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  1. Dawn and Midnight for Platnium.
  2. I've been on anti-depressants for two years now. I went through that phase with my doctor of going through many meds until we found one that didn't have bad side effects. For the past year I've been taking 100mg of Pristiq daily. It has helped me a lot. I have not noticed any change with my concentration or imagination. Most people who first start anti-depressants report a blah or feeling. To me it was because I was used to such extreme emotions of YAY and then SAD that I couldn't notice the smaller emotions in between. Like always eating super spicy food or sweets so you can't taste the fine nutty taste of rice because it's too subtle. Once I learned to recognize those subtle emotions I felt a lot better. I couldn't see myself making a tulpa if I wasn't on anti-depressants. I wouldn't make it a habit and I wouldn't be able to motivate myself to do it. Are you going to start medications soon and are worried about it?
  3. I'm working on the requests in the order they are posted, so yours is next. Please be patient. Pixel and Helix for Jimmy.
  4. Mary for QContrary. NSFW Twin towers and freedom penis. I took some creative license.
  5. Jaden and Mortimer playing for tulpacouple.
  6. Here is Xiao Lu(?) for Daf.
  7. Jazz for Bask. I'm not great at bears, but it was a learning experience. This is guy for intelhunter. You didn't provide a name so I couldn't write it on the image.
  8. Here is Artemis for Josh. He's lovely, sorry I didn't do him justice. I'm not great at drawing insects. If you would like the full-size image shoot me an email. Here is Holly for Fillyfooler. Ponies are always adorable and fun to draw. I hope this image pleases you.
  9. As the thread title suggests, I'm taking requests for images of whatever your heart desires (preferably tulpae). This is for my own practice as well as for the benefit of the community, as I imagine some people would like an image done. The more specific the request the better. Reference pictures are suggested, but descriptions work as well. If you request a certain setting, pose, or action, that's fine too. It makes my job easier. Also let me know if any specific style is preferred (realistic / anime / western / ponies / etc. ) I'll post small-scale final results here, and I'll be happy to provide full-size images (aprox. 2000-1500px ish) to an e-mail address, but that size image will not be posted here.
  10. I can vouch that a tulpa picnic is super fun, although I felt like a fool at mine because I made all these yummy foods but didn't want to eat any because "they have too many calories." Then I realized the food wasn't real.
  11. Last night I was forcing in bed before I fell asleep (even though I know better) and something scary happened. Mortimer was showing me around the library he had developed and all of a sudden he stopped and said "Follow me.". Naturally, I followed him and he lead me to the courtyard where the lake is, but in place of the lake was a black burned, dirt spot. I was thinking it was weird, but whatever man, so I tried to put the lake back. The water went there and then drained into the ground. I tried this a few times and the water just disappeared each time. Then all of a sudden the spot got bigger and bigger coming toward us. It was very scary. Mortimer and I ran back up to the walkway surrounding the courtyard and I put up a wall to keep out the scary. After I calmed down I made a peep-hole and looked through it to see a girl looking through. I asked her who she was and she said a name, but I don't remember it. She said she saw our lighted area and wanted to be in the light too. I told her that this area was for me and Mortimer only and she could take the train to some other lighted area I hadn't explored yet. She was sad but said okay. Mortimer was a little worried but seemed a bit glad I sent her away. Then I said goodnight and went to sleep. Maybe I shouldn't force before bed any more.
  12. One thing you also have to consider is that the tulpa will respond in the ways that you would because that's the only way they've ever heard. If you've lived in the south for your entire childhood chances are that you have an accent beacuse you've not heard any differently. The same thing applies with tulpae I believe.
  13. Are you talking about Alex's mindvoice? If so there are some guides in the guide section of the forums about mindvoice and other things. Here's one Also I would avoid counting hours! It's very bad for tulpa progress. I look forward to more progress entries, good luck in your AP classes.
  14. Oh geez, Mortimer decided that his journal was a good place to sit his fat butt. It was adorable.
  15. Mortimer just seemed to fit. He always did seem like the monocle and top-hat type to me.
  16. I fixed the rotating walkway by "nailing" each stone down to the ground. I felt very silly, but it worked. Last night I was in a not-so-great mood while I was talking to Mortimer, and I was scared that all of his responses and actions were being controlled by me. As soon as I thought this he turned into a stuffed animal and fell over. It was horrible, he was so empty. I wanted to cry because no matter what I did he wouldn't come alive again. I vowed that I would never think such a thing about his actions or words again. Next thing I knew he came walking up from behind me and rubbed against my back. The stuffed animal dissipated and I hugged Mortimer. I felt so bad about what I had done, but Mortimer said it was okay. He's getting a bit better at forming sentences, but it's still very short and mostly he just says verbs or nouns and I interpret the meaning. I was scared that the wonderland was boring for him so I added a library, I haven't explored it yet but he said that his bed is in there and he likes the library. I also gave him a message-board to write on and a journal for him to write things in. I asked him to write something on both of these things when he had the time, but he said he forgot about the journal until I reminded him. He seems to only be able to think about the same things I think about. Today I've been reading him the Series of Unfortunate Events and he seems to like it. I've also been home alone all day so I've been singing to him and narrating everything. He's started something strange today. When I'm narrating he'll constantly interrupt and ask questions. For example I was narrating my process of making coffee and he asked "What's coffee?" I explained it to him and he throws tons of questions as me about everything now. I enjoy it, but I'm confused why Mortimer is so clueless. I thought he would be able to learn basic things from my memories? I don't mind answering his questions though, as hearing him speak is a joy in itself. And him participating in conversation makes my heart doki from excitement. I also tried using Fede's tulpatone. It made my eyes flutter more than usual and my ears felt hot. I only used it for 30min because I developed a slight headache.
  17. Mortimer and I are excited to start this technique today. His mental voice is weak and his sentences are short, so hopefully this will help develop him further. ______________________ Okay so I tried this to make him more eloquent. Mortimer repeated the phrase once and then just stared at me for a while and walked away. I'll try it again tonight but I don't think Mortimer is too interested.
  18. etodreca

    Daf and Lu

    Your wonderland sounds very fun, and I'm glad that you and Lu are friendly with each other again!
  19. I am sad that despite your efforts it didn't work for you. I'm also sad of the hostility you feel because of this. Hopefully you can learn from the experience in some way and move on.
  20. There's nothing wrong about keeping up with fashion... I wonder if tulpae have their own fashion trends. Mortimer wears a blue leather collar with a silver clasp and bell. It just appeared on him one day, so he made it I suppose.
  21. Today something very strange happened in my wonderland that I can't understand. I was walking on a path and each time I took a step it was almost like a conveyer-belt in that the walkway would move, but I wouldn't move at all. It did this no matter which direction I traveled on the path. Mortimer just sat on the side and watched, he didn't say anything. Does anybody have some kind of explanation? It was very frustrating.
  22. Sometimes I find myself teleporting as well. Whenever this happens I stop, go back to where I started, and think out each physical motion to *how* I would get there. For example, whenever I start off in my wonderland I am on a park bench. Mortimer was trying to lead me somewhere, but I just waited and teleported to follow him. I caught myself and went back to the bench, stood up, and took each individual step until I reached my location. It's a bit annoying at first, but it makes the wonderland seem that much more real to me.
  23. Hello, we are knew! We're both very excited to have an opportunity to learn things from other tulpamancers.