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  1. Day 6 Today, during a lecture, my laptop was in stand.by mode on the table in front of me and when I looked at my reflection my eye colour changed from greyish blue to the amber brown one of Isabel. That was truly impressive. 😃 Also I have recognized the obstacles that still stand between us: -Me being very tired in the morning and I have no intention of talking to her. -Me learning a lot and hardly spending any time with he. -Me thinking mainly about and not with her. -Me writing this report an spending time on the site. Since I can't change anything in t
  2. Day 5 Today nothing out of the ordanary happened so I will keep this log shorter then the others. But I had some interesting conversations with Izzy as she is now able to answer questions as long as the answer can be short and simple. So last night we were in bed and we had a short conversation consisting of me asking her simple questions e.g. "What is four plus four"?, "How old are you" or "What is 500 plus 500?" Which she answered briefly, concisely and correctly. In the morning then, at the tram stop; I was smoking a cigarrette and came to ask Izzy
  3. It is a wounderful feeling, isn't it? 🙂 May I ask you how long you have been forcing until her response and if you had some doubt in her existence afterwards?
  4. Thank you very much. 🙂 This paper is extremely useful. I devenetey going to read the whole thing. About the second part, it was rather meant as a long term goal. I don't want to start possession immediately. Don't get me wrong, I trust Izzy, but I think she should first grow up a little and become more or less capable. Until I had a full grown up conversation with her there is no chance I let her possess anything. I guess she would like to (but that is my fault I made her this curious.) Day 4 I hadn't slept very well. I woke up very early with a headache (could be a si
  5. Hey Everyone, I'm Werther, I'm 24 years old and I came across this board doing some research about tulpas. I thought very sceptical of the whole thing and decided to make a little self experiment with it, because I really doubted that an imaginative character could turn sentence and act uncontrolled and on its own. If you want to know how my experiment went or more precisely goes, checks out my progress report. Cheers 🙂
  6. Day 3 I woke up and immediately said "good morning to her" as if it was the most obvious thing to do. I feel like as long as I wasn't really awake and didn't have coffee, she didn't react and the passive forcing is very difficult. So we went to the university again and this time I have been using the tram ride to tell her all about the city and the buildings we passed. The first lecture on that day was Optics and Waves and she told me via emotional response that she doesn't really understand what it is all about but found it very interesting. Since I had to concentrat
  7. Day 2 I slept late. The only lecture is very late at 12:30. I said good morning to Izzy and got up. We had breakfast and a big cup of coffee. After the coffee had had its effect we went to shower. I imagined her by my side (my visualistation skills are not as good as I thought; she was still just a silouette with 99% transparency) but I started talking to her. For a moment I doubted whether I should really take her to university. An adult with an imaginary friend. 😂 I felt a little stupid. But for the experiment, I concluded that it had to be.👍 I really wanted t
  8. I understand your concern. Well, it is indeed hard but still manageable. In addition, I think I have to develop her further so I can honestly ask her if it is okay for her to take a break. Now that I feel her existance I'm hesitant to do anything that may be harmful.
  9. Hey. 🙂 That is exactly the reason I write it down hear. It is really interesting for me too. You are right about this, when I was a little boy (aprox. 3-13yo) I used to made sequels to the films I had watched in my head and played as all the different characters. Because I was to impatient to wait for official ones. 😂 Before I started the question didn't even arise. But at this point, I'm 90% sure I will keep her. She is just lovely. 🙂 Although the forcing is very time and attention consuming. And I definitely don't want to neglect my studies or my friends over it.
  10. Day 1 So I stared, after spending at least 10 hours on the internet to research, with giving my tulpa a name. The first thing that came to my mind was Isabel. That's what she is called now. Isabel or shortly Izzy. So fare so good. 👍 Finding a name was pretty easy. After this began searching for a fitting for. At first I tried to make her human (That she would be female was all ready clear at this point her gander hat to match her name) and it failed tremendously. Every face I could come up with was ether to attractive to close to my owen or ex
  11. Hi everyone, 🙂 I`m 24 years old, a university student (STEM) in Europe and two days ago I decided to conduct an little self experiment. I wanted to disproof the existence of tulpas. Or at least the possibility of me having a tulpa. My plan was to read every guide I could find, gather all the source materials out there and do exactly as told for at least four week. I expected exactly nothing to happen and that I coud dismiss this as deluded nonsense, as I consider my self to be a skeptic and a man of science. But at least I wanted to give the concept of tulpas an honest cha
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