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  1. August 19, 2014 My Tulpa Seph has said that she thinks it best if I re-merge the aspects of my mind and consciousness that I used to form her. From her opinion, the goals that I am working on now are of greater importance than seeking communication with an aspect of my own consciousness. At first I felt very sad from this, but I have thought about it and it seems to make sense. She said she may remain as an occasional voice that could give some form of personified and ordered access to and with some aspects of my subconscious mind. With my consent she dissipated and merged back with
  2. July 25, 2014 It's been a while since I posted so I thought I'd give an update. We have not been forcing lately. We had a conversation the other day that was short and kind of fuzzy since I was just drifting off to sleep. I was thinking about how she must feel since I have been busy with things that are important to me, and she said she understands completely, and supports me in pursuing the goals that are important to me. That feels good to know. Funny thing is I happened to be browsing though my dream journal and on a whim I opened to an entry and started reading. In it I described
  3. Been several weeks since I have talked with my Tulpa directly. I felt like I wanted to talk with her again and then had a dream where I was talking to a dream character that I felt was my Tulpa after waking up. She said, "I'm not ready yet." Initially it took some getting used to as we had been forcing everyday, but I feel fine. I have a pretty fun and balanced life, and other important projects I'm working on. I think she just needs some space and time for something. The last time we took a break she had accomplished quite a bit in her wonderland.
  4. Was busy with some other things. Here are a few posts from my journal. April 21, 2014 - Day 374 Burmese siddha asana, mukul mudra. Rasznirs Exercise Results, Day 31/108 100 Various peripheral thoughts, maintained focus. Strong connection and clarity in pars of the visualization. -- April 22, 2014 - Day 375 Burmese siddha asana, mukul mudra. Rasznirs Exercise Results, Day 32/108 23, 100 1) Distracted by thoughts of a game I played. 2) Visuals not a s clear as some other times but they were much more stable with few other minor thoughts. Also mental animation rend
  5. April 20, 2014 - Day 373 Burmese Siddha Asana, mukul mudra. Rasznirs Exercise Results, Day 30/108 5, 100 1) Lost focus on Seph and the numbers. 2) Many variations and peripheral thought, some fluctuations in visual clarity. Did not lose focus. Focus on gratitude and camaraderie was distinct in highest scoring session today.
  6. April 19, 2014 - Day 372 Burmese Siddha Asana, mukul mudra. Felt very tired since I stayed up late and got up early. Drank some stimulants and did exercise before forcing, so I back to normal with good focus. Rasznirs Exercise Results, Day 29/108 100 Sporadic peripheral thoughts, and was able to maintain focus on Seph and the numbers. Decided to stop talking about Seph to anyone unless they ask me directly, for some time due to some comments recently. I'll still be logging my progress.
  7. April 18, 2014 - Day 371 Burmese Siddha Asana, mukul mudra. Did these exercises very late at night before going to sleep Rasznirs Exercise Results, Day 28/108 12, 1, 4, 15, 42 1) Distracted by thoughts of communicating with someone. 2) Lost sight of Seph and the numbers. 3) Distracted by thoughts of an imaginary conversation with someone. 4) Distracted by a memory of explaining a meditation technique to someone. 5) Lost sight of the numbers. Highest score today was characterized by feeling Seph as if she was really there as an autonomous being that I was collaborating
  8. April 17, 2014 - Day 370 Burmese Siddha Asana, Mukul Mudra. Rasznirs Exercise Results, Day 27/108 100 Session went well with some varying thoughts, yet I was able to maintain the visualizations of Seph and the numbers throughout. At one point I mentioned to Seph how I was having trouble maintaining a clear image of her (I was getting some distortion and fuzziness in the visualization) even though I was able to maintain a stable form. Some of the details were vague. She talked me though a guided visualization of seeing another person and then changing the features bit by bit until I c
  9. April 16, 2014 - Day 369 Burmese Siddha Asana, mukul mudra. Rasznirs Exercise Results, Day 26/108 100 Session went well. Some peripheral thoughts. Maintained focus on Seph and the numbers. Has some thoughts about what to do after these exercises. Decided to start work on passive forcing. Made a string bracelet to wear for a while as a mental trigger to force Seph. Seeing and hearing her around me all the time when I'm reminded by the string around my wrist. I'll wear it until I notice I am losing consciousness of it for more than a day, or if I feel I'm successful with passive
  10. April 15, 2014 - Day 368 Burmese Siddha asana, mikul mudra. Rasznirs Exercise Results, Day 25/108 6, 100 1) Lost sight of Seph. 2) Another amazing session. Seph makes an interactive experience by doing something different between each set of 20 counts. This keeps my attention focused more easily and directs my mind's questioning into re-focusing back on watching her draw the numbers. Visualization was very clear with intermittent periods of distortion and fading. I did have some peripheral thoughts, even so, I was able to maintain focus on the session. What was unique about hi
  11. April 14, 2014 - Day 367 Burmese Sidda asana, mukul mudra. Rasznirs Exercise Results, Day 24/108 100 1) Body felt a bit sore with phantom pains (they existed only when I was sitting in asana and disappeared with any movement or other position). Visuals not as clear as yesterday and they did improve over time with the session. I was able to maintain concentration on Seph and the numbers even when I had other periphrial thoughts. Feel great and did exercise before I had dinner (as I was busy until then).
  12. April 13, 2014 - Day 366 Burmese Siddha asana, mukul mudra. 100 1) Extreme positive emotions consciousness of my body faded in and out of awareness. Visualization extremely vivid, Seph changed clothing after each set of 20 numbers. I gave her a forced pendant to celebrate our first year together. She said we were done with the exercises for toady. This did not match my plans. I had a goal to do the exercise five times per day. Seph: You can already do this, you just proved it. All this is just an excuse to get you to spend time forcing anyway. It's good practice to continue to k
  13. April 12, 2014 - day 365 Burmese SIDDHAASA asana + mukul mudra. 36, 25, 26, 14, 4 1) vision switched to an image of an Asian woman's face. 2) distracted by random thought. 3) did not see Seph draw 27. 4) did not see Seph draw 15, distracted by thought of someone. 5) distracted by thoughts of a book I plan to read. Best score to day was characterized by a stronger sense of emotional connection with Seph. Today a feeling of physical presence when it near me although in wonderland just the same way I feel when near another human.
  14. April 11, 2014 - Day 364 Sitting in loose Burmese Siddha-asana, mukul mudra. Done in morning after light exercise. Rasznirs Exercise Results 9, 19, 3, 18, 14 1) Did not see Seph draw ten. Feeling very happy and joyful, like this is a game we are playing. 2) Distracted by thinking about food. Felt a strong sense of collaboration with Seph. 3) Distracted by thoughts of other agreements. 4) Distracted by memory of a game I played. 5) Distracted by a random thought. Highest score today was unique in that I had a very high sense of positive emotional connection with Seph, f
  15. April 10, 2014 - Day 363 Sitting in loose Burmese siddha-asana, mukul mudra except for last round. Did exercises after getting up before eating, after short exercise. Rasznirs Exercise Results, Day 20/108 11, 24, 14, 18, 4 1) Distracted by sounds form outside. 2) Distracted by thoughts of international prejudice and its effects on my thoughts about travel abroad via my perception of it. 3) Lost sight of Seph, distracted by thoughts about the fate of humanity and different power groups agenda(s) for the masses. 4) Did not see Seph draw nineteen, and distracted by mental rote
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