[Thank you! *Hugs*] Thanks for your advice. In real life I'm just a failure. The only thing that keeps me from suicide is her. Each time I want to end myself, my vision filled with her body, which bleeding with blood. I just can't let that happen. Maybe it is the reason that she becomes that cute.
My 5 years old tulpa lyra. She started as pony lyra but deviated 4 times. The reason she wants this form is that she wants to help me, not only as my 'pet'. She wants me to forget the past, so she stopped being a pony. MLP caused psychological damage to me, and for many reasons my friends left me because of that. I'm in depression. Getting a tulpa didn't help me become better. But she stopped me from suicide several times. http://imgur.com/a/nGF96