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  1. Me: "Hi" People: "Omg your voice is so high and you even stutter you're exactly like how I thought you'd sound like." Me: "I haven't said anything yet..." But usually peoples voice meets my expectations of their voice too, sometimes when it's really different though it's a good moment too.
  2. That's true. I've always loved that first Time I here a persons voice it's like "Oh man hi I know what you sound like hi :3"
  3. I've always tried not to seperate internet friends from real life, but if anything less snail mail pen pals. Never transitioned to writing letters though. I always end up voicechatting and before long knowing their real names age location what not etc anyhow overtime. Just happens naturally when you play games with people you meet online whenever you play. Unlike pen pals none of those steps are really ones that some parents may consider legitimate though.
  4. Wish my parents were that understanding... :P Generally, I'd guess, most parents don't understand or don't appreciate the array of interactions online, and many may not see how it's possible to befriend someone without seeing them face to face. I know my parents and friends parents (both offline and online) approach the idea of "Internet Friends" very much as I wrote, with the quotation marks and sarcasm. It also doesn't help that there's the whole "OMG what if its a 40 year old pedophile" campaign to keep kids from giving too much info on the Internet.(which for the most part isn't a bad thing, but when it makes people assume any online interaction is dangerous...)
  5. Though I haven't started the Tulpa creation process, from vizualizing in my wonderland and from what I've read, facial features are always apparently hard to visualize. You probably need to just keep taking a shot at it. ^_^
  6. I like this guide for the most part, goes over some of the things I've been thinking about. Thanks. <3 I think for the most part my greatest concern was the section(s) discussing love, and yes I know you stated yourself that you never intended to be writing absolutes/pushing views, obviously. I won't go into it unless asked, but I have pretty strong views on the subject of love. (Strong but simple in some respects) It's more than just an abstract or subjective concept to me.
  7. Thanks. I had quite a bit of luck bout an hour ago, but only in the general sense of having an overall good session. Looking forward to see how it works for you. ^_^
  8. I guess I could but I don't think I couldn't expect her own response until I had already started the process. And yay! ^_^ I'm just going to go about a normal session today and see what happens in my case. Good luck!
  9. I'm sure if you wanted it to be permanent (or last for some time) and protect her, than it will. c: Worryings natural though, of course, but I know you'll find her. Hopefully we'll both have better luck. And yeah, it was pretty sweet, but I don't know if I'll make Mary my first tulpa, whenever I feel ready for it. I mean in wonderland she has a family and everything, wouldn't it be wrong to possibly pull her away from that? Or at least that's what I was thinking.
  10. Sounds like a plan. And thankfully shes protected by the spell, so you only need to find her. I didn't have much luck today, was a really "off" day as far as it goes. I was insanely distracted during my session, I'd just gotten home, and wasn't able to immerse into the wonderland today at all. Mary was home (I'm very much concerned that even in my imagination it ends up so that I somehow make it that I have to ask the parents to talk to her >_>) but nothing really felt like it came without my consciously spurring it, and talking to her only managed to yield a response from her, but not one that came helped further a sense of reality, as every reply took a while to come out and I put too much clearly of my own thought. I'm hoping I can have a better session tomorrow. Today taught me that I can't rush things and I should spend more time early in the session visualizing and getting focused on the world before I do any major interaction. EDIT: Oh, forgot to mention that when asked why she was in the woods when I found her, I felt her say, "Because you were there". Just thought that was interesting.
  11. D: I haven't had anything like that happen. Actually so far I haven't had too much change. I'm really new to this stuff too so I don't think I'm in the right to give much in the way of suggestions. Though could you find the shack? As for Mary, when I took her to her house the ford night wasn't the en of my session, so at one point I saw her through her window (her house is on the road out of town to the forest that I started the wonderland in). At another time I was on the mountain that over looks town an I kept seeing her imag as I looked over town, as if she were waving at me. Which was actually a little weird since she should have been miles away but, oh well. But now that you meantion it, I didn't really see or try talking to her last night. I walked by her house though and very clearly felt that she was there, but it was night and the town was mostly asleep. (It seems unless I focus on making it day the towns usually night, wonder if meditating in the dark causes that) I think I'm going to try finding her again during my session tonight. Hopefully I won't need to wake up anyone accomplishing that. ---- I keep typing way too much.
  12. Edit: Oh man sorry sorry sorry this is so TL;DR And I cut out half of it too wow I ahould have just made another thread. ------------- Well this is interesting. I had a similar experience. I've been working for a bit now on simply learning to focus, concentrate upon, and visualize a wonderland. Personally it's part of trying to be able to meditate before I try anything closer to Tulpamancing (Also I think I currently lack the mental gut to attempt that at the moment; but I'm not hijacking this thread so that belongs elsewhere. :3) Two days ago, I got really bored of sitting in the same grotto/grove that Id originally created as the base of the wonderland, so I walked out of it down the path Id designed. It's amazing how much exploring helped me visualize. Anyhow, I found this sort of walled enclosure that shocked me to see because its the first thing I didn't consciously decide to place there. After entering and examine it for a while (it was a place obviously designed for meditation) I exited and met my first character. She was up against the outer wall of the enclosure, shuffling and looking around as if she was extremely nervous, wearing a blue Victorian dress. It really shocked me to see her. I'm not sure if I was panicking or what but I kept seeing her face moving back and forth as if it were a doll snapping around. And this was just her face. Like imagine it as an overlay in my vision. The entire time her face remained serene and passive as well. As if it was a porcelain doll. It was more than a little scary but I was able to get past that stage in about a minute. Once the shock of meeting her passed, I was able to take a better look at her. She seemed really doll like (she was human sized though), and even though I didn't try to name her the name "Mary" just sort of floated in to my head. Unlike in your case, she never talked to me, but I felt that I had to protect her. I couldn't leave her in the forest in the middle of the night. What sort of Gentleman would do that. So I walked her "home". Her arrival sort of spurred me to create a town in my wonderland, and apparently she and her family live in a farm on the outside of town. I felt she was safe there. But now I keep thinking about her whilst in wonderland. And what really feels odd to me is that even though I didn't consciously cause it, or at least didnt mean to, the personally traits of "Nice and Nervous(pensive?)" seemed to float into my mind the same way her name did. Any thoughts on that? I'm curious that we both had initially fearful reactions and felt we had to protect these persons. Curious but comforted that my experience is not some sort of omen. lol unless I can't take the same words from the people above and apply them. Mary still makes me uncomfortable though. She seems to radiate nervousness. Is that bad of me? I feel terrible for feeling nervous about her. Also I keep seeing her when I look over head at the town. As if she were a blip on a minimap. ( However I've decided that my initial fear was caused by seeing some one randomly in the forest that I'd travelled alone in until then. That'd shock anyone. And I have a very clear idea of why I gave her that name.)