LanceReilyn

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  1. LanceReilyn

    Ashley's Lounge

    You died? Well, no reason you cant be made into several meals and a piece or two of nice warm clothing. Fava beans optional.
  2. LanceReilyn

    Ashley's Lounge

    Ahh Rimworld. The game where it's possible (and sometimes normal) to turn dead raiders and bandits into stockpiles of meat and human leather. It freaks out most colonists to cut up or eat people but, you can get traits like cannibal or sociopath randomly on your people to mitigate those penalties... ;) I think it sends a pretty clear message that invading a budding colony of psychopathic monsters survivors who make clothing and furniture (for personal usage and/or commerce!) out of those who invade that such behavior is discouraged... They keep coming though.. And that doesn't even get into the potential to set up massive drug farms or harvesting organs from people who stop by or invaders that by some miracle only get knocked unconscious instead of killed by being shot in the face with a sniper rifle. Oh, and since prisoners sometimes break out and flee or cause trouble, naturally the safest thing to do while awaiting your most competent doctor to be fresh and alert so as to get a little more effective training out of removing organs is to amputate both their legs. If you want to set them free afterwords, maybe with no kidneys or liver (they don't need to live long, just long enough to walk off the map), you can install a pair of peg legs on them and watch them slowly hobble away back to whence they came. Odds are, they will be back in the next attack wave from that group. And much easier to deal with. Sometimes the funniest things are in the forums where people are talking about things like "why do people without the gay trait refuse the advances of my settler with the trait? That's not right! They should have a more open mind". Their psychotic alcoholic manic smoke-leaf-dependant cannibal wearing pants, a trenchcoat, button-up shirt and cowboy hat made of their enemies skins. Just another day in the Rim.
  3. LanceReilyn

    Chat Thread

    My situation is different from many. Rei is already front. I just need to learn not to be. That's our situation. It's less "switching" for us and more "releasing" for me, while she just goes on and does whatever she normally does all the time. That is why I'm curious if this as a possible means to promote that. The usual visualization and focus and things mentioned in guides just doesn't work for us. As soon as Rei learned to get in front and the body got used to her, she never left it. we just swap control between each other with cues, visualization or passing thoughts on who is "primary" or "executive", to reduce the amount of grounding we need to do to throw off the blendy mixing we sometimes experience.
  4. LanceReilyn

    Chat Thread

    Next day, more VR.. Efforts being frustrated with how picky this is all being to setup. Turned out it's just a matter of learning a new kind of gaming environment along with it's own little caveats. Enough is plug and play to get started but the rest is learning how to manipulate models and bone structures in unity and such. The more you learn, the more control you have over it and the more full and rewarding the experience can be, imo. Kind of like buying a fast car vs taking a modest one and upgrading it yourself to be fast or even building one from scratch. All can provide different levels of satisfaction, depending on what you like and how far you are willing to go. Either way, it's a huge time sink. At least 3/4 of my time has been spent setting things up or learning what I needed to do or trying to tweak and adjust mods just right. The rest was actually playing beat saber. Which is fun and Rei and I take turns on it. We found avatars we like and just go go. Good exercise, good music and good fun. More to the point, I'm noticing the same disassociation today as I did yesterday. Just kind of drifting back and watching the fingers type away like they aren't really mine. I can still fell them but just barely. I said before that when I'm typing I often go almost into a trance, with thought just going strait to fingertips, bypassing any filters or consideration. This feels like that except when the hands are typing, it isn't "me watching and mostly feeling my hands type", like it used to be. It's a feeling of "me watching and barely feeling someone else's hands type". It's hard for me to explain more than that, but I assume any of you who have switched or gotten close to it have had comparable experiences? Rei says she isn't really experience these things I am, which is quite different for us and why I'm the one here describing it. We are used to experiencing everything through the body and brain identically and simultaneously, not counting our own independent thoughts. This is a new and strange idea for both of us. She doesn't seem to be effected by VR; puts the headset on, plays with it and takes it off, feeling no different afterwords, while it almost makes me feel like it's loosening the tight grip of association I have on the body. I want to see how deep this rabbit hole goes.
  5. LanceReilyn

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    Well, we are going to continue playing, it's not a feeling I want to ground to get rid of, it's one I think I actually want to increase. If it becomes a helpful tool to improve disassociation for me, then great! As long as it's not both of us at the same time anyway because that seems pointless. I'm still sitting at work, kinda feeling a little bit disconnected. Really looking forward to getting home tonight and adding a couple more hours to it. Bed will follow so I dunno what I'm expecting, if anything, but I will find out.
  6. LanceReilyn

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    Interesting thing to report. Borrowed a friend's Oculus Rift VR headset and controllers this weekend. Had things to do and got distracted so only got about an hour of VR time spent setting it up and another hour playtime on beat saber so far. After taking the headset off and going about my day and at work, I feel more.. Disconnected. A little more distanced from the body. Slightly disassociated. Like I'm floating slightly behind it and not quite directly in charge, 2nd hand in charge almost. Possessing? The senses I'm getting feel a little bit more dull and the body just a little less like I'm directly plugged into it. I think it's fascinating. Rei reports no change on her part or interference in her own fronting experience or executive control over things. Has anyone else had anything like this happen? Can VR cause some kind of detachment or disassociation? I'd just about given up on being able to switch out but could this lead there?
  7. https://i.pinimg.com/originals/8b/d4/e3/8bd4e347e23860b9e9d397d49c7a00e8.jpg[/img] What is a man? A miserable little pile of secrets!
  8. Kindly do not engage in saturating yourself with oxygen, especially molecular (pure) oxygen till you have studied fully the concept of "Oxygen Toxicity" and "hyperoxia", which it causes. You risk hyperventilation, seizures, cell damage, lung damage, loss of consciousness and potential brain damage. You do you but know the risks first and probably don't engage in such a thing alone or unsupervised.
  9. Deviation is a pretty normal thing. Tulpas are people too and are free to experiment with whatever for they like best, whatever feels more "right" or "natural" to them or really anything at all. As for the "why", well.. Why not? I imagine if flesh and blood people had the ability to change their body drastically at will, they would do so as well. Could be any reason at all. Personally, I would respect her wishes and encourage streaks of independence and self-expression. You are just as free to drastically change the form you use for headspace/wonderland activity, of course, so have fun and experiment.
  10. Personally, the creation process never messed with my sleep. I already had occasional bouts of insomnia long before it. If we are doing too much, focusing too hard when we are trying to get to sleep, it has a habit of keeping us awake, however. Headaches and head pressures are common but not universal. Just keep at it, perhaps recording a journal of your experiences and findings to compare against and build a record. Feel free to make a progress report and share your experiences, if you like.
  11. Heh, she was very specific about "patron us both" to show our love and support of the community.
  12. Logged out, logged in under her account, found she had the account switching option, had the option to un-link or specify her account as secondary. I chose wrong. Now neither of us is linked nor has the option to link anyone else.
  13. Correct. The option to swap accounts also disappeared in the upper right hand corner and when posting. Where is the link account option normally displayed? In my profile page, linked accounts it's blank and I can't remember if that's where the option was?
  14. In what I interpret as an adorable way she insists she is in bed asleep and it's just Lance here. Then again, I'm asking for account support in a game thread so I guess she has me beat.
  15. Hey, Bear. I prefer to take a more background role nowadays, unless something piques my interest.