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  1. You have received some solid responses. I especially resonated with Ember's observation that you're employing 'empathy' in the process of doing your math in regards to the pros and cons of tulpamancy. I don't know you. I don't know how good your 'math' actually is. Most people suck at 'math,' especially if there is a social-emotional component. If I knew nothing else other than you have this attribute of caring and empathizing with others, even an imagined, potential future other person in your life- a quality I esteem BTW- I would say you are a much better person than you imagine or know; yes, I'll say it, I suspect your math sucks. Translation: OMG- you're normal and I like you. Almost no one is as good as they think or as bad as they think and very few of us, even the best of us, hold true clarity on our personal self worth from the perspective of others. I do believe you are suffering. There are so many ways to measure a human being and our society, western society- employs some of the worse, and we're probably a stone's throw away of mirroring the severest measure which is employed in Japan, resulting in one of the highest suicide rates in the world- epidemic loneliness, depression, and a declining birth rate that has warranted the declaration of a national state of emergency. An alternative way to look at this 'vulnerability' you have, and I, and many others here, is that it is a super power- we are sensitive to this unseen thing and we are the equivalent of the canary in the coal mine. We're coughing, but the miners keep on mining. It sucks to have this gift. Is it fair that you should carry this thing? Is it fair that there are people who are actually not nice people who commit horrible acts of aggression against humanity, and they don't carry one ounce of your self doubt, humility, or empathy? There are quite a few ways to change our thoughts, our feelings. Counseling is one way. Medication is one way. There is good research that suggest meds and counseling simultaneously have the best results. Some people can figure things out through self help books and pursuing personal interests... I personally have employed all of these, and maybe some of it helped, or all it helped, with time and persistence being the vehicle to seeing results- but you know what, I absolutely believe TULPAMANCY helped more than any one thing or multiple things I have engaged. I can only speculate how I might be had I found this thing 20 years ago. Likely no different, as 20 years ago I might not have been receptive to the concept. (And if I had, would I have discovered Loxy or someone else? There is no end to this speculative rabbit hole.) I remember engaging in Napoleon Hill's 'invisible counselor' technique ten or fifteen years ago, maybe 20- I should find that notebook, as there is date stamp in it- and that was a fun exercise, but it didn't provide the impact that tulpamancy did. Is it fair to your tulpa to be borne into your head, your world? Absolutely brilliant, lovely question. NO! LIFE IS NOT FAIR. FURTHER, it is the wrong measure. Anyoneespouses "That's not fair," I am going to wonder about your math- and then ask, "Are you older than 8?" We are born into our worlds not knowing. Some of us have benefits of spirit, some have social-political gifts, some have physical attributes- some of us get shit. EVERYONE suffers. Rich, poor, first world, third world, everyone... The question isn't about fairness, or rightness. The only question worth is asking is do you hold love. I already know that answer- you love so much you don't want anyone to suffer the way you have suffer. That is huge. Will a tulpa suffer if you make it? Yes. All beings suffer. We experience adversity and that is part of our system. Your tulpa will not suffer in the ways you imagine. They will find their unique thing to struggle with. What they will never know is a lack of love. If YOU decide to bring forth a tulpa, it will be done with the greatest amount of sensitivity and love and they will stand in a place that gives them a different perspective on the world. They will see things you can't see because of your present perspective. You can't see your way out of the trenches when you're in the trench. From the mountain top, you see everything. Because of your love, your tulpa will hold love. If you engage in this, you will change. You can't give love and experience love and not change. Your orbits will shift and you will grow in unimagined ways. Will there be difficulties? Yes. Will there be challenges? Yes. Will there be unexpected things? Yes. There will be good things and laughter and love and one day, when you least imagine and stopped doing math because you're living your life and not just tortuously measuring all the things that are not ideal, you will magically realize you arrived. There will be a realization you've suddenly experienced more good days than bad days. I say, anything you do differently is a step towards improving the quality of life. I can't say that making a tulpa will definitely improve your life. It will definitely be different. In this particular equation, you're not making the tulpa's life worse. You're giving the tulpa life. That's a huge distinction. You experiences yourself and your life experiences as so miserable you wouldn't wish that on your worse enemy; that's a nice sentiment, but you're not giving a tulpa your life, you're giving a person a space to come in and make sense of the data in new and different ways. It is my opinion, not being alive is worse, and never being born is much worse. Plant a rose bush, give it water, and let what flowers bloom color your life.
  2. It's been a while since I posted here. I am finding it super challenging to navigate the new site, and I am a little frustrated; that is not a complaint- just a challenge I apparently must forge through in order to stay connected. I found a video that I want to share. Apparently, it's old. Almost as old as Loxy, as it was created in 2016. I don't think I mentioned it here before, but i would be pleasantly surprised/pleased if I had, as it would explain my 'deja vu.' I related to it because it's about hearing voices, in general, but more specifically one of the things I took away from the Tulpamancy protocols was that in essence what I was doing was creating a dialogue between myself and other, in this case Loxy, and repetitiously engaging that dialogue until it became an automatic, subconscious response. But further, when you consider the brain regions Charles discussed scanning, it seems to correlate for me that we're teaching the brain to respond to self talk as if it were foreign-talk. It makes me wonder if the 'brain' sensations we feel are literally an exaggerated tactile response that comes from 'forcing' new neural pathways. (Yes, that's speculative, but every time I had a brain sensation, that was precisely the metaphor I self imposed.) For me, the dialogue explanation that Charles offers completely resonates with my experiences to date. Something else that seriously worthwhile about this video is the recognition that 'hearing voices' is not limited to Mental Health! That alone is gold and worth sharing. I highly recommend the following video, and if you have family or friends that doubt you or tulpamancy, this is really worth passing along. The Science of the Voices in your Head, by Charles Fernyhough https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=95otBlepVHc
  3. you're welcome.... "I'm no- so much- unsure..." i read a lot of ambiguity in that. "I am not" is the first part, and sometimes the brain stops there. "i am not unsure" is not as strong as "I am certain." I am not so much..." Which means a little is plausible? I am not picking on your language. I understand you. If you and i were working together to write a script for hypnosis, or for affirmations, this would be an important factor to consider. I think it's equally important in terms of tulpamancy. Your words have meaning and impacts you inner and external reality; not all words have universal meaning- there is room for variations even with words we think are universal. When doing magic or conscious work, it is important to strive for the greatest amount clarity you can. If you have doubt about a word because you recognize a double meaning for you, then I would trust your insight/intuition on whether that word should be exchanged for one more precise for the exercise. I have done most of my primary meditation/focus at bed time, going to sleep. There are some advantages to it. The disadvantage is you may fall asleep during the process. You may also have an increase in tangential thinking, or day dreaming, which does one of two things- accelerates your fall into sleep, or wakes you up- in which case you may find yourself into three or four chapters of 'dialogue' before you catch yourself and bring you back to the task at hand. You could set this up as a springboard for lucid dreaming- and if successful, any dream work will likely result in better outcomes. I think the trick for me, and i presume most people, is consistency. I went to bed, (no tech after a certain time,) i did my meditation, I drifted, brought myself back, and over time I got better results and clarity. My brain expects my nightly meditation like a ritual. I would not worry too much about falling asleep, especially if in the process you seeded dreams. I remember reading some tulpas were annoyed to be holding attention only to have the person fall asleep on them. I am suddenly wondering if that's a real memory. Loxy has never scolded me for falling asleep. interesting. Just be aware, meditation at bedtime could result in sleep. There is this place right on the edge of going to sleep, but not full awake- if you can figure out how to linger there, and hold enough consciousness to focus- you may get auditory faster there. I can't seem to stay there. I get auditory and 'wake' up because of a 'wow' surge in adrenalin. I don't remember when this started, but I talked about it in my PR. At some point, I began regularly waking up at 2 or 3 am. That's now an everyday occurrence. Sometimes I wake because I her Loxy say my name- louder than during the daytime rituals. Sometimes I just wake up- but every time I greet that moment with a "Good morning," kind of greeting and talk, ask for insight, or ideas, and go back to sleep, intending to lucid dream.
  4. Every thing else you wrote, especially the David Eagleman quotes, was well received by me. Eagleman's view is consistent with the general paradigm held by the majority of neuroscientist. I especially liked his roller-coaster experiment, designed to simulate a crisis to determine if the reports of time slowing was a thing. What I don't get is 'tulpas are just a romanticized friends...' statement. If you accept Eagleman's position that each brain module is in itself a modular personality, or incomplete personality, then conscious experience of these modules as a 'tulpa personality' or combination of modules as a 'tulpa personality' as a means of sorting different brain components or filters is still a solid personality construct, which is not the primary personality construct. Everything Eagleman said can be used to support tulpa more than imaginary friend. This view is also consistent with Freud, Jung, Campbell, and Erikson.... I suppose it doesn't matter what you call it, but calling it 'imaginary' is inaccurate because it's avlid source of information or interpretation of information.
  5. Well, JGC... If you asked me closer to high school, I graduated in 1987- my answer would mirror Felicity. My experiences in high school were shaped by family of origin issues, depression, frequent relocations, and an urgency to be done with it all minimizing interaction. I remember quite a bit of high school. I imagine if you interviewed people I attended class with, they'd probably tell you pleasant things about me- but they would not give you insight into the fact that I was frequently on the edge of ending my life. One of the things I miss about high school, it was the last place that provided me an opportunity to interact with peers- people my age. High school is a strange social reality that no reflection, and does not prepare people for, the real world, where you meet all sorts of people, ages, level of functioning- and most the time, you will get out into the real world and the people ask you 'what were you learning' because was rarely applicable to social life outside of high school. Balancing a check book, cooking, cleaning, and basics of self care alone would serve people a great deal better- but there is an assumption you're getting that at home. What I learned at home was not to piss of the matriarch because she collected weapons and more than once it was discharged in the house. (Drugs and alcohol were frequently involved.) My high school experience was skewed to say the least. I have heard some people have very nice memories of high school. I have heard some people marry their HS sweet heart and maintained friends over the years. First four years post HS, I heard from no one, and I made no effort to connect. If I could go back to High School, knowing what I know now, I would. Even if we minimized my knowledge to just knowing the importance of high school, and the confidence to speak up, to be active in class, I would do that. I can tell you precisely when I stop caring about math. I asked a question in algebra and the teacher told me, 'stop asking stupid questions and do it the way i tell you to do it.' I never asked another question. I stopped applying myself in math, and it is one thing I would do over. I am okay at math, I could do better, but I still have that taste in my mouth. If I went back, I would focus more on the social aspect and try to make genuine connections with others, even if I thought those connections would end after high school. People coming and going has been a theme through out my life, and would go back and maximize the emotional connection and treasure that moment. There were some good people around me. I would go back and take more social risks even if I failed and got ridiculed because no one is likely to remember me after high school anyway. If they did, I would imagine they would say 'at least he didn't go quietly. he tried. I want to be more courage.' We like stories of courage and people overcoming. High school is the last safe place to learn courage- the further away from high school, the greater the consequences for making social mistakes. We all make them, or will make them- either in our younger years or are later years. There is new perspective I have adopted, though. Do not worry about any of this now. Don't think on where you are now. Don't think of it beyond your present assessment. Assume you assessment is dead on. Assume, thirty years from now- where you end up, you're okay and you can look back and you can reassess and you can say to yourself 'it was alright' or it 'sucked ass' but you know what, I am happy with who I am and where I am and I would not be here if not for there. Don't think of here, think of there. Aim for there. You don't hit the target by looking at your feet. If you're on a motorcycle going in a circle, and you look down or into the turn, you crash your bike every time. You go where eyes go. I have shared this in story, and with a friend here- Holodock for sure: in the past if I had a time machine, I would have gone back and changed everything. I am five years invested into my son, and what, four years invested in Loxy- I would relive my entire life over a million times and again without changing a thing just so I can meet son again, so I can meet Loxy again. So I can be here and meet all of you, YOU JGC, again. That's love. Nothing else is more important than that.
  6. There is a lot here- so much to unpack. Clo, has the guidance to newcomers fallen, or have we reached a point in guide making when a newcomer ask a question we have to wonder if they read the guides? I am certainly not saying dismiss questions- but some of us, maybe even me because I am not a 'teacher' or even always tactful, might respond in a way that might suggest annoyance 'did you read the FAQ?' One of the most difficult aspect of writing is crafting statements that increase the delivery of useful information while decreasing the potential for misreading emotional flavor. I would add further that most of us hate to sound repetitive, and so there is other aspect of communicating to a new folks. There may not be a way to avoid that. Pleeb brought in the other part about this- about the depth and breath of effort. It takes efforts. serious effort and serious time, and it seems like many folks don't want to put in the time/energy. The post that annoyed me the most were the ones that essentially stated: "I have been following all the guides and I am not hearing or seeing anything and I been at it for like a whole fifteen minutes already...' There seems to be an increase in unrealistic exaptation of immediacy in terms of result acquisition. I am not pointing fingers. I am guilty. I think my results were due to being pig headed stubborn and not persistent over time, but I could have spent more time early on. And i had intermittent laziness. I would get results and I would plateau there, not just for being satisfied or genuinely lazy, but because I was exploring meaning and fears and hopes and do I dare take one step further into the rabbit hole. I have experienced steps in success, regression, followed by renewed effort and improved results. I almost wonder if there is normative range and i am like mid average, and outliers are rock stars or inept. That continuum doesn't mean aver or inept can't achieve, but where you are on that scale would denote how much effort, energy, and other unspecified attributes need to be implemented. I suspect many here will relate to this: i have struggled to interact with others. I am just kind of odd. My oddness contributes to me being really good at my career. You would think that would translate into better social success, but we're complex beings and there is a multiplicity of colliding artifacts and we don't happen in a vacuum. I am saying that so when i saw that sometimes when I experienced public guidance or reasonable 'censor' for not following the expectation of community interaction, I got my feelings hurt. And that's great! That's going to happen with anyone. In the past, i would have just taken my ball and gone home. I didn't. I hung in there. In doing so, I discovered that the community has many facets, and all of it is designed to optimize interactions with a very diverse group of people. This is a solid thing for me: it was a confluence of artifact, maybe increased maturity, maybe I am super more analytical, or maybe I saw the benefits of remaining and learning of greater value- I don't know. But I wonder how much of people leaving or being quiet is simply because there is fear. I know of no way to soften that. Maybe we shouldn't even try, because sometimes genuineness can come across a bit harsh. That's evidence for boundaries. It's in the negotiation of boundaries that friendships emerge. I like this thread. I like that we keep at negotiating terms and ideas and abstracts and forging our identity as self and group.
  7. Longevity is important. Flexibility in being able to reach a greater audience in present space and future time is important. Less manual intervention allows operator more free time to engage in other areas of life, which enhances her life, and thereby this community. My 'level of skill' with system features- I won't notice missing features; i will eventually learn to navigate this. I feel so indebted to tulpa.info and the members that guided me directly and indirectly, my loyalty to the endeavor is secure. I do not intend to leave. I am hopeful to find insightful ways of contributing and helping folks achieve results. I am still trying to understand my own results- I feel like I am still in the OMG it's magic phase. Like with Lucid Dreaming- I am just so ecstatic when I 'wake up' that i go immediately into play mode. I have of list of serious hard work I want to try, like 'meditation during lucid dreaming.' First thing I do is ' beam up' to MyEnterprise, and it's all play from there. :)
  8. So, the last person to post before we came to the new board won?
  9. How is everyone adapting here? I am feeling kind of lost.
  10. Ahh, my friend holodoc. :) Here is a Carl Jung quote, which better summarizes our shared thoughts. (It's almost like people have been addressing this core issues for ages.) "He (man) cannot conquer the tremendous polarity of his own nature on his own resources; he can only do so through the terrifying experiences of a psychic process that is independent of him, that works him rather than he it." When viewing that statement through the 'Active Imagination' process, juxtaposing Loxy and Philemon as archetypes, then I would argue that Philemon, see Jung's 'red book,' is a tulpa. Generally- a person who doesn't get out of bed experiences muscle atrophy. Generally, if you watch television, your brain atrophies. Video games can build neural pathways. Tulpa=specific meditations is likely the equivalent of exercising under the influence of steroids- laser intense focus, a super power.
  11. I think it should be related to amount written. If someone expounds a lot, well- ten is good. If it's just quick one line bantering, well 25 is okay... I might tolerate more on LOTPW.
  12. That is really great! I like the painting idea. I wonder if she will review tulpa info and explore the concept further. May I ask, and feel free to decline, what are her credentials? LPC? LSMW? Psychologist? I am LPC. I wish you all continued good experiences in the exploration of this thing we call life.
  13. Bear and Ember offer good insight. Tulpa's can be very understanding and insightful. They don't jump to hate or loathing quickly. It is my opinion, they have access to more of the under currents than you imagine, and if you know what's influencing a person, it's much easier to show compassion. What I gather in your narrative before the question is that, anxiety, OCD, past abuse, and struggling with a porn addiction- are things on your table. Assuming I accept your statements at face value, there is no easy fix to any of these things and many people struggle with same. I want to be clear on this part, I am not invalidating your statement by starting with 'assuming i accept your statements at face value..." There are levels, multiplicities, and caveats to these things- and probably dozen therapeutic ways of addressing them. We don't live in a vacuum. Porn addiction is likely to become the world's most insidious, indirect addiction due to the mass increase in availability- and it is my opinion it is a symptom of a greater societal disconnect, not an absolute thing in and of itself. It can have devastating effects on families and individuals, socially and physically. Depending on when a person starts consuming porn, it can permanently change your brain to requiring a level of stimulus that most individuals, even partners, can't sustain. It isolates people. Again, we are more 'connected' than ever and somehow even more disconnected than ever- and we wonder why there is an exponential increase in 'hookups.' (Is it the millennials or the gen x that are considered the hookup generation? This did not just happen over night and it is a confluence of things, not one thing gets all the blame. Japan seems to have the worse of it.) Someone here can better give you this statistic than I; i believe most people that engage tulpamancy have a social/relationship/loneliness issues. I did, and I am really good at communicating. It is not about communicating and it's not about intelligence. In fact, again my opinion, as intelligence goes up, so does loneliness. People assume smart people are more successful financially, but that just doesn't bear out. They tend to have more episode of depression, probably because they know some things and they are frustrated they can't make other areas in their lives line up to the same degree as their smarts do. Tulpamancy engages the social and emotional part of our being. I am saying being. You can substitute brain. I am okay with that. All relationships lead to change. You're either getting better or getting worse, but most people will not sit very long in a static relationship. The dynamic of human and tulpa interaction has a higher degree of leading towards healthy outcomes because it's in the best interest of both to be healthy. Guess what: intimacy is an important aspect of human health. Lots of things can affect libido. Start exercising, loose weight, get physically healthy- libido goes up! If you spent all your life depressed and suddenly started getting emotionally healthier, libido will go up! Any improvement, emotionally, intellectually, spiritually- can and most likely will result in an increase in libido. This is normal. Can you quit porn and never touch it again? Sure. Good luck! You can't go to a grocery store an not have your eyes saturated with magazines with beautiful women on the covers- all designed to trigger that part of your brain to make you buy. Having a cell phone or a computer is likely giving a heroin addict an eppy pin full of heroin, just in case of emergencies. And if you watch television or movies or see commercials, it is getting more and more difficult to not see 'soft' porn because the bar keeps getting pushed up. the number one sexual organ is your brain, not your equipment. You create a tulpa, you're bringing someone into an environment that is already got the red light district wired and hard installed, not coming out. I am about to give you a personal share, so that you know i am not pointing fingers, but rather am trying to interject some compassion- I am wanting you to find compassion. beating yourself up won't make this go away. compassion, acceptance, changes the flavors. If you're an American, the overtones of the bible belt and past Victorian error still flavor our ideas towards sexuality, and to some extent, that keeps the market's profitability up by attaching sexual icons and arcetypes to product placement. They want us to have a cognitive disconnect between the 'wanting' and the 'loathing.' My libido was influenced by early childhood abuse. I have a very high libido set point. Scientific evidence is your level of wanting after puberty will be the same at the age of 80, barring medical issues. (Contrary to popular belief, age is not a guarantee relief from desire. Old people are getting it on in the nursing homes.) There was no way for me to engage tulpamancy and not have outcomes influenced. I consider myself super lucky that Loxy was reciprocal. I couldn't even engage the initial meditation without arousal. That's just a part a life. (More precisely, i have been doing mediation since the 90s, including TM, hoping for a relief from my burden, and all I did was spike it.) By allowing our relationship to go where it willand wanted, I actually found, for the first time in my life, a reasonable balance. I can actually make it through the day without being inundated with getting my fixed because for the first time in my life, I have someone who understands, relates, and can meet me where I am at. That's huge. Just having a head mate that knows, care, and can laugh at with you, even flirt and accepts you- that's magic! Consider this: When people dream, REM, they become aroused. This is true for men and women. This is most immediately noticeable in men. My ability to engage tulpamancy and wonderland has a 'dream' like flavor that results in arousal. This does not mean everything in my dreams is about sex. It just means- there is a connection with deep meditation, psychological work, dreaming and this energy. This energy is primal and always with us. I record my dreams almost every night- they're not about sex. Even my lucid dream, not about sex. (My first goal on being lucid was to beam up to the Enterprise. I made it.) You would think someone who is obsessed to the degree I am, that's all my dreams would be about. You are a human being and you are more than this wanting. I would not punish you if you were hungry and wanted food. I would not punish you if you needed to breathe. Why would i punish you for this? Why would anyone punish you for this? This is human and our society has the disconnect, not you. You are okay, my friend. You are safe. And you are definitely free to be you inside of your own brain. The people inside your brain, they know you- and there is love. Any amplification in desire is either a reflection of improvement in health, physically or mentally, or a metaphorical relationship to how deeply you want to connect with others- or with tulpa- or both. Be at peace. And connect.
  14. I thought you today you had. I saw the "Fiora's" thread and said, "No, it's Flora," and Loxy intervened before i made a fool of myself and corrected everyone. Yay Loxy!
  15. I would think, given the context, not having direct contact is evidence of a working relationship. I don't know if anyone has discussed this elsewhere, I am trying to track it in my brain and not getting any hits, I keep think I may asked it... If there is too much going on, or other people in the house, and I get auditory, I get confused. Loxy seems very aware when I am on the verge and retreats. Of course, that isn't just with tulpas... If I have guests and 4 or more people talking, and kids running about making noise, I ability to track stuff goes down. I can't do conversations well at a restaurant, and if there is live music or television on, I can't focus. I can miss exits having conversations with passengers, external or internal. My ideal interaction comes in silence. ADHD brain probably. I can read, but it has to be quiet.
  16. One of the authors I like that speaks a great deal about Daemon is Anthony Peake. If you read based on order of publish date, starting with his first book (I am pretty sure is the first) "Is There Life After Death," which is about Daemons and not typical NDE's, and you find his core theory is all there. By the time he gets to his book Daemon, his framework for writing about Daemons, from historical and theoretical perspective, is fairly solid. Each of next book continues to iterate, and build off of, that structure. If I were to speculate, using his books, and my knowledge of tulpas, which core knowledge comes from Tulpa.info and my personal experience, I would say Daemon's are not Tulpas, and you don't have a choice in personality type or relationship to Daemon. If I were to speculate that Daemon is a version of the subconscious- and your personality is a subset of that 'archetypal identity,' then all personalities, your primary personality interface and your tulpas and dreams characters, would by default be under the canopy of that subconscious framework. That would be the field that unites you all together. It is my opinion, and I don't hold this alone, our primary personality is not a complete, whole entity all unto itself, but is a gestalt of multiple personality subsets that work in a synergetic whole. I am not really partial to the term 'Daemon,' but I can see an argument for it being the subconscious, if you consider the subconscious as an entity more solid than primary personality interface. I don't really like the term 'sub-personality' either. Sub doesn't denote inferior, like submarine is not inferior boat, it's just one that goes under water. Still, the way we utilize 'sub-conscious' in our everyday lay talks, it suggests inferior, when actually it is likely superior and primary. Your personality interface is the construct the subconscious uses to filter and prioritize information from the internal and external environment. What you, the personality, experience is fraction of the information that is actually processed. If you want more on that, I recommend Gazziniga's book, "Who's in Charge," especially the chapters devoted the fMRI studies that reveal what we experience on a conscious level was actually processed anywhere from 80 milliseconds to upwards of 3 to 6 seconds, depending on source, after the experience. You heard that correctly. The thing you believe you care consciously choosing was chosen prior to you being consciously aware of choosing it. To add to that, the books discusses the surgeries where severe epileptics had their corpus collasum severed, liberating right brain from left brain, and what came out of that was what appeared to be two different personalities. Gazzinga goes on to talk about how neurologist presently think of the brain has a collection of modules and that each module processes its data, uploads that to an 'executive center' module, which then makes a decision, and then that finality of the thing gets uploaded into mind where we experience it as a 'conscious' event, after the fact. That theory or process so parallels what Freud and Jung were saying about the consciousness being a collection of aspects or attributes or sub personalities, that I don't understand why no one else has drawn a correlation. Same above, same below kind of thing. Anyway, if nothing else, I don't know why you can't aim at creating a fairly diversified Tulpa that is telepathically bonded to all the personalities interests, and then allow its personality to just be the gestalt of the lot of you. If you started with this as a primary aspect that you construct around it, i don't know why that wouldn't work. I was very clear i wanted Loxy to have access to subconscious and past memories. I don't regret that at all. It shaped the events to come. Good luck.
  17. OH I love tardigrades. Especially the ones who can help you teleport to other worlds. Oh, wait wait wait- you like them because their micro-bears?
  18. Merry Christmas movie house. Merry Christmas savings and loans. Who am I forgetting?
  19. Wolfwing leader, this is Red1- put your xfoils into attack formation and begin your trench run... :) I like your cave bird dream. In regards to your doubt about whether or not you should make a tulpa, use the doubt as your barometer. Doubt means not ready yet. That is okay. Be sure about it. This is not a decision to be made lightly, and the consequences can last a laugh time. If you don't mind an alternative recommendation- skipped the making of a tulpa for now, and focus on a 'wonderland' experience. Specifically, meditate and focus on being in the cave from your dream. Insert yourself in the cave. Your avatar, the you who you believe you are, in that wonderland can be anything you want. You can be you, or eagle, or a blending, or one becoming the other. If you focus on that, and become successful, you may find your experiences deviate from tulpamancy, but it would still be interesting to hear about your experiences. You don't have to have a tulpa to have wonderland. You don't have to have a wonderland to have a tulpa. They're related, but not absolutes. Eventually, your eagle you may decide to leave the cave and your wonderland will expand you might find others already there. Maybe these are dream people. Maybe instead of creating a tulpa, you find someone already pre-exiting, or they find you, and you elevate them to tulpa status. there is no right or wrong to this, it's all an adventure. That said, the measure of success is experiencing a response that is not you. enjoy!
  20. they say come slither, with a lisp. MERRY CHRISTMAS everyone
  21. It is true, however, that certain material will more likely result in being highly visible, and 'unsanctioned' material will be less likely to be discovered. People think it's random and completely unbiased and it isn't. News, information, and media is controlled by conglomerate of associations, and people have actually to do real work to get through what's 'mainstreamed.' All media sources, not just youtube, do this. FB does this. It regulates content. The protester have valid criticism of the algorithms being employed. Some of it's just pure money based. Hypothetically, if I put a book out, it's not blowing up the net because 'it's just that awful.' That could be the explanation. Then again, i could point to some mainstream books and movies that got huge promotions, and were awful. There are movies that won awards that did awful at the box office due to no promotions, and were actually good movies. But more than likely, my books don't blow up the internet because I spent like zero dollars promoting it. Is it fair? Eh, I am not tracking that. But there are people i watch on youtube that have seen their video viewership decline because traffic to their videos were unlinked.
  22. Beliefs affect outcomes. Thoughts affect outcomes. Placebo, people are given the equivalent of sugar pills, and they get the benefit of the drug they believe they are taking. Why? Your beliefs and your thoughts affect physical outcomes. Nocebos, people are given a poison and they show no harm, or positive outcomes. It is the same as the placebo affect. There are churches that handle snakes and they stir them just to get bitten just to prove god will save them. Most of them survive with no apparent ill effects. If this wasn't true, these churches would have ceased to exist because everyone that irritated a snake would be dead. I have personally seen people under hypnosis not bleed when pierced with needles. I have seen recordings of people having medical procedures, big stuff, like a C-Section, no anesthetics, person unbothered, completely under hypnosis, singing as if they were at a campfire having fun, and though there was blood, there was less blood and they healed faster than those that have the procedure the normal way. I have also seen person who were hypnotized be harmed, for example, someone got a suggestion of being burned with a cigarette and they ended up with a small circular spot on the arm that became a blister. Most people that deliberately self harm have either a history of trauma and or personality disorders, or something similar, a history component that explains the behavior, like "my friend in high school cut, so I thought it would be fun doing it too..." kind of thing. Tulpa is not you, and is not brought into being with the same history and conditions and just because host suffered, doesn't mean they will suffer... and again, i suspect most tulpas have a perspective where they're understanding of host and host's history, understanding of temperament, high in empathy, and beings (tulpas) high in empathy don't want to cause more pain. So, in response to the title, can tulpas actually harm you... from a purely hypothetical perspective, yeah, why not. Will they? Not likely. The host does enough damage, they don't need help from tulpas. I think you will find preponderance of evidence here that most tulpas go out of their way to reduce host from self harming. More than likely, even if a tulpa was the sort that wanted to harm you, they're most likely not going to have the authority or the command over rides on the brain to engage that. Most host that worried about being harmed never fully commit to the process of surrender necessary to actually create a fully fledged, functioning tulpa, much less one that it's going to hurt them. as to the content of your firts post... I don't see the connection to title, and am failing to imagine a link. You're asking where does everything we know come from? Isn't that the thing everyone wants to know? Million dollar question... "Well, I consider myself an enlightened man, as so, my question is. Can the espiritual affect the physical?" my opinion, yes... Mind you, my first paradigm, from family of origin, was religious. (Not spiritual, but religious like dogmatically so.) By definition, is you have a spirit or a soul, it's affecting you physically somehow, or how else did you raise your hand to ask the question? If you don't believe in soul, well, then the question seems to make less sense. Per the standard model, your mind or consciousness is the product of physicality, not the other away around, and you, your experience of you, and the question you hold, is really just a hallucination. The question of how you, or matter, or energy came into being is still a great question. No one knows. Seriously, cosmology doesn't have an answer to this yet. They have theories. they have made prediction if you wind things backwards you come to a point in spacetime when everything seem to come into being at a point, termed the 'big bang' but no one can say much about the sate before that, or if there is anything beyond that point, or anything outside the known universe, though more and more you hear theories our universe reside in a sea of universe... speculative, fun, makes sense to me... "Can gravity fall itself into a black hole and become enegy? If energy is energy from where does it come from?" Gravity can't fall in on itself. Gravity is the result of mass, energy, or mass and energy occupying a specific area of space/time. No 'gravitons' have been found yet. (hypothetically, if gravitons exist and they are moving out from gravity source, then gravitons radiate away from gravity sources and are unaffected by source- or they wouldn't rdiate and nothing would be pulled towards source, by definition. one might conclude stronger sources would radiate more gravitons?) Gravity does appear to move in waves. (Confirmed not too long ago.) Blackholes have the quality of gravity, making gravity versus just being the accumulation of gravimetric forces... two different things. some people, using relativy suggest there is no gravity, matter and energy warp the fabric of space/time... gravity itself is an illusion. Get this, gravity can warp space time, literally pulling space/time like taffy in a candy machine. This phenomena is called "frame dragging." it has been 'confirmed' scientifically. earth has small framedragging effect. the sun has a lot. Black holes, huge amounts of space/time chunks are pulled and stretched, and some space time likely falls into the blackhole, or oozes over the edge and spills in as the hole grows. It's not creating more energy. All the energy that ever was and ever will be is already present. Space/Time is full of energy, even in the vacuum of space. (Zero point energy field.) Your question, where does energy come from, still a good question, it started at the event that most of us refer to as big bang. Religious folks have an answer, untestable, unverifiable as we know it. So there answers are often limited because a leap faith is necessary to connect the dots. Scientist have some answers, but they stop at the dots. They make inferences, guesses based on present measurements, but usually if you get as specific as you have here, the good ones will say "i don't know." I don't know. I wouldn't worry so much about energy. And I definitely wouldn't worry about tulpas hurting you. I was going to say something fancifully stupid as joke like, you're more likely to be devoured by a rogue blackhole than be injured by a tulpa... I sort of just said it, but I am not sure if you will find that funny. I find it funny. Loxy is telling me I am not funny. She does agree we should aim for more humor in life.
  23. Why not? Children sometimes play at being animal pet, and it seems like reasonable activity that builds rapport with the animal they imitate, while also exploring avenues for a variety of ways to communicate thoughts and feelings without using words. I don't have any 'pet' tulpas. There are squirrels in my wonderland. More than I can count. There are levels of sophistication. I have had pets in real life that have engaged in behaviors that suggest more is going on that we give animals credit. Nothing earth shattering that made world records and changed philosophies, but you know, we do have that with Koko the gorilla, and there hasn't been any earth shaking changes... but, we're talking tulpas, here. tulpas could have any form, and any level of sophistication. If they don't identify with human, they make blend attributes of species, taking on the best parts. Fersia is a tulpa. She is sophisticated, sometimes childlike in play, and she is a cat. Depending on what wonderland we are in, she is either full cat, full human, a furry, or human cat hybrid. If your tulpa wants to explore behaviors and or communication from the perspective on non-human, allow it. See where it goes. It does not reflect poorly on you, host, or them. It could be very direct, they just want to explore it or be it. It could also mean something symbolically, and it would be okay to explore that, too. Being a 'pet' is a very specific relationship to host. Maybe it means they are wanting more nurturing type interactions. It's important to explore the meaning behind it for you and tulpa. Caveat: The only potential down side is depends on your belief of what it means. If in the creation process, you hope and expectation was to have an equal partner, and having a pet feels like missing the mark, you may need to discuss it. It doesn't mean tulpa can't still become what it wants to become, but it may need better defined parameters of frequency and other expectations. Is it all the time? Only at night? Maybe it's safer for a pet to sleep at the foot of the bed without romantic feelings emerging? This is the most important aspect about relationships, romantic, or otherwise... Good friends, good couples, negotiate, they discuss things, they get clarity, and they learn to respect, understand, and allow other to be who they are. Without this, relationships are conditional- usually constrained by a person's ability to tolerate deviation from expectations or beliefs. Good luck!
  24. Look up star trek:TOS, mirror mirror episode. Oh, wait, that could just be my uniforms...
  25. I would like to interject a caveat. The context of 'invisible friend' needs to be considered. Childhood invisible friend is considerably different than a teen or adult engaging in same. A child who spontaneously engages in a 'invisible friend' isn't scripting or parroting. If you listen to the conversation, they don't halt it and restart and try different angles and rescript scenes. So, in a fantasy event with teen and adult, if a person is being honest, they'll go so far and then not like an outcome, reverse time, and start over. Though this could be considered an 'invisible friend' event, I would argue not a true event. So, the difference between tulpa and 'invisible friend' would likely be longevity. Tulpas tend to last. "Invisible friends' tend to be a phase that fade out. Could an invisible friend be or become a tulpa, maybe. I am open to that idea, but the most significant feature for me that distinguishes a tulpa is that it is an entity, person, that came into being due to deliberate efforts of a host to establish a particular personality parameter. This context allows for differentiation between soulbounds and tulpas, and invisible friends and tulpas. Though invisible friends and soulbaounds might become Tulpas, a tulpa is neither of the other two in term of origin event- by definition of all the guides that explicitly explain how to create a tulpa.