The Commander

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  1. Pretty much our entire wonderland is an alternate earth, with an alternate universe much like this we really have no definable "end" persay. Even then, we don't generally leave a number of key areas (mainly the fictional city of New Alexandria, Montana, the capital of the Terminator Militia and thus the home of Alpha Company and the High Command...of which I, Ruby, and Dash are all a part of (and all my tulpa will hopefully hail from)), though we occasionally venture to towns I DO actually live in, or used to.
  2. She does takes naps, but is awake through most of the night (like me, I'm nocturnal, Ruby is usually asleep at this point...usually). By "in stasis", I mean that Ruby really wants to be imposed (she tells me this constantly), and when I ask Dash that, she's just like "Meh, don't really care", and doesn't actively seek out imposition. Call her lazy or whatever. EDIT: I talked to her earlier after remembering that awhile back she said that she was fine taking back seat to allow Ruby's imposition first, since she's more excited about it than Dash is. Well, when I talked to her, she said that it was part she's not in any hurry for imposition and part that little back seat development thing...I just hope that it doesn't have a negative effect on what she HAS managed.
  3. So, I have Dash and Ruby, which is pretty much common knowledge. Two tulpa that have been in development for...about three years now I believe. Three or four years. They've both received roughly the same amount of attention, but I've noticed something. It's also no real secret that I' involved with them. Which began (instigated by them) as a sort of rewards system for making progress. Dash has proven to be an addict making no real progress, warranting me and Ruby to basically return to the rewards system thing, and quit cold turkey from any sexual activities, with much stricter standards (we kinda loosened up as time goes by), much to Dash's chagrin (she's since gotten over it...ish. She's still kinda sour about it). Now I've noticed that Ruby is FAR more developed than Dash is. Although they still aren't "physically" experienced, Ruby's mindvoice is almost fully developed, plus her personality is much more pronounced and developed than Dash's is, even though they both are sentient. Ruby's anxious for imposition. Dash on the other hand has remained in a sort of stasis, she hasn't made much progress on really anything. Which in all honesty is fine, considering that means I can put most, if not all, of my power into Ruby's development since she wants it, if Dash chooses to remain in stasis for however long she does. My question is that is it common for mancers with multiple tulpa to have one really want to impose and make much more significant progress than one who doesn't, even when given almost equal attention and care?
  4. I can say I'm probably demisexual, primarily because of the fact that I have serious trust issues. My tulpa were primarily born because every time I would get to a point where I could trust someone enough to call them a friend, they would turn around and stab me in the back or betray me in some specific way. Add to that I was bullied and mistreated for most of my school life as being 'different', and the fact that even in my work life, my bosses are verbally abusive to their employees. Honestly, my ability to trust has been so decimated that it is incredibly difficult to trust someone anyway enough to call a friend, let alone a romantic interest. That's why my physical girlfriend need not worry about me cheating on her...I hate just about everyone else. It sounds mean...sad but true.
  5. In our wonderland, Ruby and I are getting married, so it's not really out of the question, right?
  6. As I've said on the other topics that crop up on this subject. Dash, Ruby, and I are kinda in a bit of a romantic relationship with one another (instigated by them), which I was originally doubtful of. I didn't want to get involved until they basically convinced me that it wouldn't harm their development. They also know that they won't stop me from finding actual romance and staying with my GF, they know that they're more like backup in that regard. Still, we love each other, and we are very close friends, which is kinda like how I see it, close friends with benefits. Ruby is more of a romantic than Dash is, but that's kinda how we stand on it. My views? If you and your tulpa like each other enough that something blossoms between you (which does happen, considering that tulpaforcing is based on building an intimate relationship with an independent entity, much like actual romance is), then good on you. I actually think it's beneficial to the relationship, since it's much easier to remember someone you love than a friend, and even so much as kissing or hugging them, without getting into actual sexual activities is a median (and an effective one at that) for forcing. However, I'd make sure that A: they will not be affected by it in a negative way, and B: they understand not to get between you and a 'real' relationship.
  7. We're all nondenominational Chrstian here, though Dash is more on the moderate scale, whereas Ruby and I are more on the conservative one.
  8. Her, lol. EDIT: I told them to do something special with our wonderland tonight. They both said they had we'll see how this goes...pending they don't forget that is. Shockingly enough, I was expecting Ruby to give me the old "Gibbs" slap across the back of the head, since she loves to do that. She didn't though. For those of you that don't know what I mean by "Gibbs" slap, it's from a show called NCIS.
  9. Me: "Surprise me!" Dash: "Oh f**k you." She hates it when I do that, mainly because she can't think of anything. Me: "Surprise me!" Ruby: (First try) "Pina Colada!" Me: "...Seriously, do something, gimme an image or something" *suddenly gets very lightheaded, as if being detached from my body* Me: "Was that you?" Ruby: "I think so..." Me: "You don't know?" Ruby: "Sorry, I'm not good at this sort of thing..." *We try again...gets an image of a snowman.* Me: "A snowman? Really?" Ruby: "I like the snow, okay? Besides, it's hot outside." EDIT: So we tried again, Dash is getting really fed up. Me: *perusing through some experiences on this topic* "Hey Dash, tell me something I don't want to hear." Dash: My name's Obama. Me: I'm serious, you know me, you know my fears, gimme something. *suddenly gets an image of a bucket of earthworms being poured down the back of my scared shitless (worms are my single greatest, crippling fear...though I probably shouldn't admit that here)* Me: Fuck you. Dash: What? You said you wanted proof! Is this proof enough? Me: *gets that image again...actually feels squirming down my back* FUCKING STOP THAT. Dash: There's your proof! You happy now? -_- Me: Ruby, surprise me, gimme something that you wouldn't normally say, something that I'm afraid of. Ruby: I hate you. Me: Eh... Ruby: I don't know what you want from me. Me: Just prove your sentience you know? *Ruby sensually rubs up against me* Me: What are you doing. Ruby: Proving myself to you. ... So Dash gets her giggles from scaring the crap out of me, and Ruby gets her from turning this whole experiment into some kind of cheesy adult film...kayden.
  10. In my case, it was actually Dash and Ruby that instigated the relationship, I originally didn't want to do it until they eventually convinced me. Most of that was them proving to me in a number of ways that they were sentient, they knew what the act was, and that it wouldn't negatively effect them. The kicker was when they sorta guilt-tripped me by claiming that the only reason they really wanted to try it was due to the fact that they both loved me as a good friend and just wanted to show me how much they really do care about me and about us as friends and family. Honestly, I'm kinda glad I did also, because it's a great way that we can bond with each other, since it's just me and them, and I've found that it is rather effective as a median of tulpaforcing. Not saying it's a great idea, and I'm not saying you should do it. I'm just saying that it works for us and that I don't see any problem with it just so long as they are A: sentient enough to understand what exactly it is, and can prove to you that they won't be negatively effected by it, or are developed enough that it won't effect their development, and B: are consenting of it...they are people, too, so if they don't want it and you force it on them, I believe it to be every bit as the equivalent of rape. EDIT: Also make sure (and make sure they know) that forming a sexual relationship with them will not affect a relationship with a "real" person. Don't abandon the hunt for a girlfriend/boyfriend just because you have a tulpa that's willing to get intimate with you, and if you have one already, I advise letting your significant other know what's going on, since I see it as much the same as cheating. My girlfriend knows about us, and although she has mixed feelings on it, she's allowing it, just so long as it doesn't get between me and her.
  11. This is what I got:
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  13. That, Pleeb? And looks like my version is... Version 44.0.2403.155 m
  14. This is what I'm staring at. Don't think that's normal...
  15. Lewd Warning, and sorry for spoiler/syntax stuff, but I have no idea how to add that. Also, the forums are in a really weird half-loaded format for me so no special buttons or formatting things are even appearing. Again, lewd warning ahead. Oh boy...well, let's see...Dash and Ruby were not created for sex. But as they developed...they also developed me, so much so they tried to pursue one and failed miserably, mainly because I was worried about how it could effect them. Eventually, I surrendered to them, and I can safely say that it was one of, if not, the greatest experiences I ever had. In the throes of passion, they managed to achieve a full, physical appearance, full sensory...I could see, hear, touch, smell, and taste them as if they were really there, the experience itself was...also very real and didn't feel like you were just...yeah (Wasn't even as a matter of fact). That was the only time it's happened, and none of us know how they managed to do that, nor have we been able to do it again, but it was wonderful. Even now, we still do it, mainly as a reward for any incredible developments they manage to make...and they even have learned how to time theirs to mine, and even so much as unify our climaxes so that all three of us share the combined pleasure at once...very incredible feeling. Now, I do not suggest having sex with them until they actually reach a point where they're mostly developed. Because of the fact that you don't want to create a tulpa just for sexual gratification, then they become nothing more than a sex doll, no personality or emotion, just a robot there to fulfill your lustful urges, or they get upset because they start to believe they were only created to fulfill their hosts' fetishes. Mine are developed enough, and we have a mutual understanding of the act, so it doesn't affect them. In fact, I've found that mating with them is one of the greatest ways to bond with them...because it's just you and them. All your thoughts are centered on them, and all their thoughts are centered on you...course, I'm the romantic type anyway (as is Ruby, as a matter of fact, Dash thinks of it as FWB) That's just from personal experience, however.
  16. I'm 21 years old and started with two tulpa, Rainbow Dash (of MLP fame), and Ruby (a dolphin).
  17. Well, she came back earlier this morning. Dash had a point, it's a fear that they will always have, apparently, regardless of how much the host cares for them. Guess I can't blame them, still tho, I would never do such a thing, I thought they'd know that.
  18. I guess I can try plugging this here...this is a rough description of the city where everything mainly takes place Actually, this whole wiki is our wonderland in a nutshell.
  19. I know the question may be worded weird, but allow me to explain, I also know that the following may contain some rather grim subject matter, but I'm seriously concerned. Was talking to a couple of acquaintances about tulpa. One of them explained that he wanted to try and abandon one *almost* to the point of what would basically be death, to bring it back and see what would happen. Ruby, one of my tulpa, was horrified to no end by this statement, so much so that she actually walked out for a moment. When we called her back, she explained what it was like, in rather grim detail, basically equalizing abandonment by its creator to abortion of a baby in late term. I've only given her positive emotion, love, and care since I began forcing could she know what abandonment feels like? EDIT: Even now, she's shaken and seems to be deeply affected by the idea...some helpful hints to calm her down? I've told her that I will never do that to her, but she's still afraid...and Dash, my other one, is worried too. EDIT II: Although Ruby does not want me to talk to her right now, Dash is currently trying to talk some sense into her...I think. In retrospect, maybe the fact that I was wondering the same thing, so much so as going to the point of asking her what she thinks it would be like...probably scared her into thinking that I was going to do something...any ideas to earn her trust back, or at least calm her down?
  20. Is it possible to make tulpas vocal by just mental (I call it telepathic) conversations? Due to an unfortunate lack of privacy, the only time I can speak with my tulpas is once every month or so, if I'm lucky, since it depends on whether or not brother sleeps in here (forced to share a room with him). The only way I can talk with my tulpas then is thinking to them, and conversing via our kind of telepathy.
  21. Can't really give you advice on the animal thing, but as for the love situation, Dash and Ruby love me, a lot, in that kind of way. It happens I guess, especially since the tulpa reaches a point where they know you through and through, and the whole process forms a strong emotional bond between you and your tulpas, which is why I'm not surprised that they'd develop romantic feelings towards you. Like I said, Dash and Ruby both have that kind of fondness for me, Ruby especially, whereas Dash sees things as kind of a 'friends with benefits' sort of situation. Dunno if this is the right thing to say or not, but I kept explaining to them that I don't want to do that, and they kept pressing and seemed to be hurt by the rejection, then I offered to relieve them every once in awhile, but that is as far as I would go, and that's how's it been for me. Doing this, they're happy, and I, for lack of better terms, don't feel like some kind of one-man brothel.
  22. Good...I hoped it wasn't just was see the amount of emotion in what she said. Then that night I talked to her and...needless to say a few tears were shed on both ends, but basically reiterated that when we spoke, and her voice was heavy in emotion, I could pick up some radiation off of her (vibes) of extreme happiness, love, and satisfaction, and we ended up cuddling to sleep. This whole thing was just...shocking in its suddenness and intensity, I just don't really know what to think about it all.
  23. I just have 2, Rainbow Dash and Ruby.