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  1. I am not a GAT member but I'll add my two cents. I agree with some of what GAT members have said here, but not all of it. Many of their criticisms are based on the idea that your guide includes many things that aren't absolutely necessary for creating a tulpa. This is true - but that is not a bad thing. I do not see any reason why a guide should be boiled down to only the things that are required in order to create a tulpa. Sure, that can shorten the guide and make it take less time and effort to read, but many people are willing to read (or in this case, listen to) longer and more in depth guides, not everyone will only be willing to read a short and basic guide. Also, there are many benefits to longer guides that include things that aren't 100% necessary for tulpa creation. I have found that people often have a faster and easier time creating a tulpa when they have already practiced skills that can come in handy for tulpa creation and have built a good mindset for tulpa creation BEFORE they start creating a tulpa, which is exactly what your guide does. No, nobody needs to do this to create a tulpa, but it definitely helps and is likely to make things faster and easier once you start creation. If you keep a guide to only what is required, these helpful aspects would not be included. Also, if all tulpa guides were kept to only the required basics, they would be much less interesting and diverse, because when you boil down tulpa creation to it's bare bones, it's actually very simple. They would all be saying the exact same things in slightly different wording. There should be diversity among guides, as there is not just one way to create a tulpa, and some ways work better for people than others, so newcomers benefit from having a wide variety of different techniques to read about. Regarding people's criticisms on mentioning parallel processing - it has not been proven to definitively exist or not exist, so the idea that it shouldn't be included just because it hasn't been proven to exist doesn't make sense. Even tulpas have not been proven to exist in the way that most people in this community think about them. Might as well disapprove every guide on the site because they all assume something exists when it hasn't been proven, right? Some will say that parallel processing doesn't exist because multitasking in the way it is generally thought of has been strongly indicated to be impossible by some studies, but that is not a good argument as parallel processing isn't necessarily the exact same thing as multitasking, all studies on multitasking have had nothing to do with tulpas/plurality, and there is nothing to indicate that being plural doesn't change some things about how the brain works. Creating a tulpa is very similar to learning a new skill, and learning a new skill of course changes certain things about how the brain works. For example, learning to play the piano paves entirely new neural pathways that did not exist before. Why tulpamancy is so often assumed to be an exception baffles me. I can see why some people have concerns about you saying that "your tulpa is already there", because that isn't always true, but that mindset actually helps tulpa creation. If you assume that your tulpa already exists, that they are conscious and listening to you, this actually helps your tulpa start to exist. The reasons for why this is are complex so I'm not going to explain them here. There is no harm in believing your tulpa is already there even if they aren't, because that belief will make them actually be there faster than they probably would be otherwise. Your guide is not perfect but I believe it is much more worthy of being approved than most GAT members think. In my opinion the standards for guides are unnecessarily high and specific. Almost nothing is going to be approved at this rate, and I've already seen some people (including myself) who have decided not to submit guides for review solely because of the GAT's standards. I encourage everyone to look at unapproved guides just as much as you do approved guides, as many of them are just as good as those that have been approved. Use your own judgement to decide which guides are good and which aren't, don't rely on the GAT's judgement.
  2. 1. Decide what you want your tulpa's appearance and personality to be like. This step is no different from creating or choosing a character. 2. Imagine that this character is conscious/sentient and is in your brain with you. Imagine that they are able to hear everything you say to them. 3. On a regular basis, every day if possible, talk to this character using your inner mindvoice (thoughts in the form of words) with the intention that they will hear you. What you talk about does not matter, you can talk about literally anything. 4. Eventually this character will actually become conscious/sentient, and at that point they will be a tulpa. They will then start responding to you with thoughts of their own. You will hear these thoughts in the same way you hear your own thoughts, except these thoughts will not be controlled or decided by yourself.
  3. I'm not a fan of calling tulpas personalities or identities, because a person isn't their personality/identity. A person can have more than one personality and way of behaving, and in fact most people do - chances are you act very differently depending on who you are with and what setting you are in. This doesn't mean you are multiple people because you have more than one personality. A personality is more like a mask that can be swapped out with different masks. All of these masks are apart of yourself and are not independent of your control, unlike tulpas. It is also clear that a personality is not the driving force behind what creates a person or their consciousness - if you are familiar with "ego death" you would know it is possible for a person to be conscious and aware without having any sense of a personality or identity. Creating/splitting consciousness doesn't require a personality to be in place to work either, seeing as tulpas can be created without having a personality in mind for them. The easiest answer would be that tulpas are consciousnesses, but it is a bit more complex than that. If you are using "consciousness" to mean "awareness", calling a tulpa a consciousness would not be entirely true in cases where the tulpa and host share all awareness (in that they are always aware of everything the other is aware of and cannot hide information from one another or think about different things at the same time.) This isn't the case with all tulpas, but I have to take those tulpas into account here because even with these tulpas there is something that differentiates them from their host beyond just identity. There is some sort of "core" that exists that defines a person and differentiates them from other people in the same brain in the case of plurality. That core seems to be the ability to act independently and have your own will/volition. "Volition" is a noun but doesn't seem quite right to describe a tulpa/person. However, if you think about consciousness in the same way I do, it makes sense to call tulpas and people consciousnesses, so that is what I have and will continue to call them. I don't think of consciousness as the brain's ability to be aware or give people in it awareness, but also a person's subjective experience, which is their specific perspective/interpretation of everything they think and experience and the ability to have thoughts they identify as their own. I think of the brain's ability to grant awareness as something a bit different, which I call processing power. Processing power doesn't have a single way of working/existing and can be divided among different consciousnesses/subjective experiences, which is what allows tulpas and hosts who practice it to be capable of thinking about different things at the same time or hiding info from one another. Some tulpas and hosts share all processing power with each other at all times, but they are still separate people as they have separate subjective experiences. I don't think I explained that very well and it gets a bit confusing at times but I hope it makes some sense. To sum it up: Consciousness and subjective experience is the core of a person. It is what defines a person and differentiates them from others in the same brain on a level deeper than identity, so it makes sense to call people/tulpas consciousnesses. Processing power is the ability to be aware and think, that consciousnesses can use. A consciousness goes unconscious and loses the ability to think but does not cease to exist when it is not using any processing power (otherwise tulpas who go dormant would not be able to become active again), so this is not what defines a tulpa/person. Personality and identity is a way of behaving and labels you identify with. It is like a mask that can be removed, changed, or swapped, but doing any of those things does not make you a different person in any way other than how you act. Your consciousness is unchanged.
  4. Wow, I suppose it's time for an update! A lot has happened, both tulpa related and in terms of general life stuff, since I last wrote here. My tulpa guide is close to being finished and will probably be released this summer. I could have completed it in January or February if I wanted to, but I have been in no rush to finish it and it hasn't been my top priority. However, I have reservations about submitting it here on Tulpa.info, the reason for that being that the GAT is not going to like it and I am almost certain that it would not be approved. I am willing to edit my guide, but the thing is that some of the edits that I know would be required in order for it to be approved are not edits I would be willing to make, simply due to differences in beliefs between myself and GAT members. I realized this when reading some of the reviews they have left on other guides - my thoughts when seeing this were "If they didn't like this guide, then they are DEFINITELY not going to like my guide." One GAT member outright required that a brief mention of parallel processing be removed from someone's guide. And well, I have an entire multi page section on parallel processing in mine. This is not the only thing they would want me to remove from my guide either, so I don't think it's worth the trouble to even submit it. I might end up doing so, but don't count on it. When I finish it I will post it in this progress report and on r/tulpas. As for my progress with Alex: I am slowly getting more and more consistent. There was a time when I expected myself to just immediately start forcing every single day without missing a beat - and I tried many times - but after awhile it became apparent this wasn't going to happen. I used to beat myself up over this, and told myself that anything less than forcing once every day was not good enough. Now, when I miss a day or two I don't become upset with myself anymore, and I just try again without expecting perfection. I have slowly gotten better, which may have had something to do with this new mindset. For the past several months I have rarely gone for more than a few days to a week at a time without forcing, while in the past it wasn't unusual for me to go a few weeks or even over a month without any forcing. This is starting to pay off in terms of progress. In the past, I would only very rarely feel a "mental presence" coming from Alex. Now, it happens almost every single time I force. This "mental presence" is something almost impossible to describe in words, but in a way if feels like Alex's "essence" and the sense that he is present and listening to me. It's worth noting that if I focus, I can feel my OWN mental presence. I have been able to do this long before I started creating Alex, though I didn't really know what it was back then. My mental essence and Alex's feel different in some way, which seems to be a good sign. There have also been a few more instances in which I think he may have been speaking. For awhile now I've had the sense that something big is going to happen soon, and at this rate it will. As for life updates: I and two friends are working on starting a business together. This is a good thing as all three of us used to be clueless about what we'd be doing in terms of work in the future, and now we finally have a sense of direction. The three of us when combined also have a very wide skillset, and we compliment each other in many areas where the others are lacking, so we will be doing a wide variety of things. It's also worth noting that my worldview and beliefs have changed drastically since last year, which I though I should mention as it affects the way I view tulpas in some ways. Prior to October 2018, I was a materialist for the most part. I generally didn't put much stock into metaphysical explanations for things. For many, many reasons, this has changed. To sum it up, after thinking about metaphysical concepts and explanations more and hearing them explained by several sources, a metaphysical viewpoint of the universe now makes more logical sense to me than a materialistic one. This has had very positive effects on my life. My level of fear and anxiety surrounding life has decreased and I tend to approach things with a more positive, optimistic mindset. In my last post here, I said that I would be spending less time interacting with the tulpa community. I'm not quite as frustrated with the community as I was back then, but I still think I am not going to be spending very much time around here. I don't need it quite as much as I used to - I don't look for advice anymore, other than re-reading guides to refresh my memory on certain tips and techniques. I will be updating this progress report again once I have more progress with Alex.
  5. I'm actually really glad a guide like this exists. Upon seeing this some may think "Dissipation is bad, so you shouldn't be providing advice on how to do it." But as you explained, while it isn't preferable, dissipation is necessary in some cases. Sometimes, all other possibilities have been exhausted, and dissipation remains the only viable option. It sucks that it has to be done even sometimes, but it is what we'd call a "necessary evil." And in those cases where dissipation is the only option, it is important that people know how to do it properly, in a way that causes the least pain for themselves and their tulpa. Hence why I am so glad this guide exists. This guide covers things that many wouldn't think to do if they faced the task of dissipation all by themselves with no pointers. I have heard of not just a few, but MANY cases where the host did not say goodbye to their tulpa, did not explain dissipation, or utilized symbolic "killing" in the form of violent visualizations. This is what happens when the topic of dissipation is avoided or demonized to the extent that people are discouraged from even providing ethical advice on how to do it. Thank you for writing this guide, it's the first of it's kind that I know of.
  6. I just wanted to say how much I appreciate this guide. I wouldn't recommend it to anyone who is brand new to tulpas because it doesn't exactly do a lot of "hand holding," but for anyone who already has a decent understanding of tulpas it is an excellent read. No guide covers this many different tulpa-related topics and it has the most knowledge I've ever seen packed into a single guide. The fact that you include so many specific exercises is nice as well. I'd place it at my #1 or #2 favorite tulpa guide (and trust me, I've read a lot of guides!)
  7. If so then why is there a metaphysical section here? If metaphysical discussion is allowed at all anywhere on Tulpa.info, then I see no reason why a guide mentioning or incorporating metaphysical concepts should not be allowed. If need be, a section specifically for guides that incorporate meta could be made.
  8. I actually do not want this to be approved any longer, it's too small and simple for me to see it as a good tip, and it doesn't really contain unique information either. In regards to what a few people have said about my mention of forcing inhibitors: the tip itself was written specifically for people who encounter issues like distraction, getting tired, etc. because starting out with shorter sessions can act as a solution to those problems. It wasn't written for those who don't have those problems.
  9. Thanks for making this. It's much shorter than the original survey it was inspired by but includes all of the most important questions. It being short will make it more appealing to reply to as well.
  10. Many people in plurality communities have a tendency to believe that all systems must operate like their own, and that differing experiences mean that they do not have a "real" system. Some have very specific definitions of what "tulpa" or "plurality" means and those who stray outside of those tightly confined definitions are seen as someone who should not be considered a part of the community. Luckily I haven't seen this too often around here, but it does happen. It's especially bad in the DID community. Many, if not the majority, of people in those communities hold the belief that having more than one person in your head is possible only through traumegenic means. They believe that the mechanism that creates plurality can only be kicked into gear via trauma, and that there is no other possible method. This is why they discount tulpa and endogenic systems as being fake.
  11. I think I could be considered to have a case of the "tulpa curse", but I feel as though I have a tulpa, it's just that he's been stuck in a sort of "development limbo" for a long time. Stuck at the stage of a week old tulpa when he is 4 and a half years old.
  12. Is this ever going to be reviewed? I submitted it over a month ago.
  13. Your PR was one of my favorites a few years ago. It's sad to see once active people disappear from the forums
  14. Many people want to aim for long active forcing sessions, but have difficulty with forcing for the amount of time they want to. Before they hit their target time, they might get tired, become distracted, or run out of things to talk about or do while forcing. The best solution to this is not to just have shorter sessions, because you're probably wanting to have these long sessions for a reason. Why would somebody want to have long forcing sessions in the first place? Well, long sessions have significant benefits. Most people take a little while to truly get into the "flow" of forcing, or hitting a point where it feels relatively natural and productive. One might be able to better listen to their tulpa in this state or force more effectively. The majority of progress and breakthroughs in tulpa development tend to happen when one gets into this flow. If someone has very short sessions, they may rarely or never reach this beneficial state of mind. So, what's the solution? You need to work your way up to being capable of forcing for long periods rather than jumping straight into forcing for an hour at a time with no practice. Pick a short amount of time to start with, such as 15 minutes. Now, you'll need to force for 15 minutes for 2 or more days. The goal here is to make this time spent forcing feel easier that it was when you started. On day 2 of forcing for 15 minutes, it may get a little bit easier. On day 3, it may seem significantly easier than it was on day 1. You may need to extend this number of days if the improvement each time is not very noticeable. Just keep going until it is very noticeably easier than it was on day 1. Now, increase the forcing time and repeat this process. Say you increase it to 30 minutes. Force for 30 minutes for a few days until it feels much easier than it was when you started forcing for 30 minutes. Keep it up, increasing the time from 45 minutes, to 1 hour, to even longer depending on what your target time is. You will notice that forcing for your desired time is much easier than it was when you tried to do so without any buildup. I hope this will be helpful for some. Let me know what you think of this tip.
  15. I thought this would be an interesting discussion topic. Is there any opinion or belief about tulpas you used to hold that you don't any longer, or something you didn't previously think but now do? This can include just about anything: What you believe tulpas are, your thoughts about the tulpa community, your thoughts on specific tulpa creation methods, etc.
  16. There are problems with many of these definitions. This is not correct: "Narration: A form of forcing where you talk about your surroundings or what is currently happening." Narration is used to refer to any type of talking directed at your tulpa in a way that resembles a one sided conversation. (Once your tulpa is vocal and able to respond to you, it stops being narration and becomes a conversation, which is why I say "one sided conversation") The topic does not matter. When people narrate, they might talk about their hobbies and interests, family and friends, how their day went, etc. I have never seen anyone use "narration" to mean specifically talking about their current surroundings. This is another one: "Possession: The state in which a tulpa becomes the active thinker and is thus able to control the physical body. Can refer to either partial or full control of the body." What does being the "active thinker" have to do with possession? How does being the "active thinker" make possession any easier? Why is it required for possession? What does "active thinker" even mean in the context of tulpamancy? I have a vague idea of what you mean by this but many people reading this, especially newcomers, will have no idea what "active thinker" means. "Fronting: When a systemmate controls the body without switching, or simply generally remains in the vicinity of the body’s senses and the main stream of thought, and is more attentive and responsive than those who are not fronting." Similar to the "active thinker" thing, most people won't know what you mean by "main stream of thought", nor is there even necessarily such a thing as the main stream of thought for everyone. Some systems may experience multiple streams of thought that each have equal prominence, none of which are experienced as the "main" stream of thought. Also, a system member who is fronting is not necessarily more attentive and responsive than those who are not. "Co-fronting: When two members of a system are both ready to speak and move, both able to present themselves as the front." Just a tiny nitpick here, but it doesn't necessarily have to be just two system members, it can be more. "Head pressure: A sensation brought about by long forcing. The feeling is unique to most people. Sometimes it is compared to the sensation you get when you learn an enormity of things all at once." It doesn't really have to be long forcing. Many experience it almost immediately after starting tulpa creation. "Egocide: The shattering, fragmenting, or breaking of one’s identity. Commonly used as a term meaning “mental suicide.” Usually temporary, and usually induced somewhat intentionally by drug use." Citation is needed for that last sentence. It may often be temporary, but I wouldn't say it is usually temporary. The bit about drug use is just plain confusing. People often speak about "ego death" in relation to drugs, particularly psychedelics. However, "egocide" is usually seen as a different thing. "Ego death" is a temporary state of mind in which one feels disconnected from their personality, as if they are a blank slate, nothing but an observer. "Egocide" on the other hand is usually used as a way of describing the intentional destruction of your own consciousness, making it cease to exist. This is different from ego death in that the "observer" I mentioned before (your consciousness) doesn't exist anymore. With ego death your consciousness is still there, you just lose the association you once had with your personality and other self identifying factors. The term "egocide" isn't even really used outside of tulpamancy communities and certain hypnosis communities. "Parallel processing: The incredibly limited ability for multiple systemmates to think at once, usually simply by rapidly swapping between them." What makes it "incredibly limited?" Most who read this will wonder what you mean by this. Also, the phrases "ability for multiple sysyemmates to think at once" and "rapidly swapping between them" are contradictory to each other. If they are swapping, they are not thinking simultaneously, and if they are thinking simultaneously, they are not swapping. Other than those things, this is fine. I really do appreciate the effort to make a comprehensive glossary of terms to help unite the community's definitions, but there are so many problems with this one that it definitely should not be used as a reference widely throughout the community until it is revised.
  17. This is a bit overdue, but here it is! Some of you may remember a survey on head pressure I conducted awhile back. The survey's aim was to find correlations between tulpa creation and head pressure, looking for common trends in the community. There were a total of 97 respondents. "For you, is head pressure a unique sensation that is different from headaches and similar sensations? If so, to what degree does it feel different?" 44.3% said "Yes, completely different", 40.2% said "Yes, moderately different", 13.4% said "Yes, slightly different", while 2.1% said "No, it is identical to headaches." This shows that head pressure is generally distinguishable from a headache and that most experience it as being a very unique sensation. These results make sense - otherwise head pressure likely would not have become its own term within the community. "Did you ever experience head pressure before starting tulpamancy?" 78.4% said "No" while 20.6% said "Yes." This affirms the idea that head pressure is often initially instigated by tulpamancy and is experienced only after starting to create a tulpa. "If you experienced head pressure for the first time after starting tulpamancy, when did it first appear?" 36.4% said "Days after", 17% said "Weeks after", 15.9% said "Hours after", 13.6% said "Minutes after", 13.6% said "Almost immediately", 2.3% said "Months after" and 1.1% said "Years after." This further supports the idea that head pressure may often be brought about by the initial creation of a tulpa - shorter time spans were selected far more often than longer time spans. A fairly small but still surprisingly significant portion of respondents said "Almost immediately", which is especially interesting. This shows that head pressure may not be brought about only by long bouts of strenuous or unusual thinking, which has been theorized in the past. "Do you ever experience head pressure when doing activities unrelated to tulpamancy?" 44.3% said "No", 28.9% said "Yes, rarely", 17.5% said "Yes, sometimes", while 9.3% said "Yes, often." Nearly half of all respondents indicated that they experience head pressure exclusively when doing tulpa related activities. Another significant portion experienced head pressure only rarely outside of these activities, while those who experience it often outside of tulpa related activities are a small minority. This shows that head pressure is unique to tulpamancy more often than not. "If you experience head pressure when doing activities unrelated to tulpamancy, what are those activities?" Answers here were text based - and varied wildly. Many of the answers involved heavy thinking of some sort, but many also involved doing the opposite of heavy thinking. Here are a few examples of the answers given: "Usually involving thinking in ways I'm not used to." "Anything recreational, usually" "Intense daydreaming" "Sometimes it happens when I'm waking up or very relaxed/unfocused" "It could be anything, doesn't seem to correlate to what I'm doing" "Meditation" "Usually when I'm entirely distracted, homework, bathroom, video games etc.." "Thinking about head pressure" "Mostly metaphysical stuff." "Whenever a tulpa reacts to external stimuli or whenever I ask for their input." "Any task that doesn't take much thinking" "If your tulpa is vocal, do they report that they can purposefully cause or control head pressure?" 59.5% said yes while 40.5% said no. In the past it has been commonly reported for tulpas to be able to cause or control head pressure of their own volition, which is why I included this question. Some have used this as a method of communicating with their tulpa through a binary yes/no system before their tulpa is vocal. I find it very interesting that such a large portion of tulpas, over half, report being able to cause or control head pressure. "If your tulpa reports being able to cause head pressure, do you ever experience it outside of times when your tulpa is attempting to cause it?" 52.9% said no while 47.1% said yes. This means that a little over half of tulpas who are able to cause head pressure are the sole cause of their host experiencing it. In conclusion, I can say that head pressure is very often caused exclusively by tulpamancy. It makes me wonder why this is - what is special about the act of creating a tulpa that causes this sensation to occur? How is it so different from other mental activities and practices? Of course, many also experience it when doing other things, but the portion of those who feel head pressure only after creating a tulpa is too significant to be ignored and is actually the majority. Feel free to comment with thoughts, theories, etc.
  18. You just have to be cautious about who you tell. If they're not generally an open minded person, play it safe and don't tell them. Try to predict what their reaction to tulpamancy would be based on what you know about them. If you can't do that, tell them about the concept of tulpas without implying that you yourself have a tulpa and go from there. Both my mother and boyfriend know I have a tulpa and are fine with it. In fact, both of them, especially my boyfriend, found the concept of tulpamancy to be fascinating when I told them about it. Unfortunately cases like mine aren't too common, though.
  19. I have been here for 5 years. It's weird to think of myself as an "old" community member now, heh.
  20. I'd say that if tulpas were proven to be not sentient, then it would be ok to treat them in whatever way you want. The issue is not the morality of the host's actions, but rather the impact that their actions could have on the tulpa. If a tulpa is not conscious, no harm is being done. One should have free reign over what happens in their mind so long as no sentient beings are involved. I don't agree with the idea that what one thinks about or does in a fantasy setting pushes them to do those things in real life - that is to say that violent video games compel people to be violent in real life. Assuming that tulpas are sentient, I find it unlikely that there is a significant mix of tulpas that are sentient or not sentient. Sure, there are different degrees of sentience, and very young tulpas are most likely a bit less conscious than more developed ones, but sentience itself is a binary property. You either have some, even if it is a very small amount, or you don't. There are also many trends and consistencies covering the broad majority of tulpa experiences, including the way in which tulpas are formed - all tulpa creation guides boil down to "imagine a thing and give this thing attention and eventually it will start acting on its own." When following the same core method, I find it hard to believe that different people will end up with wildly differing results, such as one person with an actually sentient tulpa and another person with a tulpa that displays sentience but is not. Under this theory, it is difficult to see how this almost universally used creation method could not result in the forming of a consciousness.
  21. While the majority of people in this community believe that tulpas are conscious and sentient in the same way that any person is and that tulpamancy is the practice of forming a second, separate consciousness in their brain, not everyone holds these beliefs. Some believe that tulpas are more akin to artificial intelligence or dream characters, imitating sentience to an undistinguishable point but not actually possessing it. One of these two beliefs is actually objective fact - we just do not know which one it is yet. Tulpas either are or are not sentient. There is no gray area or in-between, and it is most likely not different for every person who has a tulpa. In this sense, tulpamancy is not subjective. We just do not know the answer to the question "are tulpas truly people?", and thus we tend to treat tulpamancy as subjective simply because there are some things about it that we cannot currently know or prove. In order to prove whether or not tulpas are sentient, we first must know much more about the brain than we currently do. Our understanding of the inner workings of consciousness is especially poor - we do not know how or why it forms in singlets, let alone whether or not more than one consciousness in a brain is possible. We will not understand the "truth" behind tulpamancy and plurality until we know these things, which we most likely will not for a very long time. This brings me to my main point - if one is to treat tulpamancy as completely subjective, problems can arise. One of these problems is the idea that one can treat a tulpa any way they want to simply because one subjectively interprets tulpas as not being people. One may think that if a tulpa has no subjective experience, it is ok to do things to them that they would never do to another person. However, this completely ignores the possibility that tulpas could be sentient - even if you fully believe that there is not even the smallest possibility that tulpas are sentient, that possibility still exists. The objective yet unknown reality of what tulpas are exists entirely independently of your personal beliefs and interpretations. Because of the possibility of tulpas being sentient, it is best to treat them as if they are - don't do something to a tulpa that you would not do to another physical person. Even if tulpas are one day proven to not possess subjective experience, no harm would have been done in treating them as if they did. However, if you treat tulpas based on the idea that they might not be sentient, and they are one day scientifically proven to be sentient, you will realize that you have hurt someone simply because you didn't know the truth of what they were. Which is the better option?
  22. Head pressure. It's something that a surprisingly large portion of those who create tulpas report, yet nobody is quite sure what causes it and whether or not it is inherently related to tulpamancy. It is most often experienced as an odd sensation that differs from headaches, and many experience it only when creating their tulpa. Because it is such a common experience, I have decided to create a survey that aims to find trends and consistencies in the experience of head pressure. Please do not respond to this survey unless you have taken part in creating a tulpa and have experienced head pressure. https://goo.gl/forms/C6GkXCCd7VA79N7z2
  23. I don't actually want to perma-switch. Even if I were born as a tulpa I would want to control the body at times - I also have several things in my real life that I value and would not want to abandon. I don't want to give up drawing or directly talking to those I am close to. I've read Oguigi and Koomer's story. I don't believe it should be used as a cautionary tale against switching, as the problems they experienced did not arise from the desire to permaswitch itself. It seems more like a combination of underlying mental illness and general recklessness was the culprit.
  24. The idea of being a tulpa has always appealed to me for several reasons. I’ll describe what about it appeals to me and why. I like the idea of being “forced”, brought into existence and strengthened by someone in the mental sense. It seems as if the experience of being a newly emerging tulpa would be very interesting, and a way of existing I have never been able to experience. I want to be narrated to and personality forced. I want to be created within a mindscape in which I would be disconnected from the senses of my host’s body unless I chose to temporarily access them. That too would be a very different, and likely fun way of existing. I would instead experience things through an imagined body in an imagined environment. I’ve always been very curious of how life is like from a tulpa’s perspective, and no personal accounts given by tulpas sate my curiosity. I realize it varies from tulpa to tulpa and that some may have an experience that is almost identical to that of a host, but many tulpas have an unusual life that doesn’t match the type of life a host has. I would enjoy being the observer to someone else’s life, chiming in and giving advice but not having direct control over what is happening. I would never have the experience of not having somebody else in the head with me - my host would always be there to talk to, and I’d almost always be feeling the mental presence of somebody else. I still would partake in possession and switching from time to time, as I would not want to be completely detached from the physical world. Though most of the time I’d be fine with sitting in the “backseat”. I like the idea of being a passenger in a body someone else is piloting. I suppose these things center around having an atypical life experience and dissociation from physical reality. Both of those things are important to me for reasons I can’t fully describe. I just in general dislike the feeling of being human in the traditional sense. Luckily, it is actually possible to emulate the experience of being a tulpa. Unfortunately, I won’t ever have the full experience just because I did not enter life as a tulpa, but I can get pretty close. This is doable through switching. I already have a body within the mindscape that differs from my physical body. I plan to train my immersion into the mindscape to be stronger than it is right now, and I will train dissociation as well. Once I have this down and a tulpa of mine is able to possess proficiently, I will occasionally go for days or even weeks at a time in which I will function as a tulpa, focusing on the mindscape the majority of the time and not exerting any control over the body. I could likely even emulate the experience of being a new tulpa being forced into existence by “weakening” my mind temporarily, making it difficult to speak and function normally, during which a tulpa would narrate to me and whatnot and treat me as if I were a developing tulpa. This post doesn’t really have a specific purpose or point, I just wanted to get my thoughts and feelings out there. Though, I wonder - have you ever heard of a host having similar desires? As far as I know I am the only one. I know of cases where hosts have wanted to switch for long periods of time or even permanently, but none seem to wish they had the full blown experience of being a tulpa, including coming into existence as a tulpa.
  25. I have vague memories of reading about those tulpas earlier in your progress report. How did your system determine that two of them were not sentient, and did they ever fully believe that they were sentient? In what ways were they different from a sentient tulpa?