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    I'm a happy person, that's it about me.

    I never originally wanted to make a tulpa, I was interested in the topic, but I just never had enough reason to. Overtime I became less happy, and thought to my self ''Why isn't the world as awesome any more?''. I used to be happy by making other people happy but I lost my touch, became a bit of an asshole, and there I was.

    The other that made me happy was the world around me, it always fascinated me but it started to lose its finece. Music gave me less shivers, colours were less bright, the trees branches mystified me alot less.

    I found myself literally unable to laugh for months on end. You could call it depression but I wasn't, and still am not, willing to think negitivly like that. I found myself on /mlp/ researching shit for writing a fanfic (oh god I'm sorry....), the third word of the first thread I seen was ''tulpa''; I had read a few creepy pasta on tulpae before so, of course, I was interested as balls.

    The thread was talking about a man that goes by the alias 'Methos' and his tulpa 'Raina', he had a 40 page log about the creation of his tulpa which he had only released that day. I always go to bed at 11, it's bloody etched into my body clock. I stayed up a good 2 hours reading that thing fucking log and following that thread, it was literally the most interesting thing ever; I scared Methos a bit with my enthusiasm.

    Although their creation process was amazing to me - the creepy pasta was ALL wrong, ''He can acctually feel and smell her?!'' - it still didn't prompt me to make a tulpa, I still had no reason to.

    About a week after that I was once again trying to think of a way to make myself happy again, I was sitting at my computer - completly zoned out - reading a new update on Methos' log. It might have been earlier in the log but I read the words ''A tulpa can be anything you want it to be'' and I thought ''You mean, like, happy?!''. And I realized that I needed someone to help me see the beauty of the world again (because a tulpa doesn't really have the most amazing power on other people), someone to enjoy life with, that was my tulpa's purpose.

    And so I decided to go off and read all dem guides. I decided on a pony tulpa; pegasi really appeal to me, and at the time I couldn't think of jack shit else other than human and if possible I always opt for other than human (not in a real life setting, of course).

    I started the process with thirty-two traits, it became thirty because I had forgotten what I wanted in one and the other was more of a quirk (fun fact, I always pronounce quirk as quark, fuck you science). And I'm actually done personality and moving onto form as I write this.

    I didn't think of a name right away; because I'm a self-absorbed douche bag I always think that names must mean something. I eventually found the word prurience which is synonymous with lust, bear in mind that lust can also mean a great desire for something ie. my lust for life. And so I messed around with the word until I god Pruria, the beautiful sounding name which embedded her very purpose of existence.

    ~

    Pruria is currently a white pegaus with incredibly long, blue hair. She has a longer body than ponies in the show and her legs are slightly longer also (she is of more realistic proportions, our torsos are of similar length). Her wings are longer, pointier and generally more realistic looking. She has no cutie mark, that's her own decision. Her eyes are inline the the top of my hip bone, I'm about 5'' 9' or 5'' 10', I don't know, figure it our yourself.

    Even though it's still very early in the creation process Pruria has shown signs of love; I do understand that most deviations and stuff are through the creators sub-conscious preferences, but I don't plan to return them. One of my biggest problems with making a tulpa was that I know they are not to be made for sex/ fuck buddies/ the likes, I never seen this as a valid reason. So even now I don't want it to come to that, I don't feel it right to be in love with a part of my imagination, especially one of which is a pony (narcissism on a literal scale).

    Though, saying that, I do see her as very beautiful and I have returned some of her kisses, it's not that I'm against the idea it's that I don't see it as being a valid reason to have a tulpa. I know that I do have one but I feel a close relationship with my tulpa would decrease the validity of the reason I already have. I also feel a little afraid that it will damage the creation process in some way, but that's just me.

    Fast forward a few weeks to now: Welp, Pruria is a sex crazed monster and I've given in, I do admit it is enjoyable but it still feels a little wrong.... I always try to move from the subject but sometimes Pruria will have what Pruria will have, ah well. Because I'm a hypocrite - mmmm - hungry, hungry hypocrite.

    ~

    Pruria is (supposed to be) fun loving, jolly, blissful, competitive, a realistic thinker, creative, analytical and adventurous for happiness; on the face of things. She is very extroverted and enjoys exploring for the small and the big beauties, stimulation of the senses and relaxation. She is quick to forgive (myself, at least) and is very strong minded in her opinions - though not closed minded.

    When I mess up (miss a session etc.) Pruria will generally be either incredibly angry or hurt, but never bitter. If I give good reason, make compromise or succeed in brightening her mood she will generally let loose my mistakes; she never forgets about my mistakes and will not simply forget them.

    ~

    Anyway, if you have read this far, thank you, and please message me; I'd like to talk to a few people, I'm very pent up about this whole thing in real life and it's eating away at me. I'd also like to know how many people are willing to listen to me shite on about complete bull - especially this horribly written, unplanned, in-grammatoricaly-correct grave of good literature and linguistic confidence - Pruria seems okay with it, but I guess she's kind of supposed to be.
  1. There's a distinct difference between discussing the problem at hand and causing it. This thread is a controlled environment where there are no accusations but instead discussion. The philosophy still stands.
  2. I'm going to take this paragraph by paragraph, but snip those I've nothing to contribute or add to; I have to give you major creds for writing such an epic post. I guess in that case there's the problem of impatience, where new comers maybe to excited to wait for advice and instead turn to a quick-fix source like irc. We could compare this to eating in that, generally at least, our staple foods are sufficient, but can very bad for us. Or, at least, not as good as time-cared-for foods would be. It's a real shame; and alas, it's too deep of an inset human nature to even attempt to change. I'm at a disadvantage here because I simply can't empathise with the urges of apathy or paggressiveness. I normally find myself revelling when other find difficulty in simple problems—simple from my stand point—as they can then share my triumph in overcoming that problem. I guess I'm the golden goose then. But I don't see it out of the realm of possibility those who do help others simple stand back themselves when they become tired. Which does happen, but I mean prior to the shift in attitude. Maybe I'm forgetting that alot more people are better natured than I think and desire to help, but in that case I only see it as reason to stand back early so that the process doesn't become overwhelmingly tiring, meaning they can return to help with a clearer mind. But, Ror is very much in the green as you said, which over looks all the problems created by what I just said. And that would also negate—mostly-partially, at least—the effect of the Echo Chamber and Speaker effect as you just put. I believe I may push that idea in the future when confronting newer hosts. No, I like a good analogy; they aren't used enough now a days; though I find myself using them maybe a tad too much. There's is one thing I can draw from this, maybe the guides section of the site could use an overhaul. Perhaps we need more guides which present similar ideas but in different formats, and vice versa. I feel there's a lot of repetition of ideas, which would be okay were they all presented from different perspectives. And when new ideas are formulated, they generally stray close to the originals. And only because the person may fear being ridiculed for a new idea that may seem outrageous. If we are going to assume that a lot of people wont have the sense to stand back and create a person over view, we have to assume that the information we present to them obviously is never going to be one size fits all. This is, of course, asking a lot of the community—''MOAR GUIDES!''—though I can't help but point out that guides relating to... let use imposition for example, are all of similar length, topic, method, and language. Bar maybe the photo method, and one other I'm forgetting. I'm going to be incredibly big headed, vain, and proud here, and say that Pruria's guide is a very good example. The idea was fresh, it was outrageous and completely against the gut of the grain. It was also presented in a semi-professional, semi-casual tone; much different to the very scientific approach most strive for. And it was revived well enough, and I actually seen a newbie about two weeks later correcting themselves to say 'host deafness' as opposed to 'vocality'. And my point is that despite how well it was received, I'd say a hefty lump of people didn't recive it well because it was very long, or the tone didn't suit them, or the information was presented in an insufficient way. And though, I'm assuming that others don't do this, which they do, they just don't do it often enough. I've had thoughts of finish the big list of guides as maybe that would help newbies find what they really need. My mistake, just checked, Derp beat me by about two weeks; fair play. Hm, it was perhaps very close minded of me to assume all speakers are pretentious, and all those in power are bad. And I must also admit that without those of higher confidence, we'd all be only attempting to get our points across, and nothing would be sorted. But I do see a way to get across my points without being aggressive or offensive in anyway; I actually had a very long discussion with a friend of mine—Kiahdaj—about that topic, and I'm probably going to compile a new thread addressing that. The best way to describe it in short hand is to simply look at this thread. I feel, at least, that I presented my points in the OP in a strong and scientific manner (I base my idea off the the language of science, or the language which is commonplace in scientific papers and journals, etc.) And all the replies I've revived have followed in the same format. And this is possibly the best discussion I've had in a while, or it's at least very highly ranked. But that's a topic for another time. It's funny, I initially thought that your post would be in opposition of mine, but I found myself agreeing with more or less all of it. And that's not to say it hasn't made me think; I've a few more things to ponder on now. Once again, cred for the epic long post, and now creds for presenting your ideas in possibly of the best formats I've seen on this site. (And no, I'm not just saying that because it's agreeing with the OP, what kind of biased wierdo do you take me for?) And I have to apologise for going kind of askew in my third block of text, off topic, but still something we can ponder on.
  3. 'Way to blue pill it guys.'' That made me chuckle, and is really clever, can I use that? I'm using it sometime. And true, the entire tulpa community is just a ruse. We're keeping the media off Fade while he develops death tones to be use in audiowarfare, for the upcoming WWIII between North and South Korea of course. The Danes are fighting for Kim. My point exactly. I might like to apply the jurisdictional concept of 'beyond unreasonable doubt' and the other one where everyone must agree before a verdict is reached, (absolute verdict? Is it? See '12 Angry Men'; also an amazing movie.) Freeman is god. And on a more serious note. I'd rather you make a rebuttal to my post rather than a mock. If you want to reply to a serious post—especially one regarding one of you own—but have nothing to say, then don't say anything.
  4. Who said we shouldn't talk about it? I surely didn't. We're talking about it right now. I never once said we should pretend the problem isn't there. I said we should leave those who cause it do their own devices. If we do that, they'll be no reason for them to cause any problems because they're not gaining anything from it and would instead just be wasting their time. Though, yes, I do admit, it will not rid of the problem completely. But it's redundant to say any solution will, so that's not relevant.
  5. That is a huge ass wall of text and I will address it in the morning; sorry, it's 1 AM. Which I completely agree with. Scepticism is a good and very healthy thing, but communities and groups shouldn't shun those who don't agree with them, and vice-versa. The echo chambers are too sceptic of anything that doesn't fall in line with their rules, which is nonsensical, (and kind of funny as I seen a few IRCs that were very apparent ''for science!'' folk, who seen themselves very highly. And then ended up being children; irony at its finest.)
  6. I have one solution for all this. And I'm going to use the help of good ol' Morgan Freeman. When questioned about Black History month in- you know what, here's a video snippet that should get what I'm trying to say. I'm going to focus on when this is said: I beg of you to call me out on my retardism when I say the only practical way to rid of roleplaying—much like racism—is to simply shut up about it. Don't bother with those who do roleplay, and if you do, then you're just feeding them. Much in the same way the saying goes, 'don't feed the trolls', we can't feed the rolplayers. As many have rightfully pointed out, the majority of role players are attention seekers, children, if you will. And normally we'd discipline children by using a pat on the wrist or a stern talking to which we all know wont work. And seeing as we can't exactly pin point who's a role player and who's not to give a proper caning to, the only solution left is to simply ignore them. You ask any professional animal trainer or child minder the best way to deal with those who crave attention? You ignore them. Without attention they'll get bored and leave. I thought we all knew where the term 'attention seeker' is derived from; come on people! Not only will this slowly but surely get rid of all the attention seekers, it will also save anyone who isn't the grief of being called one. (And trust me, it's... let's say... frustrating when it happens. No matter how thick a skin someone has, wrongful accusation is always a bite on the ass) And I'm sure you're wondering what we're going to do will all those lesser minded people who don't realise this is the best course of action? Well you sure as hell don't call them out in any nasty, upsetting way that might make them drop their juice bottle. You calmly and politely tell them that they should simply stop giving the person attention and move on. I've seen far too many a time someone with good intent, the right idea behind it, but just being a complete asshole and flying off the handle bars with their 'enlightenment' of the other person. IN that case, they achieve nothing to help themselves or anyone else, similar to the Spoiler Effect in politics. You see, the different between roleplaying and racism, it that racism is global, while tulpas are generally confined to a few select places. Very easy to manage given a few die hard believes (and seeing as they aren't hard to come by for other beliefs, I think were in the green). It's the only practical way, and the only fair way. It eliminates all the problems we have. But if you're too impatient for that? Self ban for a year, or maybe stop making a tulpa; those things need a helluva lot of patience. And for those who think that it's their 'duty' to seek out roleplayer and smite them down into the shameful recesses of angry PMs. Please, stop. You're not a knight in holy armour, and outwardly appear only as an asshole who feeds those who crave attention. Any publicity is good publicity; any attention it possessive attention. tl;dr If you see a roleplayer, just move on, they'll give up eventually.
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    How Honest Are You?

    Did someone say ? But really, we'd probably go cycling or something somewhere beautiful. Joal says she want to go dancing. Hieldy says there must be dinner. And Sam says... go to Canada? So all of that. Roll.
  8. Fair point. Of course I'm not implying the it will never be fault of the individual. And I can admit myself to whining about social-circles and lines which simply didn't exist, only because of my own fault and ego. Though I think the likelihood of it being the individual solely is very slight. But still, well put Couguhl. I'll be perfectly honest and say that an idea unchallenged isn't an idea but a fairy tale. But the problem I'm posing is a more social problem as opposed to one untrue to the scientific method (which I think everyone should learn by heart.) Where is this situation, instead of ideas or experiences of an individual being questioned, challenged and tested, they are ridiculed and viewed by the greater tulpa community as false or role-playing because they are radical or unheard of. Or—in term more relevant to my OP—where an ideas held by a group and any opposing idea by an individual is disregarded and slandered. I'm not sure what you mean by 'this phenomenon'. As in the tulpa phenomenon? as that doesn't make much sense to me then. Rephrase it maybe? Once again, very well put, but with the same underlying problem that Ror missed. It's not a case of bad scepticism, but of unrelenting scepticism. Where the scepticism is persistent and unyielding. The rest of your post is all quite interesting but I don't see it's relevance to the OP; maybe I missed something you could point out?
  9. That's actually an incredibly interesting story... but I do hope that this entire community aren't social sociopaths like this guy. I'm not going to say that we can abolish any sense of power, I understand the the fatal weaknesses of human minds. But that's not to say that the order can't be more open to debate between higher and lower members, more open to opinion; seeing that our entire phenomenon is based around the happenings and reluctantly accepted opinions of each other. To say we can't improve upon the system is defeatist and therefore, I'm disregarding your point for the most part. Edit: Aslo, I don't think this person is the best example considering he says That's infantile and also shows he's simply on of those assholes I was talking about.
  10. educated me about the term 'echo chamber' and got me thinking about our community in that light. I lurked around parts of the form I normally don't as well as many, many tulpa-related ircs. What I found scared me deeply and also brought to my attention another painfully hurtful effect in our tiny and fragile community. What I found was that the tulpa echo chamber is massive, particularly on ircs. Techniques and ideas that are not only ridiculous but potentially hurtful to host and tulpa alike, are being spread through our community. Such as the idea that personality should be left 'til last so that you can get the most real feeling tulpa before you start talking to them; yes, someone actually did say that. Their reasoning was that if you can experience your tulpa through all your senses, than working out sentience and speech would be easier because of all the sensory cues. This isn't entirely false but is missing the ergonomics of it, so to say: you'll just have a shell for a few months before having a tulpa. This person posed this idea, and the entire irc agreed with that person—from what I could see—only because they said it and that the person was well known in the irc. This is ridiculous, and for the tulpa community, (which already has very shaky public credibility) this shadowy problem is one we don't need floating around our heads. It promotes false/dangerous ideas. It puts some in danger. It splits the community. It pushes those who don't share an irc's ideals out. And worse of all, it's creating groups and niches. In relevance to echo chambers, and because irc rooms are generally isolated, this means that that one person holding an alpha/power status can become what I'm going to coin as a speaker. A speaker metaphorically meaning something very loud in an echo chamber. If a person in this position of power starts spreading erroneous ideas, then everyone—host and tulpa—suffers greatly. Were it not degrading, I'd call it sheep/shepherd syndrome. I almost wish I could say that I've suffered because of this, someone could just say I'm crying over spilt milk, but I'm not. This is a serious problem and it must stop. More than half the ircs I lurked in had a speaker and almost all had even the smallest echo. It's not only creating niches, but speakers are very quickly losing their minds in power and, quite frankly, become assholes. The 'high and mighty' of the tulpa forums are big suspects. ( ) How are we going to fix this? Well it would be nothing but moronic to rid of all ircs, which was my first plan. Alas. I can only ask that everyone who frequents any irc—and especially one irc in particular—to stand back and look at their community as a whole. Look at themselves and try not to fall suit to stupid ideas just so they can be part of that one irc they think they like. Don't be a fucking sheep. And don't be afraid to call out speakers an echo rooms, wrong ideas, and people bullying others. Yes, we have to stoop to bullying here people. And speaking of that. Don't be afraid to leave a group of people you clearly don't like or who encourage stupid ideas, especially those with apparent speakers. If you don't believe that this is a real problem, I had a friend who came to just yesterday, saying that he'd left his irc because they all hated him. And why? He said it was because he was friends with someone who didn't share their non-tulpa related ideas. Or maybe I'm wrong, maybe the irc just didn't like that person for no reason; that's not only unprofessional, but once again downright childish. But I'm not pointing fingers. Wise up, everyone. Considering we need to create as positive an image for the public, sceptics, and new tulpamancers alike, we need to tear down the echo chamber and stop being children, creating little friend groups who exclude those who don't agree with them.
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    How Honest Are You?

    This might turn into twenty questions, my guess is Max Payne. Roll?
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    How Honest Are You?

    Can this be an ''any time in your past/present/future'' type question? If so: Through the wall to my bathroom when I was eight and about to vomit all over my mother's favourite dress which happened to by laying right in front of it, Roll
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    How Honest Are You?

    ^ This is actually normal enough for me though. Do you youtube? And if so, who's your favourite youtuber?
  14. Progresses going very well, Sammy's form is still changing slightly: how long her tail is, the colour of her feathers, where the avion-lion split takes place, her size (which is a bit fracking obvious). But it's settling. She's just taller then my knee now, still very cute. She flew for the first time today, but is finding incredible difficulty at it. Obviously I can't help, but Joal's been helping her and she's been asking other flyers on irc and what not. Her mindvoice is really damn hard to hear, but I'm struggling. I can still proxy for her, but hearing her is a pain, just like her mother; freaking heredity. But! Even worse! She's started speaking to me in my second language, which is a pain. I think she wants to help me learn it better; I can fumble through it, and could keep a conversation going, but I'm still crap at it. So herself and Hieldy like to mess with me and talk so that I can't understand them... yep!