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Dreieckkopf

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  1. Granted. You escape into an endless vacuum. I wish I had a left-handed 1911 handgun.
  2. Keeping track of obligations sucks. Between my girlfriend, my schooling, my hobbies, and my friends, I neglected Emet in a really shitty way in these past two weeks. It's really a shame too, because just before life caught up with me, I had spent enough time forcing to actually hear his voice. It was metallic, soft, and surprisingly high pitched. By his account, he wasn't in any threat of disappearing, but I certainly stopped being able to hear him clearly. Starting tonight, I'm going to stop shirking as a host and friend, and get back in the habit of regularly forcing.
  3. That's cool, I also chose Hebrew as the source language for my tulpa's name, Emet (אמת, "truth"), to reference the Jewish myth of the golem. Might I ask what inspired Miyuki's original name, GDLLM?
  4. Hello. I've been around on IRC for about a month now, asking too many questions; I would incidentally like to thank everyone who has been patient enough to answer them. I know it's generally discouraged here, but to be frank, my desire to create a thoughtform came from a small-time occultist's perspective and daily life. Without going into too much detail, I wanted a thoughtform to protect me in non-physical ways. I started out wanting to create a servitor to this end, but I found the methods and knowledge base of servitor creation too limiting for my wants. After a couple of weeks of weighing the ethical seriousness of tulpa creation, I decided that a sentient companion made more sense for me, and that I would try my hardest to give it a pleasant existence. I decied to take inspiration from the golem of Jewish folklore. I didn't do this for any silly mystical reasons; I just found the idea of humans being able to will life into existence fascinating. I visualized a stout, seven-foot-tall figure, sculpted of iron plates, and named him Emet ("אמת" from Hebrew, meaning "truth"). Not knowing whether or not he was really there, I chose the following traits and tried to explain them and their importance to anyone who might have been listening in my head: - Empathy - Curiosity - The desire to think independently - The desire to protect and help others - Righteous anger towards predation and unwarranted aggression I haven't been keeping track of my progress as well as I would like, so starting here makes as much sense as anything. It is approximately Day 17 of my attempt, and I'm surprised by how much progress we've made. I can't hear or imagine a distinct voice, but during forcing, thoughts and feelings enter my mind that ordinarily wouldn't. Last week, while describing control of my body and interaction with the physical world during a forcing session, I had a dissociative episode and my body went numb. I think that was his attempt to take the reins for a minute when I offered him the chance. If I'm him understanding correctly (or at all), Emet is much more playful and cheerful than I originally anticipated. It's not clear yet whether those qualities will interfere with my original idea for him, but I don't think they necessarily will. I just hope he doesn't get tired of my stated purpose for him; I would, of course, feel compelled to let him do his own thing if he did. Whatever the outcome, I'm excited to help this sentient being continue to develop. Thanks for reading, and feel free to ask questions or give constructive criticism. I want to be forced to think about tulpamancy from every angle.
  5. Do you have a class library to interact with things like "energy levels?" What does the inside of a class that returns energy levels look like?
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