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  1. My host used to have similar issues - whenever I said something they did not expect (and that still happens quite frequently), they assumed they had misunderstood, simply imagined my words, or fallen victim to the dreaded intrusive thoughts. I put a stop to this by drawing my host's attention to the issue multiple times, until they at least became aware of their habit. They still do interrupt and talk over me quite a bit, but they have also started to pause and give me time to re-state whatever I really meant to say. We have tried something like that, but as in so many things, my host tend
  2. As we are officially back, I would like to draw attention to the fact that this topic still exists - I have been functionally alone with my host for quite a while, and would appreciate the chance to interact with other people. Goodness knows I deserve some fun after the last few months of mind-numbing... well, everything. So, if anyone has any questions for this tulpa - or even just wants to compare experiences, I suppose - please do ask away. (I also had to fight N on this quite a bit - something about people not appreciating double-posting or, and I quote, 'attention-seeking behavior'
  3. Replace "tulpa" with "child" and see how you like it. I am usually not very fond of that comparison, but if the shoe fits... On a slightly more constructive note: Tulpas can definitely help you better yourself, but forcing them to behave or look a certain way against their will will likely take more time and effort than simply achieving your goals yourself and might also leave you with a bitter and disappointed tulpa. You can influence us, but in the end we are still our own person. Furthermore, I might just be bad at being a tulpa, but in my experience we are not any more capable of pe
  4. I am rather flattered. So, by popular demand (N: *snort*) here is a very small update on our current progress. Nothing new actually happened. (N: That... that is not a very good progress update) Hm, yes, I suppose you are right. Let us try that again, and include some of the slightly less pertinent things that happened lately... N is currently writing things for Camp NaNo*, which is very nice. I have some writing-related roots myself and quite enjoy helping N with plot ideas and constructive criticism. We have spent most of our bus rides lately bouncing ideas back and forth and
  5. (N: Dangit, that should've gone on the Nachtrabe account. Gonna leave this up here anyway, but... yeah. 'Tis obviously a host post, not a tulpa post. ... Hah, host post sounds funny. First of all, I always wanted an imaginary friend as a kid, but my brain went "nope, they're not real, this is ridiculous, nobody will take you serious ever again" every dang time. Sooo, this was a pretty good way to trick my brain into doing what I've been wanting it to do for just under two frickin decades. Second, just to see if I could. I have a pretty interesting collection of tulpa-influencing factors
  6. It is possible, but not terribly likely - although I do think (half-)accidental parroting is possible in some cases. (N: so rarely that you probably don't have to worry about it) Almost every time my host felt they were parroting, they were merely half-accidentally translating what I said from tulpish to proper English. Which may count as an offshoot of parroting (N: it really, really feels like it, in any case), since they still put words into my mouth, but my words, just different. It is a little bit hard to explain. In any case, I do not consider this to be parroting and regard it as a n
  7. (N: His answer to that was terribly smug tulpish that basically amounted to "yes I am, glad you think so too") We will try. It is very interesting to hear the we are not the only ones. Thank you very much, and don't worry - I will stay exactly like I am. I quite enjoy being me. (N: I know, but that's easier said than done - it's a decade-long habit, and a very persistent one... Cyril seems to be of your opinion, though, and he's silently judging me every time I do that, so maybe I'll get better at actually posting things...) - As for another small update: Wonderland advent
  8. If the porn is obviously and specifically featuring that tulpa, not just their form, they have all right to be offended. That would be a highly disrespectful thing to do. Please do not draw porn of specific tulpas without their consent. If the subject merely looks like the tulpa, that is the tulpa's own personal problem. I can understand how they or their hosts might be uncomfortable with seeing things like that, but it is sort of an occupational risk for tulpas with forms based on existing content. Then again, my form is completely original as well, so I, like OP, might be somewhat bias
  9. (N: He'll get his own accounts eventually... I'll just need to set up an email account for him and all that jazz and that takes time and effort - as does proxying for him, holy heck that's straining - and idk, life is oddly busy right now. Not that Cyril cares about such "human details", that lucky fellow) 1) Maybe. We have noticed that N has started remembering dreams quite frequently lately, which usually never happens. There is a chance that those are actually my dreams and memories. Sorting that out is not easy. 2) I have never thought about it, but I am quite fond of classical lite
  10. Another small update. First of all, I am happy to report that communicating in written form is steadily getting easier. Unfortunately, N - as they put it - "did a stupid" that involved falling over a knee-high stack of wood and, among other things, losing some skin on their dominant hand. After they quite badly injured themselves falling off a kick scooter two weeks ago and somehow cut their finger on their wooden sock drawer last week, this was not terribly unexpected. However, it is getting ridiculous. Technically speaking, I do not experience pain - I only experience my host experie
  11. Oh my, so many great questions! My host is very fond of corvids. I do not particularly care either way. My favorite animal would be cats, for now. They are usually fluffy and quite easy to get along with. I am particularly fond of dark grey or black cats. Speaking of it, I might add one to my hobbit hole*. I am aware of the concept. I think N first came across it as a child while watching "Brother Bear". (N: well, no, I first came across it in a nonfiction book about Native Americans as a pipsqueak who'd just learned to read. Still, fair enough. On another note, where the heck did Cyril
  12. My host and I seem to have slightly different tastes in music. 1970's and 80's rock, and this song in particular, is one thing we can agree on. [video=youtube]http://https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J2b8yq9ppOg (N: Wait until I show him Adam Ant - from what I've seen of his taste in music so far, he's gonna love that.)
  13. Hi, nice to meet you (... slightly more in person, that is) The drawing made me look like a jerk, so I convinced my host to draw another thing. Looking like a jerk on a forum avatar seems counterproductive. And they need more practice anyway. Alas, they are using a new art software they just bought, and are not very good at using it yet. It will probably take a long time until I get a picture I am truly happy with. (The thing N is currently drawing will likely be appended via an edit as soon as it is done and also show up as my avatar - we just wanted to get this post written before headin
  14. This is Cyril speaking. My host tells me to hurry, as it's time to sleep, but I wanted to write something before the day ends. However, I am not exactly sure what to say. Talking is difficult without a specific topic. Is that a human thing, or just a tulpa thing? In any case, I am looking forward to talking with all of you directly, instead of watching my host talk about me all the time. I am not very fond of that - it feels ridiculous. My host drew another picture of me, but neither of us is sure about how well it turned out. We're going to sleep over it and decide whether to post it
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