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  1. So I have started to create my first tulpa. I wrote down a short list of desired traits though I am in no way attempting to force them upon the tulpa and for the form I am suggesting a green haired green lipped elfish like form. Very nature esque in form and clothing and she is female. I decided on the name Jayleena just so I could have something to refer to when referring to her before the name was decided by her. I tried at first to actively force but had a difficult time getting anything but the vaguest outline of her in my head. The visualization was not easy even though I have a very good imagination. I intended to do an hour straight but I barely made 15 minutes before I simply couldn't do it anymore. It was harder than I thought. I tried to talk to her in my head but got no response and didnt know what to say. As I was starting to get ready for work, i did a mix of passive and active forcing with my eyes open I tried to imagine her standing in front of me. Though my eyes saw nothing my mind slowly formed her outline and hair and lips but all other features were missing. then I started to imagine she was standing behind me and touching my neck or holding my hand/arm. While driving to work I imagined she was in the seat next to me and I held my hand out as if she was holding it. I noticed my hand seemed to increase in temperature 2-4 degrees and when I imagined her moving her hand to my forearm the heat moved with it. While I ws at work i continued to pretend she was behind me and periodically attempting a quick visualization. many times I pictured her holding my hand and about 20 percent of the time there was a temperature increase of maybe 0.5 to 3 degrees or a slight pressure increase in my hand though very vague. I kept trying to talk to her and many times i addressed her by the name jayleena hoping that would help make sure these thoughts were directed at her. At one point I got this sense to call her being Jay instead. I do not know if this was a response of her saying she wanted to be Called Jay and I told her that I would call her Jay. For the next several hours I kept passive forcing about her being behind or near me and kept trying to talk to her. then I ended up getting what Might have been responses but I have no clue if it was real or if I was parroting. It seemed I felt her get jealous (I am in a new relationship) and this sense of her traits starting to form somewhat and near the end of the night I noticed this wonderland had formed around her when I pictured her in my head. It was a waterfall, a stream and some flowers. i am certain I did not form that myself (I originally pictured her in a void) so I assume she did. But most questions were met with silences. though there was a series of times when if I was not parroting then she was telling me how she didnt want me to swear (I swear alot) that she doesn't want me to abandon her (which i promised not to do), and requested nature based music instead of what I usually listen to. When I changed it there was this unusual mild sense of contentment. Note that this was stuff I do not listen to myself. When all what may have been her communicating stopped, i closed my eyes and visualized her but she was sleeping instead of sitting as I had pictured her previously. However she never seemed to move on her own, movement of her seemed to be forced by me and not her. I noticed some details about her were slightly clearer and where my original images of her had no visible ears, pointed ears now protrude from her hair. At one point my thoughts adopted a higher pitched tone which i thought was her but then my own thoughts were in that tone as well so I have no clue. I do not know what to make of this. Is she really starting to form so fast or is this all in my imagination? What is your guys es interpretation of this? I have no idea what to make of this or what to do now. Any advice is greatly appreciated. I want to make sure I ma not fooling myself into thinking I am making progress if I am not.
  2. Thank you very much for your reply it is very helpful. I much agree that people feel distant from me. Being a very unique person that has been through a lot of crap in his life and has always experienced social rejection in one form or another I have always struggled with loneliness. I have never had someone who understands how I work and how I perceive things. this being said, tulpas to me apart from being a huge learning experience for how the mind works and how reality exists beyond what the common human believes, it seems an excellent opportunity to create a friend that can truly understand me and the things I do and have done whether they be of good or bad intent. Also because of this it seems that if the tulpa was agreeable and our personalities melded well enough together that feelings for each other could extend past friends into something deeper like a romantic relationship could be a very pleasurable experience or both. Again let me clarify that my purpose unlike many others isnt to create a "sex slave" but to create a deep bond between two beings, something I have never been able to experience myself. And of course while I will try to direct the tulpa to fulfill a desired form and trait list I have no desire to force the tulpa to be something its not just as i dont like to be forced to be something I am not. Furthermore the pure act of creating an arguably sentient creature will be a huge success for me regardless of how the tulpa itself turns out. Therefore a romantic relationship isnt the sole purpose of what I will try to create but it is the main reason between the desires that will be suggested for the tulpa to undertake. I do have another question. People say that you can make a wonderland to assist in the creation but it can be done just as well without. But it seems to my current understanding that the tulpa exists or lives inside the wonderland. Thus if I create just a void or ignore a wonderland all together (due to the difficulties I would have in imagining both in such detail) would the tulpa be then forced to live in this boring environment? Would it be possible to grace the tulpa with the ability to change and form the wonderland into whatever world it desires? I have not yet started the creation process as I need to decide exactly what to show the tulpa as part of the desired traits but i do feel a natural (or so I think) pull to an ease of both active and passive forcing. I have seen some discussions about people creating a servitor instead of a tulpa. Exactly how does it differ from a tulpa and why is it generally viewed in a negative light?
  3. Hello people, let me first say that I heard about tulpas about a year and a half ago but as I was just then starting my journey of mental and universal exploration I never paid much attention. But as I have matured on a mental level and gotten my bearings on where I am as a being and my own beliefs I think it is time I attempt this journey. Now I have a few questions that I have yet to find on the forum so my apologies if these have been asked before. 1. Is a tulpas intelligence or ability to learn separate or the same as yours? Like is what it learns limited to what I have learned or is it able to learn things that myself has not learned yet and thus allow for cross learning? 2. Is a tulpa able to have skills that the creator does not possess? For example I am terrible at drawing but would it be possible for my tulpa to have a knack for drawing and then hypothetically when I am far enough along for possession, be able to use my body to draw physically with its own skill? This goes for any skill set. 3.Do they disapprove of your actions? I have read that because a tulpa knows you and understand your actions and reasons for doing things they are very understanding of why you did something. What if the reason I did something was for a purely selfish reason? What if there is no justification for what I did would it not be likely a tulpa could dislike or hate me for that? 4. Is it wrong for one of the desires to create a tulpa be for romantic relations? No I am not talking sexually or anything abusive. But to have the type of bond and relationship a couple has. basically be in a loving relationship with a tulpa. Obviously if the tulpa does not desire it, it will not be forced. I will likely be very forthcoming with questions as I take this journey and try to understand what is going on.
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