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  1. Being a tulpa seems so terrifying. Mostly the part where you balance between existence and nonexistence. Lost to your host as one in a sea of passing ideas. What an attitude would people have had we gone through this. If being is something you've fought for and the other option is pure cold void. I'd like to share your enthusiasm. -C
  2. It's wonderful you've done this naturally. Welcome. "Tulpas know what they are" means they are not going to force you to believe they have physical bodies. They are aware of their mental nature. Tulpa refers to any kind of headmate, whether he thinks, feels, talks, is visible, able to switch or any combination of these, it is a tulpa. It's not supposed to be a narrow definition. Did he mean this when he said he isn't one?
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    Depends, are we influental enough to change the word's meaning? It still expresses an entity created through concentration or collective effort, possibly an explanation for the supernatural, and not necessarily a companion. In the "Magic and Mystery in Tibet" book that is one of our few sources, there's a a description of a Yidam practice where the student is ordered to basically tulpaforce until the tulpa becomes visible, starts to speak etc. Its purpose is to realize the illusionary nature of such experiences and if the student fails, he is left with a tulpa for life. Yidam is much closer to a phantom friend than some spooky stuff. We're not creating tutelary deities that protect Buddhists though.
  4. Insufficient robot accessories.
  5. My parents and friends have probably never heard of tulpas and I'm not going to change that. Tulpamancy seems to be a controversial topic in general and unless a friend is into it too, I can imagine it would create quite embarassing situations. ". . . can you see him now? What's your tulpa doing? Can he talk already?" They'de be in a room with a person who's messed up in their head - I'd fully understand if they did not take me seriously ever again. Or they would laugh every time they recall such things as tulpas even exist. Or they would find out about it its darker side and spread rumors like this. Even when referring to tulpa practice in religious discussions, I refer to you as "demon summoners" so I don't have to say the word. Just in case anyone would remember it and then google it. But I'll initiate any of them if they show interest in such stuff. I know a few of them might.
  6. A theory I'd like to be true is that consciousness is created in response to requests. Human brain is trying to find reason and patterns in everything at all times. When you work on tulpa's form for example, you do not make the shape and colors appear, you pretend they're there, you expect them. When you honestly do not have the data but you still are trying to link to an information, the brain creates it based on what you expect, what it's supposed to be or what fits its conditions, all in a similiar way to how dreams obviously do not come from the eyes. This could explain our very creation. Since birth, our brains build their "database" to understand the surroundings while our parents talk to us. Once we understand their words and realize we're one of them and can respond(=an ego, enough patterns gathered to form an identity), an answer becomes expected - they force us. The more consciousness we have accumulated, the less we need to produce, as the existing learned behavior can already do it all. If it is this way, we can repeat this process once more by redirecting the flow of awareness to the unknown, that is, a symbol with a draft of what it's supposed to be like when it's complete - all to create another functional human-like consciousness. I don't think many of us have reached such level, there's always the possibility that tulpas are just a bunch of triggered responses. This applies to undeveloped tulpas who are not independent and imposed yet. But the final product... if the reports of full switching are true and you can really get to a stage where you only control your body 50% of the time or the tulpa has some heavy parallel processing going on, I think you cannot call it anything less than a separate entity. We consider ourselves different simply because we have always held on to our senses. With another sentient system in our heads, seeing or hearing could be just an option, something you can lose, like focus. Then we would not differ from tulpas in any way.
  7. I've made several attempts to reach this 72 - 80 hours mark, never made it. Just being aware of my body became really uncomfortable after 30 hours. To go a second night without sleep, I guess I'd need to play video games for hours, because I couldn't focus but needed to be doing something. Caffeine and energy drinks just added to a growing distaste for food. My ability to force did not improve. I checked if things I imagined are more clear, but only managed to frighten myself - you know, the Wonderland Shadow. I think by the beginning of the fourth day, I'd go insane. Maybe I could see and hear my tulpa, but that would be no forcing as I would probably sense a lot of less pleasing things as well. Out of control. Never more, there are better methods to see stuff. As for just being tired, that has awesome effects. When nearing the state of sleep, all kinds of rich imagery appear to me. A while ago, an extremelly accurate shape of my tulpa's face randomly assembled in my mind. That was after not seeing it for months. It's good to see it's still there. Or just an hour ago I heard a man's hard voice talk angered nonsense for a few minutes. These voices are usually of people whom I have heard recently, but I did not recognize this one. These things are fun. It does not quite match the "don't force before sleep" motto. Where did that come from, does it have something to do with dreams? Is it necessarily bad if they are affected? I'd love to know how to make use of these states of mind in a more controlled way.
  8. When I force or image stream frequently, my mind's eye improves dramatically for a few days, it becomes so quick, strong, lively. Concentration's better as well, it's like after mediation. Head does hurt a little. I'm too tulpaless to know of any long-term effects.
  9. Hi .info, I've been lurking here ever since I found out about tulpas in February. It‘s time to get involved. I’m interested in all topics in any way related to the human mind. Science, philosophy and religion have always been my thing, so I may sometimes draw inspiration from Christian or eastern practices. I'm not for metaphysics, but it is the experience that matters. I think I understand this phenomenon a little differently, as I disagree with some aspects of the common method of tulpa creation we have here. I'll do my research and possibly make guides if I'm right. I currently don't have any tulpas. The two ideas that I have in mind are still tens/hundreds hours of forcing away from being able to talk or anything like that. It's been mostly theory for me so far. Hopefully this will change.
  10. Dright. A robot / Helghast. I haven't been able to come up with any details on his body, so this sure helped.
  11. Hi, I'm curious about changes that getting a tulpa does to one's mind. To be specific, how are creativity and intelligence affected? I understand the process of making a tulpa as a path of concentration and imagination, also a tulpa supposedly brings you closer to your subconsciousness, so I would expect an increase to both, but at the same time - isn't it exhausting to have this 'background process' running in your head? If you were a programmer, scientist or a writer, musician - basicly when you need raw brain power for the most of the day, are you better off with or without a tulpa?