Abvieon

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  1. 1. Decide what you want your tulpa's appearance and personality to be like. This step is no different from creating or choosing a character. 2. Imagine that this character is conscious/sentient and is in your brain with you. Imagine that they are able to hear everything you say to them. 3. On a regular basis, every day if possible, talk to this character using your inner mindvoice (thoughts in the form of words) with the intention that they will hear you. What you talk about does not matter, you can talk about literally anything. 4. Eventually this character will actually become conscious/sentient, and at that point they will be a tulpa. They will then start responding to you with thoughts of their own. You will hear these thoughts in the same way you hear your own thoughts, except these thoughts will not be controlled or decided by yourself.
  2. I'm not a fan of calling tulpas personalities or identities, because a person isn't their personality/identity. A person can have more than one personality and way of behaving, and in fact most people do - chances are you act very differently depending on who you are with and what setting you are in. This doesn't mean you are multiple people because you have more than one personality. A personality is more like a mask that can be swapped out with different masks. All of these masks are apart of yourself and are not independent of your control, unlike tulpas. It is also clear that a personality is not the driving force behind what creates a person or their consciousness - if you are familiar with "ego death" you would know it is possible for a person to be conscious and aware without having any sense of a personality or identity. Creating/splitting consciousness doesn't require a personality to be in place to work either, seeing as tulpas can be created without having a personality in mind for them. The easiest answer would be that tulpas are consciousnesses, but it is a bit more complex than that. If you are using "consciousness" to mean "awareness", calling a tulpa a consciousness would not be entirely true in cases where the tulpa and host share all awareness (in that they are always aware of everything the other is aware of and cannot hide information from one another or think about different things at the same time.) This isn't the case with all tulpas, but I have to take those tulpas into account here because even with these tulpas there is something that differentiates them from their host beyond just identity. There is some sort of "core" that exists that defines a person and differentiates them from other people in the same brain in the case of plurality. That core seems to be the ability to act independently and have your own will/volition. "Volition" is a noun but doesn't seem quite right to describe a tulpa/person. However, if you think about consciousness in the same way I do, it makes sense to call tulpas and people consciousnesses, so that is what I have and will continue to call them. I don't think of consciousness as the brain's ability to be aware or give people in it awareness, but also a person's subjective experience, which is their specific perspective/interpretation of everything they think and experience and the ability to have thoughts they identify as their own. I think of the brain's ability to grant awareness as something a bit different, which I call processing power. Processing power doesn't have a single way of working/existing and can be divided among different consciousnesses/subjective experiences, which is what allows tulpas and hosts who practice it to be capable of thinking about different things at the same time or hiding info from one another. Some tulpas and hosts share all processing power with each other at all times, but they are still separate people as they have separate subjective experiences. I don't think I explained that very well and it gets a bit confusing at times but I hope it makes some sense. To sum it up: Consciousness and subjective experience is the core of a person. It is what defines a person and differentiates them from others in the same brain on a level deeper than identity, so it makes sense to call people/tulpas consciousnesses. Processing power is the ability to be aware and think, that consciousnesses can use. A consciousness goes unconscious and loses the ability to think but does not cease to exist when it is not using any processing power (otherwise tulpas who go dormant would not be able to become active again), so this is not what defines a tulpa/person. Personality and identity is a way of behaving and labels you identify with. It is like a mask that can be removed, changed, or swapped, but doing any of those things does not make you a different person in any way other than how you act. Your consciousness is unchanged.
  3. Wow, I suppose it's time for an update! A lot has happened, both tulpa related and in terms of general life stuff, since I last wrote here. My tulpa guide is close to being finished and will probably be released this summer. I could have completed it in January or February if I wanted to, but I have been in no rush to finish it and it hasn't been my top priority. However, I have reservations about submitting it here on Tulpa.info, the reason for that being that the GAT is not going to like it and I am almost certain that it would not be approved. I am willing to edit my guide, but the thing is that some of the edits that I know would be required in order for it to be approved are not edits I would be willing to make, simply due to differences in beliefs between myself and GAT members. I realized this when reading some of the reviews they have left on other guides - my thoughts when seeing this were "If they didn't like this guide, then they are DEFINITELY not going to like my guide." One GAT member outright required that a brief mention of parallel processing be removed from someone's guide. And well, I have an entire multi page section on parallel processing in mine. This is not the only thing they would want me to remove from my guide either, so I don't think it's worth the trouble to even submit it. I might end up doing so, but don't count on it. When I finish it I will post it in this progress report and on r/tulpas. As for my progress with Alex: I am slowly getting more and more consistent. There was a time when I expected myself to just immediately start forcing every single day without missing a beat - and I tried many times - but after awhile it became apparent this wasn't going to happen. I used to beat myself up over this, and told myself that anything less than forcing once every day was not good enough. Now, when I miss a day or two I don't become upset with myself anymore, and I just try again without expecting perfection. I have slowly gotten better, which may have had something to do with this new mindset. For the past several months I have rarely gone for more than a few days to a week at a time without forcing, while in the past it wasn't unusual for me to go a few weeks or even over a month without any forcing. This is starting to pay off in terms of progress. In the past, I would only very rarely feel a "mental presence" coming from Alex. Now, it happens almost every single time I force. This "mental presence" is something almost impossible to describe in words, but in a way if feels like Alex's "essence" and the sense that he is present and listening to me. It's worth noting that if I focus, I can feel my OWN mental presence. I have been able to do this long before I started creating Alex, though I didn't really know what it was back then. My mental essence and Alex's feel different in some way, which seems to be a good sign. There have also been a few more instances in which I think he may have been speaking. For awhile now I've had the sense that something big is going to happen soon, and at this rate it will. As for life updates: I and two friends are working on starting a business together. This is a good thing as all three of us used to be clueless about what we'd be doing in terms of work in the future, and now we finally have a sense of direction. The three of us when combined also have a very wide skillset, and we compliment each other in many areas where the others are lacking, so we will be doing a wide variety of things. It's also worth noting that my worldview and beliefs have changed drastically since last year, which I though I should mention as it affects the way I view tulpas in some ways. Prior to October 2018, I was a materialist for the most part. I generally didn't put much stock into metaphysical explanations for things. For many, many reasons, this has changed. To sum it up, after thinking about metaphysical concepts and explanations more and hearing them explained by several sources, a metaphysical viewpoint of the universe now makes more logical sense to me than a materialistic one. This has had very positive effects on my life. My level of fear and anxiety surrounding life has decreased and I tend to approach things with a more positive, optimistic mindset. In my last post here, I said that I would be spending less time interacting with the tulpa community. I'm not quite as frustrated with the community as I was back then, but I still think I am not going to be spending very much time around here. I don't need it quite as much as I used to - I don't look for advice anymore, other than re-reading guides to refresh my memory on certain tips and techniques. I will be updating this progress report again once I have more progress with Alex.
  4. Thanks for making this. It's much shorter than the original survey it was inspired by but includes all of the most important questions. It being short will make it more appealing to reply to as well.
  5. Many people in plurality communities have a tendency to believe that all systems must operate like their own, and that differing experiences mean that they do not have a "real" system. Some have very specific definitions of what "tulpa" or "plurality" means and those who stray outside of those tightly confined definitions are seen as someone who should not be considered a part of the community. Luckily I haven't seen this too often around here, but it does happen. It's especially bad in the DID community. Many, if not the majority, of people in those communities hold the belief that having more than one person in your head is possible only through traumegenic means. They believe that the mechanism that creates plurality can only be kicked into gear via trauma, and that there is no other possible method. This is why they discount tulpa and endogenic systems as being fake.
  6. I think I could be considered to have a case of the "tulpa curse", but I feel as though I have a tulpa, it's just that he's been stuck in a sort of "development limbo" for a long time. Stuck at the stage of a week old tulpa when he is 4 and a half years old.
  7. Your PR was one of my favorites a few years ago. It's sad to see once active people disappear from the forums
  8. I thought this would be an interesting discussion topic. Is there any opinion or belief about tulpas you used to hold that you don't any longer, or something you didn't previously think but now do? This can include just about anything: What you believe tulpas are, your thoughts about the tulpa community, your thoughts on specific tulpa creation methods, etc.
  9. This is a bit overdue, but here it is! Some of you may remember a survey on head pressure I conducted awhile back. The survey's aim was to find correlations between tulpa creation and head pressure, looking for common trends in the community. There were a total of 97 respondents. "For you, is head pressure a unique sensation that is different from headaches and similar sensations? If so, to what degree does it feel different?" 44.3% said "Yes, completely different", 40.2% said "Yes, moderately different", 13.4% said "Yes, slightly different", while 2.1% said "No, it is identical to headaches." This shows that head pressure is generally distinguishable from a headache and that most experience it as being a very unique sensation. These results make sense - otherwise head pressure likely would not have become its own term within the community. "Did you ever experience head pressure before starting tulpamancy?" 78.4% said "No" while 20.6% said "Yes." This affirms the idea that head pressure is often initially instigated by tulpamancy and is experienced only after starting to create a tulpa. "If you experienced head pressure for the first time after starting tulpamancy, when did it first appear?" 36.4% said "Days after", 17% said "Weeks after", 15.9% said "Hours after", 13.6% said "Minutes after", 13.6% said "Almost immediately", 2.3% said "Months after" and 1.1% said "Years after." This further supports the idea that head pressure may often be brought about by the initial creation of a tulpa - shorter time spans were selected far more often than longer time spans. A fairly small but still surprisingly significant portion of respondents said "Almost immediately", which is especially interesting. This shows that head pressure may not be brought about only by long bouts of strenuous or unusual thinking, which has been theorized in the past. "Do you ever experience head pressure when doing activities unrelated to tulpamancy?" 44.3% said "No", 28.9% said "Yes, rarely", 17.5% said "Yes, sometimes", while 9.3% said "Yes, often." Nearly half of all respondents indicated that they experience head pressure exclusively when doing tulpa related activities. Another significant portion experienced head pressure only rarely outside of these activities, while those who experience it often outside of tulpa related activities are a small minority. This shows that head pressure is unique to tulpamancy more often than not. "If you experience head pressure when doing activities unrelated to tulpamancy, what are those activities?" Answers here were text based - and varied wildly. Many of the answers involved heavy thinking of some sort, but many also involved doing the opposite of heavy thinking. Here are a few examples of the answers given: "Usually involving thinking in ways I'm not used to." "Anything recreational, usually" "Intense daydreaming" "Sometimes it happens when I'm waking up or very relaxed/unfocused" "It could be anything, doesn't seem to correlate to what I'm doing" "Meditation" "Usually when I'm entirely distracted, homework, bathroom, video games etc.." "Thinking about head pressure" "Mostly metaphysical stuff." "Whenever a tulpa reacts to external stimuli or whenever I ask for their input." "Any task that doesn't take much thinking" "If your tulpa is vocal, do they report that they can purposefully cause or control head pressure?" 59.5% said yes while 40.5% said no. In the past it has been commonly reported for tulpas to be able to cause or control head pressure of their own volition, which is why I included this question. Some have used this as a method of communicating with their tulpa through a binary yes/no system before their tulpa is vocal. I find it very interesting that such a large portion of tulpas, over half, report being able to cause or control head pressure. "If your tulpa reports being able to cause head pressure, do you ever experience it outside of times when your tulpa is attempting to cause it?" 52.9% said no while 47.1% said yes. This means that a little over half of tulpas who are able to cause head pressure are the sole cause of their host experiencing it. In conclusion, I can say that head pressure is very often caused exclusively by tulpamancy. It makes me wonder why this is - what is special about the act of creating a tulpa that causes this sensation to occur? How is it so different from other mental activities and practices? Of course, many also experience it when doing other things, but the portion of those who feel head pressure only after creating a tulpa is too significant to be ignored and is actually the majority. Feel free to comment with thoughts, theories, etc.
  10. You just have to be cautious about who you tell. If they're not generally an open minded person, play it safe and don't tell them. Try to predict what their reaction to tulpamancy would be based on what you know about them. If you can't do that, tell them about the concept of tulpas without implying that you yourself have a tulpa and go from there. Both my mother and boyfriend know I have a tulpa and are fine with it. In fact, both of them, especially my boyfriend, found the concept of tulpamancy to be fascinating when I told them about it. Unfortunately cases like mine aren't too common, though.
  11. I have been here for 5 years. It's weird to think of myself as an "old" community member now, heh.
  12. I'd say that if tulpas were proven to be not sentient, then it would be ok to treat them in whatever way you want. The issue is not the morality of the host's actions, but rather the impact that their actions could have on the tulpa. If a tulpa is not conscious, no harm is being done. One should have free reign over what happens in their mind so long as no sentient beings are involved. I don't agree with the idea that what one thinks about or does in a fantasy setting pushes them to do those things in real life - that is to say that violent video games compel people to be violent in real life. Assuming that tulpas are sentient, I find it unlikely that there is a significant mix of tulpas that are sentient or not sentient. Sure, there are different degrees of sentience, and very young tulpas are most likely a bit less conscious than more developed ones, but sentience itself is a binary property. You either have some, even if it is a very small amount, or you don't. There are also many trends and consistencies covering the broad majority of tulpa experiences, including the way in which tulpas are formed - all tulpa creation guides boil down to "imagine a thing and give this thing attention and eventually it will start acting on its own." When following the same core method, I find it hard to believe that different people will end up with wildly differing results, such as one person with an actually sentient tulpa and another person with a tulpa that displays sentience but is not. Under this theory, it is difficult to see how this almost universally used creation method could not result in the forming of a consciousness.
  13. While the majority of people in this community believe that tulpas are conscious and sentient in the same way that any person is and that tulpamancy is the practice of forming a second, separate consciousness in their brain, not everyone holds these beliefs. Some believe that tulpas are more akin to artificial intelligence or dream characters, imitating sentience to an undistinguishable point but not actually possessing it. One of these two beliefs is actually objective fact - we just do not know which one it is yet. Tulpas either are or are not sentient. There is no gray area or in-between, and it is most likely not different for every person who has a tulpa. In this sense, tulpamancy is not subjective. We just do not know the answer to the question "are tulpas truly people?", and thus we tend to treat tulpamancy as subjective simply because there are some things about it that we cannot currently know or prove. In order to prove whether or not tulpas are sentient, we first must know much more about the brain than we currently do. Our understanding of the inner workings of consciousness is especially poor - we do not know how or why it forms in singlets, let alone whether or not more than one consciousness in a brain is possible. We will not understand the "truth" behind tulpamancy and plurality until we know these things, which we most likely will not for a very long time. This brings me to my main point - if one is to treat tulpamancy as completely subjective, problems can arise. One of these problems is the idea that one can treat a tulpa any way they want to simply because one subjectively interprets tulpas as not being people. One may think that if a tulpa has no subjective experience, it is ok to do things to them that they would never do to another person. However, this completely ignores the possibility that tulpas could be sentient - even if you fully believe that there is not even the smallest possibility that tulpas are sentient, that possibility still exists. The objective yet unknown reality of what tulpas are exists entirely independently of your personal beliefs and interpretations. Because of the possibility of tulpas being sentient, it is best to treat them as if they are - don't do something to a tulpa that you would not do to another physical person. Even if tulpas are one day proven to not possess subjective experience, no harm would have been done in treating them as if they did. However, if you treat tulpas based on the idea that they might not be sentient, and they are one day scientifically proven to be sentient, you will realize that you have hurt someone simply because you didn't know the truth of what they were. Which is the better option?
  14. Head pressure. It's something that a surprisingly large portion of those who create tulpas report, yet nobody is quite sure what causes it and whether or not it is inherently related to tulpamancy. It is most often experienced as an odd sensation that differs from headaches, and many experience it only when creating their tulpa. Because it is such a common experience, I have decided to create a survey that aims to find trends and consistencies in the experience of head pressure. Please do not respond to this survey unless you have taken part in creating a tulpa and have experienced head pressure. https://goo.gl/forms/C6GkXCCd7VA79N7z2
  15. I don't actually want to perma-switch. Even if I were born as a tulpa I would want to control the body at times - I also have several things in my real life that I value and would not want to abandon. I don't want to give up drawing or directly talking to those I am close to. I've read Oguigi and Koomer's story. I don't believe it should be used as a cautionary tale against switching, as the problems they experienced did not arise from the desire to permaswitch itself. It seems more like a combination of underlying mental illness and general recklessness was the culprit.