH JESUS. Just realized I had a log or something, I dunno. Welp, I restarted after some family chaos - I've been thinking about my recently deceased uncle lately, so I didn't want to force at such a bad time - and that kinda took a month. Insert sadface emote. So, without further ado/redo: Day "1", the day before yesterday: 22 minutes of essence-based meditation. Day "2", yesterday: 16 minutes of meditation, done to Fede's (RIP) tunes. Heard her mindvoice... again... in the last 3-4 minutes. Twas awesome.
  6. A: Sweet Apple Massacre xor Cherilee's Garden. Yeah, I'm a lightweight - bipolar disorder and all make me want to stay away from Bestgore and all those creepy-ass places. Oh god I'm nauseous already from the descriptions of the videos that you guys posted thanks a lot you yogurt cannons. Q: [Modified version of an earlier question that I posted.] You're locked in a room with a computer. You know that you'll be facing off against someone, who, determined with equal likelihood, will either be your best friend or a random stranger. They don't know who you are either. My avatar is on the screen. You know that if... ...both ally: you each win $2 million (USD) for being nice. ...both betray: nothing happens and everyone's sad. ...one allies and the other betrays: the one who betrays gets $3 million and the one who allied is sentenced to death. Because meanness isn't ALL bad. You'll have to spend 15 minutes after the game with them to talk about it. What do you do? What's your reasoning?
  7. Try clicking on the attachment, sorry, I'm a bit new to this "forum" thing. :P (And it's weird; I've never watched anime yet her form is "crystallizing" into this.) Also, I'm commissioning one of my classmates to paint her. Very happy. Anyway, Day 5 (yesterday) coming up: -Spent 8.5 minutes before dinner (I do time my sessions for the sake of keeping a good journal.) with Fede-lasse's pure white noise on vocalization. It (gasp) made it easier to narrate and I heard her voice for likely the first time. I then tried Surprise Me again: Me: "Um... surprise me?" Aleana: "Why should I? I already did." -Spent 12.5 minutes after dinner, with the white noise, on vocalization. We talked a bit, I heard her more. She seemed to be annoyed with my doubt, so I will drop this here (from my journal). Sentience: (mostly) done. Anyway, I will be traveling soon, so I won't be updating quite as frequently. I will, though, be forcing and may update in bunches of days.closeup flowers original lips long hair kimono green hair anime golden eyes aqua hair orange eyes j_www.wallmay.com_98.j
  8. biblioman

    CTRL+V

    antidisestablishmentarianism Wut.
  9. A: Probably freezing, I'd want to die fast. Example: do a Baumgartner and jump from the stratosphere above NYC sans parachute, just so that I can traumatize everyone within 100 feet. Q: Roll.
  10. A: Because they're uncreative. (And thanks.) Q: You're locked in a room with a computer. You know that you'll be facing off against someone, who, determined with equal likelihood, will either be your best friend or a random stranger. My avatar is on the screen. You know that if... ...both ally: you each win $1 million dollars for being nice. ...both betray: you're both sentenced to death for being mean. ...one allies and the other betrays: the one who betrays gets $2 million and the one who allied is sentenced to death. Because meanness isn't ALL bad. What do you do? What's your reasoning?
  11. A: Already answered. But, out of curiosity, does it need a Christmas hat? Q: Why does everyone like my questions so much?
  12. Day 4: (There's a lot of talk of 'essence' in here, all the required background is that I have a theory of personality [which has probably been made before] and the deepest layer is one's essence, their belief/moral system, unconscious, repressed memories, etc. I'm a highly visual guy, so I imagine an essence's color and form mentally, with each correlating to a different trait.) -I took a 20-minute walk to try to narrate; ended up failing because I'm a quiet guy. I barely talk. -I imagined Aleana's essence for 7 minutes (following Bluesleeve's method); it fits with my introspection and experimentation with essences recently. (I'm not doing anything dangerous mentally, just imagining those of different people I know.) I actually came up with a personal philosophy of what an essence means to me, i.e. what the color and form mean. -I also introspected and imagined Aleana's essence for a good 13 minutes combined later. -Last, for 31 (!) minutes I tried to recreate her essence, culminating with me putting the essence in her current form. Carried her to a mental bed, but not before doing the "surprise me!" tactic. I got a foreign mental voice, which said "meatloaf". ...I don't even know. Another thing: I'm going to start thanking N people, in or out of the community, by initials or username, on every day which can be expressed as 2^N. (For instance, on the 512th day, I'll thank 9 people, but on the 513th, none.) So: Day 2 thanks - waffles for the help in the setup and in my other thread. Also, waffles, why do you torture me with your terribly good advice? Day 4 thanks - my mother and father for not considering me crazy for doing this. (I talked it over with them, as it may or may not impact my mental health... dunno yet.)
  13. biblioman

    CTRL+V

    http://media.psu.com/media/articles/image/zero%20escape%20ally%20betray.jpg (I was changing my profile pic.)
  14. Now that I have an avatar, because Zero Escape is a fucking awesome series. Roll. Also on the subject of no-fap 2013, a joke I came up with: tulpa.info. Bringing new meaning to the phrase "Go fuck yourself." since 2012. If you're offended, see disclaimer and know that it's a joke.
  15. A: Probably several months to the year (if I feel awesome). Q: Is there a story behind your avatar? If so, what is it? Ah yes, Avalanche, on your scale of nerdiness I'm 10/10. I code (and publish) apps, I play games, I read way too much fanfiction (and wrote one a few years back) and I have a thorough headcanon of MLP. Thanks, I needed that. (Though I don't watch anime... yet.)
×
×
  • Create New...