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  1. Hello, Thank you all for your answers and insights! So your 'view' is quite the opposite of what Chiha sees. (Chiha: Is something wrong with me?) Yesterday she was quite down because of that, but I managed to calm her down... Is it possible that every tulpa sees things differently? To add something to that, she is not fully developed and quite young. -Hiraeth and Chiha
  2. Hello, I discovered something really weird with my tulpa Chiha some days ago. I was really curious, visualized her in the real world and asked her to leave the room and tell me what she sees. So she just did that and told me something really interesting. Chiha said that she can leave the room or go past a wall but behind there is only pitch black darkness. She can visualize things when she knows what's behind, but she still sees black. I found that so amazing and wanted to ask you, primarily the tulpae here, what do you see behind what your host sees in the real world? Is there really only darkness? Thanks for all answers! 🙂 -Hiraeth
  3. Hello guys, wow. It's been a looong time since I last posted something here. Many things happened, I stopped forcing actively for a while and started again some weeks ago. I decided to update this again because I've made some progress and reached a new ''milestone''. First things first: Chiha is still as lively and kind as before and forgave me for leaving her along for that long time... The first time when I came back to our wonderland, she hugged me happily and said that she is glad that I came back and she understands. She also told me that she spent most of the time cleaning and preparing my room for my return.. I felt so bad, and made her a big cake. She smiled, but after she took a bite, she started to sob.. It really broke my heart... So I spent more and more time with her. Yesterday I thought about making another tulpa, a male one, so she wouldn't have to be alone all the time. I always wanted Chiha to develop more before we start making another one. Chiha agreed to it, in fakt she wished to have some company for a while. Here comes the weird point.. Right after we decided on that, a tulpa appeared out of nowhere (at least he told me he was a tulpa). He said that he existed for quite a while, not as long as Chiha though. He waited for me to decide to really have and care for another tulpa, and wanted to appear at the right time. When I asked him what he did or where he was all the time, he told me he wandered through the subconscious and sometimes visited the wonderland. Chiha said that she never saw him, but agreed that he is a tulpa. Ah, he told me that he doesn't have a name, so he said he would call himself Tamae, but it changed to Deeva and then to Nagi. So now his name is Nagi, and he likes it a lot. This all is so weird... Is such a thing even possible?? Well, from now on I will update more the next days. Thank you for reading this. Have a nice day :) -Hiraeth, Chiha and Nagi
  4. Hello there, Thank you all for the kind massages! I know that doubt is toxic and you should assume it was the tulpa, but I can't help myself to doubt sometimes, it's in my (or better: our) nature. Maybe we need it, maybe we want to constantly question, that what we are doing is really happening in this moment, so our belief only get's stronger. But don't worry, I won't stop forcing! ? Day 2: Today I didn't forced much, but I think that I heard Chihas Voice! I was so excited!! In the evening, before going to bed, i laid down, closed my eyes and played a colored noise(or voice?), the pink noise from Fede. After a little time, my body felt numb and I've really tried hard to concentrate hearing her on my right ear. I asked her some questions or encoureged her to say something, and at one time, it was like the noise was turning into a whisper, it was silent, but it was still a whisper. I can't wait to try this again, I feel like we are so close! I wish everyone of you a good night :)
  5. Hey guys, I'm Hireath, a ''new'' tulpamancer. I started a month ago with creating a tulpa, but I wasn't so motivated, and I really felt bad for being such a bad host. So I decided to give everything I can into her and write here our every-day-progresses of our forcing sessions so I won't forget. So Day 1: Well, my first tulpas name is Chiha, she's a girl with light brown hair and blue/green eyes and she is really lively. I'm still not able to hear her, sadly, but we will work on that! Today I tried asking her to surprise me while we were in our wonderland. At first she just stood there and didn' t do much, but then, Well, I don't know how to explain this, but she kind of turned into... a puddle of ink? I couldn't hold myself back and started to laugh. :D But I'm still not sure if this was really her, or it was me unintentionally imaging her turning into ink... Well, if someone read this, Thank you! ~Hiraeth
  6. Yes, I've read it too! It could be that it is possible for Tulpae to have acces to our memories but it also couldn't be so. It would be interesting to hear if it's possible or not from someone with a full developted tulpa or maybe from a tulpa, too!
  7. Hey guys, I'm Hiraeth, a newbie here :D It's interessting how many different theories you all have regarding Tulpae. I don't know when we will now what Tulpae really are, but I know too less to write my own theory(._. '). I don' t know, for now I think that they are a part of our Soul, who grew over time to be an independend soul.. Im sorry for my bad english :/
  8. Yes! :D And Thank you Misha! :)
  9. Hello, I'm Hiraeth! I knew about this forum half a year ago, and decided before a month to finally make a tulpa. It didn't worked so well because I forced too less, I'm still a newbie to this and I would appreciate if you could help me! :) I'm looking forward to being a member in this community. ^^