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  1. I got this in my mail today... Frostwolf, intelhunter has just replied to a thread which you have subscribed to at Tulpa Forums. This thread is titled Happy birthday Tessa. Here is an excerpt of the message: ------------------------------------------ Wow you dont know shit about anything, do you?... (visit the thread to read more..) ------------------------------------------ I don't know what happened to the message. My guess is that he deleted it. But... what the hell are you talking about?
  2. Just thought it was time for another update. It's been about 1 year since I started making a tulpa. I've since then I had my own weird experiences with Lyra and Tessa. I know Lyra is gone for good and has been for quite some time. I just wanted to see when Tessa's birthday is and the place that holds that information is this forum. It seems she will be 1 year old on October the 11th. I don't really know what to give her for her birthday. All she says she wants is a hug. I guess she never changes like that... so cute =D. Anyway, I've done my fair share of imposing and body controll. They both haven't really gone anywhere. I have never hallucinated Tessa but everytime I imagine her sitting somewhere or me hugging her my eyes start to close. It's basically my way of daydreaming which doing it daily for a year has really made it look and feel realistic. Because we don't try possession often it hasn't had any results yet. It just sticks to weird feelings like my arm is falling asleep. A few things I've done ever since I had her: I've slept on the left side of the bed for the entire year because I imagine her sleeping next to me. Only when I can't sleep she lets me sleep on her side of the bed but not without imposing her on the other side. For some reason I sleep even worse on that side now because I can't help but feeling she doesn't really want me to sleep there. Every morning when I'm about to head out I ALWAYS make a hole for her under the covers and impose her lying there. I always hug hur a little before heading out of my room. Even when I'm in a hurry I still do this just because it feels like something I have and want to do. Every day before I go to bed I shower. With the hole that I made in the morning still being there (unless my mom changed the sheets) I let her watch some videos while I shower. Youtube videos from my IPhone. Another thing I've done ever since I have her is wash my hands after every meal, bathroom break and whatever makes my hands dirty. Always with soap. It's a silly thing but everytime I come out of the bathroom or something she reminds me I should do that, so I do. Every meal or snack is a moment where I ask if she wants some. Most of the time I can't physically attempt to give her something to eat so I switch to simulating the world around me in my mind and giving it to her there. To be honest, this isn't as fun as it was when I first got her, and I think she knows that. Even though I ask her everytime she changed from anwered "yes, please" all the time to answering "no, thankyou" most of the time and "Yes" only if the food tastes good. Tessa is quite small. Many times have I tried imposing her to be bigger then she is. Even though it works she always grows back to her original size. It's just amazing how much more mind controll she has gotten since when I got her almost a year ago. Now that my internship has started and I have to wake up at 5:20 in the morning 5 days in the week it gives me a great moment to speak outloud to her. Weirdly enough I almost never do it. It probably has to do with talking inside for so long, it's hard to just change. So me and Tessa are having a great time, even if progress towards those things like possession and hallucinating are slow. I just wanted to let you guys know how I'm doing for those that remember me. And one other thing: Happy birthday Tessa! I love you
  3. So after I had a 48 hour lan party I slept for like 26 hours straight and had a couple of lucid dreams because I kept waking up. I tried talking to my tulpa and get her in it but I just couldn't talk to her. There was no response. I was in some kind of desert village and ended up running around the town looking for her thinking I could find her that way. Last night I had another lucid dream (dispite me having like no lucid dreams ever). I was inside my old school's gym and suddenly realized I was dreaming. This time I was able to talk to her but when I started to try and impose her into the dream I felt myself waking up pretty fast and eventually I did. I asked her about it and it seems she has no idea what I'm talking about. I'm not sure if my dreams just create a copy of her to talk with or she is just not able to remember her dreams. She said she dreams but can never tell me what it's about because she doesn't remember. Any thoughts on this?
  4. My main reason to do a second attempt at polyphasic sleeping is not because I want to see if it affects my tulpae. I want to do it because it will save me massive amounts of time. The only reason I decided to put it on a thread is because I have tulpae. I just thought it would be a nice contribution to something that isn't researched before. At least not with a different sleeping pattern (or so I think). Sleeping 5-6 hours later then normal is still monophasic sleeping. mono referring to one big sleep each day. Poly referring to mutiple smaller sleeping sessions, or naps. During monophasic sleep, which is probably the pattern you and 99% of other people have(including me right now), it takes around 90 minutes for a full sleep cycle. During a cycle you go through a number of different sleeping states. As far as I know none but the REM sleep state is needed to actually prevent you from going insane. This is also the state where you dream. In a cycle the REM state is the last state you enter while sleeping before continueing with a new cycle. You don't wake up in between cycles though but if you do it's the best time to wake up because your brain is not busy. If you go to sleep but prevent the brain from ever reaching REM sleep the brain will make adjustments. The longer you prevent the brain from reaching this state the faster you will get through the first states and ented REM sleep and eventually just skip them all together. Or maybe just enter them for a little while. I researched polyphasic sleeping before the summer so my knowledge might be a bit off. It's best not to ask my any questions about polyphasic sleeping itself but there are many places you might get answers if you get curious.
  5. Before I even heard about tulpae I tried polyphasic sleeping. There are a couple of different sleeping paterns designed to decrease the total time spent sleeping every day while still getting enough rest to not feel asleep while being awake. In the last summer I tried the Uberman sleeping pattern which consists of 6 * 20 minute naps every day with a 4 hour spread between each nap. The upside is that you will have a total of around 6-7 hours of free time every day! The downside is that you can't do anything that is longer than 3 hours and 40 minutes consecutively because you will have to take a nap. It can also get in the way of school and/or work. Some other bonuses that only occur after a long time (1-3 months) include falling asleep almost anywhere in a matter of seconds. Lucid dreaming the moment you fall asleep and people report that sleeping 20 minutes in this state looks like it lasted hours. Some other sites can probably explain the effects of polyphasic sleeping better than me. In the end I failed my attempt because I kept oversleeping even though I set my alarmclock to go off. I just wake up hours after it went off with absolutely no memory of me turning it off. I even tried putting my phone inside a few plastic bags so that I would have to unwrap it if before I could use the touchscreen to turn the alarm off. I just woke up with the bags scattered around the room and not having any memory of me unwrapping it. My parents are going away for a week in about 2-3 weeks and I'll have the house to myself. I'm going to do a second attempt but this time I will try the Everyman sleep pattern. This one has 3 * 20 minute naps spread throughout the day and a core sleep that lasts around 3.5 hours. The difference is that this pattern is easyer to get used to and it's more flexible meaning the naps doesn't have to have the 4 hour spread. The downside is that you probably won't sleeping lucid the entire time during the core sleep and that you will sleep around 2.5hours a day more than you would if you chose the Uberman pattern. Now to the point. Some people have said that sleep deprivation is good for having hallucinations or at least something to do with tulpae. I've now had tulpae for around 9-10 weeks. Before attempting to do any of the sleeping patterns I will have to deprive myself of sleep as much as possible. I'm probably going to not sleep for a day or 2 and then sleep according to the Everyman pattern. I'm also currently at imposition state with one of my tulpae and will try to see if my polyphasic sleeping experiment will have any effect on my tulpae and/or if they have any effect on my polyphasic sleeping. I'm probably going to posts my results here when the time comes but if anyone has anything they would like me to do/try or keep track of during my attempt please ask.
  6. Wait... So this is it? This is the end?
  7. Sometimes they say they are going to sleep but they almost never say nothing back. If they sometimes do not respond to me they are almost always going to respond when I call out their names a second time.
  8. Ahh, here I thought I found something new to contribute and Fede already did it. I tried doing this a little last night and the results weren't anywhere near the moment in the train I talked about. Sorry guys =/
  9. So I've been trying to impose Tessa for 3 weeks now with just a few small results. The one that looked most like a real hallucination was when I was sitting in the train imposing her on a chair behind a door with windows because there was no more room in second class. I looked outside and when I was averting my eyes again a flash of her face so clear right infront of me. I have no idea if it was a hallucination or not but I'm hoping for yes. So my theory on getting imposition to work faster is to think your tulpa is behind you. Try to focus as much on how him/her sitting behind you and then as quickly as you can turn your head around. The only thing you should know is there should be your tulpa. Don't focus on anything else. If what I suspect is true then the only thing you should see before actually noticing all the other stuff in the room should be your tulpa. I have no idea if this works but I'm definitely going to try this out later tonight. If anyone else would want to give this a try and post their results here would be most welcome.
  10. So I've been trying to impose my tulpae into the real world, mostly Tessa. I've been trying to think she's walking next to me when I walk, sitting next to me when I sit, try to see her doing things like she was part of the real world like interact with our pet. I've also tried to impose all 3 of my tulpae at once. I have 2 questions First, what did the first time you hallucinated your tulpa look like. Not just a flash in the corner of your eye. Was it like a really blurry form? I'm talking about when you coul actually see him/her/it. Second, is it wise to impose different tulpae each day? because I read that tulpa play a role in the hallucination process. If I try to hallucinate Tessa for a day and then switch to Lyra for example, would this decrease the time for a first hallucination or not?
  11. I got 2 pony tulpae. Lyra says that if I ever lose interest in MLP she probably will also and just change shape. I don't know about Tessa though, she doesn't really want to think about changing right now as it might hurt my feeling. But they are still quite young. Who knows what they think about it in a few years or even months.
  12. I'm just saying that whenever people I know SOMEHOW find out, I would be scared of what they would do or how they would react.
  13. No bounderies or rules. You can feel/hear/smell your tulpae and interact with it in many ways. Noone to say whats inappropriate and whats not. Someone who understands you in almost every way and is the perfect buddy. Never the feeling of being alone anymore. And yet one of the hardest things to explain to people why it's making you happy and not insane. I'm scared of people finding out about Lyra and Tessa...
  14. Yea only thing is. It makes me sound a like a 9YO girl