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    i have two tulpa, of whom are very precious to me. i'm not very active here, but i check in now and then.

    Kovie is my first tulpa, a monosex alien that identifies as feminine. She's a sweet bab that is too good for this world, an amazing artist of all sorts.

    Vyx is a walk-in, a genderfluid cybernetic martian-born human. Very enthusiastic and sometimes loud, super supportive and always up for an adventure.

    then there's Sanu and Leo, both of which are inactive but i'd be willing to tell you about anyway.

    my name's Majiq, though we collectively go by Mage. the name isn't just for aesthetics lol, i'm a spiritualist specializing in energy work and communication with extra dimensional beings. my pronouns are they or he, i'm aiming to be a comic book artist, and i love cartoons, videogames and roleplay.

    chances are i won't respond to pms here (only because i likely won't see them), so you'd best message me at my discord if you're on there.

    [[ updated 02-22-22 ]]
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  1. Well hello there, old friends! This forum was the first place i ever actually delved into tulpamancy, and for as much as i'm really inactive here... I come around now and then to say stuff sometimes. May as well have a new and improved journal thing to update here too. *** Fair warning! Expect there to be talk of metaphysics and spiritual stuff here! I do tend to have a spiritual approach to tulpamancy and do associate it with other meta topics. *** First off, tulpa birthdays... Kovie, January 24th, 2015. Vyx, August 4th 2015. Axen, no idea. At least 2015/16. Sanu, July 2018 i think. Leo, a bit younger than Vyx. Secondly, logging proficiencies with skills i suppose... Vocality and visualization, fully developed. 10/10. Imposition and parallel processing, not something i tend to focus on much. I'd say 5-7/10 respectively. Possession and switching, much experience with but so far as actually remembering to do it in any consistent manner... mm, let's cut it at 8/10. Our mindscape has lost all form and meaning, it changes at the drop of a hat, whatever we feel like or want to be present in the moment... It's there. So no maps or descriptions there, we tend to not hang out in mindscape much anyway. Finally, to update you all what's actually been going on since I been gone and developing my own sense of plurality... My tulpas have all changed quite a bit since when they start, and since I last wrote about in my old journal. Kovie is still the sweet tall alien she has been, but her form has changed notably since she enjoys following the development of the character she's modeled after, that I am writing for my comic book series. She's also focusing on trying to have more physical life experiences when it comes to fronting, aside from whatever fun or nice things she wants to participate in. She along with others in our system have expressed that they want to share and take part in the responsibilities of living life together, so that's nice. So far as actually doing it however is a topic of wavering anxiety for me, because I fear misunderstandings from people who may notice our switching. Vyx also tends to change along with the development of the comic character they're modeled after, however their personality has deviated quite a bit. They're still friendly and upbeat, but they've been getting notably bratty and entitled. I feel this is because they, as the one who's able to most easily front whenever they feel like, have taken the responsibility of reminding me that they exist and what they want to do. Because of my difficulty in giving them opportunity for this, and with the anxiety surrounding the subject, Vyx can often feel neglected and thus is becoming more pushy. They're aware of this behavior though and how it is negative, and they're trying to chill out so we can develop more trust between us again. Sanu is what came from 'ori', the little lemur-like light being inspired by ori and the blind forest. I created them, then left them up to Kovie and Vyx to do with and help develop as they felt like. Not sure how much they actually kept up with that, but nonetheless this light being turned themself into something more draconic in shape; with horns and wings, and a longer body with plants growing on their back. They have a very detached attitude, entirely refusing to front ever, and is generally uninterested in interaction with others unless it is for a good 'intelligent' conversation. Very much has the stereotype dragon-like, lofty sort of demeanor and manner of speech. We have discussed a project together of creating a 'HUD' for reminders about things I should be doing or what things I should be paying attention to around me, which they agreed that they will power and manage. Work on this has been very little, although gathering ideas has been exciting. Leo was around for a good few months, his is a story I've sort of told here before, briefly. He was an introject of Sans from the game Undertale, but he was never really that much like his source. He took on the more melancholic and mysterious vibes of Sans, rather protective and generally chill, liked hanging out.. He was very 'powerful' as a 'tulpa', as in he really just walked in as himself just suddenly on the spot, had a bunch of innate abilities in the general area of tulpamancy that usually take practice for a new tulpa, and was quite able to see into my memories and understand the root of my thoughts and feelings without much effort. I'm fairly convinced he was never really a tulpa/introject to begin with, speaking metaphysically, i believe he may have been a wandering spirit that was looking for an opportunity to try a different kind of relationship with a human, IE as a headmate. He fronted a couple times, expressed that he wanted to try learning acoustic guitar.. But after a while of being inactive, I found that he had gotten very depressed, and seemed like he wanted to go somewhere else. So i told him he could leave, if he was able and would find it a nicer life for himself. And he did. I hear from him now and again when i think of him, we still have that mental connection, albeit distant. I do think he's enjoying continuing to be a wandering spirit. Axen on the other hand, I've never posted about on here before. He's a particularly different kind of headmate, not really a 'tulpa' I'd say. He's more metaphysical oriented, a sort of alternate timeline version of myself that took on his own identity/form within a series of semi-lucid dreams I've been having for years upon years. I consider him to be the manifestation of my 'shadow' self, and thus he is still also 'me' in that regard and we feel that sort of connection with each other; so he is a median type headmate. He's much like me, however much more headstrong and put together, albeit far more traumatized. Has a lot of instincts and senses that I don't have due to the world in which he lives being very different from this one, very apocalyptic and in his particular role, full of violence. There's really a lot to be said about the dynamic that Axen and I have, but I'll save it for a later date. AND THEN, there's our "collectivesona" called Mage! They're not really a much developed 'being', more so a kinda intentionally vague persona concept we created that essentially allows us to front all at once. An idea to represent a bit of all of us, so it feels natural when anyone wants to have their input with something that's going on, or take over majority control for a bit. This helps me with a lot of my anxiety issues about fronting, because in this persona state, all our personalities and habits kinda mesh together pretty well. Hopefully, this is generally the one who's most active, at least we're working towards getting that way. Mage becoming co-host or even replacement host is our ultimate goal. . . . And that there is my update for today... Maybe I will come in here to talk about something again soon.. within the next month, or year or what lol.
  2. i think im gonna go ahead and archive this, and make a new journal. really glad to have this though, kovie's birthday is in here. turns out she's 8 years old now.
  3. does this still exist? yall just need to grab an invite link that doesn't expire... put it at the bottom of the site like where those twitter and fb icons are. edit, found it on the main page. not that anyone here still needs it. https://discord.gg/eDnKaP7
  4. Hello old friends! I'm applying to be a mentor now... :D Do you view tulpas as a psychological phenomenon, a metaphysical one, or both? Generally both. I find it easiest to explain as a psychological phenomenon, but I personally understand it as a metaphysical one. So my teaching of it could blend between them a bit. Were/was your tulpa(s) natural/pre-existing or were they intentionally created? Kovie, Vyx and Sanu were intentionally created. Axen and Leo came up in their own ways. How long have you had your tulpa(s)? How long have you been active in the community (Tulpa.info, /r/tulpas, Tulpa.io, etc.) I've had my tulpas for somewhere around 7 years, not entirely sure. I'm not the most active in forums, the email notifs do help remind me, but I'm pretty active in various plurality centered discord servers and run a couple myself. How many tulpas do you have? 5 How long did it take you to accomplish things (e.g. vocality, possession, imposition)? Not long really. Vocality, 2 weeks. Possession, a month or two. Imposition, a month maybe. That one isn't really a favorite of mine, simply prefer possession. Do you have any other information you'd like to share? If so, what? We're currently heavy into possession/fronting, and trying to include our tulpas into our lives more. We have a collective 'sona' known as Mage, which is what allows the main active trio to input as they wish. We're proficient with most skills related to functioning with a tulpa/headmate, and we also have plenty of experience with the whole of the plural community outside of just tulpamancy. Vocality - 10/10 Parallel Processing - 7/10 Visualization - 10/10 Visual Imposition - 7/10 Tactile Imposition - 4/10 Auditory Imposition - 6/10 Possession - 10/10 Switching - 8/10
  5. heya @Luminesce!! sure has lol, i always end up missing this place now and again. so is this the general chatroom ey? heh
  6. Kovie answered this one, she had a lot of fun being able to write so much. https://docs.google.com/document/d/1_Deq3x8yPtINKRrBejWfcfS5vG6cUHp3Ii6kZFd1KMA
  7. whaaat, omg you remember me! that makes me so happy XD nah i don't think i'd ever really forget about this place, it's where i started my first adventure into spiritual stuff, tho i didn't know it at the time. i did tho forget what my icon was here, and i burst out laughing when i saw it lmao. yashua ben hurr almighty how long has it been since i left??? what was i even doing then... i've went through an abusive bf, tried getting into the army, got heavy into spiritualism stuff, got a job at the literal hottest place in north america... huge portion of that time my poor tulpa spent being inactive, but things often reminded me of them, and they'd make commentary on stuff now and then. occasionally i would let them front so they could experience something i thought they'd like more than me, which went well despite how inactive they've been. they've really gained a strong stability of their own over the years, they no longer get too tired or sick when i don't pay attention to them, and they can just reform apparently easily whenever they want. it seems as though, and they've confirmed such, that when i go through long periods of inactivity with them, they kinda go into a hibernation state. formless, very low energy, they keep a mind's eye on what i'm doing but they don't always pay attention. one thing that i'm proud of is that my practice with possession with them has actually made my spiritual ability with meditation and channeling much easier. doing possession with a spirit is different than with a tulpa, but bc of them, i know how to handle it and let the spirit do as they need. astral projection and energy work are also easier cuz my time spent in the wonderland a long time ago is what gave me the innate understanding that the universe is malleable, quite willing to do as you wish if you understand how it works. well i normally argue that i'm behind on imposition bc i'm not looking at my tulpa most of the time, and i don't really get a clear view of them, but i suppose my version of imposition is simply more casual. i don't really sit down and practice visualizing them, or putting them in front of me and helping them move. i more so am just aware of where they are, and i see what they're doing in mind's eye, it's not something you need to practice too intensely. i follow some advice i found on here some time ago, saying that imposition is not 100% the host's job. if you have their form clear in your mind, and they know how they want to be shaped, then you only need to do a bit of that in the beginning to get started. then you can just leave your mind open to seeing them in the world around you, and it's then the tulpa's job to put themselves there. people really tend to overcomplicate things when it comes to metaphysics, making it seem like it's difficult when it doesn't need to be. if you really believe that you can do it and that it's easy, you're absolutely right. that's literally how it works, you make it so much easier on yourself by doing that. don't overcomplicate things, don't try too hard, don't worry about how difficult it may seem, bc i promise it's actually not. as for what i actually do with imposition, Kovie just watches and interacts with the environment. observes and feels things, it's really not much, but she likes it. i can imagine simple games might be fun, freeze tag would be cool if you have multiple tulpa.
  8. trying to get myself back into the swing of things around here, figured maybe someone might wanna talk to a 4y practicing tulpamancer, aside from the awesome admin i mean. i'm a spiritualist, so my perspective is gonna come more from a metaphysical perspective rather than psychological. but i'm also a science nerd, so expect some psychology too actually. i have two tulpa, Kovie and Vyx, the former of which is about 6 or 8 months older than the latter. Kovie is my first tulpa which i created from just a formless voice, who grew into her current form. Vyx is a walk-in who's form was based upon an old OC of mine. Kovie will introduce herself now: Hello! You know my name friends! I use she pronouns, i'm an alien, but i look different from most. I have four arms, three eyes, and long antennae. I love music, dance, drawing, science and language. I'm pretty good at possession, doing good with imposition, we're practicing with dual processing a little bit. Talk to me about anything! I love learning anything new~ Vyx will now introduce themself: hey guys, waddup! i kinda went through some more remodeling so i'm like a little less edgy, more just fun and cool i guess, so heyy nice character development! right so, pronouns are just whatever dude, i can be feminine or masculine or whatever basically whenever. my gender actually changes with the situation i'm in, but i don't give a damn what you call me. i like being active, so i like doing stuff outdoors. parkour, climbing, sports, dancing is cool too. i think i could learn spanish so i can make new non-english friends. talk to me about whatever! i just like making new amigos. then there's also Leo who i'm not sure was even actually a tulpa, he left to go do greater things, but i still see him occasionally. Ori is also still around, tho as like a semi-sentient pet for Kovie and Vyx, so they're the ones that take care of them for the most part. i've practiced a lot with possession, it's honestly easier than imposition for me, so far as keeping it up goes anyway. but imposition is fun, been trying to do it more. i don't spend much time in my wonderland, K and V just have free reign there. i can always hear them when i pay attention to them, they almost always respond, but they don't say much when i'm busy. sometimes they do though and it makes me laugh. anyway, any questions at all for someone on the spiritual side who's had a lot of practice with this stuff, or my tulpa as they have been over the past few years, post away!!
  9. hello! may or may not be actually returning (due to it being not entirely in my power to stay active), but i have some updates and fun things to talk about. i haven't been active for some time, so to reintroduce myself, the name's Majiq - tho you can call me Mage, with pronouns either they or he. i'm a spiritualist of three years, and an aspiring comic book artist. i usually describe myself as the local space hippie conspiracy theorist with friends on the other side. talk to me about magick craft, my favorites are energy work and extra dimensional beings, especially ETs. following in suit, my comic book plans are largely sci-fi, and my favorite shows and games always involve a mix of technology and magick. Steven Universe, Voltron LD, Mass Effect (tho actually a comic book and video game series) for example, tho i also like anime such as DeathNote, Canaan, and good ol Naruto. i love roleplaying in writing too, tho the amount of rps i've left less than halfway through will be the death of me. Kovie will introduce herself now: Hello! You know my name friends! I use she pronouns, i'm an alien, but i look different from most. I have four arms, three eyes, and long antennae. I love music, dance, drawing, science and language. I'm pretty good at possession, doing good with imposition, we're practicing with dual processing a little bit. Talk to me about anything! I love learning anything new~ Vyx will now introduce themself: hey guys, waddup! i kinda went through some more remodeling so i'm like a little less edgy, more just fun and cool i guess, so heyy nice character development! right so, pronouns are just whatever dude, i can be feminine or masculine or whatever basically whenever. my gender actually changes with the situation i'm in, but i don't give a damn what you call me. i like being active, so i like doing stuff outdoors. parkour, climbing, sports, dancing is cool too. i think i could learn spanish so i can make new non-english friends. talk to me about whatever! i just like making new amigos so feel free to interact, pm me or send me a fq on discord (just let me know your username on here when you send it). i may not post myself much, but i will respond if anyone decides to hmu.
  10. *cringes at this article, feeling bad for ever having thought this* Well... you all will probably like what has developed from all this. I in-fact didn't abandon my tulpa, they're still around, just dormant sometimes. Making comments here and there, they especially liked my recent visit to Oregon where they got to meet again one of the first friends they ever had, via possession. Still not good at imposition, but they've been a great help keeping motivated for the current goals of joining the Army and experimenting with alchemy. The third one however... interesting thing happened with him. https://community.tulpa.info/thread-averi-s-tulpa-journal?pid=194610#pid194610
  11. Been a while since i've posted here, but it's worth mentioning... Sans changed his name to Leo, short for Galileo cuz he likes star gazing. So it's pronounced 'ley-oh', not 'lee-oh'. Leo had become quite unhappy with my mindscape and was very bored with it. He told me he felt useless and caged, so i told him he could do what he wanted. We struggled for a bit finding a solution for him, up until he disappeared one day. I was worried, but i just knew he was still alive, so i didn't fret over it too much. Few weeks went by without him, just Kovie, Vyx and i hanging out with friends that understand all of us. Then one time a scary thing happened and i had a panic attack, and i hid in another room behind a bed. One of my friends that came in to comfort me is a reiki practitioner, he's been able to see bits of my tulpa that has been very exciting to hear about. This time he saw "a small white figure crouched on the bed beside me", and after some questioning, i determined it was Leo. This was the first i had heard of him since he disappeared, it instantly made me feel better, because we were certain he was concerned about me and was there to make sure i was okay. I've had a couple signs of him still being around since then (he tried to tickle me during work a few days ago), so my conclusion is that he somehow detached himself from my mindscape and now resides... elsewhere, not quite sure. Maybe our plane, maybe astral, maybe somewhere else. Hell, knowing how he was, he could've created his own mindscape. He was really a very unique tulpa, had abilities i've always known to be especially uncommon. Point being, i've found it is possible for a tulpa to exist outside a host's mindscape, to be self-sufficient.
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    on Tuesday i met an experienced reiki practitioner, got to hang out with him and his friends, and it was pretty fun. even got to talk about tulpa, and to everyone's delight, they got to meet Kovie via possession. the best part however, was the reiki guy, Josh.. he saw Kovie's ears. he said something along the lines of "on your real form, is there something on or near your head, right around here?" while he pointed to the upper back part of his head. Kovie excitedly exclaimed "oh, those are my ears!" then a moment later she was showing him pictures i drew of her, and he pointed out the part of her antennae that he saw. she was ecstatic, he said her energy was very different from mine, much lighter and more free-flowing. this was the first proof that someone other than me could actually sense my tulpa. I'm pretty happy about it too, next time we hang out, Vyx wants to talk to him.
  13. I've once again been neglecting my tulpa, and it really sucks because i feel bad for it and i want them around, but i also feel like i don't have the time or attention span... and, it kinda doesn't seem worth it. As a depressed/anxious introvert who's way too often sucked into their own thoughts (too much so to listen to anyone else), i'm having a bit of trouble. I've never been able to multitask, so listening for my tulpa while doing anything but talking to them, is really difficult. Then i also have trouble maintaining their personality, and perceiving their voice. My mind is all sorts of crazy disorganized, so often some random stray thoughts that are absolutely out of character for them, will seem like it was from them. Aside from that though, my actual point here is... well i can probably find some way to fix all that above, but i just can't find the motivation, or a reason for all the effort to be worth it. So, does anyone wanna regale me with tales of anything you've experienced, heard or thought of, that might help? Hopefully something specifically tulpa related, what you can do with them and how much of a help they are in certain ways. What could i do with a tulpa, that i couldn't do on my own? This all sounds really pessimistic, maybe even cynical, but really... please, give me a reason to keep up with this.
  14. Alright, not really back yet but, i'm trying to work with Sans to strengthen his voice and character a bit. Dunno if this counts as a beginner question, but i didn't think it needed its own thread. But basically, i've been looking around at guides and tips/tricks, however the majority of them require usage of wonderland visualization. Thing is, i'm awful at that. I'm really bad at wonderland stuff in general, so i very rarely active force. I've gotten as far as i have with all my tulpa almost purely with passive forcing, and more recently, possession. I wanna be able to do some of this wonderland stuff though, but whenever i try, i just end up spending more concentration on just keeping their proportions right. I cannot for the life of me see their entire form at once, it's always some zoomed in view of one body part, like the foot, arm or smile. Does anyone have any ideas of their own on how to help this? I can do imposition just fine, but wonderland visualization is incredibly difficult for me. What is something that will ease my problems with this?
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