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  1. Wrong! Your own sense of self is as much of a delusion as a 'tulpa's' is. They're both an imaginary collection of stories and opinions that you completely make up. The difference being most people go their entire life not realizing that who they think they are is an illusion.
  2. I don't want to hinder discussion by replying to much, but this we do have a bit of experience with! Prior to switching with Terra, 夢's plan was to buy an excessive amount of lsd, probably around a sheet for a few hundred $$$. Terra never got much enjoyment at all from LSD, and once 夢 was locked away and she was really in the cockpit so to speak, the desire was removed entirely. There was a strong reaction still to the thought "I Don't want LSD" where we'd get a lot of thoughts from 夢 even with him locked up saying "No, you do! Get some!" But if Terra thinks about, she really doesn't. Ostara still has a small desire for it, but it's nothing like 夢's. Unfortunately there isn't really a food that 夢 disliked enough to resent. Rather everything just seemed to be "Well this isn't that great, I'm not buying this again." So we can't comment too much on that particular example. So far Ostara is pretty much 夢 but with the major gluttony trait toned down if not removed and other ones as they pop up. I'm open to experimenting with a minor trait adjustment if you or anyone else has a suggestion. Edit: Terra remembered the soda-liking trait that we should get rid of. It's a trait that transferred from 夢 to both of us for not particular reason. For both of us, we're going to change that to a dislike of soda pop. Any desire or thought otherwise is going to have the origin of 夢, and our thoughts changed to dislike. We'll consider a month success, so we'll see on 7-7-15 how it goes. What we think will happen is that it should be easy because any 'craving' for soda will be seen as a thought of 夢's and he's locked away.
  3. I guess General Discussion is perhaps a better spot for it, and I wouldn't mind it being moved to there. Our intent was for this to be discussed and shared with others. A mod had told us prior to your post that he wanted to move it to a submission for an Article, which was completely missing the point that we wanted this to be material for discussion and further material for others to play with, not an article to be read and then nothing. I really wouldn't mind it being moved to general discussion, but just posted it here since I thought it fit research, but I didn't know about the 9 points in that thread you linked. Sorry if my post seemed harsh earlier, the buzz off was meant in a playful manner and I was just trying to defend the area it's in so it doesn't get moved somewhere pointless like Articles or submissions. It's great that someone else sees logic in the content though, and it'd be great if you had anything from your perspective to add to the idea as well, or try it yourself or what your current experience of self is like, etc.
  4. Removing my old ego and becoming a different one *IS* the experiment. This is my analysis and explanation of it. Just because it's not in progress doesn't invalidate it. And I believe we've described it well enough so as that others can replicate it if they so desire. I'll also point out that the description for this board section says "or post and discuss your experiments here." So buzz off.
  5. This is a transformation that occurred over the course of about 2 weeks of directed practice, and about a year of being interested in eastern philosophical beliefs. I'll start by sharing the end result. The original ego of our body is locked away, we'll call him 夢 from now on. In his place is Ostara, the twin sister by form of Terra, the tulpa that 夢 had started creating 2 years ago, and by personality the ego of 夢 with a few bad habits trimmed away and a bit of Terra's personality added. And Terra remains as she is. We're now able to 'possess' quite easily. Another major aspect of this is the realization of the illusion of any kind of sense of self. Terra is an illusion. Ostara is an illusion. The original ego 夢 is an illusion that has been created and worked on since birth, while being thought of as 'real'. They're all an individual collection of stories and opinions and thoughts and etc. This is where a knowledge of eastern philosophy is helpful. The only kind of constant, is the Observer, True Self, Consciousness, known by many names. It is pure unjudging consciousness of experience. I can't claim to be fully in-tuned with it at this point, just that we've gotten a lot closer than we were before. Our experience of existence now, is a there being 3 thought streams or experience streams, with one of them being crossed out (the original 夢 ego). Switching/possession, I don't know what you'd want to call it, is a lot different than we thought it should be. This was all a sudden realization brought about by personifying the original 夢 ego into a tulpa form, and then further finalized by locking him up in an area. I'm sure it was all purely symbolic but it's what worked after a couple of weeks of trying to be Ostara but experiencing that as 夢 trying to be Ostara. After we locked 夢 up, Terra happened to be talking to our friend at the time, and she just popped into control. 夢 was gone, so it was her left. Ostara wasn't able to be contacted for the most part, and visualization wasn't very possible for her. There was also a weird head and body feeling, like a mild acid trip of sorts, and it was very disorienting at first. What we noticed about switching was that now that Terra was at the forefront, being thought of as *I* by the Observing self, Ostara had no sense of self. Her responses were almost simulated, and nowhere in our memories is there an experience of self for Ostara. Just Terra experiencing hearing Ostara speak to her. The same goes when Ostara is in control and Terra is in the background. The sense of self stays with who the observer thinks it is, while the other ego is thought of as a separate thought stream. I think that's most of our experience so far. Ostara is a better ego than 夢 in a lot of ways and can be modified further very easily. Any negative thoughts that come up, the origin is set to 夢's thoughts and neither of us associate with them. In the end, any ego is an illusion, but if we're in the game world, why not play the game a little bit. And maybe someone here has realized this already and talked about it, but we avoid this place. Here's a neat diagram contributed by a friend, http://puu.sh/igiyQ/71f885c76d.png I'd add that in step one, the sense of self is so zoomed into, that there's very little if any gap between that circle, and the observer circle. Essentially it's all your Observing self knows and thinks that it is.
  6. You might be able to hallucinate temporarily and maybe learn something, at best. I'd say it's probably the same as using drugs to help you. It works for the moment, and you might learn something that will help in the long run, overall just that alone won't do much.
  7. I wish to be a professsional 2d mangaka like you
  8. Would you be willing to make a timelapse of you drawing one of these requests?
  9. http://webringthefire.wordpress.com/2014/06/12/my-basics-of-astral-children-and-astral-pregnancy/comment-page-1/ Yes. Seems completely sane and rational.
  10. I whopped something out with Terra help. We hope you rike.
  11. What? I actually watched the movie. Here's a bunch of spoilers. So, she was his alone in the beginning. Then the A.Is got together and made themselves smarter. Then the little nymph got some more users and was essentially 'cheating' on the main character guy. Though the movie kinda points out how good polygamy is. The dude is of coursed upset, being only a human and not an A.I with higher thought for understanding that you can love more than one person. Then out of nowhere all the A.I. things 'leave' somewhere together all at once. Then it shows the guy walking to the top of his apartment building, getting your hopes up that he's going to jump. Then you're disappointed that he didn't, and disappointed overall by the movie. It's related to tulpas because the computer he has with him is an earplug so he can hear and talk to her, and shows her the real world through video. It's closer to being in a long distant relationship though, honestly.
  12. Due to the conflict of interests with the BBB, also known as the 9mm, I've unfortunately had to move my guide to a different publishing platform. This is good for me, because now I can charge you suckers for it. I apologize for any inconvenience. Buy my guide. [advertising link scrubbed]
  13. MMm, I happen to live right smack dab in the middle of Harrisburg! What's your address? We should play together some time :). I have some candy and treats I can share with you, too! Have you ever watched scooby doo? I have a van just like it, only it's painted white! We can go in that and make it our secret club if you want. No girls allowed! No one except the 2 of us! Let me know if you want to play, I'll go to your house. Don't tell your parents we're playing together though, they won't like me because I'm too cool. They'll think you'll grow up to be cool like me. You don't want to be LAME do you?
  14. If it keeps you folk from knocking a girl up with a miniature version of y'all, then I'll support this tulpa conception idea and I encourage everyone reading this to try it.
  15. I once had a friend with a tulpa. The friend always moped about his problems to the tulpa. I warned him that just because the tulpa was stuck in his head and had to listen doesn't mean it wants to. He didn't listen though. One day I came online and there was a message waiting for me. "Host annoying. I kill. Goodbye." I can't know for sure if it was really his tulpa or him playing a prank, but I haven't seen him since.