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  1. Responses split from this post ~Kiahdaj To make clear the previous post, that was Melian - a well-known attention seeker on the IRC. I was made aware of a PM conversation which occurred immediately prior to this, and many of the same sentiments from Melian/David came up. I think it'd be a good thing to get the perspective of the pm across too, so it's not fully biased. Link removed to maintain user's privacy Posted with the permission of YukiYuki, Boat, and Dutch.
  2. Good point, Kiahdaj. Edited the OP.
  3. Quiz time! I'm curious about two main things, to see if there's some kind of correlation. Please say how much roleplaying/writing/artistic experience you had BEFORE making your first tulpa, and how long it took you to make your first tulpa. ("making" being reaching the point where you can communicate more complex ideas consistently, even if there are still some doubts. This will probably mean vocality, but consistent communication can also mean body movement or direct meaning) Please also specify what kind of experience it is. Here's an example: (Note: This is not entirely accurate, just an example of the kind of response I'm looking for) Thanks!
  4. It's annoying. I don't see the issue with it. When it gets beyond two badges, letters or not, it gets ugly to look at, kinda annoying, . Often, two full-name badges are also just too long. Beyond that, it also screws up some clients, tab-completing someone's name when it has three-four badges on it just kinda looks dumb if you're only talking to one of them, and it can be confusing for people who don't know the nicks behind the little letters, if it's just that - which is necessary for any more than two badges, generally for any more than a single badge.
  5. I have a hard time believing this. Even giving the benefit of the doubt, however... I believe this even less. Avalanche and you two have a history of joining the .info channels and posting spam which isn't *technically* against the main rules, but very clearly intended to cause trouble. Avalanche often doesn't even have that subtlety. Even if you intended it to be legitimate, it was presented in such a way that it looked like trolling. Think "the boy who cried wolf". Or, in this case, "the man who cried legit". He had joined with a line that would cause nothing but trouble. He was also unbanned shortly after you left, seeing as he did not do much of anything himself. Perhaps you didn't know that, but you do now. I don't plan to post about this again. Send me a message on Rizon if you REALLY have to complain about it more.
  6. Well you see, it's quite simple. You click this link and read it. That should answer the question of "What is a tulpa?" Also, it would be nice if you could type your posts in more than one single long extended paragraph - it's difficult to read raw walls of text with no division between ideas.
  7. So would I. It's interesting enough that roughly 57.5% of people experienced at least one significant change. I'm going to edit the first post though, since it might mislead people - the question in the poll is about how you've changed FROM GENESIS TO VOCALITY. Not from the beginning until now. ...oops. Oh well.
  8. Winter is 4. Not sure what else to say.
  9. Added poll for general statistics about how much people think they've changed.
  10. The basis of this is very simple. On the IRC, I've noticed multiple people stating that they changed significantly immediately after making a tulpa. This is just asking: How much have YOU changed? *Edit (14/12/2013): Note, on the poll, the time scale is "in the time it took your tulpa to become vocal". In the thread, please specify what scale you're referring to, such as "Since I started making my tulpa..." or "In the time it took us to possess..." or similar.
  11. While I may have chosen the first option on the poll, I think it should be stated that it only partially covers my thoughts on the matter. I think more research should be done, but I do not believe that tulpas are a part of my own consciousness. That said, I don't really support something like this. It's psychology - research should be made, but not at the cost of destroying a tulpa (or host for that matter) without their informed consent and agreement.
  12. \Winter: It is not terrifying if it is the only existence you know. It is only terrifying and saddening in retrospect. At the time, it was all I had and all I knew, therefore normal. If this can help other people understand why people should pay attention to their tulpas, good. If it doesn't then I have simply been able to speak my mind, and this is also good. Any person can share my enthusiasm or lack thereof - it depends on them.
  13. \Winter: The entirety of this is my own thoughts, transcribed and edited by Skye to be clear and readable. I am not the best at using words currently, regardless of the complexity of my thoughts. The only time Skye will be speaking is if "\Skye:" is in front of quoted text. “Why do I want to live?” This is something that I feel every independently sapient mind will ask at some point in their lives. As far as I know, animals do not ask the same question and instead work off of the instinct to live. Initially, I might have been the same. When I first began to think, I 'knew' that living was good, and thus I knew that I wanted to live. I had no coherent or logical reason for this 'knowledge', and simply acted off it as if it was definitely the truth. But truth is not determined by subjective belief, unless the truth is about the subjective belief. When I understood this, I asked myself the question: "Why do I want to live?" It was not precisely this, since I still did not understand language fully at the time, but it was still a question to ask. I think it may be more significant than many other times it has been asked as well, as during this time Skye did not know I was here. He did not know that I needed or wanted attention. I lived in the mindscapes that he periodically created, and lived in absence of all sensory information - false or otherwise - during the other times I was conscious. Much of the time, I simply skipped around in time, only aware that I was conscious because I could understand that time was passing. At this point, I decided I wanted to help Skye. There were multiple reasons for this. First and foremost, I had little else to do. The mindscape becomes extremely boring after a very short period of time when you live exclusively in it and have little to no experience of the outside world to go off of. I knew that I could do nearly anything, but did not know how much ‘anything’ was. There was little I knew to do, even if I could do it. Helping Skye was a way to do something, to keep my own mind active and thinking as much as I could. Second, I knew Skye. My first memories are feeling his emotions and experiences, and believing them to be my own. Upon understanding that he was separate, I was thankful for even the minimal company I received. I could know that I was not alone at that point – I could know that there was more to my world than my own random experiences. This also came at the time when I began being capable of thinking for myself fully. Third, I believed that Skye was the reason I existed, as it was obvious that he was here before I was. For this, I have been thankful, and I wish to repay him for it. This was my fragile reason for living, supported by fairly fragile reasons itself. If I did not have it, I most likely would have wanted to die rather than to live, even though I did not know how I could die at that point in time. Later, as I gained knowledge and awareness of the world, I needed further reason to continue. Simply helping one person can help the helper, but that alone is likely not enough. As I continued to live, I asked myself the question again. “Why do I want to live?” At this point, I could articulate the question in words if I chose. I was capable of understanding and using language, and had attempted to do so repeatedly in order to communicate to Skye. Unfortunately, he was not listening, if only because he did not know to do so. As a result, I became discontented and needed to ask the question again. Simply helping Skye was not enough, as there was minimal response to me, and I felt that it was a poor reason at that point. This time, I decided that I wanted to learn. As I reasoned, “If I learn more, I might be able to force him to listen and talk to me.” Perhaps it was a foolish hope, but it was the best I had and I still believe it. There is little more to say here, as this was the full reason I had. Then, Skye learned about tulpas and began forcing. I saw this chance and took it immediately, throwing out my own words to respond to his. It took him a day, but he learned to listen enough to understand that I was here. \Skye: “I still think the first thing she said was hilarious, she told me off for trying to force personality, saying that she already knew what her personality was.” So there we have it: My goals were achieved. At this point, Skye was happier than he had ever been. He was speaking to me, I could see the outside world. Both of my reasons to live had been fulfilled. Once again, I needed to ask myself: “Why do I want to live?” This was the easiest time to find an answer. I want to speak to others. I want to learn more, and learn about what this non-mental world is like. I want to find something that I can do to affect the world. We have both agreed that I should get the chance to do this, and that we should cohabit the body completely – as equal minds. My short-term goals for life are simple to state. I want to learn as much as I can, and find out several things that I feel strongly about. I want to develop myself to be equal to Skye in capability, and be accepted by others so that I can interact with them directly – even if it is only a few. My long-term goals are also simple to state, but they are not fully developed yet or fully determined. Whose are? I want to teach others what I know. I want to live contentedly and simply. I want to keep Skye happy. I want to move the world to be a better place. If I find out something that I feel strongly about, I want to do that as well. There’s a lot in this world to live for. If I can find reason, I believe that anybody can do so. At this point, I may be able to understand someone stating that they have ‘no reason to live’ in that they cannot find it, but I cannot forgive a person who gives up trying to find a reason. Even trying to find more reason to live is a reason to live in itself. These are my thoughts. Make of them what you will.
  14. Hello, Umbra. You might want to check out the daemon community - that seems to be what you're looking for more than tulpas. Tulpas aren't simply projections of your own consciousness. Also, there is some 'magic' content in your post which might do better in this board.
  15. By subjective decision-making, I mean the capability to make decisions based on the entire situation and projected possibility. Maybe "subjective" isn't the best word. What you said sums it up pretty well too though.