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  1. Good luck, friend! If I'm allowed to call you that.
  2. Oh great! What a mod, I wish I could see it. I am so into mods of FigherZ and Budokai Tenkaichi 3. And I see. Yeah. Touhou reaches far. But they reach very deep into DBZ lol. I should find a video to send you to see what you think, but it'd be in Japanese.
  3. There are many free things on the "someday" timeline. One of the most prominent is the day I'll play onigiri with my friend again. It'll be fun when "someday" happens. We'll be playing onigiri and stuff
  4. Lol. For some reason I haven't played/watched this game though. My brain takes things that are popular and considered good and dumps them in the later file Edit: later being designated at "someday". We still haven't figured out what day exactly is "someday"
  5. Very pleasing. There isn't any "only good" anime music. There's too much to count. But I have my preferences Edit: Oh, we're going for cringeyness?? I love this song but I'm fairly sure it gives other people who listen to it cancer
  6. I'm very happy for your progress. Also I'm one of those that randomly lucid dream without trying, and I think it is 1000% worth it. I don't understand how someone can think it is boring. Ha, maybe I'll send you metta and it'll help your future attempts. I also agree with feeling of not wanting to rely on substances for things, but sometimes you're just stuck so you gotta get the help, so I wouldn't feel bad about it, unless it was utterly destroying your health or something, which I don't think these pills are.
  7. Oh lumi, while listening to dbz music and playing FighterZ, it happened upon this. That's a Touhou song isn't it? Sounds incredibly a lot like one to me. The music video isn't something amazing, but it reminds me of the fact that there are a lot of Japanese people that love Dragonball and Touhou as much as we do combined and make fanfictions about it on youtube with stories including characters from both series. Did you know that? It is amusing
  8. Probably not. Maybe it is because my computer was made in 1846 so the match has horrible framerate
  9. I'm glad you like it! Yeah, with Rena by my side, I can smile even in adversity.
  10. Ouch. Getting wrecked in FighterZ and then they don't rematch you. That doesn't feel good. "You're a waste of my time, trash of the universe. I already took care of you." That's probably what they're saying to me
  11. digital doodle of old paper doodle of us. I wish I could do her justice, but it has been a while since I posted anything when I wanted to a lot. don't mind the mystical lighting that makes no sense
  12. I wish I had therapists I could text or call
  13. Wow, that's interesting. Though doing that with drawing seems like it would be really difficult. There are so many things you'd have to be keeping track of in your mind. Though idk
  14. Practicing in real life is a lot more sure fire way to do it certainly.
  15. I think it is similar for me I dunno if I can practice drawing in dreams. My drawings are always a lot better than they are in real life in dreams so I don't know if there is any benefit
  16. Interesting. Will have to think on how to do that next time I happen to have a lucid dream. Also I almost always can fly, but the speed and ease at which I can varies drastically. Sometimes it is just floating like darth vader in the old battlefront 2, and sometimes I can fly like a dbz character. What I can't do is ever fire a destructive blast, also guns never work in dreams for me. Not sure what part of me is believing that they won't. My ability to be something other than myself is also random Almost feel inspired to try deliberately lucid dreaming again and get more opportunities to figure these things out.
  17. I've never really been able to reliably make things I want to appear in lucid dreams
  18. TB

    TBnRB's Meditation POWWOW

    Yeah, it's been really hard. I'm glad you managed to get a lot of it done. I've felt like a victim of circumstance lately due to my medicine issue derailing my entire life, among other things, but I guess I have to get over it somehow. Not really easy to know how to do though. I'm 100% convinced I was basically fed poison by doctors and I almost feel bad telling someone to see a professional if they have to, seeing as how much "professionals" did for me. But I guess it is supposed to be the responsible thing to say and I'm sure they help some people. Also a meditation master trained in dealing with purifications counts, though I don't have access to any and don't know how to get access to one. I don't know much about third eye stuff so I can't really confirm or deny if there is an actual relation to it, but whatever information you have still seems to have benefited you so I'm glad.
  19. I've had something similar happen. Trying to fall asleep and hearing violently loud banging on the door but it can't be real. It was miserable
  20. I hate those dreams, where I suddenly realize "wait I still have one more year of school to go oh nooo"
  21. That's my problem too... I want to draw to create the things I want to create, but I can't so I get angry with myself and frustrated. Years of bad association has made me kind of despise drawing in a way, but I still do it anyway because I want it bad enough. I'm trying to fix my mindset about it. I need to be pure and just love drawing for the sake of drawing I think if I'm going to help myself get anywhere. As of right now, drawing is often self hatred and misery time
  22. TB

    TBnRB's Meditation POWWOW

    If there is anyone reading this that is a serious meditator, it may probably be important to talk about purifications more. Once your meditation practice matures to a certain point and your mind is settled enough, deep unconscious material will start to bubble up to the surface. This usually takes the form of disturbing emotions and mental imagery. They are usually tied to some kind of trauma one has accrued throughout life, even if one doesn't remember what it is. Almost everyone will run into this to some degree, as I think pretty much no one has had a perfect life. The intensity of these purifications can be light and barely noticeable, to full blown rage, terror, grief, shame, and/or other powerfully negative emotions. Despite the painfulness of it, they are actually a good thing as it is your unconscious mind trying to resolve and heal these deep seeded issues, and it results in a hugely positive changes in a person. They can last as short as a week or so or as long as months/years. I'm one of the lucky ones in the latter category. The key to getting through purifications is to just let is pass through you without resistance. Trying to block a purification is bad, and if you do the purification won't happen. Purifications are suffering x equanimity. By this fact, you can actually have purifications outside of meditation or during any sort of life event. The most common and earliest form purifications may take is feelings of boredom and impatience that arise when trying to meditate. These count too, and you treat them the same way. Eventually they will burn up, and you will no longer feel boredom or impatience during meditaiton, which will make longer sits a lot easier. For some people purifications may be too intense to handle, and if that's the case you should go get help from a professional. (also me) Another option for dealing with powerful purifications is to practice metta on the side. It makes it easier to handle. As a last thing, don't be alarmed if in your meditation you make unexpected strange movements. They are called Kriyas and are the result of Sankaras (conditioning) being burned up. They can sometimes be intense like twitching very hard, grimacing, sobbing, or making strange noises. They go away eventually. Good luck, hope I didn't forget anything
  23. I usually have to play a youtube video in the background while I draw so I have a voice to listen to when I draw. It is hard for me to draw while listening to music for some reason. Ideally I'd like to in silence though, but working on it, even though that is kind of impossible in this house because I always have to deal with listening to the living room TV being on which sucks Also a lot of the music I like is also probably embarassing