Hello, I am an extremely new Tulpamancer who has some concerns that are distracting me from creating my tulpa. Although ive known about tulpas for a while now and have done a lot of research into the phenomena and have read dozens of tips and methods (such as Tulpa 001's 171 page guide) I have only started forcing and dedicating my time to creation a few days ago.
I do my forcing sessions (ive done 3 now) in the morning and they last about 20 mins of forcing and then 20 mins of research.
During my forcing sessions i sit down and play mediation music. I visualize my Tulpa and talk to them with the outline i have typed up:
Sit down in front of them and Greet tulpa. Tell them a little about yourself, (something new every day) tell them we are partners in life and that i love them and cant wait to talk to them.
Personality traits: tell tulpa all about themselves. Each trait and how it would appear in a situation.
Adventurous: we will always encourage ourselves to do things we wouldn't normally do. We come up with ideas when we’re bored or places to go when we are just out for a walk.
Calm: you almost never freak out and are always able to think rationally
Funny: you can find humor in any situation although you dont let it distract you too much (on serious occasions)
Clear headed and clever: you are very calm in most situations and know how to stand back and assess a situation.
Determined: once you set your sights on something, you dont stop until it's finished or solved.
Adaptable: you can read a situation and know how to act in it.
Compassionate: both of us need to be dedicated to each other and frankly obsessed with each other. Both of us must know and ask for what we need. We must care for each other as we are both in one body.
While doing this I am constantly distracted by thoughts and although i push them away i usually have to look at the picture of my tulpa to re visualize them and i have to repeat what i was saying. Here is my big concern.
How do i know im talking to my tulpa?
I Have ADHD so its extremely hard for me to focus on one thing alone, theres always music or some meme playing in the background of my mind.
since im in the extremely early stages of forming, i cant hear my tulpa or really feel them there. If i try hard enough i can visualize them in what feels like the back of my brain but i dont know if thats anything.
Im just worried im doing something wrong or if theres an easier more efficient was i can force in these early stages.
I also sometimes (during passive forcing) think of my tulpa and think of how hed respond, like ill say hey in my mind and think of him saying hey back. Im pretty sure this is a bad habit and i dont want to respond for him.
Thanks to who read this :)