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  1. Evil

    Mass Leaving Thread

    Veni, Vidi, Vici, Vasi... Et tunc, quam reliqui.
  2. Evil

    I resign.

    I resign from the GAT. I am not needed here, but I promised that I would best the expectations, to prove you wrong. Farewell.
  3. I would like a 8 months ban, please. Thank you.
  4. Welcome, Jessamine, and welcome to the tulpa.info community. We wish you luck.
  5. Greetings, I am Evil. So, Dimitrov's birthday is coming up in a week. Born in the cold of the night... that fits his character quite well. It made me think about what people do for their tulpa's birthdays. How old is your tulpa? Do you celebrate their birthdays? If yes, what kind of celebrations take place?
  6. @Stanheights: I am most terribly sorry to hear about your situation. Have you considered reviewing @NoneFromHell's submission regarding revitalization? https://community.tulpa.info/thread-general-nonefromhell-s-three-task-tulpa-revitalization-exercise
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    @Groovy-guru: Granted, day dreaming can prove to be useful. In the case it is useful, though, it is not a general fact that is embedded in the general consensus regarding tulpamancy. By this, I mean that most guides do not emphasize on the day dreaming factor. If it proves to work for a few people, it lacks the implication that it will work in all cases. It is one of those things that only apply to some people, which is why the submission was regarded negatively in the first place. Day dreaming in singularity includes the host as the... only... thinking... being? The way OP worded it, it seems like his point was that imagining your tulpa in certain scenarios (and a tulpa that is not vocal nor sentient at that) would contribute to that. While some writers have gotten headmates and 'soulbonds' (which goes towards plurality as a whole more than tulpamancy as a unique concept), if you wish to work on a tulpa, you're going to want to work on their own capacities, and not the impression you hold of them. Imagine your host doing something, this doesn't mean your host is doing anything, Groovy-guru, it only gives you the mind's interpretation of the provided estimation in your thoughts. Granted, day-dreaming with your tulpa can help, but day-dreaming with an isolated concept that cannot interact would provide very... light results, let's put it this way. Day-dreaming with your tulpa mostly counts as forcing, which is what guides promote, and instead of calling it day-dreaming, they call it active forcing, for the term 'dream' tends to scare off people just like the term 'imagination' brings dread in their hearts, doubt and all of that.
  8. Hello, der_skythe, and welcome to the tulpa.info community. -Yes. -Not all of them. -Well, a tulpa is a person in your head, quite literally. That is why this decision is one you need to consider; I've heard of some tulpamancers who completely gave up that sort of privacy. You share a mind, and that is the price, I suppose. -Most probably. -Yes.
  9. I apologize if I come off as ignorant, for I am uneducated on depersonalization disorder, and only possess general information regarding DPD. We'll start by defining a tulpa. A tulpa is an intelligent being that lives in your mind. It is a part of you, yet not a part of you. It is you, yet not you. In the sense that, well, it inhabits your mind and requires your personal attention to live, the tulpa is part of your mind, but such an alien one that the mind can make the difference altogether. I am aware that depersonalization involves a lot of negative symptoms, as a friend has it, and struggles to put up with life and his own entourage. I apologize if this is blunt, but do you have an official diagnosis? Or is it more of a self-diagnosis? Could you please inform us of your most eminent symptoms? Cases may vary. The best answer you'd get would be from someone with a DPD diagnosis. I would say that this is a sensitive topic, since a lot of things can happen in your mind. I am not one to make such claims usually, but there may be cases in which you struggle to attach yourself to your own identity, so I will dare to say that tulpamancy could lead to identity distortion, in very small odds, though. We're speaking in the case you assume the tulpa to be you, at some point. I'm really unaware of HOW the mind of a DPD works.
  10. Blak does this a lot when she's tired. It sounds pretty different from how she usually speaks. Your concern is understandable, after all, guides talk very little of gibberish and the likes. It is possible it's your tulpa, but, time will tell. Parroting tends to be a conscious act.
  11. Welcome to the tulpa.info community, Dep. We hope you find the assistance you require, and wish you good luck.
  12. I think that you might be taking things a bit too fast, Yahtzen. In my humble opinion, it would be more adequate to wait until you're sure Himmel is indeed talking to you and capable of communication, as it is quite early to make any assumptions. Could you possibly link us to those videos? That's symbolism, most likely. Tulpas do not really need food to live. The 'energy' they need is your attention.
  13. Hello, Knifos, and welcome to the tulpa.info community. It is essential to understand a simple concept: the tulpa itself is not the form. Upon looking at others, and even at yourself, the form constitutes the appearance, and allows for others to make a judgment. The way you look like is the key to social acceptance and social respect, appreciation and cooperation, in a superficial way. But what matters inside you, and inside each and every one of us, is what we stand for. I mean traits, characteristics in personality, small quirks, likes, dislikes and opinions that make us who we are. With that in mind, I hope you understand that the form a tulpa has is not the actual tulpa within itself, such as your mind is not the body. You can leave the decision to your tulpa when they reach vocality. We wish you luck.
  14. Evil


    I disapprove of your submission for the moment being. My reasoning is as follows: You essentially imagine your tulpa in an interactive environment. Well, in that case, the environment itself is merely generated from your imagination. Forcing your tulpa to be in that imaginary environment does not lead to any interactions with the actual tulpa. It only helps you build an idea of the tulpa as an idea, and not a person that thinks. Vocality implies the capacity to talk, and talking implies the capacity to think, for we need thoughts to translate into words. It is the number one goal tulpamancers seek to achieve. Yet, I fail to understand the point of this. Aside from making your tulpa's form and presence familiar, how is this going to contribute. If I imagine myself and, say, a young girl in a dating scenario, my mind will produce responses in my imagination. That would be no tulpa, though, it would just be the projection of my imagination. The point I am trying to make is that the tulpa as you imagine it differs from the tulpa as a form of sentience and consciousness. Imagining how my father would respond if I told him I wanted to major in a different field than what I told him would result in my imagination giving me a projection of my own expectations. I hope I have been able to drive my point across clearly.
  15. Interesting. I am most sorry to hear about your unfortunate experiences. I reckon that having to hide your identity to people you talk to in consistence can be bothering and a knock on the head. I've been curious, now that you intend on focusing on your ADHD, how often have you been talking to Fenchurch on a daily basis, ever since you picked it all back up?
  16. Yes. I believe I suffer from such a condition. Originally, my mind started acting as a reactor for thought. It runs an analysis that includes identification, comprehension and estimation on a scale of 1 to 15 on how dangerous a threat can be, and other guesses and thoughts. It's something I've always had. Thinking about one thing implies following these steps, looking at someone implies following these steps... imagining anything also implies imagining those steps. My mind functions that way because I am convinced that I need to have the upper hand morally and mentally to gain power, to gain respect, and to obtain a favorable in society... this causes me to stay awake for hours during the night until Dimitrov decides that 'enough is enough'. He's the only one that can really put an end to that cycle for me to fall asleep. Since the first time we met was when I was trying to sleep, and our first encounter resulted in me having the best sleep in my life then, he can do that. I am eternally grateful for good sleep, and I cannot stop myself from having those thoughts. I doubt it's Dimitrov. A part of me wants to believe that I was born with this (and I remember very little from my childhood up until the day I've had my ego go up and down), and a part of me believes that there is just more than just Dimitrov. That things are grander than this, in reality, but I have yet to properly educate myself on how the mind, and psychology, function.
  17. Dimitrov can't change for the life of him. Bloke claims that he wouldn't mind "a cute young form"... but the old man will always be the old man. Blak has a talent for that stuff.
  18. Dimitrov is currently looking down on me with the silliest grin ever. That's because I regard him as being very mature, so, in my head, he's around 50 years old or so. Blak was supposed to be a sibling more than anything else, and she's less mature than me, so her age is in the teenage range. (No, I did not, at any moment, consider anything physical or romantic with her. I am more the protective brother type.) Dimitrov identifies a whole lot with his form. He looks like Sigmund Freud in his late years. Blak keeps changing, but always has a similar physique.
  19. Evil

    An Apology and a Thank You

    I felt slightly annoyed by the incessant Esterina posts, to be honest with you. Even when you had nothing to contribute, you would still post about Esterina in off-topic ways. I am aware this is quite blunt of me, but I felt like since we're all being honest with each other, might as well say that. That in mind, you have no need to apologize. It's a forum centered on tulpa experiences. It would be wrong to just bar you out for being that way. I also had a tulpa (or well, feels different...) without doing much, if any forcing at all, I suppose that you were simply so excited and happy about your virtues that you sought that sort of fulfillment. You wanted to talk about it. It means you're an empathetic person. Oh, oh, and you did not get lucky. I would say you are very far from luck. As someone who believes that the equivalent of good things is compensated in efforts later on in time, I would say that, since you have had such a tough time in the past, it's only fair to have that big amount of compensation. Oh, and I want to be a bit more... blunt, if I may. [hidden] Sometimes, I would just like to make you sit down and ask you 'What do you know? You've been in this for a few months. You are unaware of what good and evil can come out of this'. The way you speak about things, and while stating that it is none of your intention, you make it seem like you're miles ahead of people who spent years, and years in this practice, while you have a few months experience. I tend to be someone who believes that miraculous things can happen within the mind, but the duration they may last for, and the things they accomplish in a specified while, are more important than the sole capacity. This is bigger than anyone else. Guides are written. People think they can control tulpas and specify their likes and dislikes... This is not specifically 100% aimed at you, either. I apologize.[/hidden]
  20. An essential rule of tulpamancy is that tulpas live with the host's attention as fuel. Tulpas require attention, on both the emotional and focus level, from the host, in order to live on and live well. At least, that goes for young tulpas more than developed ones. Tulpamancy tends to be somewhat like riding a bicycle: it's hard to forget, but you may have an accident in which you temporarily lose the capacity. The accident, in your case, is that lack of attention, and potentially motivation. A tulpa's energy dips down with the host's lack of care, at first. Things tend to get better when the tulpa grows up, but considering they gained sentience in Nov, it hasn't been that much of a while. What you could do is force. I am not too educated on tulpas formed without any knowledge (and regard my own case as something more complex than 'walk-in'), but what you could essentially do is that you could practice passive forcing. Engaging conversations, narrating to your tulpas and calling them by name. In the end, though, you need to think; is this a good, or bad thing? Do you want tulpas you cannot care for?
  21. Interesting thread. Dimitrov is a culinary fanatic. He can taste what I taste, and even bring some advice to the table. 'Needs a pinch of salt.' 'Bad mix, sir.' 'You didn't heat it enough!'. He tends to provide the best type of advice, and gets VERY upset if you put cold food with hot food. He eve got hurt for days after I pulled that over him (it was cold rice with something else...). It's probably the thing he gets hurt over the most. Bad food upsets him a lot, he tends to get very verbal in my mind if someone does a bad dish, and tosses a lot of insults despite being mature. I suppose the child in him loves good food. It's funny to see him whine about bad food, though. When switched in... bloke's a culinary prodigy. He just KNOWS what to do. Blak, on the other hand, only cares about food when it's, and I quote "yummy, or nothing.". Fun stuff. She can also taste what I eat, and has very poor esteem of food, despite having amazing dishes that make Dimitrov drool over the place, she will content herself by saying "It's fine. Thanks for the food, was good.".
  22. I suppose that you could probably fill in most of the questions. It is non-vocal tulpa friendly if you're simply asking for my opinion, so go ahead! To everyone else: I am deeply grateful for your submissions. You are truly helping us out in our quests, and for that, we thank you. All of us. Would like to get more submissions (even though we are really satisfied with the ones we have already, Blak even snickered at some responses to the last question), so... don't be shy! :)
  23. Ah. I am sorry. Experience their own.
  24. Yes. I have the capacity to dream with my tulpas with certainty of their actions. They don't tend to do random things, we just explore things, and do things we usually do in real life. (Paperwork, studies, listening to Dimitrov's favorite classical music...) They always look the same. Well, the girl I have tends to switch up forms (and likes to dress up as a PI...) often, but Dimitrov acts as the main... character more than often. Always a good time. When I do dream with Blak exclusively, things tend to get messy. Emotions are thrown here and there, and things she would never say come out of her mouth, only to find out that those things were something she was trying to hide. I don't tend to talk about her often, but she plays as much of an important role in my life as Dimitrov. Dimitrov is the voice of ration, and Blak is the voice of... humanity, emotions and the likes. I've always been divided as a person, but they help me... I'm glad for that. Dreams are very important to us. We're pretty close to reality, but we can dream with each other, and empathize more than in real life. We have a very strict schedule for sleep to ensure that happening.