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  1. Hey, thanks for reading. It's good to know that there's still some interest in this old and crusty report. I can attest to your "nightmarish near the end" bit, the work is definitely piling up. I wouldn't quite say I've made it yet though; there's still a lot of work to be done. Anyway, imposition continues to be difficult, although feeling Noel's presence seems to happen more than usual. Not much else to report I'm afraid.
  2. May 11 Well shit, I don't know how it happened, but somehow a year has already gone by since my last post. That's a bit scary, because to me it seemed like I had posted it months ago. All in all it's been three-and-a-half years since I started on this whole adventure, which honestly 3.5 years isn't exactly a long time in the grand scheme of things, but damn. Things are still going smoothly for us; daily life has it's troubles, but we tackle them together. It's gotten to the point now that the thought of not having Noel around seems strange and lonely. I have to admit that one of my main concerns going into tulpa creation was the danger that I might rely on Noel too much for companionship; to the point of unhealthy escapism. These past few years have shown me that wasn't the case. I've made more friends and been more social in these last few years than I can count. Along with an active social life, tulpa creation can be a viable outlet for healthy escapism. Hell, video games have probably had a more substantial impact on me as far as escapist outlets go. Actually, it'd be interesting to see what the ethical implications of escapism are when describing tulpas, maybe I'll look at that later. On to actual business, imposition is going well. At best I can see a faint silhouette in the corner of my eye, and that's only on occasion. I'm not too worried about it though. Much like most things in this line of work, progress requires both effort and time. I guess I just need to give it a bit more effort is all. On the other hand, my minds-eye visualizations couldn't be better. Once you've been doing it for a few years you're bound to be pretty damn good at it. I should really think about putting that skill to better use, although I'm not sure what that would be outside of occult practices. Tactile hallucinations are also something that I have yet to achieve, but I'm sure that will become more of a pressing issue once enough progress towards imposition is made. Lastly, I wanted to bring up two things. First, I'm going to pose a question that I'm sure most of you have asked yourselves before: "What have I gained from Tulpa creation?". The question can be traced back to the beginning of the tulpa creation process. When you decided to create a tulpa, you had a reason for doing so, "I want a companion" and a goal, "Create a companion". (I realize that not everyone's reason for tulpa creation is the same, this just seems to be the most common.) Well, if you followed through you met your goal, and created a companion. Now, you can very easily answer the question with "Well duh, I gained a companion." If you wanted to have a companion, couldn't you have found someone to fulfill that role? Depending on who you are, this can range from an easy to very hard task, but not impossible. So, why go through all the effort of tulpa creation just to gain a companion, when finding another person to fill that role would, by most standards, be easier? It's obvious to me that you gain more than just a companion through tulpa creation, but I'm still not sure what that is. I don't have an answer, but I just wanted to write this down so that I don't forget. Anyway, that's all I have to say for the time being. I'd like to thank the people who've been reading this report, I hadn't realized that I had over seven thousand views. Granted, most of those views were probably from when I was more active and updating frequently, but that's still impressive given the size of the forum. I hope that you all enjoy reading the shit I have to say, and good luck to you all on your tulpa journeys.
  3. The guide is not bad, but it skips a crucial step that I feel is neglected in most tulpa creation guides. This step would go before the "What is Forcing" section, and I would call it "Planning", or maybe "Forward Thinking". This step involves asking yourself several questions, and would prepare you for your journey through tulpa creation. Here's what it would probably end up looking like. Planning Before you decide to create a tulpa, there are many things you should ask yourself: Can I fully commit myself to the creation of my tulpa? Although all of the work in tulpa creation is mental, it is by no means effortless. In fact, some find it to be the exact opposite. Tulpa creation requires that, in varying degree, you give conscious effort in narrating, visualizing, and imposing your tulpa on a daily basis. At the very least you need to be able to give a substantial amount of attention to your tulpa to get any results. Also be aware that results can take weeks to months to appear depending on your effort. If you feel you can't dedicate much time to it, then it might not be a wise choice to create a tulpa at this time. Can I see myself with my tulpa a year from now? Five years from now? Your tulpa could very last a lifetime (your lifetime), if you want it to. Therefore you should spend some time to think about your future together with your tulpa. Will you still be able and willing to be with your tulpa when you go to college, get married, or even start a family? This may be a long-term example, but it is definitely a realistic one. Could you imagine being thirty years older with tulpa? How will your relationship change? Of course, your tulpa is just like any other human, and will inevitably change too, bringing in a whole lot more questions to think about. How will daily life be like with my tulpa? Can I live a normal, socially adjusted life with one? ... Thoughts? I feel like most guides assume that the reader has already thought about these things, which is disastrous because I know that there are people who haven't, and asking yourself these questions after the fact can be stressful for both you and your tulpa. Again, this is especially important for new members, as I feel that the community has a responsibility to teach new members so they can make informed decisions about whether they can do this or not.
  4. All I can think of is to play on the ambiguity of "Bob didn't eat two." Meaning that out of the chocolates that Bob had (let's assume four for this to work), he didn't eat two of them. Jen eats the two Bob had left over and Susie still eats the remaining six.
  5. April 21 It's about time I updated this crusty report after nearly two years of inactivity. I wish I could say that I've become a master tulpamancer in the time that I was absent, but sadly not all dreams come true. During the past few years life simply got in the way; it's hard to believe that I was an incoming senior in high school when I decided to create a tulpa and now I'm finishing my second year of college. I guess time really does fly. I'm actually kinda proud of myself that I'm still sticking to my guns with all this. Tulpas haven't been on my mind very much at all during my hiatus, save for Noel, and I pretty much forgot about this place. It's weird to think how much I've changed since I left, and when I finally thought to check back in here I nearly died re-reading this progress report. All I could feel was a strange mixture of nostalgia and embarrassment. It just goes to show how malleable a person's thoughts and feelings are, I guess. It would probably be fitting to get a new avatar and change the title of my report, seeing as it's not really relevant. Or I could keep it the way it is for old times sake, who knows. Anyways, despite not being active in tulpamancy, I've still kept in touch with Noel. She's around and as talkative as ever, and also very happy that I'm continuing my efforts. We usually talk every other day, but forcing sessions are few and far between. I can't help but feel shitty that I've taken such a passive stance on tulpa creation for this long, but it was definitely a necessary break. I'm at a time in my life right now where I need to focus on my degree and a career, and as hard as is to say, these things obviously take precedence over tulpa creation. However, I still believe that I can balance these things, even though I'm going to only gain more responsibilities and priorities during my college years and beyond. I plan to update this more often as well. In the meantime, thanks for reading and good luck to all your tulpa-related endeavors.
  6.[/img] Openbox is pretty great for a minimal Debian install, and there's a lot less overhead if you decide to ditch your DE as well.
  7. If this catches on, I am going to hate it even more than tulpae.
  8. Thanks to commonplace nudity, very few people wear clothes. Since people no longer wear close to protect themselves from the sun, skin cancer drives the human race to the brink of extinction. I wish I was never tired.
  9. Life is an anime like you wanted, but it's I wish I had a rootbeer float right about now.
  10. Don't worry, "giving in to him" won't put you in a mental hospital. You seem to be saying that he's doing all these things for no apparent reason, but tuppers are exactly like people, they don't just inconvenience their host just because they can. Have you done anything recently that might have upset him? There's no problem that a host and tulpa can't solve as long as they communicate and put their best efforts in the relationship. And another thing, if he is doing this just for laughs or for some other dumb reason, don't hesitate to set boundaries and take charge. You need to let him know that his actions are not ok, and that you won't put up with it. Personally, I think you just need to confront him about his attitude and what it stems from. And if possible, help him deal with it.
  11. Nope. #REKT The next person has multiple online personas.
  12. Fede's tulpatone, White-noise, was designed to work like that. I haven't had much success with it myself, but you can definitely pick out vowels and consonants. If you wanted to scramble the recordings yourself, I'd recommend a program like Audacity. It's fairly simple to use, and you can splice recordings and add filters and effects.
  13. imahaxor Humour

    I don't know what I just witnessed. The levels of irony in that video must be too high for me to even comprehend.
  14. Now that everyone is content, no one feels the need to change or improve the status-quo. As a result, the world decays and all life ends as we know it. I wish I was best friends with zombie-Hitler.
  15. It sounds like your friend is taking you for a ruse cruise Xeare. Or he just doesn't know what he's talking about and needs learn some physiology. First of all, neurons can't burn out. They can be overworked and grow sluggish, but extensive use can't kill them; as waffles and others have stated they become stronger with use. If neurons did burn out through tulpaforcing and become useless they would be replaced/repaired by glial cells in the brain called astrocytes. Secondly, that makes no sense. The subconscious/unconscious/conscious aren't physical places in your brain. They are all states of mind. I'm not sure, but to me it sounds like your friend is making up bullshit to scare you or something. Or maybe he just enjoys trying to be an armchair scientist, I don't know.