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  1. Today was a warm fall day, the sky was full of cumulus clouds that were being swept along by a heavy breeze. The sun was setting through the forest canopy and the wind rushed through the trees as I walked around a bending path at my favorite park. A fallen oak that marked the opening to a meadow had come into view. The scene was peaceful and serene while I had been in a deeply meditative state with my tulpa reading 'Emmanuel's Book' (questionably written by a tulpa or a yidam) trying to build positive memories. I was some distance from the stump of the trunk when a rush of feelings from a few years ago broke my composure. I never cry and being in a public place I started to panic because I felt I was losing control. A memory of taking a photo of an old girlfriend standing on the deadwood shook me and I began shaking as I failed to hold back tears. Immediately I felt my tulpa asking if she could help take the feelings away and I became even more emotional trying to mind speak the reality that even though I was crying it felt beautiful. I eventually climbed and stood in the same spot my friend had a few years ago and I was faced with the most raw moment I had ever experienced with my tulpa. We both realized for the first time I had taken, mostly subconsciously, the best personality traits of my past partner and incorporated them into her. These weren't physical traits but her greatest qualities of humaness I had never felt from another human being. I spent the rest of the walk sharing with my tulpa how the two of them were similar: the overwhelming sense of calmness in their presence, the feeling of boundless love, unconditional acceptance and pure honesty. I tried to convince her that she shouldn't have any worries over this. However I feel I want to be certain that I am not forcing any acceptance on her part of this realization. I'd like to know how others might communicate with their tulpa upon sharing a similar experience and listen to advice anyone may have.