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  1. Haven't really forced that much lately, still talk to her, but if anything, I've lost progress. I need to start doing some actual forcing, since passive is not cutting it right now.
  2. Another change of form...blaaaaaaarg. Noticed it after getting up during the night still half asleep. I started trying to visualize her. And BAM. New form. I think it's official now. Sakura is a shapeshifter :3
  3. So I haven't forced properly in a few months...which is kind of sad, I haven't had the time to do it, and when I do my family is at home, and well, it's not like "Hey guys don't bother me, I'm going to force/meditate." That shit just doesn't work here. I still talk to her regularly. But I feel without the forcing backing us up, were not making much progress, if anything I feel were loosing progress. Visualization is not good, mind voice is weak, oh boy...stress, when I forget to focus on her, I'm sure she knows its not on purpose, my mind is a wreak. All left to do is try to get opportunities for Active Forcing, since Passive doesn't seems to cut it just quite. So, yeah... it's been a year since I started...now that I think about it, well, not started discovered the tulpa phenomenon, Wooo. Let's see how much time it takes us to be able to communicate and hear each other perfectly. :D
  4. Did a brief 30 minute forcing with a guided hypnosis session, with very good results I must say, the vocalization is getting better, since I understand more of what she says if I focus, and she's starting to get more talkative, she asked some pretty deep questions, like, Why there are wars, why was she there and why am I here, those are some crazy-ass questions. We now have a place within the wonderland specifically for this kind of hypnosis sessions, which given the good results I will continue doing.
  5. 24/3/2013 Did a good 30 minutes of forcing, now I'm going to make a drawing of her and maybe the wonderland and then to play DeusEx with her :P
  6. 60% more or less, what I meant was that, when I started it was on vacations, so I could force anytime I wanted, now back at school, between proyects, homeworks, family and misc stuff I find it hard to organize my time. By I do tulpastuff, just not on a very organized way, or regular basis, but just when I feel like it...I really don't know if I'm explaining myself, if I start doing it like it is an obligation it will stop being nice and I don't want it to turn into something that gets tedious so instead I do other stuff, while talking to her...
  7. 21/02/2013 Just keeping it up i guess... haven't done much actual forcing, since I don't have much time and the time a have I'd rather spend it playing videogames, reading o working on my stories, which by the way Sakura participates...usually. I'll keep with the "passive forcing" and try to find time to work on visualization and vocals, IMPORTANT STUFF.
  8. Update 21/02/2013 Feeling her presence is getting easier (at when I'm not at home getting distracted by everything) and keep narrating random stuff, like I'm driving and a cool song starts "I like that song" another song starts "that's a cool song" And so on until we've reached our destination or I get something more interesting to talk about to her. Keep asking her questions, about, whatever I think she could answer, still can't hear her clearly, more like a feeling, like I've said before, need to get our cables separated :/ Visualization is... average, I guess, I can get her basic form and some details from her clothes, but not...very detailed? and not at the same time, like I have to focus on a specific part and when I'm done visualizing it move on to another and so on until she's complete, its weird... Hmm, guess that's all see ya later
  9. 18/02/2013 Sakura's got a cool outfit now...looks awesome :3
  10. 6/02/2013 Did nothing today...no forcing, no nothing...well a bit of narration...but nothing special... BLARG :/
  11. 2/12/2013 so keep narrating and using some hypnosis thingy to help me relax and force, but I really don't know what to talk with her, also its still mostly a one way comm, because she's still not vocal enough, I don't know I more forcing sessions will improve it, for the time being I start using beats again, although I find them a bit annoying, but they've been helpful before so I have no reason to believe they won't help this time. I really got deviated from the topic, BACK TO IT! She's still not vocal enough, meaning her voice its a faint sound in my head that get mixed with my thoughts, ans it's really stressing me out, I...would really like some advice towards this, she's sentient, I'm absolutely sure about it, I just can't separate our "cables" so we both have our own communication lines. So...yeah, that's all, awesome. Take care guys
  12. Its harder than I originally though to feel her presence.... must work on that And keep checking personality..just in case...yeeeah...
  13. Nice progress, it took me like two week to be able to hear Sakura's answers, haven't been in our wonderland for a while now, i prefer just narrating to her instead of visualizing, I'm lazy, anyways, good progress. :)
  14. 23/01/13 So, she has more sentience, but she I still can't hear her unless I consciously try to get her answer... I also started to try and feel her presence around me, don't know how to do that, but I'll get it, eventually, no rush xD. Uh...so yeah, I think she sometimes listen the music I'm listening, mostly because I ask her to listen to it, but still, I really have no idea of what I'm doing anymore, just doing random forcing stuff I find on the site and trying to add it to my current program, which is narration and sentience, not so much visualization and imposition, that comes later.... Any though or ideas of how to improve sentience will be much appreciated by both of us.
  15. the I guess I'll try to mix it up a bit, thanks guys :)