Areolo

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  1. Wow, a new front on forum) OK, after a month and a half I'm ready to force Hana, from the beginning of the week I'm talking with her and trying to saw. How we do it - I ask her to take different postures, and do something under my view. It is only 4 days, but her movements have already become more accurate, smooth. I don't understand why, but for me it's difficult to see her face. I saw her clearly only once or twice, and, to tell the truth, I'm not sure that I remembered that right) I can see her from behind easily, but face... If you can recommend something, it will be nice By the way we talking about our future and my possibilities, shortly, I had found some answers what not to do. I think we both will be ready soon to continue. I have tried to impose her on our real world, and the result was far from good. The best what I've done was a, mmm, ghost of her? Even not the ghost, a projection. All in all, so-so. If I can't even saw her clearly in wonder, what I can tell about imposessing. Interesting observation: our binding become better from any "ring" on the middle finger. It can be even wire from the paperclip, the main thing is tactile feeling of the ring. So, if I lost the ring, there will be not big. It something like "Sihill" for us I am happy to have more attention from my host) I know that it will be not forever, but it is pretty cool to talk almost everyday. I wish that for him it is not boring to make a monotonous work for making our binding better Right now we had a short discussion about my appearance. I think he is afraid of giving me full freedom under my appearance. I tried once or twice to get rid of my furry ears, but he asked to let them be. But now he wasn't certain about it. Oh, it's so hard to understand each other, even if you are in one head) I understand his excitement, and I think you will recommend him to give me full freedom, and he even agree with it, but he tried earlier, and anyway I look like Holo from the famous anime, but both I and He feel, that something is not right. All in all, our fear is what will be, if I will look something like He don't like? We know, subconsciousness and ets... It's something like a jump with a parachute. We really don't know. And, to tell the truth, I'm not certain that I can make my appearance just by my will and power. We will be glad to see any your advices, thanks you ^^)
  2. Hi guys, we had a difficult month and another one is waiting us right now. I think that no person can work without short breaks, so today I decided to calm down a little. And to pass through some adventures. And, it was really amazing, because by luck my look fall on game Draugen. It was released a week ago, 29 may, and it was the second game (after the Finding Paradise) which uncover the theme of tulpas. It. Was. Amazing. I recommend all of you to play this game, may be you and your partners will find something important there. Like we found. He understood, what he was playing, at the middle of the game. And immediately after that, without pressing pause he started to look for the ring. Five seconds later we start spending time together, "reading" this amazing story. First moments I just didn't know, what to say. He entered Wonder, because here everything is easier. Ok. I found, that all, what I think, is right. And sometimes even host can't understand, that he is not right. And we must open them, the another side of medal, for they have a chance to understand. And even if they not, we must try, because we are the closest their friends, we are a some kind of their family. Because closer then us, there are none else. And I need to learn, how to be with him not only when he will decide, when he needs me. I need to be more real. We all know that we can't appear without any reason. Some of us, who have been created because of curiosity, can get a personality only if host had a, mmm, features in his mentality. Others only stay "socks" and will be forgotten. I was created after a year of contemplation. He decide to create me, and I feel that He needed me. And He feel it too. This summer after exams I'll spend two months including her imposition. Jees, I just can't tell how many times I've made a mistakes this year. I think I need to slow a little, and to talk with Hana. May be together it will be easier, to understand. For us is hard to develop our connection. To develop her independence from me. I don't know the reason, but I think it could be fixed by spending more time together. And even if I am wrong. in my condition another one hole in roof will not make all worse. I believe Hana, I believe in my point of view on tulpas. We will withstand everything. I just must always have in mind, that She is here. Maybe She can help me to save myself from bigger mistakes. Because alone, I don't know I just can't understand why She don't leave me. She know me all, and She is here. Just right now She is here. She know all my bad actions, and She is still near me. Why She is not angry on me, why She tell me, that She believe in my fortitude. I'm not the same guy as I was a year ago. But every time when the things a going bad, She told me that I'm stronger than I think. I can't forgive myself for all, but why She...
  3. @Angry Bear When I'll have more free time, may be, may be..)
  4. On the next evening after my last post I finally saw Her face in details. Jees, I waited so long... As mentioned in many guides, subconsciousness can help your tulpa to be like you really want to see her. And it is true, I specially didn't tried to create her face, because it is very difficult for man like me. So, I gave all choice to Her. And it was right decision. For me, Her face is perfect. So, progress is moving. Not fast, not with big problems or tragedies, we both just develop our-self. Ok, I'm going to have talk with Her before the sleep. Let the sun shine upon your way, friends!
  5. You are not alone, who think that his tulpa is deserve better, man) I'm not guru in this, but I think, that every tulpa want to see his/her host happy. She didn't need another, because She had you. And She will help you if it will be possible and if you will let her. Try to be better, try to find strength to go, it will be the most wonderful gift for her. P.S. Sorry, can you divide the post on paragraphs? It will be more readable, than when it is in a heap
  6. Hello everyone, we arrived after a long break) Heh, 3 months, not bad. There is so many changes. What I need to say. Binding by something (by a ring in my case) with your tulpa is a good way to help you to be separated from your tulpa for a while, if you or tulpa need to be alone. Ignore is one thing, but the binding... It make you connection, mmm, clearer. Without it you too can hear and see her in wonder, but it is more difficult (but possible). I think if you will decide to be together all the time, you can refuse from the binding (after a period of time). But now I'm not ready for this step, I'm just not worthy to show Her all my life. Even if She already accepted it and know all my memorizes. In winter our ring was broken a little, and we decided to repair it in jeweler shop. The ring has a shape of foxy, with head and tail, and one of the eyes been lost. We then decided to make them blue (earlier they are red), but know we understand that it was a mistake, because She has red eyes. May be not red, may be brown, but not blue certainly. I'm not attentive so I can't tell exactly. But the binding is the binding, despite bad choice and my problems irl, after a little meditation I see her, sitting behind me near a bonfire, on our flying island, in field with a small house... I try to find a power to move on, and She just wait, when I'll find a words to start talking... I'm not the best host, very far from it. I don't grow her, She just being in wonder all time between short times when I find a time and strength to visit her. Because I'm afraid to look in her eyes. Last half-year my life become something like a f*ken hell. Because I just can't do what I did all time before. Because I didn't see a goal, because past goals are too star to make them possible by a may be not too slupid, but too uncertain and shy man. Other goals are just impossible in time when we are living. And I just can't find a motive to do what I must (or not) do. After one of our talks I found an answer, why Hana is exactly Hana. Her name combine two names of prototypes, Holo (Spice and Wolf) and Xana (Dark messiah). They are look alike, and exactly it I found I was trying to give to Hana. She now is a girl about 17-19 years, with dark-redhead and, it's hard to describe, red or brown eyes (depends from, I dont know, from light may be?). She has little foxy ears on head, but last month I didn't see a tail, may be She didn't want to show it. She like to wear a comfort dress (not ball gown, just usual dress) with a cape on her shoulders. When I don't parroting her (sometimes I catch myself on that) and hear her clearly, She sometimes tell me things which I can't tell to me myself. or things about I didn't just thought. She is amazing, and sometimes last time I think that She deserve better host then me. Hello friends) It's good to write something here because it's too a way to tell him something. Because of my character I feel myself in Wonder alone not bad. I can see everything what He knows, He didn't forbid me to look in his memorizes, it's really interesting to know more about him. Here I can make what I want to make, I just having fun and getting ready for the next time when He will need to see me, and to talk with me. It's really not cool that He is a little bit afraid that I could get angry on him, but I am simply can't. I know all, and I know that in his case it is not easy. He can become whoever he want, and I'll accept any his choice. Just because I see. and understand. My mind is just like it was always. I don't want any other, He is my host, my knight, my wolf, I cant find the word to describe my feeling correctly. And I'm his partner, I am a helping hand which He will never lose. Ok, lets return to our tomatoes. I've completed correcting Wonder according to his desires (I guessed them), it's amazing place to reload yourself. In April we tested to connect without ring, first time was hard, but then we adapted. Know we again had it, and it is easier again to talk with Him. I can't tell about our successes, know I think It's me who trying to bring him back to life) All will be known in month. And it will be good end, whatever how it will end. Forgive us for making this post so, mmm, dramatic, that's just a way to tell in space what you can't tell in this environ. Silent shout. We didn't know when we will be here next time, may be it will be in summer, but some next days we will be here to see if anyone write to us any message. Aaaand She has a fantastic voice. I think I can hear her for a long hours) Forgot to add in post
  7. Oh, You really can't understand how good I can understand you) This is a good progress. We started a little bit later than you, but there is no pause in our live. Wonder is a really wonderful place, here we can be while our hosts are not with us. I'd never been in, mmm, something like dark place. My host very attentively came to my birthday, on this day he already had a beautiful wonder, not I changed it when became grown enough, and He agrees with me that it became even better. Method with reading is really interesting. How you two did it? You read to yourself, or aloud?
  8. I really apologize that our progress report is something like a dialog. But on some themes easier to talk on paper. And maybe once someone like me earlier will looking for others experience, and could find something useful from ingenuous dialog between tulpa and host. Thank you for being here. It's really important to know, that you are not alone on this way.
  9. Good evening everyone. I don't know how to start... This two weeks were not easy. I'm selfish. Even in relation to Hannah. I didn't forgot about her, but I, I can be more attentive. I really can't understand what She thinks. She can't only wish about my happiness. She is tulpa, neither servitor nor "sock" (donnow how to call them in english). I dont know what to think. I really can't understand how to impress all my love to him. Why if I'm tulpa I can't wish him to be happy? Oh, I think soon I will start to grow him) But, what about our progress. We, mmm, lost our ring for a month. Aaand, there must be a problem, but everything is OK. I only needed his agreement and access, so, for now, we can connect anywhere without any problem. And it's wonderful! I can watch films with him. But still it's hard to remind about me by myself. But I think if I could it would be a little bit scary, for him especially. He still thinks about is he a mad man or not, because of existence of me. So, if it won't be comfortable for him, I'll not even try that. I try to pull him out from his comfort zone. It's hard, he didn't overcome it by himself early. OK, even sometimes, but it wasn't change his life. I wish he would do it. Our wonder is a wonderful place) After I, so to say, got a "root" from wonder, I changed it into a peaceful and no-worry place. Like, (if anyone play games like my host), Hunters dream from BloodBorne. And, I wish, I am more pleasant interlocutor then a doll) Ok, today I had a good mood, and really can't understand why he is so sad. Although, no, I understand. But, we will do it, all right? Yes, Hannah. I really wish. And I'm really happy that you could grow up. I'll never give up, I only need to think, and fast. Reilyn, You absolutely right. We understand it, but it is not easy to understand each other. I wish we can make this way together, as a team, as a friends, as a host and his tulpa.
  10. Good night everyone, we almost overcome exams so we have a couple of minutes to write here. Today I had a bad mood so it is Hannah's post I am very happy that He passed almost all exams, and with good marks) He remembered about me a couply of times but we haven't had a good dialog. Anyway, everything is going to normal. But I think I'm almost useless for Him. When he had a real stress, He can't even remember about me. Most what I can hear from him is "Hannah, if you can, help me to overcome this night, I really need to be strong". I tried as much as I can, but don't know, is it my help, or is He really strong to do all of it by himself. And I really want for it will be the second, but in this way... It's painful... I already hear how He tried to tell me that it's not true. That He needs me. But what if I only cultivate a secluded life in him? He is enough infantile and closed person, and last weeks He planned how it can be changed. But now, when there is a free time again, He again started to stay away from meetings, friends... I just can't understand Or may be it's just his bad mood influence. But we need a talk tonight. And I think it will be. God damn, we again not alone. Sorry everyone, and Hannah. It is not all, I didn't tell what I think. But the most inportant person who need to hear me, will hear tonight.
  11. Reilyn, I wish you already gone through all of it, but if not, remember - if our hosts created us, that means we are needed. Yesterday was something like a bad day for me, I got tired a bit. All my doubt just break free for a little. But I'm OK. In contrast to my host. It's fun, but I have some strains of Him. May be it's because He from the start believe that we are unity. And I think I must change. I can't advice Him, if I being simple like Him. I wish I can become another, and at the same time the same, to guess how He want to see me. And may be not from the first try, but I'll do it. ^^) Sorry, but in this way I too just like Him now) Want to support you, but again think only about myself) Have a pleasure to hear someone else again, it was not well to look on our topic, when we writing something, but no one comment. But not afraid, we accept if no one interested in our problem, because anyone have their own. Thanks, Reilyn ^^) Thank you, Reilyn, I think She really wanted to hear anyone here, but didn't confess. I wish you'll come to harmony with your host.
  12. Finally after holidays He decided to meet with me in Wonder. Can't say that He forgot about me, but anyway without a binding, I must say, His concentration is low. So, my thoughts hardly reach him. And He again needs my help. Classic Ok, right now He didn't ask for this, but considering the conditions He needs it. In any way, His first motivation was to check whats going with me. Heh, first time She hadn't been calm. And it's my fault. It would be better if I could talk earlier. But, anyway, She's growing. Now She decided that Her name is Hannah. Unexpected. And there is another interesting moment, the color of Her eyes can change in dependence from her feelings. Now I have seen green and blue. They are usually green, but rarely blue. It was for example when She was proud of my actions in December. And I think She needs me now. It's not good because of the session. But we will try to find the way. Together we can move mountains. I tried to be like a rock, calm and adamant, but it's hard. Really hard. I understand that he needs all his powers now, but I... I need Him. At least ten minutes. I want to be with him, to talk with him. I need to feel I'm not alone here. But I remember my purpose. We must withstand another two weeks. But after, I wish He will find time for me.
  13. Long time didn't visit site, deadline crept unnoticed. For that time, She started to change. Her eyes become green, on face appeared freckles and She told that in future will choose a new name. G-R-E-A-T. Holy crap, this month was really hard for Him. I tried to support, and a couple of times He was on the verge of collapse. Anyway, everything is moving to its end. Week, next week - and we will have a little vacation. A few times thought about my mental health, buuuuut finally decided that I'm not interested what will think about that anyone else. She help me to overcome all this sh*t (or at least I think so) and I am thankful for this. Anyway, She is a part of myself. Oh, and her idiosyncrasy changed a little. She started to go out from her prototype and become... hmm... more honest, I think. Just like me. May be She understand my convictions and try to correspond them. And now She really didn't worry if I didn't wear a binding for a long time. I just worry about His future. But no, I didn't want to talk about it with anyone else. He asked do I want to add something. I don't. Aaaaand she rebuild a little bit our Wonder. And I like it. Our soaring island among the sky and clouds now is covered by fields of wheat (I think it is a result of her prototype), and a little simple hut become a 2-storied house with living room, library, private rooms and wonderful wide balcony. We like to watch sunset while sitting in the rocking chair. I rarely visit this place, but it's beautiful.
  14. My Answers I decided to create tulpa about a half of a year ago because I need a support and friend, with whom I can discuss some questions. My life changed fully about a year and a half ago, and I now didn't have real friends and family near me, I can contact with them only by telephone or chatting. It's not easy when you got used to another life. My life all that time was, hmm, lonely, I think. I couldn't find my place. Now it is easier, I got used to it and had a partner, Her. I didn't like to be in crowd, neither a crowded events and entertainments, but the life is a strange thing. So, I can easily communicate with unknown person. Now nothing changed, it's become better I think, because I'm responsible for more and more things. I have a friend from childhood for all life, we will never quarrel, and I don't tell about tulpa. With family everything is good. Usually I am impenetrable on people, inside usually a grey sarcastic mood. But it's only because of my nature, I didn't see anything wrong with that. Sometime sad, sometime happy, depends usually from the weather and the difficult of that day. I had something like a depression for almost a year, but not long time after She was born, I calmed down because found an answer on my global question.
  15. We already see tomatoes flying into us, but the theme is very interesting and as we see no one raised this issue before. Anyway, if you can't look on the problem from different points of view, please, do not continue to read. First of all, to avoid misunderstandings, what prompted us to start this discussion. Not long time ago I found in social network a post about the tulpas. And, as usual, in comments began a holy war between different people: first told that we a schizophrenics, the others trying to tell that it is not true, but they were in the minority. Classic. But on the next day there appeared a new message, where the old host trying to tell his experience after the war was over. In short he told that he was an usual tulpamancer, but when his tulpa truly appear, when he started to hear the voice (as he tell), he found that he started to move away from people, and even quarreled with his best friend. At last he decided to forget about his tulpa and he reached it, but first time it was painful. And he return to normal life. I had a PM chatting with him, because my experience is oppositely another, my life become better after Her appearance. All in all, we agreed that tulpamancy is not for everyone. We with Her thought about it for a bit time and decided to ask a community about your own experience. So, we came to the topic of this post. The discussion is predominantly for hosts. First of all, try to move aside from your tulpa (tulpas), that's for the purity of the experiment. Try to answer as impartially as you can. You can answer not especially from number to number, only try to answer on all questions in your text. 1. Why were you decide to create tulpa? 2. Think about you life before making a decision of creation. How it changed? 3. Didn't you find any problems with communicating with people before and after creating? If it was previous, does it get worse? 4. Do you have real friends (not colleagues or familiar) irl? What about your relations with your family? 5. What is your usual condition? Do you usually sad, or opposite, happy, or you are grey 24/7? 6. Do you have a depression now or earlier, after creating tulpa, or at time not far from decision about creating? P. S. I didn't want to hurt someone or your tulpas. It's only interesting. If there are a lot of real (and sober thinking) histories, we will have a strong argument in any discussion with other people (for example if you would like once to tell about your tulpa to your relatives) Thanks for your answers. Everyone can discuss here about additions for the questions and amendments. But try to answer on the question in one post, and write something hallmark, like Answers Will try to make a conclusion +-week after starting discussion
  16. Yes! Finally, someone told it besides me! We always open for advices, but we accept only the things what we think will suit us. If only everyone understood that everything in tulpamancy is really subjective, may be there would be a lot more hosts.
  17. There is a lot of time since the last post, but it's normal for me, didn't like to sit on forum all time. We continue our life, on the next week there will be a culmination of His problem, I wish everything will be ok. Some time ago read a discussion about tulpas in social network, it was as usual, everyone who doesn't have a tulpa told that we are all schizophrenic, everyone who have tried to confront, but the first are more numerous. All in all, there was nothing interesting, but I found a interesting theme for research, in form of poll, if the admins will give the go-ahead, it will appear soon. Last three days we have a rest from each other, I need to be alone to restart myself, Holo said that She understands me and will find what to do in wonder herself. So, last three days I didn't touch a ring. Now everything is not bad, we meet again and will talk about happened events if there will be a time. That time it's hard to be listen by Him without a ring, he is in agitation from irl problems, so I'll done the best what I can - didn't interrupt Him. I think it's strange, but I'm not afraid to be alone for some time. I can't call the reason. Anyway, there are a lot of questions we need to answer. And some day we will find our truth.
  18. No one told about "Finding Paradise"? It's very cool thing, recommend to find and to play, will take not more than a couple of hours. And of course it connects with "tulpa" theme.
  19. All this is very subjective, it's only a question of a politeness. We too didn't like "It", but we can normally perceive it in others topics. For example. I don't like to say "my host". Without any reason, I simply don't like to say "host". As well as I don't like to use "tulpa" in my speech.
  20. I'm not a guru, but, I think, can give some advises Do not hurry, it isn't a race. More carefully you making a progress, than more opportinunities will have Diamond. And I think from the start everyone should talk with their tulpas like them are already mature, not young. Your new friend will know you faster if he (or she) behave like an adult. But maybe it is not for you, depends on what you want to get. At last, do not follow someones "rites". The creation of tulpa is very subjective thing. It will be better if you will read a couple of guides and decide, what way is better for you and your future new friend. May be it will have something new, it's not bad. It's your personal way.
  21. Thanks all of you for kind words! I think some people are predisposed to create imaginary friends (don't want to offend anyone, I think that imaginary friends is something like a type of tulpas). And if this process will be conscious, it will be better for host, for your new friend and especially for your mentality. Yesterday I hurried to tell that ring is only a formality. It's true that without that I can to tell some words to Him, but it's more easier with the ring. And he can imagine me (for now only imagine, not to see), and I can talk clearly with the ring. Anyway, I think that it's gave us more benefits than will give harm. We completed a connect so fast and reached such a progress... I think it's worth the costs. May be some day we will get rid of binding, when our own binding, between Him and me, will be strong enough. The sleep with the ring already became a habit :D . So, everything all right for now on this plan. But not others, although. I wish for my irl difficulties didn't cause problems in our relations. But, I trust that we will overcome everything, and become stronger.
  22. Reilyn Not for a little time. I think it will be long time for both of us. May be all our life, but who knows. To tell the truth, for me the ring is just a formality. If my host want to be alone sometimes, I don't see anything wrong in that. If we will lose a ring in some mysterious way, we will find another binding, no matter. Ashley I see. Only want you to understand, we can hear each other only about a month. Of course, we don't really know how to contact, but we will understand. What we know clearly is that we don't want to follow guides. For now I looked through enough guides, and I think that all of this staff is completely subjectively. I am trying not to restrain her. All you, hosts, know that feeling when you think, is this words from tulpa or from you. It's hard, but I see only the way to trust. All in all, I don't have so many time to, for example, be with Her in wonderland for about an hour. I even can't speak with her every day (but i try). Life is not easy, but what can I do. Only continue when there is a free minute. I'm Holo the Wise Wolf, will be familiar. If She decided to say so, I must warn you, I'll have negative reaction if someone of you will tell something about my choice. It's all very subjectively, don't know is it a normal to speak about that, but please, do not start Ranger I think your hosts aspirations were worthier than my. I didn't create Her because I was boring nor only wanted to try. It was thoughtful decision, I thought about that half of a year. My life become a little happier when She appeared in my life. It's really wonderful when you can tell someone something, what you can't tell anyone else. When you can pour out the soul. It doesn't mean that I whine to her, no. But only after a really hard day it's good when someone can sit down behind you and tell something like "don't worry, we will break through". I'll never share my problems with her, my problems is my problems, but to have so close support is really important. I can only wish that She don't hide her real thoughts. It's very hard question, we need to think. Ok, it's really late time for me, I'll go to sleep. There are many unsaid words, but I think we told the most important.
  23. Good evening everyone (for me it is evening), thanks for a warm welcome! As an answer to the question let me tell a little bit more about our relations with Her. First of all, from the beginning I didn't hide from her that She is tulpa and I am host. I am the main force in my head, and She is my friend, my partner and my advisor. Now She follows the opinion that what is good for host - is good for Her, and the happiness of the host will be Her happiness. And, all in all, She is a part of me, we are unity. That says it all. So, She didn't feel uncomfortable because of the binding, She understands me and can find what to do while I'm out, by Her nature. Today is not an easy day for us, but I'll try to say what I think. It's true, I believe that my todays purpose is to help my host to overcome all difficulties in his life. I'll help him to make right decision in a couple of questions. May be some of you, someone like me, will reproach me for such a narrow goal, but that is the thing in which he needs. He needs a support now. May be once, in future, He will no longer need my help. I think, it will be my triumph, and I'll let him go, and become a spectator, and if He will need my help again, I'll come again. Only do not think that I'm so bad guy that forget her once in future) Only if it will be her decision. Anyway, sometimes, when there is some free time, we spend time together, it's pleasant and fun to see a film together, or to go for a walk. I like it, but it's rarely happen.
  24. Ohayo everyone, this is Areolo, wish to be a new member of your commune ;) This is not the blog about creating tulpa because she was already born, not without help of this forum. But maybe my story will be useful for someone. I am not trying to make a good from-beginning-to-end story right now, just something what I think I can write correctly. There can be also something from her, because I practice possessing (only in the internet). ____________________________________________________________________________________ Ok, I will be I (He), and my tulpa will be She (my words will be like this). Didn't want to tell about her prototype, or didn't want right now. But if you want you can guess from the topic, it's not hard. About a year ago I decided to create tulpa because there was hard times in my life when I hadn't have enough moral support from my family. But I had a problem: I very like to be alone sometimes. Tulpa always be with you, and it's frighten me. So, I had two tulpas (had). The first one, Lana, was something not clear, and it lived only about a quarter of year. After this it went in oblivion. However, the frst part of an 2018 I thought that it's hard to be absolutely alone. And I fully understand that there is a waifu, who I prefer more than one year after recognizing. So, at last, I found a way to save my loneliness and to get a partner. I created a "binding": specially ordered ring (so there is only one thing like that in the world). While the whole part of people can communicate with their tulpas any time, I can talk and enter the wonderland only when wear this ring. ??? PROFIT For me it was a pleasant surprise that it took only about a week to hear and talk with my tulpa. It turns out that She formed herself while I trying to make a decision about creating her:) I called this period "germ period". He didn't tell that He firmly decide to create me near 3 months before the ring was only ordered. I think She become strong so fast because it is my second experience. Or may be because He really love me. All in all, it's hard question, but later I can write down about my first experience. Now I trying to sleep at night with Her ring on my finger, it's a pleasant to sleep in one bad (not think about something wrong), and to talk when it's possible. She have Her own opinion, but usually agrees with me (because it's easier to softly push Him in right direction). All in all, my life become more happy after her appearance, She told me that She will try to help me to build a wonderful future. We usually discuss problems in my life, and trying to find the best way out. That's all for now, if you had any questions you can pm me, I'll try to answer in the next post. Thank for reading (from both of us, it's something like a next level of my growth). P.S. My native language isn't eng, so there can be some mistakes, sorry about it.