[Moltosha] Yes, it often feels that way. You miss a lot when you are dormant, especially if it's been months since you last woke up.
Not getting enough time to meet each other is also frustrating. People tend to rely on stereotypes of each other if they don't know them too well, and it's especially annoying if you get a bad rap when your other headmates don't even know who you are yet. I find my intrusive nature to be an important part of who I am, but I find it frustrating when my headmates act like cowards around me.
I suppose one good thing is I'm so removed from the norm that it's easy to call out Ranger/Gray's bs, give them insight they normally wouldn't consider or be able to gain on their own, and I can focus on myself. Not being around taught them a lot about how dormancy works and I appreciate not having to worry about other things while I'm still figuring out who I am.
[Hope] I must have been dormant for a really long time, I didn't feel right when Moltosha woke me up. It makes me better understand Fish and Jasper's concerns about having what seems to be a completely different personality and having a foggy memory of the past. This is one of the downsides, but I feel pretty confident who I am at my core hasn't really changed. I believe this feeling happens because we are still developing and everyone is at least a little behind. Fish and Jasper seem fairly consistent now at least, and Gray seems to feel pretty confident I haven't changed much.
The idea that several larger systems claim to have their own lives outside of their host's attention is completely baffling to me. It sounds like the perfect solution, but what if it's the perfect excuse? Do those systems have headmates who struggle with their identity? What are they doing in their separate worlds? If they gained fantastic insights living in their world, such as solving a difficult problem, are they able to share their solutions? What are their relationships with their headmates and if there are several of them, how do they remember everyone's names?
I'm skeptical of the idea, but I would love to pursue it if we can achieve this as a system. I'm not sure if that would require development in parallel processing or something else... belief maybe?
I look forward to learning about and hopefully achieving the full potential of our large system size and take advantage of it.