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  1. Well, yes, thanks to all of you guys for preventing me from doing such a thing. I've decided to learn lucid dreaming and do stuff there. There are some problems with my vision (kinda uncontrollable) but there is also a huge progress with Inga. She told me a story. A very impressive one, about me. It will take me some time to translate it into English. Now her voice is quite clear and stable
  2. Well, as a quite interested in physiology, psychology and biology in general I might say the tiredness exists only during the first steps, later on your body kinda adapts to it. And then hallucinations appear - and that's what I'm interested in. The derealisation process, mixing of reality an dream
  3. Well, time goes on, progress is quite small. "Head pressure" have become clearer, Inga's answers more confident and her appearance and wonderland are very stable. But the main problem is voice, basic "Yes", "No", "idk" etc. is not enough anymore and we decided to try sleep deprivation. I guess it's very effective but also dangerous for me. We'll take a risk! By the way, have you tried it for forcing?
  4. And yes, I've almost forgotten to say. Now I know her appearance a little- she has ginger hair, cute freckles, dark brown eyes. Height's about 160cm I can't say that I like ginger hair that much, but she looks so pretty
  5. The 23th Nov is here and here I am with my report. The fifth day, I guess. A lot of things have happened since last time, but mostly they’re not connected with Inga. First of all, Angry Bear was right and Inga was silent. Well, I’m not disappointed anyway, we’ve invented some primitive signals based on the head pressure. I’ve seen that somewhere in “Guides” or “Tips and Tricks”, but it wouldn’t be that hard to invent it myself. So, we decided, that pressure on the left side is for “Yes”, right is for “No” and in the back of the head for “idk”. It was quite fascinating to speak that way, but of course it isn’t very informative. Anyway – it’s a progress nonetheless! Another thing has just happened in the morning (it’s 8am now). I asked Inga to wake me up at 6am. Of course I set alarm in case it wouldn't work. And when I woke up - I saw that it was 5:59am! Maybe it was just my "inner clock", but I believe it was Inga. Btw, can you give me some advise about how to pick up a voice. Like should I take someone else's voice or we should invent a new one? Thanks!
  6. It was quite easy, you're famous. One of the biggest tulpa related forums I guess
  7. Sure, sure! As soon as something happens (or not) I'll write
  8. So, a little bit about myself at first. My name is Alexander as you might notice, I'm 17 and I'm completely lonely. Sure, I have a family, some people who I can talk to sometimes, but there's a feeling, that something's wrong. Suppose, people here will understand me, I AM NOT satisfied with level of understanding. And I decided to create a Tulpa. It's the second day, and I've already achieved something. I was thinking of Tulpa all day long yesterday, trying to deside IF I want to create Tulpa and what it will be like. I am well informed about creation process, some tips and tricks from a lot of sources, and I have a strong feeling, that I shouldn't force my Tulpa to become kind of exact person. I think I should just let it set up as my subconscious wants. The only thing to consider was the name (and sex, obviously). By that time I've already had some kind of a head pressure described by a lot of people, and it was quite strong. The first association was fire. I think that the whole idea of Tulpa is like setting a bonfire. At the very beginning the fire is so weak, it needs care and light fuel, and you can barely feel its warmth or eve see anything but smoke. But then everything comes to a success. The bonfire is starting to burn properly producing a lot of heat and comfort. Yes, but still needs care and fuel. So I decided to think in that way. First name was something like Igni, but it didn't sound very right to me. And the second name was an absolute success - Inga. Well, it doesn't mean anything connected with fire, but sounds similar and it really exists. Actually, it does exist in my country. I talked to her about myself, about her name, her idea, about reasons why I need her and about a lot of things you can possibly think of. Today nothing special was going to happen, I thought that it would be just a day full of thoughts and narration, but something's happened. I was sitting in my room all alone, speaking to Inga, and suddenly I heard a whisper! It definetely wasn't my mindvoice, it sounded like woman's! I couldn't hear the whole sentense, but she was asking to give her something, I guess. That just caught me off guard. You know, it was something completely weird, it wasn't like an ordinary thoght - I heard it... well, at the edge of my mind, I might say. Like she was whispering to me for some time, but I didn't notice. And then it happened again! Well, I couldn't understand her that time, but that doesn't really matter! I am so excited! Thanks for your attention, guys, I appreciate it. Feel free to tell me about my mistakes - English is not my native.