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  1. Communists are always fun to talk with. -J
  2. omg, we're still talking traffic lights? I haven't been on lotpow for a while. We need some fresh blood. -J
  3. Ooh, I got a notification from being quoted. For auditory imposition, I highly recommend finding a source of white or pink noise. I've had luck with both wearing headphones/earbuds and with having the source be away from me (a fan directly behind me, and a fan across the room.) You might get quick results but also don't give up quickly if you don't get quick results: with the fan, it was about two and a half hours before I started being able to really auditory-impose into that noise. What you (or your headmate) should try to do is "grab onto" bits of the white noise- see patterns that aren't there. It's kinda like trying to look for shapes in clouds, but with noise instead. You can start with words, but really I've had the best luck starting with only sounds. Go "duh, duh, duh, duh" into the noise, or "shh, shh, shh." Once you can see those patterns consistently, you can make them more elaborate. Or, with the fan across the room, that was really entirely on my tulpas. They were talking, and they mentally placed their location into that source of white noise instead of in wonderland. I could only hear them softly, like through a not-quite-tuned radio, but it felt 100% like the audio was coming from within the fan, not just a mental simulation of noise. Also try imposing at different times of the day- some experiences are easier to access right before or after sleeping, others need full, deep attention, others still seem to need you to be drained of energy. It's a pretty personal, individualized process. Good luck! -J
  4. why don't we say the t in listen, Bre???
  5. Twice upon a morning cheery, while I pondered, weak and weary, Over many a quaint and curious volume of forgotten lore— While I nodded, nearly dabbing, suddenly there came a tapping, As of some one roughly rapping, rapping at my kitchen door. “’Tis some spider,” I muttered, “rapping at my kitchen door— Only this and nothing more.”
  6. JGC

    Ask Lumi's Tulpas

    Oooh, it's been forever, but I figured I ought to give an update and say that I did speak directly with Jamie's therapist, with her knowing it was me, and all was well. In addition, at our new school we have a new social worker I meet with for 45 minutes weekly, and I have been careful to always be the one meeting with him. He still only knows me as James, but I am there speaking for myself, not pretending to be Jamie. It's really the first person I've had to talk to. It's kinda nice. Hehehe. Imagine finding a therapist as a tulpa. First session: "So, why did you decide to come see me?" "Well, you see, this isn't actually my body, and the guy who lives here is just so unfair to me!" "You think someone else is living in your body?" "No, no, no, I'm living in HIS body! He was here first, I'm only a few years old." - G
  7. I've been thinking about making nice share-able index-card sized graphics about tulpamancy, but omg, 1) would I get ripped apart in-community? 2) How could I avoid pitfalls and weird holes? 3) Anything fitting on an index card is going to be reductionist as hell. And I know people will want to know, how are tulpas made? I don't want an index-card sized graphic being what people are trying to make a tulpa off of. I don't want people sharing a set of 5 graphics and going, "Let's make tulpas." Maybe some things should be hidden, should be only found in longer papers. We don't make quickstart guides for- You know, I thought about that for a second and couldn't think of anything that I wouldn't be able to find a quickstart guide for. You could be clever with a "How Tulpas Are Created" and say stuff like "Tulpamancers use meditative techniques" without going into detail about wtf you're meant to do. -J
  8. You can get it off youtube for a few bucks. It was really good.
  9. I mean... good for the Sentinelese.
  10. Holy shit, do we actually do that with any tribes? Just, keep tabs on them without them knowing? That's some sci-fi shit. I remember reading about how there were some tribes that built mock airways, after seeing supply planes drop off stuff on airways. How do the drones see past the canopy?
  11. Yes, pigs do have hooves. It's about the thick keratin aka hard bottom. It's analogous to fingernails or claws. Hippos and elephants don't have hooves, but rhinos and giraffes do. Animals with hooves are called "ungulates." -J
  12. I think something similar happened to Piñata System (also not exactly a saint.) Their channel got hacked and replaced with a football highlights channel. It took, geez, over a month I want to say, for their videos to be put into a new channel. I'm not sure if subscribers transferred, honestly I think there was a cut of at least ten thousand. Auto-emedding is great on mobile... -J
  13. How often do you reckon people named Frank make "being Frank, I have to say..." puns? I don't know what puns I have for James. It's close enough to "aims". -J
  14. My grandfather's cat lays on the floor like this when he wants attention.
  15. Happy to have you around, Cheryl and Matt. -G
  16. Night, Lumi. The way appear to me, I wouldn't be surprised if you find some drug, or even some herbal thing, that works wonders for you, and is completely not it's prescribed/typical usage. I take melatonin sometimes but the strongest "sleep now" drug I've ever taken was predisone, which... didn't work well at all as a steroid, for me. Humans are just complex and highly individualized machines, and the science we do is meant almost entirely to work on large, generalized populations. The hard thing is... finding it, ofc. The TV show ReGenesis was so good, but I never see anyone talk about it. I don't even remember how I found out about it. It had an episode about that. -J
  17. [ORPHEUS & THE FATES] Doubt comes in And strips the paint Doubt comes in And turns the wine Doubt comes in and leaves a trace Of vinegar and turpentine Where are you? Where are you now? Doubt comes in And kills the lights Doubt comes in And chills the air Doubt comes in and all falls silent It’s as though you aren’t there Where are you? Where are you now? [EURYDICE] Orpheus You’re shivering Is it cold or fear? Just keep singing The coldest night Of the coldest year Comes right before the spring ORPHEUS & THE FATES Doubt comes in With tricky fingers Doubt comes in With fickle tongues Doubt comes in and my heart falters And forgets the songs it sung Where are you? Where are you now? [EURYDICE] Orpheus Hold on Hold on tight It won’t be long ’cause the darkest hour Of the darkest night Comes right before the dawn
  18. loving the new custom role you have :3
  19. The only big mess up we've ever had was, Cassidy was in the car with my mom (who doesn't know) and he pulled out a John Denver cassette and said, "This is our favorite!" But luckily that could be interpreted pretty seamlessly as being about my mom and myself, because my mom was also raised on John Denver. I've never had problems like that, although sometimes I'm just dying in a conversation to tell the person what Gavin is telling me, because he's kinda, always also in the conversation. I have all sorts of tricks to do that, though. "And while I'm saying all this, there's another part of myself saying..." "And behind all that thinking, there's another voice in my skull telling me...." Sometimes I get a chuckle when I realize how much metaphorical language I'm... really using literally. But people are fine with "parts" language. There's a part of me that wants to be professional, there's a part that wants to have fun. There's a part that wants to go to this party, there's a part that doesn't. I might be talking quite literally about alters, which I'll call parts, but everyone has had some sort of experience like that. It breaks down when my 'parts' have entirely different beliefs that aren't compatible. Gavin loves green olives, I hate them, that's alright- we both can't proclaim love or hatred, but instead have to say, "I have to be in a certain mood to enjoy them/I only like a few/I only like them in a certain way" to explain why one day I'm eating them out of the jar, the next I'm not eating something because it has them in it. That works- what doesn't work is that, my brother is Christian and I'm not. I conceded to Cassidy to go to church (I'd never been to a church before in my life) and my mom was going with, but the day of, Cassidy had gotten upset about something unrelated and was too tired to switch in. And I was there like... I am NOT going to church! No! And my mom just couldn't understand it- I had been so excited to go, and then I bailed last minute because I didn't want to go, and I didn't seem interested in it at all- and then afterward, I was saying, "No, no, we have to go next Sunday...!" And she was asking me, "Well, what is it, are you interested in this, or do you not want to go?" But that sort of situation is rare. -J edit: for context, Cassidy is a tulpa (and my brother), but I/we also have DID and have alters