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  1. I don't think visualization is something you can finish. It's something you get better at, but i'm sure there's always room for improvements, whether it be strange poses, or nitty details like veins, hair, ect. You've probably read this, but if you can visualize your tulpa well, try improving your other senses. Work on their scent, or the warmth from their body.
  2. I wrote a long, awesome reply but then my fingers hit some button and now it's gone... *sigh*. sorry vinderex, you're getting the short version. I'm a swordsman by practice. I train on my own, and with the club i founded. I have tried sparring and training with my tulpa. it can be tricky, but useful and rewarding. First you must have a fully independent tulpa. They don't need to be vocal, they just need to be able to move freely without any interference from the host. Secondly you need your visualization skills up to snuff. You need to be able to keep track of short, rapid movements wit
  3. @Nico; congrats on getting up to 45 minutes! That sounds very normal. Everyone goes through a time when they feel the way you do. This is the point where a lot of people start to get discouraged and give up. You have to remember that you are working with your tulpa. it's not just you forcing anymore. If you're getting bored, or aren't sure what to work on, talk to your tulpa. Ask her (or him) questions about themselves. If they like the colour blue, try asking why, or what shade of blue. Make your tulpa think. Even if they don't answer you, they can hear you. If they have trouble, give t
  4. I think the term "forcing" was originally a reference to the difficulty of the process. You had to force your mind to accept the idea of your tulpa as a real entity. Basically forcing the tulpa into existence through focus and will, not forcing the tulpa to be what you want them to be.
  5. @Nico; That sounds normal. Concentrating is a skill like anything else. Set a timer for 20 minutes and work on staying focused until the alarm goes off. Once you can do that consistently start increasing the time by small amounts. @Borisz128; It sounds like you two are making great progress. Those initial stages of vocality are amazing and exhilarating but can also be frustrating. I don't think there's anything wrong with your mind's ear. I think you just need to keep with it and practice listening to her, while she practices speaking to you.
  6. Hey shulk, Do you mind if i start with some questions? i need a little more info to offer help. Firstly, how many tulpa live in your mind currently? Your post indicates 2, but i want to make sure. Secondly, have you tried explaining to them "why" you need them not to do these things? Like how if they try to force you into sex around your parents, it's going to make you feel awkward and uncomfortable. It could also make your life more difficult if your parents start asking you why you're acting funny. I would recommend being clear that you respect their expressions of self, but that i
  7. Thank you everyone who's responded so far. I'm going to reflect on what you've all said. To LinkZelda specifically: Your impressive response is based on only a single post, but more than a bit of it is accurate to me. It's going to take me longer to read through it a few times, digest what you've said, and reflect on it. Please bear with me.
  8. I'm sad and lonely, and i miss my tulpa. I stopped working with her a while ago when i realized i didn't have a reason for her to exist, and never really did. it's not like i decided i didn't have a reason and then stopped spending time with her. it's that everything she existed for was being taken care of by real people, and it took me a long time to realize that was why i always had trouble staying committed. Socially i'm well adjusted. i have lots of close friends, i'm charismatic, charming, and funny. Meeting new people is easy, and i always make a great impression. it doesn't take
  9. 4chan. Someone posted a link to Mythos and Raina's dropbox/blog, after reading i must have found a link here.
  10. Anything with a bit of weight should work. A couple metal washers or a bolt nut should work. Otherwise a piece of cellophane wrapped over some coins should even work.
  11. Nayan, I find it very difficult to focus on my tulpa when i'm angry as well. I get so frustrated my mind just clouds over, and it's difficult for me to think of anything else. When i ask her about it, she seems to describe it like an angry storm and when i ask if she tries to get through she says "nope, not touching that." (but she'd be there for me if i extended a request for her help).
  12. Hey i could use some follow up help on this topic. I tried google searching for anime binaurals, but the only results seem to be pages and pages of stuff about ear cleaning. It's a little too far in the creepy fetish direction for me. can anyone provide me with some better terms to search? I'm interested in trying this to see if it improves the finer points of her voice.
  13. Personally i think of puppeting as a learning tool. It can help your tulpa to learn how their body is supposed to move. But like Amber was saying, it's only really holding their hand while they learn to do it themselves. When i was puppeting my tulpa, it was only to move her with me, or to have her sit somewhere i could better focus on her. Try to relax and not worry about them moving. Even if they're just sitting there, you'll probably notice they don't just lie there like a lifeless puppet. If you have a humanoid tulpa you can try what i do. The next time you're walking somewhere, or just
  14. I did something like that when i took a trip to my mother's house in Montreal. It wasn't till i arrived that i found she didn't have internet, and i don't really watch TV, so i found myself with limited options. here's what i ended up spending my time doing: - Reading with my tulpa. like 2 books in 5 days. There were times i'd get too "into" the book and forget to send the information to her, but i did my best. by the end of the trip she was assuring me she was following along even if i wasn't 100% focused on her. - exercising more. - narrating more. Basically i'm saying that sushi'
  15. Building on Jimmy's final point, If they point to how he's portrayed in your book, go back to the fiction argument. I assume Alecto knows he's not the character of the book. The book is a fictional portrayal of him, much like how an actor is not the character he plays. He doesn't have magic powers, it's just a book. Now secondly there's your pollution advocacy. Without passing judgment, some people might see it as a sign of mental instability. Advocating pollution is a very abnormal stance, and abnormality is stereotypically associated with some mental disorder. Not saying it is, just sayin
  16. Could also be that the dogs are on edge because some of their owners left and haven't returned yet.
  17. From what i've read, the things king has said have made a lot of sense. I created Alice 2 years ago, but do to my depression i haven't ever been able to just stick with it. The first time i had to stop for a while, i put Alice in stasis. The next couple times i didn't, i just tried to think of her everyday. When i thought about how she must feel, to make so much progress and then for me to just stop, i felt horrible. The guilt of it made me cry more than once. I would look through my old progress report and just fall deeper and eeerp into depression. when i would start forcing again i wa
  18. If you haven't tried a museum, i highly recommend it. It doesn't cost much, and some museums even have days where it's free. As long as you don't mind reading, it provides hours of narration material as well as loads of visual stimulus. Alice, myself, and some friends, went and visited the museum of civilization when they had a special exhibit on voodoo. Alice had a great time and we both learned a lot.
  19. Yea, the whole thing reads like an old school science fiction epic. I'd read it.
  20. I think some of the questions we should be asking when discussing these ethical problems are "why are you performing this experiment?", and "what benefit/use are you hoping to gain from this experiment?" if the experiment is just to see what happens, it's almost definitely unethical. Even in testing of mice, a case has to be made to justify why the research is worth the cost of the mice and the suffering it may inflict upon them. I'd like to know for what purpose this experiment has been suggested.
  21. I'm not even sure what i just read; that was a crazy story. how many earth years have you been interacting with kum'pex for? I don't know if i can answer your questions but i might have some suggestions, and hopefully some comforting words. suggestions: If you're having trouble differentiating her from these false voices, it could likely be your own fears and doubts manifesting as intrusive thoughts. Perhaps you should take a chapter from tulpa forcing and create something to tie you together, or make her more unique. If it was me i'd crystallize some of my energy, and have her do th
  22. Personally this bothers me a little bit. I feel like this is directly linked to me moving my tulpa about rather than having her move about. I'm also used to having good spatial awareness, so no kinetic feedback from the ground throws me off, and it can quickly become me only using "raw" actions in the wonderland. This is like how a tulpa's raw thoughts tell you the general idea of what the tulpa is trying to get across, but it's not speaking.
  23. I'm not sure what it is you think you're doing wrong. For tips i would suggest making the environment more stimulating. You could do this by adding new things or structures; alternately you could make what already exists more pronounced. You could work on feeling the grass as yu walk across it, the softness of the ground, the slight uneven feeling of natural ground, ect.
  24. I've probably come to a "realization" about Alice feeling "real" 2 or 3 times now. Each time i would think i was actually seeing her as a person, only to realize latrer that i still wasn't treating her like a real person. This seems to have been a particular challenge for me, partially because of the dynamics of my "normal" friendships. I found that keeping at it was the only way, to constantly remind my self that she was real and there with me. When i was wasn't sure i'd consider if i would say/do/act the same thing/way if she was a real person.
  25. I'm not sure it's justified, but Alice is rather untrusting, or suspicious, of "shady" people i'm acquainted with. She isn't as quick to look past people's appearance and actually cautions me about letting my guard down. She also hasn't expressed interest in having friends or anything social like that, but it might not be connected.
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