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  1. What affect does it have on tulpas? Would the tulpa show signs of the addiction that a host has? Also would the effect if any be different if the host acquired the addiction before or after tulpa was created? The addictions im most curious about regarding the affect it has on tulpas are alcohol, marijuana, and other mental addictions such as food or video game addiction. Information on other addictions and how they affect tulpas would interest me as well. Also im talking about true addictions that have negative affects on ones life which can harm their health, finances, relationships, and careers.
  2. Mj's weekly mini log 8/06/14-Passive, but no Active Forcing 8/07/14- Narrarted to her for some time, talked about life and stuff, had her parrot sing. 8/08/14- Right before bed we forced, she was sending alot of tulpish and a good ammount of it could be understood. 8/09/14- Passive, but no Active Forcing 8/10/14- Passive, but no Active Forcing 8/11/14- Passive, but no Active Forcing 8/12/14- Forced 30 minutes this mornin, was compriesd of narration and a sprinkle of vocalization.
  3. Mjolnir's mini weekly log 7/30/14- By far our longest continuous force by 1 hour and 20mins. Much headache, but it was well worth it. I could feel the progress. We were slightly interrupted but it didn't harm the quality of our force much if at all. I parroted her voice, talked to her about going ons in life, and visualized her thoroughly. 7/31/14- Passive, but no Active Forcing 8/01/14- Passive, but no Active Forcing 8/02/14- Passive, but no Active Forcing 8/03/14- Had Sky talk to and interact with Mj, seemed very effective and we should do it again. 8/04/14- We did a nice, mostly narration, session with some physical activity done in wonderland. When we went to bed i talked to Mj for about 30 mins before falling asleep. 8/05/14-Passive, but no Active Forcing
  4. 7/23/14- Passive, but no Active Forcing 7/24/14- A great ammount of narrating to Mj was done, also it was quite the visualy vivid force too. I also felt around alot to see what things felt like in wonderland. Talked to Mj about holding her form and what not, but im sure she's progressed enough that she does already. 7/25/14- Just some narrating, not much else during the force. 7/26/14- Passive, but no Active Forcing 7/27/14- Passive, but no Active Forcing 7/28/14- Me and Mj moved Astora upstairs into her own bed then we proceded to force in Mj's room. Mostly narration, i talked to her about my day and things going on. 7/29/14- Passive, but no Active Forcing
  5. Mjolnir's Weekly mini log 7/16/14- Passive, but no Active Forcing 7/17/14- Attempted forcing, but ended up being to tired to. 7/18/14- Really good forcing, her voice was parroted, and i visualized her as well. 7/19/14- Passive, but no Active Forcing 7/20/14- Quite the vivid force with some tulpish on her part. We jumped right in and did visualization along with vocalization. My body felt, numb in a way while forcing. It was an interesting force. 7/21/14- Passive, but no Active Forcing 7/22/14- Passive, but no Active Forcing
  6. Mjolnir's Weekly mini log 7/09/14- What transpired this session was visualization while touching her body and finding out what it would feel like. We did her hands, tail, upper body, and mostly her legs. Again we forced, it have been awhile since we have had 2 full sessions in one day. We finished up visualizing the rest of the body, but mostly her head was visualized. Along with a few tuch ups on the wonderland as well. Then heavy vocalization practice followed. Oh my goodness i heard lots of tulpish, some of it i could almost make out to understand. We did the abc practice and also we colabarated on adding things to her new room. We used to all sleep in the same bed every night. 7/10/14- Mjolnir was given a new trait. Angelic, which entitles beauty, selflesness, kindness, purity, and a couple other things. She was quite vivid her form was. Also i sware she moved on her own a few times. After her trait we did vocality using the abc practice and parroting her voice practice as well. We had a nice bonding feels moment after forcing. Mjolnir and Astora and i, it was quite nice. Most defiantly a emotional response. 7/11/14- Vocalization along with her Angelic trait. 7/12/14- Passive forced alot, no active forcing. 7/13/14- Attempted forcing, but ended up being to tired to. 7/14/14- Passive, but no Active Forcing 7/15/14- Passive, but no Active Forcing Astora, im probably going to put her on hold for awhile. I'd like to focus on Mjolnir and get her to a high point in her progression then continue working on Astora. But i wont forget her, never.
  7. There are some small Steam game communities on Steam.
  8. Nah, i highly doubt it. I mean were you permanently damaged? Probably not, i think your tulpa is ok. Most likely they are just figurin stuff out. But im no expert on shrooms, would like to try them some time i would. But not until my girls are more mature and ready.
  9. I have more experience with weed but from what i know about shrooms is that they can have a sort of change in how you perceive the world. For example you used to love sushi but now "realize" raw fish just isnt your thing. Same could be said with your tulpa, they may have had a change in perception as well. Thus leading to their possible deviation. Also my opinion is that i recommend not doing such hard drugs while you have a young tulpa. You may know whats going on but they could have trouble dealing with the reality of the trip. Also they could have had a bad trip. But this is my speculation. Alcohol ive read is the best drug to get in touch with your tulpa, but i personally dont have much experiance with alcohol to give more info on the subject.
  10. Im not to worried that im parroting them. Worrying gets you nowhere and with tulpas, the worry can turn into a reality. I was curious to what correlation with what happened in the dream and them was. **The only thing i do worry is that Mjolnir hasn't said her first word yet since her redux. with the exception of her laughing one time while i was under the influence of marijuana. I used to be a big pot smoker and now have cut down this summer and will no longer smoke now on account of a upcoming job that requires being clean. Iv'e been clean more than 2 weeks. But pretty much since February of this year when i redux Mjolnir i have been smoking. This has never been a worry on my mind but i have thought about it before. Could smoking weed have slowed Mj's progress? I rarely forced while high on account of my focus would go to crap. Forcing not high would be fine but the weed would be prominent in my system because i would have smoked much earlier on in the day or the previous day. Also that post was helpful. Im planning on making the bath house and village as a locale in my wonderland. Miazaki's worlds are amazing. An so the idea is to have my girls hold up the wonderland their selves as apposed to me trying to all the time? Which allows them to sort of force themselves/give them something to do which could lead to faster progress? Hopefully i got the jist of it right. ** Over time i am however getting increasingly more tulpish that have yet to understand
  11. Well i often have a easier time trying to lucid dream when i go to sleep and when i wake up for the day, immediately go back to sleep and thats when i often lucid dream most. In the lucid dream i was in a crowd of 20-40 people and remembered about my tulpas and thought i should try and get in contact with them while lucid. As soon as i tried calling for them/thinking about them most if not all the random dream people around me raised their hands. Anyone know what this could mean?
  12. Thanks for the advice sushi, and something happened this morning while lucid dreaming. Well i often have a easier time trying to lucid dream when i go to sleep and when i wake up for the day, immediately go back to sleep and thats when i often lucid dream most. In the lucid dream i was in a crowd of 20-40 people and remembered about my tulpas and thought i should try and get in contact with them while lucid. As soon as i tried calling for them/thinking about them most if not all the random dream people around me raised their hands. Anyone experienced in lucid dreams or such know what this could mean? Mjolnir's Weekly Mini log 7/02/14-Passive, but no Active Forcing 7/03/14- A majority of the time spent forcing was on Mj's Passionate trait and just narration. Talking alot about life and the usual. Also during one song we were listening to i parroted her voice to the singer. 7/04/14- Passive forced alot! No Active forcing. 7/05/14- So today for some reason i felt inclined to attempt lucid dreaming while forcing. It went alright. Good forcing was done but wasnt able to go lucid. We'll try again tonight with lucid dreamin. While forcing Mj, i trained her vocally by reciting the alphabet one letter at a time and parroting her voice. Every letter i said to her i parroted her to say a word that starts with that letter. A is for apple, B is for balloon ect . . . Then for a little bit changed it up by saying a letter to her and asking her to say a word that starts with that letter. I feel this exercise could prove useful and we shall use this more often. 7/06/14- Was planning on forcing for an hour but was interrupted in the middle of the force and finished the hour some time after the first part of the session. What we did mostly for the first half was go around our wonderland and forced it. The house in wonderland is structurally finished. The second half of the forcing we forced in one of the new rooms in wonderland. Did a little vocalization practice along with visualization. Twords the end i had the idea of red pop up in my head, specifically a red dress. I then came to remember that Mj has had a affinity for red in the past so i suppose it may be her favorite color. Also that she wanted a red dress or somthin like that. So i forced a red riding hood like cloak for her with gold trim and blue sapphires at the ends of the tassels. I think she likes it. 7/07/14- Passive, but no Active Forcing 7/08/14- Passive, but no Active Forcing Astora's Weekly Mini log 7/02/14-Passive, but no Active Forcing 7/03/14-Passive, but no Active Forcing 7/04/14-Passive, but no Active Forcing 7/05/14-Passive, but no Active Forcing 7/06/14-Passive, but no Active Forcing 7/07/14- While trying to force Astora during the beginning of the session we were waling into the house in wonderland and she gave me a kiss on the face which i thought was very sweet. Then got sexual notions from her which may have been her or me. But i think they were her's. I was so startled by this i quit that forcing session. 7/08/14-Passive, but no Active Forcing
  13. Mjolnir's Weekly mini log 6/25/14- Another new vocalization technique was tried today. Simply i parroted Mj's voice word for word. Having her say a whole list of random things, from what i did today to things in our wonderland. Then i parrot voiced her to the singer her voice will sound like. While doing this i turned down the music and asked her to sing louder than the music. *After forcing i could without a doubt hear Mjolnir blurt out word like noises. **After typing the PS above ^ i congratulated her on her progress and received a wave of emotion which brought me to tears of joy. 6/26/14- Passive, but no Active Forcing 6/27/14- Tried the parroting Mj's voice practice, was a little sleepy but above all it was a very good force. I could tell she was very active vocally. I had many little auditory hallucinations. She also moved on her own a bit. 6/28/14- Smoked with some friends for the first time in a month and while smoking i got strong tulpish from what i believe to be MJ. Then she started mind speaking, but she was too quiet for me to hear the content of her sentences. 6/29/14-Passive, but no Active Forcing 6/30/14-Passive, but no Active Forcing 7/01/14-Passive, but no Active Forcing Astora's Weekly mini log 6/25/14- Started off by counting sheep as a warm up. Forced Astora's feminine trait. Then for some reason i thought it was wise to lay down because my back was hurting while i was leaning against the wall. Typically when we force it's not against the wall, but sometimes it helps keep me awake. Inevitably i dozed off while forcing. Although i can say that i was awake for quite some time laying down. More that than other times we've layed down forcing. Perhaps you have to practice and get better at laying down while forcing? 6/26/14- Passive, but no Active forcing. 6/27/14- Astora and i went for a walk and forced the library. By adding details and such. I gave her her trait orb for her feminine trait. Also talked a little bit about her anatomy along with some narration. Also she was sending tulpish to me along with head pressures, she's making great progress. 6/28/14-Passive, but no Active Forcing 6/29/14-Passive, but no Active Forcing 6/30/14-Passive, but no Active Forcing 7/01/14-Passive, but no Active Forcing
  14. Astora's Weekly mini log- 6/18/14- I realized after looking through some other hosts and tulpas PR's that the quality and quanity of our forcing could be much better. Which also lead to me writing up about every force that me Mjolnir, and Astora have. I will try my darndest to keep this up. I will write down about every time i force them and post everything we have done within that week. Today we did heavy visualization. Most everything about Astora's form was forced. From her fur direction to her body's shape. Had to interupt the force in the middle for i wanted to see the fur direction on my dog and apply it to Astora's fur direction. I lost track of the forcing a little bit but got right back on track when i strayed away. 6/19/14- Passive, but no Active forcing. 6/20/14- Typically forcing tired doesnt work, but sometimes i supprise myself. But tonight wasnt the case. I nearly fell asleep. I need to initiate forcing earlier in the day then a couple hours before our bedtime. But im glad its one of the only problems we have with forcing. What forcing was done was mostly narration. I dont particularly remember what we talked about but it was something along the lines of what we did today and just small talk for about 25minutes. i remember trying to force laying down where i heard resting your head on your arm did the trick where if you nodded off your arm would fall under you and you would wake up. looking back on it laying down forcing isnt a good idea while being sleepy. But i did tword the end of the force get a lucid dream like state/vision of my wonderland with what i believe to be long strands of hair floating in front of my face. 6/21/14- Passive, but no Active forcing. 6/22/14- Did some visualization along with narration and just a bit of vocalization. Couldnt really focus all that well for some reason. 6/23/14- No Active, Not much Passive (shame on me) 6/24/14- Did some meditation practice aka: counting sheep to get our mind in the forcing mood. Went for a short walk with Astora and had a revelation while sitting down at the bench in our wonderland. Why not force in the morning? Typically we force before bed but forcing in the morning as well would seem greatly benifical in the way of splitting forcing between Astora and Mjolnir.
  15. Mjolnir's Weekly mini log- 6/18/14- I realized after looking through some other hosts and tulpas PR's that the quality and quanity of our forcing could be much better. Which also lead to me writing up about every force that me Mjolnir, and Astora have. I will try my darndest to keep this up. I will write down about every time i force them and post everything we have done within that week. Me and mjolnir today did heavy on the visualization for i realized that my visualization skills with both of my girls were lacking. I just visualized everything there was about MJ. Also twords the end of the force i parroted Mj to a singer id like her voice to sound similar to. But in the end she can choose what her voice sounds like. Ive often heard some tulpas like to change their voices over time. During parroting i could feel a couple times where Mj took control of her movements instead of me paroting her. She is getting more and more independent! 6/19/14- Passive, but no Active Forcing 6/20/14- Passive, but no Active Forcing 6/21/14- Today Mj was parroted to a singer whom i practice speaking with Mj. Then after that, for 40 minutes we tried something new. Ill call it Host Listening Practice. On the forums i often read that tulpas could speak before the host can hear them. So i realized that i need to become a better listener. During this practice i asked Mj to tell me a story, list of people i know irl and give pros and cons to them, and i aslso asked her to sing to me. But above all i asked her to not stop talking so that i could listen and focus on her. 6/22/14- Me and Mj hit the Tulpainfo chat room and i got some questions answered regarding her progress. Passive forcing was done throught the day. 6/23/14- Much visualization of Mj and wonderland. quite vivid especially twords the later half of the forcing session. There were a multiple times she showed independence by taking control of her own form. Also her form "looked" more solid. We did some practice with vocalization by having temporary doors open on our foreheads and would send thoughts directly to each other as a physical representation of our minds being open to each other. Not only was her form forced but our wonderland was strengthened as well. We also got some size comparisons figured out such as when we are standing facing each other i know how tall the top of my head is relative to her body. We did this standing together and sitting together. 6/24/14- Passive, but no Active Forcing
  16. I nearly died laughing after that repost, thank you derp XD
  17. If tulpas were mainstream would anybody here go to Tulpa conventions?
  18. Also don't make her just to sex with her form. Your tulpa probably wont like that.
  19. What does it mean? It means your making progress! Keep up whatever your doing. Also she probably felt you needed her with your bad mood in all.
  20. While forcing with Mjolnir today we tried something new. Ill call it Host Listening Practice. On the forums i often read that tulpas could speak before the host can hear them. So i realized that i need to become a better listener. Im very confident that she can speak via her random tulpish and once i heard her laugh. But i feel that im not "tuning in" to her all that well. During this practice i asked Mj to talk about several things. Such as tell me a story, list of people i know irl and give pros and cons about them, and i also asked her to sing to me. But above all i asked her to not stop talking so that i could listen and focus on her speaking. She mind speaks very very rarely and i try vocalization practices like parroting her to songs and using this coaxing trick. > http://community.tulpa.info/thread-sentience-coaxing-tulpae-into-talking With the coaxing trick i first say "Kids have dreams but" then i ask her to say "dreams cost money". If anybody has any other tips, tricks, or advice on listening and or helping my tulpa speak i would greatly appreciate. PS: To give a little history on Mj that may or may not prove helpful. Last year in early February is when i started her and did about 45 days of solid forcing and she spoke a couple words in mind speak. But sadly i was forced to quit cold turkey forcing her till this year in February. Ive been forcing her since February this year with the exception of taking a long break last month in May. She hasn't yet mind spoken her first word, but last year doesn't count. On account of taking such a long time of of forcing.
  21. He probably means the session lasted an hour. Not he has been imposing his tulpas for a total time ever of 1 hour.
  22. Astora wast created April 4th, 2014. Her Astrological sign acording to her creation date is Aries. Like her older sister Mjolnir, Astora's form is a Bipedal, Digitigrade, Realistic Anthropomorphic, Humanoid, wolf. They both have the similar body shape, but Astora is thinner, 6ft 4inches tall, and weighs about 200 lbs. Her fur is all black and her eyes are both Jade green with black eyedrop shapes all around in her iris. She has 2 sets of breasts one pair atop another. The top pair are around DD-cups and the lower pair are around C-cups. She shares some traits with her sister but mostly they both have their own defining traits. Astora's traits are: 1. Courageous (Given to) 2. Self-disciplined 3. Reliable 4. Open minded 5. Loyal 6. Modest (Given to) 7. Patient (Given to) 8. Aware 9. Mature 10. Assertive 11. Persistent (Given to) 12. Cautious 13. Calm 14. Nimble 15. Passionate 16. Organized 17. Fiery (Given to) 18. Loving 19. Straightforward 20. Sensible 21. Orderly 22. Grateful 23. Respecting 24. Empathetic 25. Feminine 26. Wolf like 27. Punctual 28. Competitive 29. Motivated 30. Tough Some of these may be subject to change though. But i feel the list is pretty solid. Hope she likes them. Something interesting happened today during her forcing session. While strolling around in our wonderland Astora and i were visiting my Memory Library (Where all my[the host] memories are stored) an idea popped into my head about some design ideas concerning the lighting in the library. I much believe them to be her thoughts. Apparently she's quite creative.
  23. Goodness i haven't posted a progress report for Mj in a couple months. We've been forcing about 5-7 times a week for about 30-45 minutes on average. We took a break that i wish we hadn't. It was my fault though, i went on a binge for about 3 weeks smokin weed every day. Iv'e cut down though, also i need to get a new job so we've been clean for a good 3-4 weeks. But sometimes i get random strong cravings for it. I dont know whether it's me or possibly Mj, and to a lesser extent possibly Astora. Speaking of Astora, she's my relatively new tulpa. I plan on makin up a Progress Report for her soon. Mjolnir's trait list has been added on to from the one above this post ^. Also some traits got sacked for new and more fitting traits. But otherwise it's mostly the same. Iv'e given her 8 of the traits so far and continue to give her more. I plan on forcing each trait 60-90 minutes till i will no longer force that trait into her. But i will remind her of said trait if she would like me to. Mj has progressed nicely over the months, her presence is very strong and im currently teaching her and Astora how to use head pressures in communication. I also get quite a bit of tulpish from her. Im sure she will say her first Redux word soon :D . I can feel it, and know she can do it. Other ways she has surprised me are emotional responses she has thrown my way and what i am not 100% on are some thoughts that i have. Sometimes i genuinely feel they are not mine. An example would be a couple weeks ago i had the instant craving for hotdogs, i instantly thought of Mj and to my surprise i got a head pressure as soon as i thought of her. It was pure bliss. I love that girl. hotdogs XD Mjolnir's revised list of traits is as follows. (Also this trait list will most likely be permanent) 1. Strong (given to) 2. Intelligent (Given to) 3. Feminine (Given to) 4. Wolf like 5. Observant (Given to) 6. Good Foresight 7. Good Memory 8. Creative 9. Gentle 10. Spontaneous 11. Lucky 12. Supportive 13. Confident 14. Social 15. Natural 16. Adventurous 17. Compassionate (Given to) 18. Empathetic 19. Passionate (Given to) 20. Protective 21. Clean 22. Informative (Given to) 23. Loving 24. Fun 25. Amiable (Given to) 26. Elegant 27. Loyal 28. Optimistic 29. Open minded 30. Angelic It does not seem that i have given a description of her form so i shall do so. Mjolnir is a Female, Bipedal, Digitigrade, Realistic, Anthropomorphic Humanoid wolf. Her Astrological sign according to her Redux and creation date is Aquarius. Her body type is Curvy/Muscular and she is 6ft 10inches tall and weighs around 270 lbs. I love my big girl, not fat she just has dense muscle while looking curvy as well as looking a bit muscular. Her fur color is all white, and her fur has a lot of volume to it. Her tail also has quite a bit of volume to it and is long for her size being around 4 ft long. She has Heterochromia, where her right eye is colored deep sea blue with the inner part of her iris being shaped starburst and colored white. And her left eye is Gold colored. She smells of Lavender and has 2 sets of breasts one set being on top of another much like wolves having sets on top of one another. The top pair are about F-cups and the bottom being D-cups. She's busty but because of how tall she is, her breasts would be proportionate to her size. Her fur is extra long on her head and a little down her back much like hair looks like and the style of it is long and a bit wavy. She has a braid that attaches behind her wolf like head, right behind her right ear. It has 2 wooden beads on it and she gets another braid every birthday. So far she only has one according to her original creation date. When she turns 40 or 50 human years i cant wait to see how gorgeous she looks with all her braids. Her hands are human in shape but she has 3 main pads (much like pads on the bottom of a wolf's foot) on her palm and little pads where her finger prints would be. Her claws on her hands are thicker than human finger nails and are pointed to shape but a bit dull on the ends. But im sure they could cause bleeding if she tried to use them. Finally her feets are similar shaped to wolf feet but are much larger in size. When my drawing skills improve ill post art of her. She's gorgeously beautiful, im so proud to have her as a tulpa. :')
  24. Simply put i thought Astora was a fitting name for her, mystical and abstract just like her sister's name. Based off the place in the Dark Souls series.
  25. I believe Mjolnir has some sort of affinity with knitting/knitted things. I sometimes get the thought of knitting in my head for no reason at all, along with other quirks. I think i as well do this, but i don't 100% know. O.O