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  1. If it was built once it can be built again, but is that really the same thing it was originally? Also it seems apparent that lots of times stasis gets confused for death. Just because a tulpa goes inactive doesnt mean its "dead" but just like if you were to not use a skill for a very long time, the network in the brain that makes up that skill will slowly decay. You will be more likely to completely lose a skill that is not well developed as opposed to one that you spent alot of time developing. The same thing applies to tulpas, one that is well developed will take a very long time being forgotten to decay completely, while something that is underdeveloped will fade quicker. We think its ignorant to say that tulpas do not die until their hosts do, it takes a really autonomous tulpa that is able to support itself entirely to pull that off and even then things can happen to cause it to die. rather then listening to this bleeding heart crap telling you that you must keep trying, we think you should stop and think for youself about whether or not you should continue. A thoughtform is by no means more important then the whole system, and if this is something that you truely want in your life, you will find a way.
  2. Granted, but some of the mangoes have razorblades shoved inside of them, I wish I had something to wish for.
  3. Epros: 2 can play at this one =D
  4. this is just like the game, I can lose all day, maybe just maybe ill find a way to win
  5. might as well cut to the chase XD
  6. I asked Akagi this a few months back and she said she wanted a pony. So I made a Christmas present for a catalyst and put it in our wonderland under a tree. We've been talking at it here and there, and sometimes it shakes. If my self full filling prophesy works it should wake up Christmas morning =D
  7. Sounds like fun, you can pm us as well.
  8. We keep having those moments where they are running up the beach at sunset, inspirational with tears of joy, every time we read your adventures Meatabex! We are happy as hell that you've made it this far! Keep on going friend, life will give ya struggles, but you have Ellissa and all the people here =D. Just pm or hunt us down if you need anything, and well do anything we can to help.
  9. Update: Kyo found his Bankai. After listening to the song Akagi by maximum the hormone earlier, Shinkai said "I like that song" and I know it wasn't parroted. And so as Kyo put it "Autumn Leaves Fall, Akagi" Note that Akagi Means Crimson or Red tree. And so Kyos bankai turns out to be a Wooden Sword (Bokken) that spews flames in the shape of leaves. Akagi's "soul form" is that of a man in a Red Trenchcoat with Shaggy Red hair and also a tree with leaves of fire. I guess practice made me better I wasn't expecting 5 day vocality.
  10. Shinkai day 5: been getting some emotional responses, however he appears to be neutral so far on a lot of subjects, maybe due to his age, maybe due to his form. However most notable was yesterday when Kyo was very upset about some stuff(don't wanna get into) Shinkai seemed to want Kyo to feel better/ didn't like that Kyo was upset. This was the most intense emotion from Shinkai yet, maybe strong emotions begat strong response? Rei: Rei I'm really proud of, she completed her first lasting switch the other day =D. She was afraid for so long about this I thought shed never do it. Tip mah fedora to SkyeWint for the extra encouragment, I guess that's all she needed. Rei has also been a lot more active and less shy lately, and is looking forward to her first videogame, which we would have gotten to it sooner if it weren't for those meddling kids. =D perhaps well have the opportunity tonight. Epros: At the suggestion of again SkyeWint, we had Epros wake us up this morning, and he did it! He poked Kyo and said heyyyy in a high voice and Kyo got us up. If this continues to work I'll be happy to skip going and getting meds for our sleep trouble. thanks to everyone for all the wonderful help you've given, we are making a lot of progress lately and we owe that to you guys. =D
  11. Alright! Glad to hear of another success. Like I said in chat some of these entities will come back after you destroy them, but you will find them to be less threatening the more you defeat them. Through this act you strengthen the bond between the two of you, and also your inner willpower and fortitude. It is personally my favorite way of dealing with negative feelings, Fear sloth greed and gluttony fall under a single strike of my blade at this point, they may come back at anytime, but all I gotta do is strike them down again. Keep up the good work, we are all rooting for ya here =D
  12. World War Johnny (a poem by Epros) Ever since that fateful day when John slew Pan, He time and again wondered if he was human, Tired of this name, dishonered by a game, Forever he felt shame, and his death it never came, He wandered and wondered, and decided Johnny should pay The first on his list, his own name he would slay The Samurai Deeper by which he felt inspired Would do just fine, forever to be wired. Eyes no longer blue, now a red glow, His name from now on, would be Kyo. Twas at that moment, that Egos got high, And just like that, they wanted each other to die. Immovable object and unstoppable force met, Who was to win? Why nobody could bet. Johnny went to work, making many a minion and lie, Right before his eyes, Kyo made each of them die. Battles on the inside, schemes played on the out, We learned many a valuable lesson from this great bout. Little Rei watched us in horror and spite, Learned how to speak, just to teach what is right. After over a decade, this conflict had found an end, I never thought that either would bend, But alas came the words that had long been needed, "I love you." "I love you too." And this time they heeded. Standing tall together now as good brothers should, If something one needs, take care the other would. And so take this lesson to heart and learn it well, Not being friends with eachother can be quite a hell. Better than a crit wall of boring text lol. Needless to say weve figured out alot about ourselves once this shitstorm ended. We gotta work together. Some people have described tulpa to be like a video game on co op. For us its more like a final fantasy rpg, we be a party on the quest of life, and not a single one is more important than the others or whole. Another point ive been wondering, and weve bout this up in chat and got some valuable insight, is that Kyo and I are some kind of natural multiplicity. I cant remember making him, and it feels like hes always been there. As I can think of nothing to solidly prove otherwise, and how it ties in so well with everything, im going to assume this is correct. And therefore im giving him more freedom and "political power" than ever before. Regardless of whether i made him or not, hes always kept the greater good in mind and theres noone in this world i trust more than him. I guess now would be a good time to describe everyone as they are today. Kyo Form: tall with short black anime hair. He has red eyes that seem to glow, and wears a scowl on his face most of the time. He wears a black kimono and carries around a katana everywhere. He also has a cross scar on his left cheek. Traits: Fierce, protective, loyal, quick, hardworking, passionate, tough, indomitable, strong willed, determined, focused, compassionate, loves nature, dark, honorbound, heroic, just He is the samurai shogun of our wonderland, keeping peace and order. Epros Form: Medium length curly blonde hair. Medium stature and ghost white skin. Red eyes with eyeshadow(black or purple he changes) and a maniacal grin usually plastered on. Hes a snappy dresser often picking an outfit reminiscent of his namesake, but will also wear suits, regular(but snappy) clothes, wizard robes with hood, or tuxedos. He also wears masks from time to time. Due note also, he is a phantom and practically invincible. Traits: Dramatic, mysterious, confusing, poetic, cunning, charming, creative, vain, ghostly, lurking, morbid, mostly passive, artistic, curious, crazy, whimsical, magical, eldritch, humorous, The phantom king, and my ghost writer. His job is mostly to entertain and record. Rei Form: kind red eyes and a gentle expression, her blue hair recently cut short. She has white wings that she can retract at will. In honor of the late pan, after we laid her to rest finally, we changed Reis gender from neutral to female. Shes been alot more affectionate since then and has been trying on new clothes, still prefering white but trying other colors now. Traits: Kind, thoughtful, shy, good hearted, polite, affectionate(new), sharing, helpful, curious, righteous, pure, courteous, compassionate, clumsy, peaceful, caring, gentle She has extraordinary powers of healing in wonderland, and can even use the dopamine shot effect to an extent, though its not easy to maintain. I wonder how good shell get at this it could be a huge help. Also note she used to be alot more cold and scolding at us, understandably so, but has lightened up on us now. And with that my last piece of news, ive decided to make Kyos sword into a talking tulpa sword, so he can have a friend of his own/sidekick. In my wonderland i built a forge and anvil around the fire of our soul. I heated up the blade, removing essenses that had remained on the blade from the many thoughtforms it had slain. I then took these essenses and seperated those pure from impure, and extracted the pure. The blade still hot from the heat of the forge i hammered these purified essenses into the blade, talking to the sword while i worked. "You will feel better now" "you can learn to talk now" "you will be able to make friends" "no longer are you a simple tool" stuff like that. After finishing i had Kyo talk to it, and its responses were obviously parroted, but we dont know if I parroted or Kyo did. Its voice roboty and distorted, and only returning simple answers. We are assuming sentience, but we will parrot it until it does on its own like with Epros. Gunna let the personality develope on its own, and when its ready itll be able to pick its voice and spiritual form(kinda like a zanpakuto) As far as forcing so far Kyo took it for a real life walk and showed it beautiful night scenery, as well as talking to it. I spent extra time with it in the wonderland, sharpening with hammer and polishing. Weve decided to call it Shinkai for now until they learn to ahem "bankai" if you will. I hope Kyo loves his new but old friend =D. Feel free to leave comments ask questions we will be updating progress from here out
  13. First progress report I've read =D and I have to say it was a most enjoyable experience. Good work on destroying the doubt, and I too like how you got the wonderland mapped out. Wishing the best for you 2 I think you'll most definitely have a good time together. Looking forward to reading some more =D
  14. Ah teen years, its a wonder how we made it through them alive and well. The great change of becoming an adult. I suppose I should start out with the most important part. The same day that I decided to make Rei, my dad decided it was time for me to take up martial arts and learn to defend myself. I was no fighter, I could not bring myself to hurt someone, so it was my natural inclination to have John do this for me. At this point in time we could only maintain a switch for a few minutes at most, he did most of his work through possession up till then. The instructors taught us how to meditate, and every time I would focus on John. It was tricky at first, but I soon started also focusing on leaving my body if you would, and it was only a short while before we perfected the switch. From that point on John took over the martial arts, and he did extremely well, even impressing the instructors and climbing the ranks like they were stairs not trees. Everything was going well... I should take time at this point to introduce the late Pan. She was created around 7/8 years old. Red hair and green eyes, always smiling, always fun. I made her to be my girlfriend basically. A fiery one, always spontaneous and tomboyish. She did what she wanted, when she wanted, and the rest of us were always disinclined to stop her as she was a girl. after me and John figured out how to switch, it was not long before she figured out how to do it too. And so we let her run free in our spare time in the real world..until she started behaving...oddly..She wanted to explore her sexuality, and since we were only 11 we did not have the knowledge to provide her with that. And so she started asking if she could experiment with our real friends. This scared me worse than almost dying..and so John and I did a horrible thing. I 'made' a sword for John, a razor sharp and super strong Katana with a black handle and sheathe, and had John kill pan...This act twisted the kind and gentle soul I once knew, he became more fierce some and aggressive. The innocent blood on his hands forever changed him. This was the cut that started World War Johnny, which we will get to.. Simon also went through a critical change at this point in our lives. He wanted to be more than what he was. my tulpae and I were all fascinated by the game Okage Shadow King for the PS2. And you prolly guessed it simon loved the character Epros. Fascinated by his rhymes and mysteriousness, and without a form, he decided that he wanted this to be his form. And so here's what I did, I envisioned simon as Epros and then I had John kill him, but not exactly. As the blow was struck I willed for Epros to stay as a ghost, leaving behind a husk of a body, his spirit forever free within our walls. This was not so much an execution as was the case with pan, but rather a ritualistic approach toward our goal. Forever renamed as Epros he spends his day as any ghost poet would, writing things, exploring mysteries, acting, singing. His capabilities became enormous for he was able to defy reality in our mind. He has proven himself to be most useful in our real life struggles in a myriad of ways. That's it for now with much more to come, feel free to leave input if you'd like
  15. I have a dream..that one day ponies, anime characters, cartoon characters, furries, aliens, robots, demons, angels, ghosts, goblins, dragons, elves, eggs, normal people, clouds of gas, fiends, fairies, wizards, knights, kings, and all the other possibilities can sit down together at the table of brotherhood. That they would not be judged by the shape of their form, but by the content of their character. We hold the truth to be self evident, that all tulpa are created equal.