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LittlePebble

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    I am a Christian BabyFur. I am an artist and a writer. I am going to college to become a computer technician. I love mathematics especially the binary system that computers are based on. My two programming languages currently are Python and C.
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    I had Tulpas for about 10 years now. I began because I was dealing with depression and severe anxiety. Over the years I had my wonder land I managed to become in control with my disability. So long as I have my Tulpas around I am functional in society.

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  1. They were there before Knowing what they were . . Surely I am not the only one who created a tulpa before hearing of the community. I created my first tulpa named Seria (See-air-ah) back in 2008. I was also became a My Little Pony fan about the same time with G3. Basically there was a period of my life where I felt isolated. I did not try to hide my fascination with MLP because you can't really hide that when most of your art are ponies and some tattoo/t-shirt design stuff. . My parents soon found out about Seria and I already seen a couple different psychiatrist. I been diagnosed wit
  2. Just about all my Tulpas had their gender implemented when they first appeared in my wonderland. I am not the traditional tulpamancer because most if not all of my tulpas began with inspiration. Interesting part is, I did not make the choice and in a way my tulpas did not make the choice either. When I say inspiration I am talking about where they came from. My tulpa Molly was from MLP The saddle Row Review. Hasbro to my knowledge did not give her a name. A lot of people have argued over whether her pendant was a pacifier or a ring pop if that gives you a clue who I am talking about. . My T
  3. I have not vanished into thin air . . At least not physically. I have been fighting to keep my sleeping patterns normal and I am trying to stay on top of my goals. I have re-arranged my apartment. I am still looking for ways to make things more organized but, I found this to be a process that will take time. I also been in the hospital for pancreatitis and been trying to get some sort of diet started. I have been trying to even get into the habit of writing in my private diary and sketch something daily. . As far as my tulpas go, I have been talking to them in my mind. Its important to me
  4. I hope you guys forgive me for vanishing when college went down hill. Long story short I am switching to technical school. Anyway my parents knew for a long time. As a matter of fact back in 2008 when I forged Seria I don't think tulpamancy was a thing. I can't remember how they found out. Whether I told them or they found out by snooping. I remember my mother stole my diary of private conversations with my Seria. Took me a really long time to get over it. They eventually grew accustomed to it. . After I moved out of my parents house I did not really tell anyone unless I knew I could trust
  5. Hopefully I am not the only one who done this. I forget but, I am pretty sure there is a tulpa on here who took inspiration from a changeling from MLP. How many of you had a tulpa inspired by an artist, writer or some other inspiration? . . My response Just about all my tulpas took inspiration from somewhere. Odd enough some of them appeared to me as the form they were inspired by. My tulpas Molly and Alex my shape shifter have that in common. Molly is inspired by the pony who is also known as Pacific Glow. Alex was inspired by a Creepy Pasta picture known as "This guy." I kind of think th
  6. Yet, again I have been silent. I have tried to get through pre-calculus and even when I put writing aside I was unsuccessful. I failed two very important test in a row. I also found that when I stopped writing on a regular basis has affected me both mentally and spiritually. I dropped my math class and decided on going to technical school instead of college. Now that I have more time on my hands I hope to be more active on the forums as well as my blog and public diary.
  7. I hope you guys forgive me for going silent for a couple of weeks. I literally got busy with college and rearanging my apartment. Its been crazy to say the least. Not to mention my job made things difficult with time. I love my job and the place I work but, what time I have is limited. . I have uploaded the first of Christian Tulpamancy. Its going to be a fairly long series. I was only going to have three parts and decided on doing a how to tulpa forge for the first three then the next 3-4 parts will be about the ethics of a being a Christian and a Tulpamancer. . There is some really good
  8. I thought I would do another update since its been five days and a lot has happened. My Job has been really flexible as promised. That is a big part of why I accepted this job. With this I am also trying to get my full amount of hours. I am getting everything done in a lot shorter time then what they gave me. Good news is they are adding things to my tado list. On the flip side I am trying to make my schedule work. I had to cancel the cleaning that my friend does for my apartment. We could not find another day for this week to get it done. So, I am doing what I can in my spare time to get that
  9. Update I got a job and have been busy with things. I have had some ups and downs. Mostly I am satisfied with how far I came even with the aggravating distractions of life. I am still trying to write in my wonderland diary. I did a short diary with my Tulpa Molly. I promised her I would and there was no way out of that one. . I also have been reading a book on dialogue. It has been helping. I just need to keep at my reading. Its just been hard due to some of the homework we have had from Rhetorical and Critical thinking. I really did not know I could suck at doing research. I do have some in
  10. The glue finally dried on my second diary. I messed around with a thing of stick glue and notebook paper. Gluing it into my new diary I got excited. Almost too excited to write. I started with my thoughts on the first couple of pages and then made sure that the glue did not get any of the pages stuck. Satisfied I convinced myself to write and meditate. Well my version of meditation anyway. . I could not wait to till next week to say this... I knew I was in the room, but some how I was able to let go. I had a need met and I think I can safely say its back. My ability to let go and write freel
  11. Thought I would do an update since its been a week. I have managed to make a habit of writing every day. My next goal is to write on my public diary as well as my hard cover daily diary daily. I am also in the process of making a second hard cover diary. This will be strictly for my wonderland. I hope to write my wonderland twice a week and then every month I will add a day. I hope to get to writing in three diaries daily. This will be writing three times a day. . If all goes well I will start writing my book series again. Once I achieved this I will be trying to do art once a day as well. T
  12. Just to throw this out there I do a lot of writing when I am dealing with my emotions. Last semester I thought I was over the FB indecent I faced so, I took on full time. I ended up becoming really emotional again and even had a strong temptation to forget about college altogether. I wrote a lot and found homework very difficult. Needless to say I am retaking two of my classes. I am thinking about becoming an electrician and publishing my books before I go back to college to become an engineer. . I say this because writing is not difficult for me. I am just having a hard time writing down m
  13. Its not so much that I am exposing myself as much as it becomes easier to just talk to them. If I don't write everyday then switching becomes very difficult. I plan on binding my own diary and dedicating it to them for private writings. This will help me and my Tulpas not have to deal with stage fright. . I kind of feel like that is part of the problem when I am writing on My-Diary dot org. I write in such a way that my Tulpas go silent. I also get OCD and become tempted to parrot. I might see if I can't just write in a note book while I am making the official diary. I am planning on learni
  14. I wrote a diary entry so, that is a start. I will say the progress report thread I had going before this one mentioned something about being afraid of the dark. Although I need a light on to be able to sleep I don't need as many lights as I once did when I made that thread. . I also want to set the goal of writing everyday and without fear of what people think. I also have a blog on wordpress. If anyone is interested please check out my Deviant art intro. I list it there. I will be looking into listing it in my sig as well.
  15. Thanks guys for the advice. I will keep this in mind. Also thanks for the link Angry Bear
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